Chapter 33
Chapter Thirty-Three
Willa
H e had me on the bed, naked and ready to go, within minutes.
The sheer power of his body and the way that naughty grin got my panties off in record time continued to amaze me.
He was already kissing my neck and trailing his fingertips over my breasts.
But as much as I wanted to let myself go, give in to all of it, my chest tightened and nerves skittered through me.
He pulled back, wearing a worried frown. “Are you okay?”
I nodded and inhaled deeply. How the hell could I put into words the insecurities plaguing me? Cole made me feel so desired and cherished, but I couldn’t help but worry that I wouldn’t be enough for him.
“Um. I just—” I squeezed my eyes shut, resigned to getting it all out. “I haven’t had a lot of relationships. And physical stuff without trust can be limiting.”
He nodded, his expression looking more confused than worried now.
God, I was rambling and making no sense. “I’m afraid that I’m inexperienced.”
He let out a laugh, the deep sound blasting through some of my fears. “Willa, I don’t care about that. We’ve already had sex many times, and it’s been incredible.”
I blushed and averted my gaze. He wasn’t wrong. Things had been hot and heavy between us since that first night.
But my insecurities were clouding my judgment.
“Sorry. It’s just, there’s so much I’ve never done before you.”
“I do particularly enjoy watching you come on my cock.”
God, how could I explain this to him, a good-looking athlete with plenty of experience? How did I tell him that, for most of my adult life, I’d been begging for scraps, so grateful when a man expressed attraction that I put my needs aside and settled for unsatisfying hookups?
“I’ve never been able to ask for what I want or to try things,” I admitted. “Mainly due to lack of confidence. I was so busy worrying that I wasn’t sexy that the thought of doing something new terrified me.”
He bent down, taking a nipple into his mouth while his fingers teased their way down my stomach to the sweet spot between my thighs. “We’ve established this. You are unbelievably fucking sexy. I want you all the time. And fuck, I’ve never been so sexually attracted to a person in my life.”
How he managed to say such swoony words while licking my nipples and expertly fingering me was a true wonder. I could barely form coherent thoughts.
“I’ve never been on top,” I blurted, my face flushing. “I’ve been afraid to try, but with you, I really want to.”
He looked up, a wide grin spreading across his stubbled cheeks. “Fuck yeah. I’d love nothing more than to watch you ride me.” With a groan, he stroked his erection. “Just the mention, and I’m ready to explode.”
He lay back on the bed, putting one arm behind his head and winking at me.
“I’m yours for the taking, wifey.”
With a mixture of fear and need racing through me, I straddled him and kissed my way down his chest, loving the feel of my nipples dragging against his chest hair. God, he was so perfect.
I’d never been willing to try this position. The idea of putting my body on display, with everything hanging out, had always made me panic.
But as I kissed Cole, as he slid one hand down my side and gripped my hip, I suddenly couldn’t think of a single thing I wanted more. And rather than scared, I felt turned on.
Exhaling, I sat up and leaned to one side to switch off the lamp.
“Excuse me,” he said, grabbing my wrist. “No fucking way.” With a huff, he switched it back on. Damn his long arms.
“I need to see you when you’re riding my cock.”
“But—”
“Shh.” He held his fingers up to my lips. “Not negotiable, wifey.” Then he rolled his hips, teasing me in a way that sent sparks arcing through me.
Breath hitching, I grasped him and lowered myself, relishing the sensation of him at my entrance. Like it had every night, it felt impossible, despite how wet I already was, that he would fit. But I took a deep breath and sank down slowly.
Tingles tore through my extremities. Fuck. I threw my head back. Oh my God, the pressure.
I put one hand on his chest to steady myself so I could breathe through the reaction, because hell, my inner muscles were already clenching.
He raked his gaze down my body, his expression full of so much heat it made me feel like a goddess. “That’s it. Take what you need.”
And I did, rocking slowly as I took him deeper, feeling full and on the brink after only a moment.
“That’s my good girl.”
Without stopping my movements, I squeezed my breasts and rolled my nipples between my fingers, knowing how much he loved it when I played with them.
Slowly, I worked myself over him, soaking in the way every bump and ridge of his shaft hit me in all the most sensitive spots. My pace was slow, but I savored the control I had in this moment.
“You’re doing great,” he rumbled. “Can I touch you?”
I nodded, and an instant later, he was gripping my ass cheeks and spreading them wide, allowing him to go even deeper.
With a moan, I threw my head back. It was such a turn-on, the way he manhandled me and used me with those big hands while I was in control of our pleasure.
“Yes,” he growled. “You were made for this. You were made to take my cock. But you know that, wifey. You know this pussy is mine.”
I cried out, clenching around him. Jesus, his words hit me with such physical force.
“Oh yes. Now ride me. Tell me about all your dirty fantasies. Everything you want me to do to you. I’ll fuck you and make you come any way you want.”
As his words drove me higher, I increased my speed, reveling in the all-consuming sensations taking over. I played with my nipples and let my body figure it out, shifting and adjusting until I found an angle that hit me just right.
“I want you to fuck me somewhere public,” I admitted, a heated flush washing over me.
“Oh yes, dirty girl,” Cole said, clearly turned on rather than appalled by my request. “What else?”
“Tie me up. Blindfold me.”
He groaned. “Anytime. As long as you promise to tie me up and have your way with me the next time.”
I smiled down at him, meeting his dark, glassy eyes. My vision blurred, and my pleasure bloomed larger until all I could feel was him inside me, his hands on my body. I was building and building, but not sure to what. I’d never experienced this combination of sensations before.
“What else, wifey? I’m gonna make all your dirty fantasies come true. I’ll teach you and make you come so hard you forget your own name.”
My breaths were coming in sharp pants now. I could barely speak. How was he able to keep up a steady stream of dirty talk when this felt so good?
“What else? Don’t hold back on me.”
I closed my eyes. This was a big one, and despite how incredible I felt, I was scared to say it.
“I want you to—” I snapped my mouth shut and froze. “You know.”
He cocked his head, and one side of his mouth quirked up. “Come?”
Swallowing, I nodded. “On me.”
He sat up and took my mouth, biting down on my bottom lip. “Anywhere you want, but you have to be a good girl and say it.”
With my heart pounding in my ears, I took a deep breath. “I want you to, um, come on, um. My tits.”
He squeezed his eyes shut and froze. “Shit. I almost came because of your words alone.”
His hands were all over me again. “It would be my fucking honor. I’m the luckiest guy in the world. I get this greedy, dirty girl all to myself. But I need you to do something for me. I want you to rub your clit while you ride me, because I’m holding on by a thread here.”
I snaked my hand down to where we were joined and gently flicked the bud. Instantly, electricity shot through me. Using the pad of my thumb, I rubbed gentle circles, and pressure built hard and fast, ramping all the way up to a breaking point.
“That’s it,” he praised. “Now ride me. I wanna watch your tits bounce as you come.”
I obeyed, rubbing and riding, and when a toe-curling orgasm rocked through me, I threw my head back. I was levitating, and all that was keeping me grounded were his hands on my hips and his cock pulsing inside me.
Wave after wave, I ground against him until the pressure that had mounted inside me ebbed.
When I finally collapsed on his chest, my throat ached from screaming.
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head.
“Jesus, wifey. You are quite the sexy student. I came so hard my vision is spotty.”
“You should get that checked out,” I teased, lifting up and grinning.
“Good thing my sex kitten wife is a doctor.”