Chapter 10
Ten
TRULY
Monday Morning….
“Mommy…”
For a second I thought I was dreaming. My body was too heavy, my eyes too tired.
The voice sounded small and sweet like my Lolani’s but that was impossible.
I inhaled deeply and kicked my leg out to readjust and fell into a deeper sleep.
The smell of lavender mixed with baby lotion reminded me that I was home instead of at Bleu’s house.
It had only been maybe a couple of hours since I left, and I already regretted my decision to sneak away after having such a good time.
Late Saturday morning, I woke up to breakfast in bed.
After we ate together, Bleu had clothes in my exact size spread across his bed which puzzled the hell out of me.
I wondered when did he have the time to have such nice clothes delivered to his door?
He had a driving service take me to the spa where I received a full body massage and facial.
After my spa date, Bleu met me in the lobby then took me shopping.
I was on a high Saturday; I never got treated like the way Bleu treated me that day.
He was a gentleman; his large hand remained on my lower back the entire time we shopped.
He made me feel like he belonged to me. Bleu’s eyes didn’t wander to gawk at other women.
In fact, he paid close attention to wherever my eyes landed.
It’s like whatever I saw that I wanted through my eyes, Bleu guided me to it then slid his card.
I guess that was what women talked about when they yearned for a soft life with a man.
We got to know each other, talked about our family and even laughed about how wild his younger brother was.
It was amazing to see a man like Bleu loosen up and just be himself.
We went out to eat, and I damn near choked on my steak when he admitted to never watching the movie ‘Friday’.
When we made it back to his penthouse, I made him get in bed with me and watch the movie.
After that he rocked my damn world into the wee morning.
Sunday, I woke up to breakfast again. I mainly slept half the day away while Bleu went into his guest room to work on his laptop. I ended up getting woke out of my sleep to him softly licking my pussy. It’s like he was addicted to just eating it and it started to fuck with my mind.
His gentleness, him asking if I was okay and even sitting me in his tub to bathe me scared me shitless, because it was something that I wasn’t used to.
I left at four in the morning; I laid right next to him and watched him sleep peacefully before sliding out of the bed and leaving all of my shopping bags behind.
I convinced myself that it was just an extended one-night stand. It was time for me to get back to my reality and not just wait for him to get bored with me and dismiss me himself.
“Mommy!” The little voice came out louder.
I blinked and shot up fast, my heart constricted as I adjusted my eyes to the brightness of my room.
My baby girl stood at the side of my bed, her eyes were watery, curls wild and all over her head.
She held on to her stuffed bunny like she needed it to hug her.
It hurt me that I saw rejection in her eyes when she stared at me intently.
“Lo Lo!” my voice cracked from the rush of emotions that hit me.
She giggled, carefully placed her bunny down then jumped on the bed.
Without thinking twice, I pulled her into my arms and pressed my face against her tiny shoulder breathing her in.
At least Aubry still used the oatmeal lotion that I stressed about him using on our baby.
Lolani had sensitive skin, and oatmeal lotion was perfect for her.
“Mommy missed you so much, Lo Lo.” Tears stung my eyes before I could stop them.
“But you sleepy, mommy.” Her squeaky voice whined out.
I wanted to sob into her but didn’t want to scare her. I swallowed the painful lump in my throat and held her tighter, never wanting to let her go. Lolani’s tiny hand patted my back like she understood my pain of missing her.
“I missed you so much Lo Lo, you missed mommy?” I asked releasing her a bit.
Her tiny hands grabbed the side of my face; she nodded her head up and down then pouted her lips out. Contrast to my deep brown skin, Lolani’s caramel complexion and wild curly hair came from her dad.
“I miss you, mommy.” She said lowly.
I looked into her diamond shaped face and stared into her eyes. It crushed me when I witnessed her eyes well up with tears. Without a doubt, I knew my baby loved me to pieces. She was just too young to understand the selfish games her father played.
Behind her, I caught movement in the doorway.
Aubry.
He leaned against the frame; arms crossed with that familiar frown carved deep into his face. My stomach clenched then suddenly I felt sick. The kind of sick that you get in the morning when your stomach tells you it’s time to go take a shit.
“You look like hell, Truly.” His voice was low, but I didn’t miss the sharpness attached to it.
