Chapter 27
CHAPTER 27
J ohan
Despite knowing this would happen, I can’t quite believe this day has come. I’ve gone into this with a deadline, but I’m still not prepared for how much it hurts. And the adage of the more you love, the more you hurt is just bullshit right now, it doesn’t help.
I lie awake, arms circled round the guy who has become my world. The guy who I have to say goodbye to, not forever, but for how long, I don’t know. I have no idea when I’ll be allowed back and he can’t come with me.
I daren’t move, I don’t want to wake him up. Waking him up will start the process of having to save goodbye.
“I know you’re awake,” Cole whispers in the semi-darkness.
“I thought you were asleep,” I murmur against the back of his neck.
“How can I sleep with you huffing and sighing next to me.”
“That obvious, huh?”
He turns to face me with a sigh. “No, I couldn’t sleep either.”
Despite how I feel I don’t want today to be a sad time. Cole also seems to have the same idea. He places a hand on my chest and pushes to make me lie flat, then he straddles me.
He kisses me; it’s fierce and desperate.
“I want you to make me feel you for days,” he says when he pulls back. “But first.” He shifts backward and settles between my legs. He lowers his head and I get the glorious sight of his plump lips, wet from kissing, closing round my cock. I lose myself to his slurping and sucking, fisting the sheets to not let myself come when his tongue expertly runs over the frenulum. He cups my balls running a finger along my taint and I nearly lose it.
“Cole, I’ll come if you don’t stop right now.” I grit my teeth together, willing myself to hold on, wanting him to stop, wanting him to go on forever. But by now he knows all my buttons and with a harder stroke along my taint my balls tighten and there is nothing I can do to stop my cum hitting the back of his throat. He keeps his mouth round my dick taking in every drop.
“You planned to make me come didn’t you?” I manage to pant out while my heartbeat subsides.
“Well, I wanted to make sure you weren’t going to go off too early when you’re buried deep inside me.”
“No that wouldn’t do, would it now?” I recover my strength a little. Enough to sit up and flip him over.
“Well then, since you asked for this, I’d better get you ready.”
He sighs contently as I bury my nose in his arse. I take my time teasing him, I love his musky scent, and I inhale deeply before setting at him with my tongue. I lick and suck at his pucker and he asks for more, thrusting back to fuck himself on my tongue. I nip him and he groans. Fuck it makes me hard how much he enjoys this. My cock is hardening fast again but he needs more than my tongue to make him ready for me. I liberally apply some lube to my fingers, then licking up his taint I suck one of his balls into my mouth as I insert a finger. After a few thrusts he begs for more, so I insert another and then a third. I graze his prostrate a few times until he begs me
“Please Jo, now, I want you to fill me up.”
I kneel behind him and had planned to take it slow but as soon as he feels my dick against his hole he thrusts himself back onto me, taking me all in one go. The effect is electric as I feel him gripping me tightly with his arse. But it must have hurt him.
“Are...”
“Don’t ask, just fuck,” he gasps and I grip his hips, and pound into him.
I can feel myself getting close. It’s more than the physical sensation, it’s also the knowledge that he’s given himself so completely to me, that brings me to the edge. I feel my nuts tighten but I want him to come first. I grab his cock, but he takes my hand off and puts it back on his hip.
“Keep thrusting,” he grunts.
He grips his own cock and gives it a few strokes before I feel him tighten round me and he comes all over his hand. I manage a few seconds more before my orgasm shudders through me. I slowly withdraw and he winces slightly before collapsing face down on the bed.
“I’m sorry, baby.” I hate that I hurt him. I lie down next to him stroking his sweat soaked back.
“Don’t be.” He turns and smiles at me. “You did everything I asked for. It was wonderful. And I wanted something to remember you by.”
“You have my dog.”
“Oh yeah.” He chuckles then adds, “I need a shower and I don’t think I can stand.”
I’m there for him and I help him to the shower, washing his body carefully.
We’d agreed that Cole wouldn’t come to the airport with me. Ben is going to drive me, that is all. I can’t cope with a long goodbye; no farewell to the friends I’ve made. I don’t want to be a blubbering mess at the airport, so I’m in the apartment, Cole’s apartment, and for me, home for the last few months. A place where I’ve learned that people are nice because they want to be nice, and not because they want something from you.
I think both of us secretly hoped that this time wouldn’t come, that there would be a magic fix. I remember going through the paperwork with Tom and with his lawyers. There was no way I could get an extension visa for temporary work; the best I could hope for was to apply for another one and wait a few months for it to be processed.
So it isn’t goodbye forever but it sure feels like it. We stand in the middle of the room, I kiss him deeply and then again because I don’t want any of them to be the last one. Eventually though, we have to speak. I touch my forehead to his.
“We’ll text.”
“All the time.”
“We’ll facetime.”
“You betcha we will.”
“We’ll have phone sex.”
“I’m hard just thinking about it.”
A laugh relieves the tension.
“Fuck Cole, I didn’t think this would be so difficult.”
He wipes away the tears rolling down my cheeks.
“It won’t be for long, Jo. You’ll be back soon.”
I admire how much he’s holding it together while I’m falling apart.
“Look after Roffe for me.”
“You know I will.”
The sound of a car beeping outside—Ben. I’m out of time. He throws his arms round me burying his head in my neck and I hug him tightly. I eventually disentangle myself and turn away. I crouch down and give Roffe a fuss, telling him to be good for Cole.
I look back as I reach the door, Cole is kneeling on the floor cuddling Vin and Roffe to him.