Sinful Touch : A Dark Professor Romance

15. Jaxon

Inever wanted to go to this stupid book signing, but it is a part of who I am, and my agent isn”t scared to remind me that it is also a part of my contract. I used to care about the contract, what others thought of me, and the image I was trying to create as an author, but now, because of Lil, I don”t care about those things anymore.

I dont care about the contract or pleasing other women, the only thing that is on my mind all the fucking time is Liliana, she has taken me over, and she continues to fucking drown me in the best possible way. As an author, I should be able to say the right words, but I can’t. I can’t find the right words to explain how she makes me feel, all I know is that I can never let her go, I will do anything to keep her by my side, even if that means ripping up the contract and starting over with her.

I would and will do it if she asks me to.

The only good thing about this whole damn event is that I invited Lil to come with me, I wanted her to show up with me, but she has some homework she wanted to get done first for her other classes. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t jealous that she is working on papers other than the one I assigned her. I want to consume her and take her over in the same way that she has taken me over.

I want her to live for me, with me forever. I want to tell her to her face that I love her, but I don”t think she would believe me, at least not yet. I need to prove to her that she is different from all the women before her. I can see in her eyes that she is wondering about the others, but that is the thing. There has been no one like her in my life before. I have never broken the rules for anyone.

I have been strictly black-and-white thinking when it has come to my sexual relationships, but now she has fucked it all up there are so many fucking colors now I have lost track, and half the time I have no fucking idea what to do or say to her.

Seeing her sit in my class and hang onto every word and not fucking touch her is becoming harder and harder for me. It is fucking hard to act as if she is just another one of my students because she is now the most important person in my life.

Our relationship is fucking taboo in every sense of the fucking word, and until she tells me she is ready to go public, we will keep our affair a secret, even though every boy that lays his eyes on her I want to rip out of their head, I have to stop myself. I have to remind myself that she has to be the one to make the first move with things.

This is all about her, and it will always be about her. I come second, and she will always fucking come first.

I take in a deep breath as I walk in through the back door of Barnes and Noble. This is one of the biggest Barnes and Noble in the world, and I am honored to be here, but this time, it is different. This time, I feel odd not having Lil here with me. I want her by my side. She might not be ready to tell the world about us, but I still want her by my side nonetheless.

These events use to be fun, I enjoyed them and talking to my fans, but this time all of this is getting in my way of being with Lil and I don”t fucking like it.

My agent walks beside me as I stop and look into the wide-open store. There are tons of people in line, standing behind the red rope.

“Fox, they are all here to see you, buddy. You should be happy, a room filled with girls.”

Normally, I would be happy, but now I have changed. They don”t know it, but they will soon enough.

I lean against the door frame and cross my arms over my chest, my agent takes a few steps in front of me and motions over for the first set of girls to come past the rope.

For fuck sake.

Three girls stop before me, reaching out their hands with my book. I take each book and open to the first page, I quickly sign and give them each their book back.

I nod, and they smile.

I take another deep breath while waiting for the next set of girls to stop before me. One of the girls catches my attention for a second as I take her book. All these girls are reminding me of one thing, I was a fucking asshole that tried to get lost in sex with as many women as I could before I met Lil. But now I can only think how I wish she were the one standing before me.

I take the books from them and start to sign one of the girls leans in her hand, now resting on my lower back

“Jaxon, I think I need what only you can give me, honey,” She whispers; the fuck? How the fuck did that line ever fucking work on me.

“It”s not going to happen,” I say calmly as I sign the last book and hand it back to all three of them. I turn and look down at the girl, the warmth from her hand now soaking through the back of my shirt.

I lean down and rest my lips against her ear. “Get your hand off of me,” I say through gritted teeth.

I pull back and look into her eyes, I can see the hurt in her eyes, but I don”t fucking care.

The hurt quickly turns into rage and desire, for fuck sake. “Don”t play games with me, Jaxon; you know you want me,” She says in a low, dark voice.

“No, really, I don”t,” I snap back.

She chuckles and shakes her head, before I can move back she grabs the back of my head and pulls me down smashing her lips to mine.

I quickly pull back and glare at her “What the fuck was that.” I say, feeling my blood start to boil; it seems this fucking chick has forgotten who the fuck I am.

“You just need to remember,” She says softly.

“Remember what?” I ask, not being able to hide my anger.

“That I am yours,” She says with pride.

“I don”t want you,” I say as I stand up straight. She stands still next to me as I turn and look at the next few girls in line. My heart stops as I see Liliana, the next girl in line, holding a big stack of my books in her arms.

Her eyes are locked on the girl as I take several steps forward. I stop in front of her, and her eyes now stop on me. I can see the tears building up in her eyes.

I don”t know what she saw, but I know what she thinks is wrong.

“Darlin, please,” I start to beg, but she drops her books at my feet, and without saying a word, she lifts her hand and slaps me across the face.

The sting makes my eyes water as I keep them on her.

“Am I just a game to you, Jaxon?” She asks in a pain-filled voice, making my heart ache.

“What? No. Lil,” I say, shaking my head.

She shakes her head and allows the tears to roll down her face, her eyes break from mine and I don”t need to turn around to know she is looking at the girl.

I feel her hand on my lower back again.

Fuck.

“He is already taken, sweetheart; maybe next time,” The girl snaps at Lil.

She doesn’t say a word, but she backs up, turns around, and pushes her way through the crowd of girls waiting for me to sign their books.

“Liliana!” I yell after her, but the girl and my agent both grab one of my arms, keeping me in place

“You can’t leave until you sign the books, Jaxon, you know that,” He says, trying to remind me of something I already fucking know and can give two shits about.

I watch as Lil disappears into the crowd of girls, my heart sinks as she runs out of the store.

Fuck, Fuck.

I rip my arms from both of them and start to push my way through the crowd.

Liliana has to know it wasn’t what it looked like. I would never fucking do that to her, but right now, I don”t think she will believe my words, so my behavior will need to be enough to convince her.