Chapter 4 #2
Just like that, Tyler only had eyes for me again, and I became his favorite pastime.
For a couple years there, I was his favorite bullying target.
Then I became his favorite toy to play with in secret.
And eventually we stopped pretending, even hung out regularly and in public.
I had my best friend—maybe something more—back.
Until it all ended in the most painful way imaginable.
But in that moment, I didn’t care. It didn’t matter how badly he’d hurt me, because I was devastated with or without him. And right then, I wanted it to be with him. I fucking needed him.
“I’m here, Hudson.” He placed another kiss on the top of my head as he cradled me in his arms. “Whatever you need. I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.”
I curled into his body as tightly as I could, holding on for dear life. Tyler was my anchor in a storm I had no idea how to weather. All the things I never wanted to feel were boiling over, consuming me, and touching him—being touched by him—was the only way to navigate.
With a slight shift on the bed, my knee slipped between his legs. Tyler let out a soft hiss, and his entire body went stiff.
Just as stiff as his dick was against my thigh.
“Sorry,” he fumbled. “Shit, Hudson—it’s not—I couldn’t help it. I’m sorry. I’ll get it under control.”
“It’s okay.” Lifting my eyes to his, I brushed my knuckles along the valleys between his abs, stroking the dark hairs that led downward.
Ty let out a rattled breath. His eyes widened, and he took my hand in his, holding it in place. “I swear, Hud, this isn’t what I was after. Just let me take care of you.”
I licked my lips, glancing down at the outline in his sweats. “I… just want to feel something, Ty.” I met his eyes again, begging, pleading with him. “Anything but pain.”
“But…” Tyler let go of my hand to cup my cheek. “I… I promised you. I said—”
“You said you wouldn’t do anything I don’t want you to.”
Tyler’s throat bobbed as he searched my face, and he nodded.
“I want this…” My hand moved down his stomach, beneath the elastic of his pants. He sucked in a sharp breath as my fingers curled around his cock, taking him in my fist and stroking slowly. “I’ve wanted you for so long, Ty. Every fucking day.”
“Hudson…” he breathed, leaning toward me. “I don’t… you're going to leave… I don’t… want to hurt you.”
“I’m already hurting, Tyler.” My lips found his, and I flew backward in time.
We were in the locker room after gym class.
Then we were devouring each other behind the bleachers after his last game of the season.
Suddenly, we were in the woods just outside of town, my back against the trunk of a tree.
I cut the last thought short before it could ruin me again, and I climbed on top of him, lacing my fingers into his hair.
“Give me something good. Please, Ty. I need you so bad.”
Tyler’s hands went to my ass, squeezing as our lips crushed together. I pulled his pants down below his hips, freeing that perfect dick. Stroking more urgently. Relishing the soft, hot skin in my hand as it moved like velvet over his crown.
“Tell me…” Tyler gasped between the smack of our lips. “Tell me what you need, baby boy. It’s yours. Anything.”
“Fuck me, Tyler,” I begged. I kissed him over and over, pulling at his bottom lip with teeth every time I broke away. “Fuck me… so hard I forget… how to feel anything else but your cock inside me.”
Taking my face in both hands, Ty pulled back, staring deep into my eyes. “Are… are you sure?”
I nodded, my hand stilling on his dick. “Please.”
“We’ve just…” Ty swallowed again, glancing down to where I straddled his waist. “...we’ve never done that. I… always wanted to, but…”
“I know…” I whispered, placing another gentle kiss to his lips. Dreading the answer, I asked, “Have you… done it with anyone else?”
Tyler shook his head, his eyes searching mine. “I mean… I’ve fucked girls. You know that. Never…” Another swallow. “Never guys. Never…”
I leaned in, breathing against his neck. “Say it, Ty.” I bit down, sucking a bruise into his collarbone.
Ty gasped, moving his hands back to grip my ass tight. “Never… fucked anyone in the ass before, Hud.”
“Do you want to now?”
