Chapter 53
MILA
Song- Who Do You Want, Ex Habit
https://lost.exhabitmusic.com/whodoyouwant
“Good boy.” I ruffle the top of Nikolai’s head as I sit myself down next to him on the couch. I’ve spent the last however long patching him up. No wonder he passed out from blood loss. It’s lucky he’s alive at this point.
But every wound I patched up, he didn’t flinch.
“Are you in the mood for a spanking, Mila? You want more pain?”
My cheeks heat at his words and I squeeze my thighs. That’s the problem, I do.
Only by his hands.
Do I have regrets? Yes.
I’ll have to live with those. Yet, every moment in my life brought me to this. To him.
Sometimes you have to push yourself through the very worst times of your life to realize who is truly there for you. Nikolai, despite me ripping his heart out, is there for me.
I want him by my side until the end.
I have spent my entire life being a robot. Trained to kill. Living under the orders of Tyler and others. For what? My own family threw me to the wolves to save their own ass, when all I’ve done is protect him?
I’m angry and sad. He was all I had for so long.
“You ready, baby?” Nikolai’s deep voice brings me out of my own head.
I watch him pour the alcohol onto the cloth and brace myself.
His fingers brush against my bare stomach as he slowly peels off my leggings. At this point, I’m running on fumes, and the fact I’m horny.
I see Nikolai flinch as he runs his fingers along my thighs. Fuck, Ivan certainly did a number on me.
This is the worst I’ve ever come out of a fight. It will be the last time I look like this.
I clench my teeth and close my eyes as the sting rips through me from the first hole in my leg. Blowing out slowly, my heart melts when he places a soft kiss next to the wound.
“Next one,” he says.
This one wasn't so bad.
“Do I get a reward for being so brave?” I joke.
He looks up at me from where he is on his knees on the floor.
“You’ve been far too bad for that.” He runs his hands up my calf.
Tipping my head back, I take my brain elsewhere as he finishes cleaning and bandaging me. Letting myself relax into his touch.
With him, I’m looked after. I’m safe, and so is Daniil.
“Such a good girl for me,” Nikolai mutters, his breath hitting against my thigh.
Shaking my head, I lightly press my teeth into my busted lip. It’s already a mess, it will be worth it.
“Call me a good girl again and I’ll show you just how bad I can be for you, Mr. Volkov.”
Pulling my knees apart, he sits back and rubs his jaw. His blue eyes burn into mine as the darkness flashes across them.
“You think you’re in a fit state for a punishment? Hmm?”
I bite back my smile. “Remember, I like pain.”
He hooks my leg over his good shoulder and slides my panties to the side.
“Ya navsegda ostanus’ plohoy, no horosey ya budu tol’ko dlia tebia.” I will always be bad, but only for you will I be good.
His eyebrows raise, I want to remind him who I really am.
I am not Melissa. I’m Mila. Mila fucking Sidorova.
Orphan. Fighter. Protector.
If he wants me, he has to accept me for exactly who I am. Even the ugliest parts. The bits I should want to hide. Around my man, I will only ever be myself.
If he truly loves me as I do him, it won’t matter.
“Moya horosaya devochka.” My good girl.
“How about, I look after my woman? A man’s gotta eat, and I can’t think of anything else I’d rather have on my tongue.”
Holy shit.
“A guy on his knees is never a bad thing. Show me I’m yours.”
He nibbles on the sensitive skin of my leg.
I don’t hold in the moan as he runs his tongue along my slit. My body might be in agony, yet every drop of pleasure he is giving me overrides that.
He sinks his fingers inside me, curling them at that spot that has me bucking against his face.
“Niki, shit,” I hiss.
He sucks on my clit. This isn’t going to take me long to get off.
“Not yet, baby. I wanna feel your tight pussy squeeze the life out of my cock as you come.”
He brings me right to the edge with his mouth. I’m desperate to let it go. I won’t. I’ll be good for him for now.
“You’re soaked, baby.”
“Let me come, please, Niki.”
He pulls himself up using the couch and lies down behind me.
I can feel his erection pressing against his jeans.
“Don’t just rub on it, get it out. You want to get off, don’t you?”
