15. Say Im Yours
Chapter fifteen
Say I'm Yours
The large home was just as beautiful as the one Sebastian lived normally. Asher could both hear and smell the ocean, and something about that was soothing. The longer he was awake, the more he felt like himself instead of like his childhood self that he’d been in his dream. It had taken a long time to get past many of the things his parents had made him feel, particularly his mother.
She had clung to him in the aftermath of her dissolved mating, until she found another alpha, and then Asher was pushed to the side, replaced by someone else. His mother seemed not to need him to give her purpose anymore, and so Asher was discarded. It was always the same; when she was with an alpha, she ignored Asher, his wants and feelings weren’t needed and as soon as she was single again, she wanted to be a mom. It had been hard to go from being wanted to being unwanted, especially that first time, but he knew that those were not feelings he should ponder on. The past was the past and Asher couldn't change it, and he couldn’t make someone love him who didn’t love him… no matter how much he wanted it.
Sebastian flipped on lights as they entered into a large kitchen that was all white and shades of light blue. The whole place had a very beachy quality to it, and it was charming. Standing in the middle of the spotless, lovely kitchen really pulled Asher back to the current moment. The darkness outside precluded clear thought, only causing more fear as it was too similar to the dream that he just left, but now that he stood in a bright kitchen, surrounded by ordinary everyday objects, he was able to shake himself back into his head.
He turned to see Sebastian staring at him with a look that begged him to allow the alpha to help. Asher walked the few steps toward him to close the distance between their bodies and wrapped his arms around the alpha’s middle. Sebastian’s strong arms corded around him and squeezed him to his body. The embrace was comforting and Asher allowed himself to be comforted.
“I'm sorry alpha…”
“You don't have to apologize, Asher. You're allowed to be upset, and even if it hurts me to see you this way, I'm still here for you. I just want to help you feel better.”
“You already are, just by being here with me.” Asher whispered and stretched up to press a kiss to the alpha's jaw. “Can we go lay down? I just really want... to be held right now.”
“Whatever you need, Baby.” Sebastian said, locking the back door.
Asher didn't pay much attention to the layout of the house or the decor as he was guided through the large home and upstairs. This bedroom was different from the one in Sebastian's home. It didn't have all of the car paraphernalia, but it was still very nicely decorated in shades of turquoise and sky blue, a large picture of the ocean and sky hanging above the enormous bed that was draped in transparent, white material. Asher didn't wait to be prompted to go to the bed. He pulled the covers back before removing his clothes down to just his underwear, leaving them in a little pile beside the bed. He settled between the sheets and looked back over his shoulder, honey eyes full of need as he scooted over a little to make room, asking with out words for the alpha to join him. Sebastian followed his omega’s example and pulled off his clothes.
“Do you want me to turn off the lights?”
Asher was uncertain if he wanted to be in the dark, but he didn't want to lay in the room with all of the lights on. One entire wall of the space was windows, whose curtains let the moonlight in and he knew the full moon would offer some light within the space, so he made a noise to the affirmative.
Sebastian turned off the lights and in seconds had crawled into the bed behind him, not bothering to go around to his own side. He spooned his larger body up against the back of Asher's. The omega felt cool against him and he wrapped his arms around his slender form, pulling them flush together as he nosed his way into Asher's dark hair. The omega still smelled sad, but it was weakening now that he was being held and some of his cherry scent was returning.
Sebastian knew that he just needed to be patient and let Asher open his heart in his own time. It was quiet, the only sounds interrupting the silence were their own soft breaths and the distant lull of the ocean outside. Asher broke the quiet with a whisper.
“I've never told you about my family, have I?”
Sebastian thought about that. Asher had insinuated several times that he didn't have a good relationship with them, but he'd never explicitly stated what had happened between them to cause the rift.
“No, you haven't told me anything except that you don't get along with them. Did something happen with your family? Is that why you’re so upset?”
“It’s a really complicated and… unpleasant story.”
Sebastian stroked Asher’s velveteen skin and kissed his soft hair, breathing him in and hating the scent of rain that was still present. He didn’t want Asher to have to relive whatever tragedies his past held, but he knew that sometimes talking was the best thing.