“So bad,” he panted, slipping his hands into my pants, his rough palms against the skin of my asscheeks. “I’ve been dreaming of being inside you for so long.”
Quickly, I dove across the bed, sliding open my nightstand. Ty worked my pants off just as fast, slipping them over my ankles and tossing them to the floor before kicking off his own. I settled back in his lap, holding up a bottle of lube. Tyler raised his brows. “You… want me to…”
With a grin, I nodded. “I’ll help you.”
Ty held out his hand, and I poured a generous amount. He reached around, holding tight to one ass cheek while he slipped his fingers between both. A moan slid through my lips as he played with my hole, slicking it thoroughly in small circles.
“Is that good?” he whispered against my ear.
“Mhmm…” I shuddered, pushing back into his touch. “Slide a finger in.”
“Tell me if I’m hurting you.”
“I will.”
Tyler claimed my mouth with his as one finger entered my ass.
A whimper came out of my throat, swallowed by his kiss.
He pushed all the way inside me, drawing more desperate noises from me and lapping them up one by one.
“You’re so tight,” he breathed into the space between our lips.
“I can’t wait… to get my cock in this ass. ”
“More…” I pleaded. “More, Tyler. Stretch me open.”
Obliging, he slowly added a second finger alongside the first. The instant burn caused me to wince, and I dug my nails into Ty’s shoulders. His hand stilled. “Too much?”
I shook my head quickly, lowering my ass to fuck myself on his fingers. “It’ll pass. Don’t stop.”
Tyler moved his free hand to the back of my head, holding me to him as he worked me open. “Relax for me, baby boy. Let me in. Let me make you feel so good.”
I grabbed the lube, pouring some into my own hand to coat Ty’s cock. His head fell back into the pillows with a needy groan at my touch. He added a third finger to my hole, my entire body trembling as it went in.
“Are you ready for me?” he asked, making my skin pebble as his breath rolled along my ear. “I want inside you so bad. Just tell me when.”
“Yes,” I moaned, shifting myself up his body. He gently slipped his fingers out, eyes blown wide with desperation as I lined myself up. Grabbing the base of his cock, I pressed the head against my ass, never breaking eye contact. “Tyler…”
“Let me in,” Ty growled, clutching my waist in both hands.
He slid inside me, so much bigger than his fingers, pushing past the tight ring of muscle. “Ty…” I panted as my ass swallowed the crown. “Oh, fuck… fuck, Tyler, fuck…”
“That’s it, Hudson,” Tyler moaned, eyes rolling back as he filled me up. “Oh, fuck yes.”
I took that cock right down to the hilt, and the second my ass cheeks met Tyler’s pelvic bone, he scooped me up in his arms, rolling me over and onto my back without leaving me. “Oh, shit,” I gasped.
“You okay?” Tyler chuckled above me, cradling the back of my head in one hand with the other gripping my waist.
“So good,” I said breathlessly, curling my fingers into his hair. “Just… go slow at first. It’s…” I swallowed nervously, momentarily averting my eyes. “...been a while.”
Ty responded with the most desperate kiss I’d ever felt. His lips melted against mine. His tongue danced into my mouth with a blissful hum, and he rocked his hips ever so gently. “I’ve got you, Hudson. Just let me take care of you, baby boy.”
I was so lost in him. His every movement was a culmination of all I had ever wanted, given in slow, steady thrusts. Taken as if my body knew exactly what my heart had needed all along. Just ready and waiting.
“The door is open…”
We were too far gone, too tangled up in a moment we’d both spent so long dreaming of to notice when the candle on my bedside table relit on its own.
“The tangles cut…”
For once in my life, I had managed to drown out the ever-present fear of what the morning might bring. Too happy and wholly satisfied to worry about how much harder my soul might break when it was over.
“The path unbroken…”
Then and there, I had Tyler. I was Tyler’s. I wanted to live in that moment forever, knowing it wasn’t possible, but it made no difference. It was too late for my heart. I had fallen so far, so very long ago. If I was to break—
“The way… unshut.”
—I was going to break spectacularly.