Chapter Thirty
Mitch
I found all the heavy emotion in the air hard to cope with after so many years of none at all, so I appreciated the time apart to process my feelings.
I’d told Leo I loved him and admitting how I felt should have driven me to my knees. Telling him meant I’d moved on, and the idea terrified me to think about, but I couldn’t deny my feelings for him, especially after how much it hurt when I’d thought he’d betrayed me. The pain spearing my chest had been so severe I suspected I might be having a coronary, which should have been a sign right there. It took hearing Gabe and Leo declaring their love for each other for me to realize the reason why he’d hurt me so badly. I loved Leo too.
And saying the words had felt so right, like a key turning in a lock. My heart opened wide, and having Leo reside there felt incredible. Telling him I loved him had also cracked open the door to the most guarded room in my heart, the one I’d been determined to keep locked and chained shut, denying me entry.
The pain of losing Katie.
I’d never faced her death head-on, never needed to. But if I expected to have any type of relationship with Leo and, hopefully, Gabe, I needed to open the door wide and let all the hurt and pain come flooding out. I only hoped I didn’t drown when it did.
“Christmas tree.”
Huh .
I twisted around to find Gabe behind me. I’d been so lost in my head I hadn’t heard him approach. He’d switched clothes into sweatpants and a T-shirt when he’d returned from the lake, turning into a mini version of me.
He rolled his eyes and let out a long-suffering sigh knowing exactly where my mind had gone. “Yeah, yeah, whatever.”
He’d changed a lot since he’d first arrived—we both had—but I was finally discovering the version of Gabe very few people got to see. His cockiness and arrogance, forever lurking under the surface, were mostly gone, replaced by an amazing, caring, and compassionate guy. I wasn’t sure what shocked me the most, him allowing me beneath his armor in the first place or me actually liking being there.
What he’d said to Leo was true. We weren’t quite close enough yet to make any declarations of love, but with each moment we spent together, the tug on my heart became more insistent. We still had a way to go, but I had every confidence we’d get there.
He must have spoken again, but I’d been too lost in looking at his handsome face and his beautiful lips to hear him. When he kissed me, the sensation went right into my bones. He demanded. He took. He forced me to reciprocate, to take from him in return. It was a delicious tug of war and whatever the outcome, we both won in the end.
It was the same with his heart. I continued to fight, kept battling for him to hand it over, the same way he battled for mine, and neither of us were quite ready to concede.
He slapped me on the arm. “What?” I asked grumpily.
“Christmas tree.” He enunciated, slow and deliberate. “You don’t have one.”
I didn’t, no. And I hadn’t since my wife had died. I didn’t see the point in celebrating the holidays if I had no one around to celebrate them with.
“And.”
“Leo wants one.”
“Not only me.” His indignant voice carried from the other room. “You want one too.”
I raised my eyebrow at Gabe, who simply shrugged, aiming for noncommittal but unable to hide the excitement in his eyes.
“Okay, so we want a tree. Better?” he shouted at Leo.
“Much.”
He rolled his eyes. “So?”
“So?” I replied.
“Is that okay?” he asked softly. “If it’s not—”
“No,” I answered, maybe too forcefully if the way Gabe’s eyes widened at me was any indication. “No,” I repeated, more gently. “A Christmas tree sounds good.”
His face lit up with happiness and he let out a whoop of joy. “Really?”
“Yes, really.”
“So, tomorrow we can go cut one down?”
“Yep.”
“Can we…um…can we use your lights and stuff?”
I hadn’t planned that far ahead to seeing what the tree decorated in the lights and baubles Katie had picked out would do to me. “Sure,” I answered, my voice uneven. “Once we have the tree, I’ll go get them out of the barn.”
Gabe looked at me intently, his eyes such a clear window on his thoughts, I wondered how I had ever missed seeing them. “We don’t have to if that’s asking too much. We’d both understand.” He opened his arms, and I stepped forward into them, feeling a bit weird at first, as I’m usually the one doing the cuddling, rather than the one being cuddled. But as his arms encircled my waist, sliding up under my T-shirt to stroke my skin, I welcomed being able to lean on him and relax into the sanctuary he offered.
“It’s okay.” I nuzzled into his neck, inhaling the scent of my fabric softener and pine shower gel. The reminder he was wrapped up in my clothes, the material touching his bare skin, sent sparks shooting straight to my cock. Why did I love him wearing my clothes so damn much? Whatever the reason, the sight of him turned me the fuck on.
“I’m thinking you like the idea.” Gabe’s voice whispered in my ear as he rocked his body forward to push his abs against my hard-on.”