“Will you tell me?”
Asher took in a long breath and blew it out slowly before he began.
“Well, I guess it all starts with my parents’ divorce. They dissolved their mating when I was 8 years old… that’s when my father disowned me.” Asher said and Sebastian kissed the nape of his neck gently.
“I’m sorry you had to go through so much at such a young age.”
“Over the years, I’ve put a lot together from overheard conversations and things my mother has told me. I think my father married my mother for her beauty, and she married him for his fortune. My biological dad is a very wealthy alpha from a rich family. I haven't seen him for a very long time, not since I was a kid. As far as I know he got mated again, but I really couldn’t say. Hell, I might even have step siblings out there somewhere or half siblings…” Asher went quiet for a moment, but Sebastian didn’t interrupt. There was nothing for him to do but let Asher speak. “My dad cheated on my mom for a very long time. He apparently had many mistresses throughout the time they were together, but my mom just ignored it as long as she could, until that wasn’t an option anymore. He ended up leaving her for an omega who was barely 18, and she got a small divorce settlement for dissolving their mating peacefully, and custody of me... the child that neither of them really wanted.”
Sebastian couldn’t imagine that. Who wouldn’t want Asher in their lives? His omega only made the things he touched more beautiful, an artist who painted himself a lovely world to live in. His heart was heavy as Asher quivered in his hold and sniffled again.
“Your father is a jackass who doesn’t know what he lost. You’re perfect and you didn’t do anything wrong.”
Asher gave a small nod, but that was all the acknowledgement that he’d heard his words before he continued. Letting out his bottled up emotions was helping to relieve some of the distress that had built up in him like a rain cloud, ready to pour out his feelings, the thunderstorm of his emotions brewing in his heart and the only thing that made it even slightly bearable was letting out some of the dark cloud and sharing his burden with Sebastian.
“My mother and I were very close after the mating dissolution, but once she got mated again, she seemed to fold herself into a new shape to fit the tastes of the alpha that she mated with. Then she got mated again and again... My current stepfather is number six, and he's probably the worst out of all the stepfathers that I've had. Most of the other ones just wanted to have nannies take care of me, or else to send me away to boarding school until I was old enough to disappear off to college. My current stepfather however... wanted me to be like my mother. He said that I’m a ‘decently attractive’ omega and with a little ‘attitude adjustment’ I could be a trophy mate for a rich alpha. They wanted me to be just another one of the things that they collect and then lose interest in once they have them. I didn't want to be someone’s… possession.”
“You said once that you almost didn’t give me a chance. Is that why? Because I'm wealthy?”
“Yes…” Asher whispered. “And that's why it's always been so important to me that you don't spend money on me.” Asher rolled around in his embrace so they were facing each other, only the silvery light of the moon, cast from the windows to light the scene as the omega looked up at him, and even in the dark, the desperation in his eyes was clear.
“I don't want you to see me as someone who just wants your money or influence or… whatever. I’m not… I’m not just something that can be bought!” The last words were spoken with deep conviction and Sebastian felt his own hands tighten against Asher’s back, his fingertips sinking into the soft parts of his form.
“I know that, Asher. I really know. I would never try to buy you…” Sebastian slid his hand around to the front and took the omega’s chin between his fingers, encouraging him to look directly into his eyes. “You are priceless.”
"Alpha…” Asher whispered, emotion bursting through the single word.
"Omega.” Sebastian replied, letting his own feelings color his tone as he added. “My omega.”
“Yours… if you’ll have me.”
“I wouldn’t have anyone else… I promise, I’ll never have anyone else.”
Asher understood the words for their true meaning. Sebastian had listened to the story of his childhood and his parents, and he was letting him know in his own way that he would be faithful. The omega stretched up and kissed him, letting his lips linger there, kissing him over and over, but never deepening it. He pulled back and gave a soft, watery laugh.
“I’m trusting you, Sebastian… Please… be gentle with my heart.”
“I’ll keep it safe, and I won’t ever break it.” Sebastian bumped their noses and kissed his lips lightly. “There’s no getting rid of me now.” He joked lightly and Asher gave a little giggle that he counted as a win.