He stepped fully inside of my room; his cologne was a little too strong as he took a seat on my soft pink chaise.
It was Monday, and Aubry had on street clothes with his gold jewelry on display.
By it being Monday, he should’ve had on his business clothes, Aubry should be at daycare… what was the problem?
“Good morning to you too, Aubry.” I offered him a smug smile.
“Ashley and I are getting a divorce. Lo Lo,” he cleared his throat to get my baby attention.
“I smell the cookies pop pop is making downstairs, go get some while me and mommy talk.” He relaxed his face into a gentle smile.
Lolani looked away from her dad and back at me to get my reassurance. I smiled brightly at her then pecked the tip of her nose.
“Go baby, mommy need to brush my teeth and wash my face. Me and daddy have to talk.” I reassured her.
She nodded sadly before throwing her arms around my neck.
I threw the covers off of me and slid out of the bed with her.
Standing to my feet, I couldn’t stop the well overdue stretch.
With my hands above my head, I stretched my body as far as it could go then released the breath I was holding.
Lolani was already out the door; her little footsteps could be heard running down the hallway.
“Sheesh.” I muttered.
My body hurt like hell. I almost forgot Aubry was sitting in my room with his eyes roaming my half naked body. I had a baby white tee on, no bra and panty briefs that my ass ate up since I was tossing and turning since I got home.
“Where the fuck you been all weekend?” He gritted out lowly.
I snapped my eyes at him and sighed. Something was off about Aubry, he sounded aggressive, but I could tell he was holding back. My intuition told me that his holding back had something to do with his current situation with Ashley.
“I was out, on a date.” I stated, flatly.
I turned fully to him then placed my hand on my hip. The sight of Aubry disgusted me.
“I thought I made it clear that I wouldn’t share you, Truly. You got fucking hicky’s all across your chest and neck! Our daughter got to see her momma being a hoe when you supposed to be missing her!” He yelled.
“Those days are over, I’m sick of you and the games you fuckin’ play with my daughter. When you want access to me, you use Lo Lo as leverage when you can’t get what the fuck you want.” I snapped.
“I haven’t seen my daughter in over two fucking weeks! I facetime her tablet, no answer! I call you, no fucking answer. I’m sick of this shit!” I yelled at the top of my lungs.
I was tired of being tired with Aubry. Tired of feeling like I was failing my daughter because of the legal paperwork that forced me to accept Aubry and his wife having her ninety percent of the time.
“Dead whatever it is with whoever it is.” His voice dropped low.
“Aubry, please.” I dropped my head in defeat.
This wasn’t about Bleu. I probably would never hear from the man again.
We had no number to reconnect if we wanted to.
I took my money and dipped which was immature of me.
I eyed my pink fluffy rug and tried to steady my emotions.
I was happy Lolani was here with me, but for how long?
I could sound sure of myself and tell Aubry how I truly felt.
But at the end of that, I had to keep it real with myself. I had to play Aubry’s tune.
He had the upper hand, and for my daughter, I would do whatever it took just to keep her here with me or to even extend our visit together for the day.
“Some people will give you an amazing high, just to leave you feeling incredibly low…” My mom’s words ringed out in my head as my stomach tightened again.
“Dead it, Truly.” He repeated himself.
I refused to look up at the man responsible for breaking my heart. It was crazy how you never knew upfront just how ugly a person could be on the inside until all the damage was done.
“It’s dead, Aubry. I don’t have time to focus on a man right now. I’m trying to get myself together for Lo Lo.” I said truthfully.
“Good because I want to work on us.” He stated smoothly.
It nearly killed me how he said it, like I was supposed to drop down to my knees and thank God that he was finally considering us again.
Too late…
I didn’t have to look up to hear that he was standing to his feet. In seconds his tall frame hoovered over me. My stomach tightened soon as his hand landed on the edge of my chin.
“There’s no us.” I hated how weak I sounded.
“There will always be an us. I made a big mistake choosing Ashley. My parents thought she looked better as my wife, but I never stopped loving you. When it comes to my Lo Lo, I’ll chose her every time.” His eyes burned with fire.
Whenever something had Aubry bothered, he talked in riddles instead of getting to the point. I knew this man almost better than I knew myself. Ashley had done something to my daughter, and I was now determined to get down to the bottom of it.