“I like the idea of you.”
“Hmmm, me too.”
“We’re never gonna eat; you know that, right?”
He bit down on my earlobe, sending a shiver down my spine. “Food’s overrated anyway. Why eat food when I can eat you?”
Fuck , what the man did to me. When he pressed his body against mine, his thick length nudging my thigh, he was impossible to resist, and I was fast becoming putty in his hands.
His hands dropped to the waistband of my sweats and slipped beneath, ducking underneath my briefs and over my ass, his fingers sliding down my crease making me arch into his touch and moan out in need.
“I knew I’d love feeling up your bare ass,” Gabe husked. “So damn full and sexy.”
“I need to fuck you,” I groaned as Gabe continued his exploration, sliding between my butt cheeks to run his finger over the sensitive circle of skin surrounding my hole.
“You’ve already done that,” he replied, his voice a purr. “Now we’re gonna return the favor.”
A shudder rippled over my body. Holy shit. My pulse surged sky high at the image of Gabe sliding his cock inside me. I’d never entertained the idea of getting fucked, but this was Leo and Gabe I was talking about, not some strangers, and I trusted them not to hurt me. Plus, I wanted to be fully in this with them, which meant experiencing every aspect of making love, not only one or two parts.
I shuddered again as he expertly played with my pucker, the sensitive skin eagerly responding to his expert touch, clenching tightly when the tip of his fingers dragged across my entrance.
It felt fucking amazing.
Gabe’s deep chuckle added to the sensations coming alive in my body. His lips taunted my neck with featherlight kisses, his tongue leaving a hot wet trail down the corded muscle as he reached the juncture of my shoulder. Another swipe of his tongue and a stinging bite into the soft flesh at the same time the tip of his finger pushed against me and slipped inside, had me releasing a needy groan as my whole body shook and my legs turned to jelly.
Gabe gave me a sultry look, his face pure sin. “Bedroom,” he ordered, pulling away. I moaned unhappily, and he laughed, deep and throaty. Taking my hand, I let him direct me through the cabin, uncaring where he led me, since I’d have followed him anywhere he wanted to go as long as he continued to touch me. Anywhere. It didn’t matter, as long as we were connected.
“Leo,” he barked, and the command in his voice made my dick throb so damn hard.
Leo glanced at us and immediately stood, scrambling to his feet to follow along behind us.
Only when we were all in the bedroom moments later did Gabe release my hand. He turned, rapidly discarding his T-shirt, displaying the deep tan of his skin, and all of his sleek torso. The defined muscles of his chest and shoulders tapered down to way too many abs to count, ending at his slim waist. With no preamble, he speedily pushed down his sweatpants and briefs, taking his socks with them, and when he stood, both Leo and I groaned our appreciation of his naked body.
His dick, thick and long, leaked precum, and I automatically licked my lips, my mouth watering at getting to taste him again. Taking himself in hand, he jerked his cock a few times, sliding up and down his full length, slow and easy, his biceps thickening as he pumped himself.
“Strip,” he demanded, and strip we did. Ripping off our clothes with no finesse whatsoever until the three of us stood, naked and ready.
“Take a seat,” he stated, motioning for me to sit down. “On the edge of the bed, knees apart.” My legs shook as I complied, and how I managed to not collapse on the mattress remained a complete mystery, my body quivering and juddering as I did so, desperate to be touched. Leo had followed behind me, and when he dropped to his haunches in front of me, the quivering intensified.
“So sexy,” Leo growled as his hand wrapped around the base of my shaft. “And so mine.”
My heart rate and anticipation of what was to come were already through the roof, and he’d barely touched me. The possessiveness in Leo’s tone, the surety in his eyes, completely undid me and was the only stimulus I needed. Clenching my jaw and tensing my body failed to prevent the climax rushing from deep in my balls. I gasped loudly when Leo ruthlessly stopped my pleasure in its tracks, his expert fingers gripping me like a vise, commanding me to rein my body in, my legs trembling violently as my orgasm retreated. He kept me there, right on the edge, his grip strong, waiting until I regained a modicum of control.
“You don’t get to come unless we say so,” he rasped, and the deep guttural moan I let out in response to his order was unlike any sound I’d ever made. He’d taken charge the last time we had sex and continued to do so this time around. The difference was such a contrast to how he acted outside the bedroom, I failed to wrap my head around it. But with him giving the orders, turning me on like crazy, I didn’t want to.