“I don’t want to get rid of you.” Asher answered, lips smiling, even as the wetness on his lashes had yet to dry. “I want you closer… I want you as close as you can get, until I am you and you are me.”
Sebastian smiled at the omega’s sweet words, and then gasped as Asher leaned forward and gave a long, hot lick up the side of his neck, over his scent gland, making Sebastian’s scent bloom from him and Asher nuzzled in there, bathing in his scent at the strongest place. The alpha realized in that moment that they were both almost naked, a situation Asher seemed to have figured out first as his small, soft hand dipped into the confines of his underwear, finding his semi-hard cock, using his palm to stroke him to full hardness. It was a whiplash of moods, from serious to sexual and though Sebastian’s body responded to the touch of the omega he loved without thought, his mind was still trying to catch up to the sudden left turn into this territory.
“Baby… nngh… what? What are you doing?”
“Getting you closer. I want you inside me.” Asher paused his stroking but didn’t remove his hand from his underwear. “Can I just… have you inside me for a while? I just want to feel connected to you.”
“You want to have sex? Right now?”
“Not… really sex. I just want to… cockwarm you.”
“Oh.” That hadn’t been what he expected, but he felt the soft exhale of a silent laugh as his cock twitched against Asher’s hand.
“Is that a yes?”
“If that’s what you need, Baby.”
Asher hummed an affirmative and resumed his gentle stroking as one of Sebastian’s hands slid down his spine and past the barrier of his underwear until he could dip his fingers between Asher’s cheeks to feel a slight wetness. Asher usually got much wetter when they were going to have sex, but this wasn’t simple desire, but a deeper need for comfort. Asher needed to feel loved and cherished. Sebastian wasn’t sure exactly what had happened to bring on this tide of emotions today, but they had a whole weekend for him to find out. He knew it had something to do with the things the omega had told him about his past, but this wasn’t the moment to push him on it.
The alpha carefully stretched him until his hole was relaxed and he was wet enough to allow entrance. Sebastian maneuvered them around until he was sitting with his back against the headboard and Asher was straddling him. The omega clearly didn’t need prompting to slide down onto his hard cock, making him hiss in a breath between his teeth. As the omega settled, arms looped around his middle, head on the alpha’s shoulder, he relaxed.
Sebastian tugged the comforter up and bundled it around the omega in his lap so he wouldn’t be cold. It was pleasant, holding Asher while he was totally relaxed, his body loose and pliant. He could feel the trust that Asher had for him, radiating through that invisible connection that seemed to exist between them. When he was with Asher, it was like many invisible harp strings were corded between them; whenever one of the omega’s strings were plucked, Sebstian could feel the resonance in his own soul.
Was that just part of loving someone? He'd never truly been in love before, but he knew that this was love. If he hadn't been sure of it before, he most certainly was now. It was easy to mistake love for simple dalliance and pleasure, both of which he found in Asher, but this evening, seeing him so upset, crying and hurt, Sebastian unable to immediately fix whatever it was that had the omega’s tears falling had proven it. That was the evidence in his mind that what he felt for Asher was more than what he'd felt for others. It was the first time he'd ever felt like there was a gaping wound in his own chest, just because someone else was crying and upset. It was far beyond what he’d ever felt of pity or even empathy. The need to help his omega was deep and abiding and he knew that he'd never forget this feeling, and he'd never forgive the one who had hurt his precious Cherry.
Asher was surrounded by the scent of sandalwood and citrus and a slight hint of his own scent, but it was the scent of the alpha that he wanted that made him feel so relaxed. He’d never responded so strongly to anyone's scent before. The only comparison he had was Trevor, his best friend. His scent was comforting to Asher's wolf, because he trusted him, but it wasn't the same. With Trevor, it was friendship and comfort, but it was not this… almost unreasoning trust, the feeling that his wolf had inside him that they were now completely safe. His wolf had been the one longing to cockwarm their alpha, and Asher had given into the impulse because he wanted comfort. In moments of emotional upheaval, his omega was normally more in tune with what he truly needed on a physical level. His human half always thought more about emotions, whereas his wolf was guided purely by instinct, and that instinct directed all of his needs and his wants at Sebastian.