I do as he says, unbuckling his belt and freeing his hard cock. Taking him in my hand, I stroke him a few times, thriving off the groan that leaves his lips.
Swiping the liquid from the tip, I suck it off my finger.
“You taste good,” I tell him.
I gasp as he turns my head and crashes his lips over mine.
“Have a taste of yourself, pretty delicious right?” he says in a low tone.
I’m careful as I raise my leg over him, not to make either of our injuries worse. The quicker we heal, the faster we get back to reality.
Not that I’m sure what that is. My future is blurry. Ivan will be after me. I probably have signed my death warrant.
Nikolai holds my face in his hands.
“Out of your head and on my cock,” he says sternly.
Using the arm of the couch, I rotate my hips, he guides me onto his dick, and as I stretch around him I let out a satisfied moan.
Wrapping my arm around his ribs, careful to miss the bullet hole, I press my lips against his fingers and roll my waist, feeling his cock hit deep inside.
I up the motions, adding in a lift and sink back down and he groans.
“Fuck, you feel so good,” he whispers against my neck.
His fingers gently wrap around my throat, he’s being too gentle.
“Harder, Niki. Please.”
I don’t care about the pain. I just want him to make me forget.
“Not this time. This time is love, baby.”
He slides down my bra, gliding his tongue along my jaw and all the way down, pushing me back by my throat slightly so he can put my perky nipple in his mouth.
“Keep rolling them hips,” he grunts and bites my breast, hard enough for me to scream out.
“You’re so close, I can feel it on my cock.”
He tightens his grip around my neck and pulls me back for another fiery kiss.
As he kisses all the air out of me, his finger circles my clit.
“Give in to me, let me have it.”
And that is all it takes. He holds me close against him as I come. Our moans fill the air between kisses.
He pushes our hips together, groaning out my name as he comes.
Holding my back against his chest, we both regain our breath. Our bodies have been through so much, yet that makes everything worth it.
“I want to use you, ruin you, and mark you as mine…” My heart flutters and so does my pussy. “But then I want to hold you in my arms and make you feel safe. Forever.”
Tears pool in my eyes and I swallow past the lump in my throat.
He is exactly everything I need in this life.
“And kiss me on the forehead?”
“Whatever you want, vedmochka.”
My first nickname. I don’t want to be that woman. I want to be the one he truly fell for. So I slowly shake my head, batting my lashes at him.
“No. I prefer Devil.”
“Is that right?”
“It’s the real me, Niki. The one I want you to love.”
He strokes my cheek, leaning in, his lips graze my earlobe.
“I fell for the fire inside you, d’yavolitsa, never forget that.”
“Come on, sleepy head, we have to get going.” Nikolai’s deep voice wakes me up from my slumber.
I push myself up from his chest and groan. Everything hurts.
“You drooled all over my chest.”
I work up some saliva in my mouth, grab his face, and kiss him.
“There you go, have some more.”
“Now I’m hard again,” he groans.
I slide my hand over his rippled abs and grab his dick.
“I can help you with it, if you’d like?” I say, batting my lashes.
I’ll never get enough of this man.
“No time. Alexei has been banging on the door for five minutes already, any longer he will be kicking the door from its hinges, trust me.”
“I need to check on Daniil anyway. It’s time to make plans with him and work out our next moves.” I sit myself up.
“Oh, just you and Daniil are making these plans?” His voice is stern.
“You have to get home to Elena, it’s not safe for me.”
“Why do you think Mikhail is coming to collect us? I will make it safe. Both you and Daniil will be coming back to my house.”
I shake my head, the panic starting to rise.
“I-I can’t. Not until I fix my mess.”
He grabs both of my hands in his.
“We do this. Together. Remember?”
“You’d risk everything for me? Niki, I…”
“A wise woman once told me you make sacrifices for the people you love.”
I choke on a sob and he pulls me into an embrace.
“I will choose you, again and again, Mila. We make this work. We solve this together, as a family.”
He pulls back and tips my chin up, placing a soft kiss on my forehead.
“There is one thing you need to remember about me, baby.”
“Hmm, what’s that?”
“I love like I fuck. Hard. Now get your ass ready. We’re going home.”
He taps my ass and I let out a giggle.
Home sounds good.
Perfect even.