Gabe hovered over me, his fingers carding through my hair, grasping tight, pulling my head back. His face a whisper away from mine, he closed the gap between us as he took my mouth in a savage kiss. His lips ground down on mine, demanding I open to him. His tongue surged into my mouth, licking, tangling with my own, all fire and passion and possession. He may not have admitted out loud he loved me, but he was certainly making his intensions crystal clear with every touch and every kiss.
He swallowed my moan as Leo’s tongue licked up my cock, his lips massaging the length of my shaft right up to the head. As I slid inside his wet mouth, he pulled back my sheath to reveal my swollen head, his tongue immediately lapping my slit, his lips wrapped around my crown, as he sucked me down.
His hand continued to grip me at the base, sensing I wouldn’t last if he didn’t. The sensation becoming almost unbearable as every nerve in my body heightened, my brain alternating between trying to focus on Gabe’s kisses and Leo’s sucking.
Leo won when he raised himself on his knees and swallowed me whole, my cock sliding over his tongue and down his hot, wet throat. He repeated the move again and again, his throat working me, his cheeks hollowing out on the upward motion. When his fingers slid lower to massage my taint and graze my hole, giving me a teaser of the pleasure to follow, nothing was going to prevent me from coming this time.
Ripping my mouth off Gabe’s, needing the air, I shoved my cock as far as possible into Leo’s mouth, and even with his fingers wrapped around my shaft and balls, I couldn’t stop the orgasm thundering through my body. My cock swelled in his fist and began to shoot hard in his mouth. He swallowed me down over and over as my seemingly inexhaustible supply of sperm ejaculated from deep in my balls.
Leo didn’t let up his hold, forcing me to push against his tight throat and fist if I wanted to keep shooting, making my climax more potent, more intense. Finally, he released me and pulled his mouth off as more of my spunk shot over his hand and over my belly, coating the hairs on my stomach, the creamy white liquid dripping between them to land on my skin.
Flopping onto the sheets, eyes closed, chest heaving, I thought my lungs had somehow forgotten how to work. My vision blacked out during my epic release, and my surroundings were only now coming into focus with gray spots still spinning in front of my eyes.
The colder air in the room feathered over my sweaty body, chilling my skin, cooling me down. Movement above me signified Gabe’s return, his mouth covering mine as he took his fill, prolonging the exquisite aftershocks zinging through me.
“And we’ve only just begun,” he husked, the sound like silk trailing over my sensitive skin, creating goose bumps all over my body. Managing to pry open my eyes, I stared up into jade green.
“Just begun? Fuck, that was…”
His seductive chuckle made my dick twitch while Leo’s hand continued to gently milk the last remnants of cum from my spent cock, his tongue lapping at me, sending more tingles through my system. Every part of me was ultrasensitive, feeling the rough cotton of the sheets beneath me, Gabe’s breath fluttering over my skin and Leo’s capable fingers gliding over my cock and his mouth—fuck, his mouth—sucking tenderly on my head.
How on earth could what we’ve done get any better?
“Scoot up on the bed and turn on your front,” Gabe said. “It’s my turn.”
I guess I was about to find out exactly how much better it would be.
Flipping over and crawling up the bed, I settled in the middle and peered over my shoulder at the two men staring down at me, their eyes roving over my body like hungry wolves. I’d never been under such intense scrutiny before and felt unusually self-conscious about what they saw.
Years of working with the horses and on the cabins and barns had kept me exceptionally fit and muscular. It was just…my ass. It was too big, and well, fleshy, and the way they were both hungrily eyeing me up had me flushing with embarrassment.
“Fucking beautiful,” Leo murmured, and the deepness of his tone, the raw desire in his voice made my flaccid cock take notice. All my life I’d been a one and done kind of guy, but around these two, my dick remained semi-hard all the time, and didn’t take much to get rock solid and raring to go. I’d only come moments before, but already my cock wanted another round, filling and swelling in the sheets underneath me.
“Hmmm.” Gabe’s low groan of pleasure and him hungrily staring at my butt cheeks, had my temperature spiking. “So big and round, so goddamn delicious.”
One on either side of me, they both crawled on to the bed and each concentrated on one of my legs, kissing along my calf. Soft butterfly kisses alternated with their tongues and teeth, forcing me to grab the pillow and hold on tight. Apparently, the backs of my legs were an erogenous zone, and I never knew it. Their continuing torment had me writhing under their expert touch, and the moan crawling up my throat broke free when they reached the top of my thighs and began licking and biting my ass.