The feeling of being stretched around the alpha’s cock, the warm, gentle throbbing of his hole and the almost unbearable fullness of Sebastian balls-deep inside him, a huge, hot, and very welcome invasion inside his body, had Asher purring gently and nuzzling the alpha’s neck. He knew that he needed to finish telling the alpha why he’d been upset, but he wanted physical comfort more than anything. It relaxed his wolf, but as he built up the courage to speak again, it was the feeling of warm arms around him that made him brave.
Asher began to speak, just a whisper but in the silent room, with his lips close to Sebastian’s neck, he was heard easily.
“My mom called me… I haven’t spoken to her at all since I moved out and she and my stepfather made it very clear they wanted nothing to do with me if I was going to refuse to fall in line.” Asher sighed, but sadness didn’t overwhelm him this time, he was warm and safe in Sebastian’s embrace. “She saw the Cherry Breeze ads and thought I was becoming a model… she wanted me to pursue it… because wealthy alphas like to have a model as a mate and some alpha that my stepfather works with saw my picture and… ugh … wanted to meet me. She basically wants me to sell myself to this rando- oww … Sebastian?”
Asher cut off mid-sentence as the alpha’s arms went from embracing to crushing. Sebastian growled and the omega stopped squirming in his hold, just leaning his head back a bit to see that Sebastian’s eyes were glowing a vibrant bloodred. The omega squirmed a bit, then gasped and jerked at the unexpected feeling of Sebastian’s knot expanding inside him, stretching his hole wider, but he could feel that the alpha wasn’t cumming. It was like his body was trying to keep him in place. The arms squeezing him were locked around his body so tightly that he couldn’t get deep breaths and the muscles in the alpha’s biceps quivered with the strain of how tightly he was binding the omega against his chest. That low, pumping growl was coming out on each heavy exhale, as the alpha’s chest expanded, had Asher’s own breath wheezed out of his lungs at the pressure against his ribcage.
“A-Alpha..?”
“Mine.”
Asher’s eyes widened as he realized what was happening. Sebastian’s wolf had come forward when he’d mentioned the other alpha wanting him. The alpha’s wolf was claiming him… Asher felt his own wolf struggling to the forefront, and knew his own eyes must be glowing blue, but he had more control than the alpha. He was still the one directing his body. Since his arms were not held in the crushing embrace, he gently carded his hands through Sebastian’s black hair, pushing it out of his face and smoothing his hands over his handsome features, speaking somewhat breathlessly as he tried to soothe the agitation of the alpha locked inside him.
“Shh… It’s okay, alpha. It’s okay. Just relax…”
Sebastian’s growl was still rumbling against Asher’s chest when the alpha snarled again.
“Mine. My omega…. Mine.” Sebastian leaned his face closer until he could nudge him with his nose and lips against his cheek and jaw. "Omega… say it… My omega…”
Asher melted completely and turned his face to nuzzle their noses together, purring gently.
“Yours. Your omega.”
“Mm… yes. Mine." Sebastian growled, voice deep and smug before nosing into his cheek again, insistently. "Your alpha… say… Your alpha…”
Normally, Asher would have laughed at the adorableness of Sebastian’s wolf encouraging him to claim him, but in that moment he was soft for him.
“My alpha… All mine.”
“Your alpha… My omega.”
They scented for a long time, Sebastian’s growl turning to a purr as he nudged at him a bit more insistently than he normally would, his wolf unwilling to cede control back to him, but Asher didn’t mind, though he was sure his ribs would be bruised from the squeeze of Sebastian’s arms. As he was covered in sandalwood and citrus, Asher’s own wolf wrestled more and more of his control from him until he finally gave in. There was no fighting his nature when his wolf was so agitated, and he could feel the near-feral desire to reassure their alpha that they didn’t want anyone other than him.
“My alpha… My only alpha.” Asher purred, kissing him along his cheek and jaw, scenting him heavily as he comforted him. “I wouldn’t let any other alphas inside me. Only you belong here.” He whispered, shifting his hips as best he could in Sebastian’s binding hold.
