Chapter 4
Four
Vivian
In the middle of a heat, most of my focus is on the next orgasm and next splash of cum I can either get in me or on me. My need for my pack knows no bounds. I'm willing, no I'm craving, the sweaty touches, feral glints of teeth, slick sheets, and loud moans.
Give me all of them. I need every sound, each drop of essence, all their attention, everything.
Just don't leave me.
Except that's exactly what my beta does.
He gets up to leave.
My throat convulses as my chest tightens, locking my words and fears in my chest. I watch mutely and boneless from a fresh round of knotting as Silas tugs his boxers on, kisses Kade on the shoulder, and reaches for the doorknob leading out of my nest.
He's leaving my nest. Leaving leaving—not just using the connected bathroom.
Rationally, I know they need to leave sometimes to restock our food or get fresh air. Why didn't he do it when I was asleep? When was the last time I slept? Why does he need fresh air?
Squeezing my eyes shut against the pain in my uterus and the battle raging between my mind and heart, I roll into Jarek's strong chest. With my knees tucked between us and my hands cradled against my stomach, I try to force the tears away.
I can't logic my way around my omega's whimpering and confusion. Why would he want to leave our nest? Leave me?
Shaking my head, I try like hell to dislodge the anxious thoughts from my mind. I won't ask him to stay even if I can, though. If Silas needs to step out, he should be allowed to do so. I can't be so demanding that he can't take a breath.
Except, him opening the door to my nest sucks the air from my lungs. Tears spill over my lashes and onto Jarek's chest. He immediately stiffens and hugs me to him tighter.
"Vivian?" Kade whispers. I feel him crawling closer, and once he's within reach, my alpha tries to soothe me with a warm hand on my back. "Omega?"
Sniffling, I burrow further into the mate who can hold all my broken pieces together effortlessly. Jarek is my comfort, and I'm at my most vulnerable.
Now if only I could slip away and let go of the world around me. In our bond, I can still feel Silas as airy and wrapped around me. He's a little slower and droopier than usual, only making me feel worse. I've exhausted him.
Just as I'm about to resign myself to the negative thoughts, I feel the sharp silver tether of Kade go on alert. A moment later he's barking the order I wish I had the ability to.
"Silas! Get back in here!"
Trembling, I focus on the rough hairs against my forehead. Maybe I can fall asleep and ignore this ever happened. My cramps and rising warmth scoff at the idea of dozing off. No way will I be able to relax in a few minutes as my next heat wave comes barreling through my veins.
"Butterfly..." Jarek murmurs, his warm breath against the top of my head. "No hiding, please."
Sniffling, I tilt my head back and stare at his chin. My vulnerability puts me in a more submissive headspace than I'd normally be. Looking him in the eye would feel too intense right now.
I watch his mouth curl up into a small smile and feel some relief that at least he's okay. His pink bow lips tease me with their proximity and plushness. Kissing him feels like a wonderful idea for my pussy and my mind.
Kade has a different idea though. His firm hand wraps around the front of my throat and pulls me a few inches back from Jarek. "Look at me, Vivian."
Biting back a rough sigh, I force my eyes to lock on Kade's. There's no hiding the emotion in my gaze or the wetness left on my cheeks. I'm a mess, and just imagining how ridiculous I've been makes my bottom lip wobble.
"Fuck, what's wrong?" Silas asks urgently as he rushes across the nest and peers down at me over Kade's shoulder. "What happened?"
How does he not know?
"Watch the attitude, Omega," Kade growls as soon as my eyes narrow at Silas.
Jarek chuckles quietly on my other side, and annoyance quickly replaces all the sadness I was struggling with moments ago. Huffing, I force my attention to my bond with Silas and give him a firm yank.
Grunting, Silas' eyes widen, and he's quick to pull Kade away from me. Replacing our pack alpha hovering above me, Silas peppers kisses all over my cheeks, forehead, and ends his cute torment with a tiny lick on the tip of my pointed nose.
Silas releases a low rumble as he drags his nose toward my ear. Before he inhales my rising perfume, he says, "I'm here, princess. I just needed some extra space to do some stretches."
Oh. Blushing furiously in embarrassment, I cling to him and hug him in apology. What began as reassurance quickly turns heated as my pussy gushes, and his now bare cock nestles between my thighs.
"Mmm. You smell so fucking good," he growls, sounding very much like our alpha mates.
His cock slips inside me easily and throbs in time with my clenching walls. Our bodies slide into place. As he rocks sweetly against me, a whine tears from my throat. It's a sound I have no control over. It signals my desire for more.
"And you feel even better," Silas groans, thrusting a bit harder, but it's not enough. I want some of the hard fucking the guys give each other. I want to feel my beta for hours after he paints my walls in his salty cum.
Scoring his back with my nails, I reach down and spread Silas' asscheeks, giving Kade a fantastic view of his hole. Fuck him.
Kade smirks and shuffles forward on his knees. "Oh, little Omega, how you read my mind."
Clenching around Silas, excitement sends chills across my arms. Or maybe that's because Jarek has taken to kissing the length of my right one. I want us all connected. Turning inward once again, I tug on his bond and earn myself a little nip on my shoulder.
"Patience," Kade reminds me. "I just need to..." Kade trails off right before I feel two thick fingers prodding my entrance. He slips into my pussy alongside Silas who writhes and fucks forward like he's losing his control.
Please, yes. My pussy squeezes them at the same time I lose the ability to breathe. It's so good. It's almost perfect. I want Kade's knot inside of me too.
The extra full feeling disappears too soon, but it's okay because the haze of my sex addled brain descends as I pinpoint the moment Kade begins teasing Silas' ass.
Slick drips from my pussy and between my crack, tickling my own back hole and driving me wild. More more more.
"FUCK!" Silas snarls and absolutely slams into me, but it's not him in control anymore. Kade ruts into his ass, fucking me in the process.
My tits bounce and glide across Silas' firm chest, driving me wild with pleasure and need. So much need. My salty rain perfume mixes with their scents and infiltrates my nose, urging me forward. Right toward my other alpha’s cock.
Because I'm greedy and love to watch, I grab Jarek's already inflating knot above me and guide his cock into Silas’ open mouth.
My beta jolts in surprise but quickly and energetically swallows Jarek's throbbing length. The sight is erotic and so fucking sexy as Jarek kneels above me to fuck Silas' throat.
Kade controls us all with his punishing thrusts and demands to hold our orgasms until he gives us permission to release them.
"Alpha!" My voice breaks through in a desperate cry for relief. My nipples tingle, my clit continuously drags along with Silas' movements, and Jareks' precum mixed with our beta's saliva is dripping onto my face with each gag.
"COME!" Kade roars.
Sheer, complete, and total euphoric pleasure rips through our pack bond, stealing the scream from my throat. Wave after wave drives me deeper into my omega instincts. Keening and whimpering, I sink my teeth into Jarek's thigh beside my face and hold on tight.
Don't ever leave me.