“Please,” I whimpered, needing something, anything, to satisfy the ache in my cock as I humped the bedclothes. Two pairs of hands smoothed over my heated skin, parting my cheeks, their breaths hot and heavy as they trailed kisses ever closer and then, then…
“Fuck, fuck.” Without thinking, I pushed my ass back as two slick tongues took turns to glide over my hole, one working from the top, the other from below. Nipping me with their teeth, pulling gently at the hairs lining my crease until I was a whimpering mess. God, I never wanted them to stop.
No one had ever done to me what they were doing now, and the new sensations rippling along my spine were overwhelming in their intensity. Unable to prevent myself, I lifted onto my knees, needing to give them full access so they’d continue whatever they were doing.
Gabe’s dirty chuckle made his breath tickle my skin. “Someone’s enjoying themselves.”
Normally I’d have a quick retort, but my brain had currently short-circuited, as first one and then a second solid tongue speared at my ring, flicking the opening and then licking me, pushing in deeper.
“God, more. Please don’t stop,” I whined, begged even, but I didn’t care. If they only did this, I’d forever be the happiest guy alive. I got my wish when they upped their game and rimmed me to within an inch of my life. They didn’t touch my cock or balls, instead focusing on giving me maximum pleasure in the one highly sensitive area.
A click behind me made me jump, and a second later, cool liquid drizzled down my crack and spread around my ring, replacing their hot tongues. I shivered and my ass clenched when a warm finger began to massage the area, gliding around and around the rim, the sensation almost too much for my overly stimulated sphincter to take.
Sweat beaded my forehead and along my spine as one of them—Leo, I think—gently, and with great care, pushed his finger into my ass. He didn’t go too far before pulling out again, each return glide deeper than the last until he soon reached the second knuckle. Having him inside me was the strangest feeling, a slight discomfort more than anything, but the longer he kept fingering me, the more I began to crave it.
“Feels good,” I ground out as I began to drown in pleasure. Another finger joined Leo’s and I guessed Gabe had begun penetrating me in the same way Leo and I had done to him, the pleasure steadily growing as they worked me open. One of them hooked their finger, hitting something inside me and holy fucking hell. Electricity sizzled along my nerve endings filling my entire body. My nipples hardened painfully, and my cock jerked like I was coming, as both their fingers took turns grazing over what I assumed was my prostate.
“Oh my god, what the… Please, I can’t, please,” I babbled, but what they were doing felt so fucking incredible I couldn’t form any coherent sentences. After sending me into a frenzy again and again, their fingers suddenly disappeared. “No.” My shout came out hoarse and needy and desperate.
Gabe’s hand slid up my back. “Easy,” he crooned, “we’re just getting ourselves ready.”
Lifting my head and looking over my shoulder, I watched as Leo poured lube in their palms and used the clear liquid to slick up their shafts. They weren’t small guys, but staring at how hard they were, how solid and so damn enormous-looking, apprehension began to trickle along my veins.
“We’ll go slow.” Leo assured me, reading my mind. “If there’s anything you don’t like, or if you change your mind and want us to stop at any point, let us know, okay?”
I bobbed my head a few times, not sure I’d actually get the words out as he shuffled forward between my legs.
Fuck.
His cool hands stroking my ass felt amazing on my heated skin, but as he lined himself up, his head notching at my hole, my nerves kicked up dramatically, and my heart beat like crazy in my chest.
As if sensing my apprehension, Gabe crawled up beside me. “Let me in,” he urged gently. I moved my arms and legs, allowing him to slip under my body until he lay beneath me, face-to-face.
“Breathe,” he told me, so I did. His hands slid around my neck as he drew my face down into a drugging kiss while at the same time, Leo pushed against my hole. I automatically clenched, keeping him out. “Bear down,” Gabe continued his instruction and when I did, Leo increased the pressure and eventually slid inside an inch or so as my muscles gave.
“Yow!” I let out. Christ, that hurt. Leo stopped immediately and went to pull out, but I didn’t want to give up so easily. “It was a surprise, is all,” I panted. “Please don’t stop.”
“You sure?”
I nodded. He pulled out a little before again pressing inside, my body taking more of him this time. My hole stretched wide around his girth, but despite the sting and burn, the movement began to feel better and better with every lubricated glide until I gasped in surprise when on the fifth or sixth pass, his balls rested against my ass.
“So tight,” Leo groaned as his hips flexed and tried to push in deeper. He stayed where he was, buried within me until the lingering pain dissipated and I relaxed some more. “Good?” he asked me.
“Good,” I managed, still trying to get accustomed to the sensation of being so utterly full.
“Need to move,” he said, his voice ragged, but he remained still, waiting for my consent, which I eagerly gave. I needed him to move too.
