Chapter 10 Acceptance
Over the next few weeks, shifting became easier.
It was still painful but each time the pain and recovery were less.
Capella and Sterling took every chance they got to be together.
They loved each other instantly, and though Aylin and I have not marked each other yet, I know I truly love him too.
During the day, I was still attending classes with Archer, and I feel like I am finally understanding and accepting this new life.
I am Lycan, and not just any Lycan, The Queen of the Cosmos and Luna of our pack.
I will have the most authority in my pack.
Aylin is the Alpha, sure, but everything gets run by the Luna.
My job is to keep Alyin calm, now that we are bonded if he were to lose me it could make him go insane.
Losing your mate is a death sentence to our kind, and if not death most go crazy.
I am the mother of the pack, caring for the young and old, which is why I have such a strong pull to care for them.
I am to manage internal affairs and relay any needed information to Alyin.
I am the leader to all the women of our pack, meaning anything woman related I will oversee and be present for like births.
In a situation of war, I am to protect the woman and children.
I will assist with negotiating with the other packs and will help decide if a new wolf or wolves will join our pack.
Lastly, I will bear and raise the Alphas children ensuring our blood and leadership line.
When it comes to being the Queen of the Cosmos that is what my earth name will be, once I die and ascend my new role will be Moon Goddess.
No one is privy to this information, which is why I am to be labeled Queen.
Queen because I have inherited this role from birth and I am a female leader, and I am to use Cosmos because I am to rule all nations emphasizing their structure and harmony instead of chaos.
I am to be a new type of Goddess though.
Since I am to unite all peoples my responsibilities will increase with each nation.
As of right now the Moon Goddess is responsible for lycan and werewolves and is able to grant and take away the ability to shift.
Taking away someone's ability to shift is the ultimate punishment so it is hardly done.
I do question why my ‘parents’ abilities were not taken away.
I will get to decide fated mates ensuring powerful bloodlines, I will be the divine force that provides guidance and blessings to the lycan, and werewolf.
As I bring harmony to this world I will be able to converse with and guide all creatures, and I will represent the harmony between human and creature, keeping the balance.
Most people were taught that I would come and be the Princess of the Galaxy, the one to bring peace to our peoples.
I think I am just going to start off that way, and after I meet with some of my other nations, announce the official title as queen.
I had a spiritual meeting with Hera and Agnes and they told me about my creation and the magnitude of it was hard to wrap my head around.
Hera informed me that even though they knew a Queen would soon be born they didn’t know when.
The lore is that eight stars had been on a collision path for thousands of years, every two years passing by each other but never close enough to touch, every two years getting closer.
The story is that these stars were the soles of the first of each species as well as the first Moon Goddess.
Once the 8 stars collided, the Queen of all the people would be born to the Moon Goddess and be raised by Werewolves, to one day unite our people.
Twenty one years ago, all 8 stars collided resulting in my birth.
Hera told me about how I would have power like no other and once Aylin and I sealed our bond and marked each other, I would be able to use my abilities to an even higher level.
Every Goddess has the same mark once they mated and marked their fated mate and it should be a black and white galaxy, and it needs to match their partner.
I should also be able to mind link with Aylin in any form from any distance away.
We knew already that Capella could link but I haven't been able to.
It was something I was looking forward to because he has had to travel a lot in regards to his mother’s poisoning.
I will be so grateful to always be able to tell if he was safe.
Everyday once I finish my teachings with Archer, I get to spend time with our people or Aylin depending if he is home.
The amount of love and trust I could feel from Aylin was nothing I have felt before.
We had some very long discussions about how I would not be Aylin’s first lover, but I would be his last and the fact that I was jealous was very evident.
I couldn’t blame him. He was 150 years old and to be honest I don’t think I would have waited either.
We also talked about how I am still kind of still a virgin, and I am nervous to take that next step.
Aylin is amazing and totally understands.
He did warn me again, my heat would arrive anytime because we are a bonded pair, the need for each other will be unstoppable, so if I wanted to wait longer, he would be willing to leave the grounds to stop himself from caving into the overwhelming desire.
I was nervous, sure, but I didn’t want to wait anymore, and I didn’t need my heat to tell me that.
I just needed to tell Aylin, and every time I try to, my nerves get the best of me but I know it will only be a matter of time until my heat gets here.