Chapter 34 #2
“It’s Wrath,” comes from the other side, urgency in his voice.
Logan hurries to pull up and fasten his pants before answering the door. Jaime and Wrath stand on the other side, looking concerned, something that’s especially strange on the easygoing Wrath.
“What’s going on?” I ask.
Wrath directs his reply to Logan. “I got a call from Recourse. They’ve been trying to reach you, since you’re their contact.”
“Oh fuck,” Logan says. Our phones were on silent throughout the celebration.
“They realized Mom was gone about thirty minutes ago,” Wrath adds. “She killed a nurse and put her in the bed, knowing it would take security a while to notice. They think she could have gotten out a few hours ago.”
Terror grips me at the thought of Logan being in danger.
“Fucking hell,” Logan says. “I never should have told her about this.”
“This isn’t your fault,” Wrath insists.
“Yes, it is! It’s always my fault.”
It makes me consider what he shared with me about his father and his sense of obligation, and I hate being unable to take that feeling away from him.
“Let’s just work through this,” I say, resting my hand on his shoulder, hoping to remind him he’s not on his own in this. “Together.”
Logan’s expression eases up, assuring me he knows that regardless of this bullshit I’m grappling with, I’m here for him.
“Boss!” Jaime yells, grabbing my arm and prying me away from Logan.
A thundering sound fills the room, and then again, all too familiar—a gunshot, drawing my mind back to the day I held my blood-soaked father in my arms.
Jaime’s hand jerks away as he goes down at my side.
Spinning around, I discover a woman standing on the other side of the bed, wielding a gun. She’s in scrubs, but the eyes give her away, so similar to her son’s.
“Well, well, Old Terror.” Clara’s words embody her disdain as she addresses me as though I’m my father, in some sort of vicarious revenge through me.
There’s a stoicism about her that’s frightening as she stands there, her hair wild, with leaves poking through it that look like they came from the shrubs outside. The lengths she must’ve gone to…to escape Recourse, then make her way here and inside.
“Mom,” Logan says sternly. “Put down the gun. We’ll talk about this.”
“There’s nothing to talk about,” she says with the certain, confident tone of a Wilde. “I’m not letting some Lorde bastard take what’s mine. Not again.”
“What is she talking about?” Wrath asks.
Her gaze shifts between her sons. “You didn’t tell your brother?
” she asks Logan, then turns to Wrath. “I tried to protect you from your father’s wicked betrayal all these years, but now I can’t.
Old Terror and your father were having an affair behind my back.
I found their love letters, confirming what I’d known all along.
Don’t you see? That’s what started this whole mess.
If he’d been loyal to me, I never would have slipped away from you.
Surely, you know that, Wrath. Better than any of my babies.
” She turns a menacing glare on me. “I thought I’d killed you all those years ago, but I was wrong. ”
“What do you mean you thought you’d killed me?” I ask.
She offers a toothy grin. “You don’t remember when the Folcrums descended upon your family?
I may have spent some years in a fog, but Ian’s death brought me back.
And being in Recourse meant it took more time than it might have, but I made some great connections in a place like that, who could whisper into their ears that the Lordes were plotting their destruction.
It took so little to bring down Old Terror. ”
She did it? She’s the reason my family was nearly annihilated? And now she’s fucking smiling about it?
Fury tears through me.
“I was so relieved to hear about your death,” she says. “I never expected you’d find a way to keep alive through your son. Just as Ian has done with Logan.”
It’s so strange, hearing her reveal truths while being in the throes of delusion.
“It’s okay, Wrath,” Clara says. “Your father was the monster, and he took you away from me once, but he won’t do it again.”
“Mom, put down the gun,” Wrath insists.
“My favorite child, and you betray me too?”
“You’re not well, Mom. We need to get you back to Recourse.”
“I’m doing better than I have been in a long time. They can’t keep pumping this medicine in me. Don’t you see that it only kills the real me, subdues her so she won’t put up a fight. But Mommy’s back, sweetie. And she’s gonna protect her babies.”
“Is that what you were doing that day?” Logan asks, his words cutting through the air. “Protecting us?”
I think about the horror he described. Her sadistic attempt at familicide—the perpetration of a truly sick act, and that’s coming from a Lorde.
The tense lines on Clara’s face soften. “I’m not going to let you win, Ian,” she tells Logan, as if he were his father, suggesting how much her boundaries between the past and present have blurred. “If I can’t have you, neither can Old Terror.”
Something in my periphery draws my attention—across the hallway, Krychek’s creeping toward the door, gun tucked close to his chest.
“He can’t have you,” Clara says, cocking the gun.
Logan rushes in front of me.
“Logan! Don’t!” I call out.
“Get out of the way, Ian.”
“It’s Logan. And I love him, Mom.”
Something in her gaze shifts, a darkness moving through her, the same darkness I’ve seen in Logan. “Guess you’ve made your choice.”
Krychek draws nearer, and there’s only one thought on my mind—I must protect Wrath and Logan at all costs. This is what I signed up for when I agreed to marry him. I wasn’t taking lightly my duty to protect him. They’re my blood, and I’m theirs.
And it’s like God himself has, in a split second, gifted me an opportunity, not just to save Logan from Clara, but from the predicament I’ve trapped him in.
He doesn’t have to spend his life suffering without love.
We’ve signed the papers, and Krychek will witness the event, tell everyone what happened, and because of our marriage, Logan will remain blood and inherit the protection his family sought.
All she needs is a moment to shoot me, and that will give Krychek time to take her out. Truly, Clara has given me the answer I’ve desperately wanted. The only chance for her son to have happiness. The only chance he has to be free of this monster who captured him.
I shove Logan aside, rushing toward Clara, who smirks. “I knew you were in there, Old Terror,” she says before the sound of the gunshot erupts.
I’m in a daze as everything slows. There’s another gunshot before her body twists and contorts. Just as I figured, I gave Krychek the time and distraction he needed for a shot.
Clara fires another round toward the ceiling, assuring me he nailed her.
Most importantly, that Logan is safe.
The room spins, and I’m on the ground in no time, with Logan on his knees at my side.
“Jesus fucking Christ,” he says, his words sounding muffled. “Killian, you’re gonna be okay. It’s gonna be fine.”
His concern is all over his face, and I know better.
He gazes down at me with those beautiful blue eyes, those eyes that remind me why I took these final steps.
Because this man who holds me is so special, so incredible, he deserves a world of joy I couldn’t give him.
I’ve never felt an emotion this profound, never known it could feel this incredible to care for someone other than biological family.
I am a monster, but maybe I was more capable of love than I realized.
It’s so exciting that I want to share this with him, want him to know that it was all for him.
“Logan,” I say, but I’m slipping.
As I fade, I feel the crushing weight of knowing he’ll never know the truth, hating that someone as amazing as him will find love again and that it won’t be with me.