Chapter Three #3
“Funny.” Phil sighed. “I would literally do anything to make sure Terry was taken care of. But I have to admit I’ve been going through self-doubt lately.”
“As a Dom?”
“No.” Phil’s cheeks heated, something that rarely happened. “As a man.”
“Oh. Are you having a difficult time getting an erection?”
“No!” Oh Jesus, that’s all I’d need on top of everything else. “No, that’s not the issue. I think I told you this already, but I’m about twelve years older than Terry. And I know I must have told you how beautiful he is. Lean, sleek body, and he has this dark, wavy hair with bright green eyes and—”
“I get it.” Eric chuckled again. “You’re mesmerized by him.
But don’t you think he’s just as mesmerized by you?
No one gives themselves as completely to another human being the way he has with you unless he’s fully committed.
He didn’t come into a D/s situation because he was seeking the lifestyle.
He was seeking you. And as it turns out, he found the real you and loves that part too.
You’re in an epic win-win right now. Accept and run with it. ”
“Hmm.” This was why he’d needed to talk to Eric, to get out of his own head. “That’s quite a way to put it.”
“Makes sense, though, doesn’t it?”
“Yeah. Actually, it does.” Phil wanted to kick his own ass.
“So, all of this stress I’ve been placing on myself is of my own making.
Terry loves me, wants to submit to me, trusts me to make all the decisions as his Master, is making enough money to support us temporarily, plus I have my extensive savings for us to fall back on if need be until I get another job. ”
“Right. So quit being such a drama queen.”
Phil burst out laughing and Eric joined in. God, he’d been behaving like such an idiot.
“Thank you, Master Eric. You have no idea how much this has helped.”
“Oh, I have a thought. But let me ask you something. Did you ever speak to Gerard regarding that incident at the studio with Terry and…what was the guy’s name?”
“Anson. He’s a sub.…Well actually, he described himself as a slave to this Master Joe guy. He’s the one who’s supposed to be a friend of Gerard’s uncle.”
“Yeah, that’s what I thought you’d said. I spoke with Gerard and he claims that neither he nor his uncle know anyone who goes by the name Master Joe.”
“Then how the hell did he get in there? No offense, but you told me Gerard is very careful who he allows over when he has his gatherings. That’s why I felt it was safe to take Terry there for the CNC scene.”
“He is very careful, which is also why he’s a healthy combination of pissed-the-fuck-off and mortified by the whole situation. He wouldn’t mind talking to you and your boy, if you’re okay with that. He’d also like to apologize to you both in person.”
“I’d have to ask Terry how he feels about it. And I’d rather meet with Gerard privately instead of during one of his gatherings.”
“I’m sure he’d prefer that too.” Eric paused. “If you’re cool with that then, I’ll get in touch with him and pass on your number. I know he has your email, but I don’t think this is a good email discussion.”
“I agree. If he’ll meet with us privately, then I’m sure Terry will go along with it. He’s pretty anxious to figure this out too.”
Since Phil wasn’t working, he’d been driving Terry to and from the studio, sometimes using the excuse that he was meeting with various contacts as a reason to stick around.
He’d also been working with Terry on his organizational skills.
Terry was now required to get his photography equipment and anything else he needed for his workday prepared the night before.
Rearranging all the cupboards in the kitchen, the clothes in the drawers and closets and alphabetizing the CDs and DVDs had driven the point home rather emphatically.
Phil chuckled at the thought. Terry had glared at him all day, but Phil had rewarded him with an enthusiastic spanking and a good fucking.
Terry had gone to bed that night happily sore and melted.
“Hey.” Eric’s voice brought Phil out of his musings. “So, we’re good for me to give Gerard your number?”
“Yeah, sure. That’d be fine.” Phil checked the time. He had to go get Terry soon. “And thanks again, this really, really helped.”
“Wonderful. Then do something special for him. You said he loves it when you take charge, control him. Have you guys done any new scenes lately? Pushed his boundaries at all?”
Phil grimaced. He’d been so focused on his own worry and stress, he hadn’t thought to do anything beyond punishing his sub. “No, I haven’t. Good reminder.”
“Then I’ll leave you to it. Call anytime. Oh, and I plan to make it out your way early next year before it gets too hot in that glorified desert you’re living in. I’ll be seeing Gerard, of course, but maybe we can all get together.”
“I’d love that. Keep me posted.”
“I will.”
After Phil hung up, he relaxed against the couch and considered Eric’s suggestion about staging a scene with Terry. Control. Terry had added a few more soft limits to their list, and they’d already shared some light activities that Terry had quickly embraced quickly.
Phil nodded. Control it is.