The first slow withdrawal had me groaning deeply, the feeling so damn good, and when he slid back inside, the drag of his thick shaft along my inner walls had me groaning louder. Now every time he retreated, I waited breathlessly for him to fill me up again, and once I got used to the action, he picked up the pace, pumping in and out until I didn’t recognize the sounds falling from my own mouth. Deep, needy groans and whimpers getting louder and more insistent as the pressure in my body began to build. Gabe dropped kisses along my neck at the same time his fingertips rubbed over my hard nipples, tweaking them, moving to my pecs, and dragging his blunt nails through the hair along my chest.
Leo tapped my ass. “Leg up,” he murmured, his voice strained. I complied and the slight change in his angle was enough for pleasure to zap all over my body. Where I found his finger on my prostate to be intense, his cock grazing over the sensitive nub was off the charts.
“Leo,” I shouted, as wave after wave of pleasure ricocheted around my body and along my limbs. He didn’t stop, gradually increasing his pace until almost too much sensation cascaded through my every cell. Overloaded with more pleasure than my scrambled brain could take, I incoherently garbled words encouraging him to keep fucking me, to not stop, never stop.
“So close,” he moaned as his movements became jerky, and with a final deep punch of his hips, I felt him swell inside me, and my inner walls were coated with copious amounts of his sticky cum, his cock pulsing deep, filling me with his release. Our joining blew me apart at how close and connected we were in that moment.
I was so on edge with need, still wanting something so badly but unable to describe it. My nerves taut, my skin stretched too tight, my body still unsated.
I wasn't done.
I needed more.
I needed Gabe.
“Gabe,” I whispered against his lips. He captured my mouth in a final hard, rough kiss before shimmying out from under me and climbing off the bed. He took Leo’s place when he withdrew, and after adding more lube to himself, immediately slid his own hard dick inside me. He was thicker and an inch or so longer than Leo, but he slipped in easy, the lube, Leo’s cum, and my stretched opening providing a smoother glide. It still didn’t stop the sensations firing through my body from being any less mind-blowing, any less intense.
Once he’d bottomed out, he didn’t wait for me to adjust to his thick length before pulling fully out and slamming right back in. I grunted loudly, each deep thrust making me see stars, loving how Gabe took his own pleasure while still ensuring I got mine. Moments later, his strong hands gripped my hips, hardly giving me enough time to brace myself before he began to pound my ass with all he had.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck,” I shouted as he set a savage pace, knowing I’d take the battering after Leo had loosened me up. His merciless dick hammered at my hole, his fingers digging deep into my flesh, holding me firmly in place.
“I knew you’d feel spectacular wrapped around my dick,” he growled. “I fucking knew it. Jesus, I can’t get enough.”
He rocked his hips and hit my prostate time and again with every hard thrust, pushing me ever closer to the edge. My balls tightened as my body tensed up, clamping hard around his shaft, and when Gabe growled loudly behind me, I lost any hope of lasting longer. Moaning incoherently, I shot over the cotton sheets as Gabe rode my ass, fucking more and more cum out of me as my brain exploded and my body ignited from being so expertly and thoroughly used.
Gabe roared as he came, coating my slick channel, setting off deep convulsive aftershocks, each one detonating in my brain, squeezing more pleasure from my body, more cum from my cock until there was nothing left to give. Slowing his hips, he eased himself out, and without his hands supporting me, my wobbly legs gave out, no longer able to hold themselves up. I collapsed on the bed, ignoring the fact I lay in a pool of my own cum, too tired and sated to care.
“Wow,” Leo spoke. “Such a fucking turn-on.” Angling my head to the side to look at him, he leisurely stroked his dick, cum covering his fingers where he’d jacked off watching us fuck.
Gabe flopped down beside me with the biggest, smuggest grin on his face, making me smile, too, and my heart swell to bursting. “I love you,” I murmured, no longer able to withhold my feelings for him. Having him inside my body, so intimately connected and emotionally attached, had changed everything. He’d broken through the last of my walls and I had no defenses left in my heart against him.
“Thank you,” he replied, his hand reaching for my face, stroking my sweat-covered skin.
I didn’t expect him to say the words in return because I understood it wasn’t the same for him. He had things to work through, as did I, but I’d never felt emotions so earth-shattering, so life-changing, even with my wife. Whether that was due to the act being so intimate, giving me nowhere to hide my feelings, or him leaving a part of himself behind when he came, I had no clue. Regardless, Gabe had every part of me, and I was completely and utterly his.