Chapter 5
Lilly,
It’s taken more attempts than I could count to write this letter. I don’t even know why I’m doing it now. I’m never going to send it. You’ve made it abundantly clear that you don’t want to talk to me. I guess I thought this would be the best way to share my thoughts without going insane.
Because that’s how I feel right now. Like I’m going insane.
We had all these plans after graduation. It wasn’t going to be easy. I know that. Going to different colleges wasn’t what we wanted. The distance alone would’ve sucked, but we’d made a plan to see each other as often as possible, and I thought we were both prepared for the difficulties ahead.
Instead, you just left. Without a single word to me.
You were my forever, but maybe I wasn’t yours.
I think that will be the hardest part to get over.
All my love,
N