Chapter 103- The Emptiness
“ Here take this," the nurse said as she handed me a pregnancy test tube but I shook my head.
“ I'm not pregnant, I'm just depressed and sad that's why my stomach is reacting this way, besides we always use protection,"
" Miss Frederick you do realize that there's always a chance that someone is likely to get pregnant even if they use protection, these things don't always work,” she said as she handed it to me and I just looked at the tube.
What if I'm actually pregnant? What will I do? We have talked about having three kids, talked about raising a family but now all that were lies.
“Just to be sure Anna, do the test," Bella said as I turned to her and she nodded in encouragement.
I stood up as I slowly walked to the toilet then I peed into a small container before I used the dipstick to put my pee on the test tube and then I waited with held breath as my hands became clammy and my heartbeat increased.
My eyes looked everywhere in the bathroom but at the test tube. I knew it was time to decide my fate so I slowly looked at the test and I gasped in shock as I moved back.
“No, it can't be, I can't be pregnant,” I whispered but the result was right in front of me, a confirmation that I was indeed pregnant.
I took the tube as I walked out of the bathroom, walking slowly to the bed as I climbed on it and the nurse and Bella just watched me.
“ I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant, Bella, what am I going to do?"
“ I'll leave you guys alone, call me if you need anything," the nurse said before walking out of the room.
“ You're going to love this child with everything that you have, we are going to love this child, who needs a dad when there's going to be a super gorgeous aunty?” she said and I couldn't help but smile. I felt happy and sad at the same time.
The fact that I was having his baby made me happy but the fact that this baby was made based on lies made me sad. He'll never find out about this baby.
“ I'm scared Bella, what if he finds out and tries to take my baby away," I said and my hand protectively wrapped around my stomach.
“ He's not going to find out, we won't let that happen," she said in determination.
" Yes, that's why we must leave, we have to leave, we have to leave this place.”
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“ So you're really going to marry Mirabel after all?" Nathan said as he joined me on the couch where I was seated like a helpless man.
“ I'm just wondering what your father must have told you to make you accept because I know how deeply you love Anna, you were ready to do anything just to be with her, the sudden change is suspicious.” He said and I just sighed.
I couldn't tell anyone why. I couldn't.
“ Let's not talk about it, I just want everything to be done with, I'm really not in the mood to talk about what I lost because the only thing I feel inside me is pain, an unexplainable pain," I said as I rubbed my chest for emphasis.
“ I know I can't take away your pain but I can understand what you're going through, believe me when I say with time it'd just be a dull ache, you won't feel it that much, it'd be there but not as painful as now. But beware that that type of pain never goes away so easily. You'd try your best but every little thing would make you remember her,” he said and I raised a brow at him.
" Did playboy Nathan get his heart broken before?” I asked and he chuckled trying to hide behind the pain I caught in his eyes.
" It was a long time ago, it doesn't even matter anymore," he said,
“ But you're still hurt, you still think about her," I said and he just shrugged.
“ Some of us aren't meant to experience happy endings so we take what we're given."
Happy ending? Was I a fool to think that I deserve a happy ending with Anna? I wanted so much, and dreamt of so much. We were already planning a family.
I wonder how she's doing, is she okay? I hope she's not crying, I'm not worth it, I made my father insult her, she deserves nothing but to be treated like a queen.
“ I think someone is calling," I was brought out of my thoughts by Nathan's voice as I turned to the phone.
“ It's a message," I said as I picked up my phone. The moment I saw that it was an email from Anna I sat up but when I saw what the email was about I became clouded with sadness as I put my head in my hands.
“ What's wrong?" Nathan asked in worry.
“ She just sent in her resignation,"
“ Oh man," he said as he squeezed my shoulder.
“ I'm so stupid, how did I think that she'll want to work with me after all I did?” I said as I ran my fingers through my hair.
" What wrong did I do Nathan? What wrong did we do?”
“ I don't know what to say brother but in life things don't always go the way we plan, life doesn't like to make things easy for us,” he said,
" So what am I going to do now? Forget about her? I can't do that,” I said,
" No, that's not what you'll do, what you'll do is stand strong and face life so the next time it throws something at you, you're ready,” he said and I nodded,
" Nathan,” I called and he hummed…" I want you to be my partner, my very first partner,” I said and he looked at me in confusion,
" What are you saying, we work in the same company, our family company,” he said,
" I'm sure you know that there are some battles of life that needs you to be powerful enough to fight them, I'm going to be so powerful that life itself would be mindful of me,” I said,
" Interesting, let's be partners then,” he said as he shook my hand.
I wish things were different, Anna, I hope you'll be happy, I hope you won't think about me too much but at the same time I hope you won't forget about me.
I love you so much, you have no idea.
Most importantly I wish I could see her right now.