Sinful Touch : A Dark Professor Romance

41. Jaxon

Isit back in the chair; my heart is racing since they let me out. They made it clear that I was to come straight to the parole office and meet with my new PO.

I watch the man sitting directly across from me. He is looking at my file on the computer. He hasn’t said much since he brought me back here.

“No weapons,” He says calmly.

“Not a problem,” I say back just as calmly.

“No drugs,” He says, still looking at the screen.

“I don”t use it anyway,” I confess to him.

Drugs have never been my thing, and I can live without alcohol.

The man turns and looks at me. “No fights, no violence,” he says in a stern tone.

I nod. “Okay.”

There was and is only one person that I would become violent with, and he is in prison. As long as he stays there, I will be able to keep myself in check.

“I have read your file and what happened. I am sorry,” He says in a low voice.

I have had a lot of people tell me that they are sorry for what happened to Lil. I know they are just trying to be kind, but them saying they are sorry and them looking at me right now the way he is with guilt and shame and pity in their eyes doesn’t change the fact that she almost died because of a boy that couldn’t fucking let it go. It doesn’t change the fact that a boy wanted her so fucking badly he was willing to kill her and me to get what he wanted.

Nothing anyone says will take back what has happened and now what she has to live through every single day.

“Yeah, me too,” I say back because I don”t know what else to say to him right now.

The man sits back in his seat and looks me over.

“Would you change anything you did?” He asks me in a curious voice.

I know what he wants me to say, he wants me to say that I regret what I did, but that would be a lie, and I don”t fucking lie.

“Yes, I would change the fact that I let the fucker live after what he did to my girlfriend,” I confess with no remorse in my tone.

“Seriously, Fox,” He asks, his eyes rapidly searching mine.

Maybe he is not used to his people being honest, but I am an honest man. I might not be a good man, but I am honest to a fucking fault.

“Yes, seriously,” I confess again.

He takes in a deep breath and shakes his head. I can tell he wants to smile because of my honesty but won’t let himself.

“Just stay sober, stay out of trouble, and check in with me, and this will go by fast for you, okay?” He says, looking at me. I can tell he works long hours, and I can guess that normally, he has to chase his people around to keep them in line. He won’t have to do that shit with me. I have no intention of fucking shit up and going back to prison.

No, in fact, I plan on building a life with Lil, and I can’t do that behind bars.

“Sounds good,” I say softly.

“I know that you tour a lot for your books,” He says, watching me.

“I don”t think that will be happening anytime soon,” I say as calmly as possible. Even when I was in prison, my agent used what happened to get my name out there even more. I used to want all of this: being famous, the money, cars, and women, but now there is only one thing, one person that is important to me, and that is Lil. Nothing else matters, and I can survive without any of that shit.

“Well, when it does, put in for the crossing over state lines, and I will sign off on it for you.” He confirms.

“Thank you.”

“I am not here to be a pain in your ass Fox. My goal is to keep you out of prison and for you to get off of paper,” He states as if he is saying something he has said over and over again to different people.

“Sounds like a good plan.”

The man grabs one of his cards and slides it over the table “If you need me, call me.”

I nod, grab the card, and slowly stand up.

“Is she doing okay?” He asks, looking at me.

“As okay as she can be,” I say in a low shaky voice.

“You”re a good man, Fox,” He says confidently.

“No I’m not, but thank you for saying it anyway,” I say to him, his eyes look confused by my answer, but like I said I don”t lie. I would be lying if I said I was a good man, I am not, I am selfish, possessive, jealous, and controlling. I became obsessed with a woman who was my student. I am not a good man, but Lil is showing me how to become one. I am still a work in progress, though.

He nods, and I turn, making my way out of his office.

I plead guilty to the charge because I was guilty and I don”t regret what I did to Chad, the only thing I regret is that he is still alive. If I could have done it differently, I probably would have killed him, but right now, at this moment, I am glad I didn’t. If I had, I wouldn’t be out right now, and if I had, I would never get to hold Lil again, and that is not something I could have lived with.

Chad will suffer for the rest of his life for what he has done; I will ensure that.