Sebastian growled at that, but it was a sound of approval as one of his arms loosened and slid down his back and under his ass, until his fingers could caress the place they were joined, gently petting soft fingertips over the omega’s stretched rim.
“My place… Only mine…” The alpha rumbled, pulling back enough to look into his eyes, blue meeting red.
“Your place, alpha. Only for you.” With one of Sebastian’s arms loosened, the omega was able to sneak a hand between them until his fingers met with those of the alpha, that still gently stroked him where they were joined. He wrapped his fingers around the bit of the alpha’s knot that he could touch, just the base, and gave a gentle squeeze that had Sebastian moaning, eyes going half-lidded.
“This is mine.” Asher stated harshly and nipped Sebastian’s lips. “Only mine.”
“My knot is yours, omega.”
Asher purred in pleasure at that thought and let go of what little control he still had, allowing his wolf to come forward, just as Sebastian’s had done, his body guided by pure instinct rather than conscious choice as he leaned forward and connected his lips with Sebastian. The omega slid his tongue into Sebastian’s mouth, licking into him and swallowing down the groan that the alpha made in response to the soft tongue lapping at the roof of his mouth. Asher pulled his tongue back and whispered right against the alpha’s open mouth.
“Take me, alpha.”
Sebastian bent his legs up, using his heels for leverage, he rolled his body forward until Asher was on his back, head down by the footboard and Sebastian was between his spread thighs, still buried knot-deep inside him. The alpha rolled his hips in a little swivel, shifting the cock that was still knotting and sheathed inside his omega. Asher arched up into his body and made a soft keening sound of pleasure as he bared his neck and Sebastian took his opportunity to attach his mouth to the pale column, sucking up dark hickeys. He’d never marked Asher before, because Asher hadn’t agreed to be his, but now he’d finally claimed him, and he could hold back no longer, not that he wanted to.
For Sebastian, letting his wolf in control wasn’t like a separate entity taking over his body, because his animal side was part of him, but it removed the human barriers, like embarrassment and decorum. His wolf didn’t have a single thought about anything but his omega as he rolled his hips, knot slowly relaxing until he could pull it free from the taut, pink, perfect ring of muscle that was his pretty omega’s hole. He thrust back in with a hard jolt, forcing his still partially formed knot back through Asher’s tight entrance, and below him, his omega spasmed like he’d just been hit with an electric shock.
“Oh… Oh! alpha… m-more! Please, please more!” Asher cried out, hands clawing at his back as his body seized and shuddered with the intensity of his reaction.
Sebastian slid his arms up under Asher’s back until he could curl his hands around the omega’s shoulders, bracing him in place.
“Mine…”
That was all the warning Asher got before Sebastian began to fuck him hard and fast, his knot seemingly stuck in it’s half-formed state, partially swollen. It was a painful pleasure as the engorged bulb pressed into him and pulled out of him over and over. He poured slick, making it hot and wet between them as Sebastian fucked him deep. Even with the element of pain, his omega was in ecstasy at the feeling of their alpha taking them. He wanted to be mounted properly. The wolf wanted to show Sebastian that he was a good omega, but that would have to wait for later. His orgasm was building deep inside him, a firework of pleasure, ready to explode.
He could feel the alpha’s knot getting larger again as his hips sped up and his thrusts gained more power, shaking the entire bed until it slammed against the wall and creaked with each movement. The framed photograph of the beach on the wall over the bed fell, slid behind the bed and shattered, but neither of them reacted at all, as their joint orgasm was building. Sebastian buried his face in Asher’s neck to bite and suck at him, growling against his skin, possessive, claiming words, until a particularly well aimed thrust dragged Sebastian’s knot against his prostate and Asher screamed, going rigid to the point of quivering, body tightening around the alpha as slick gushed out of him to the point of squirting, making everything slick, hot and wet.
Sebastian’s moan was almost a scream as Asher’s body clamped down on him with so much force it was a little painful, slick squirted between them, splattering up his body and down his thighs, he could feel it gush over his balls and most of all around the cock that was still sheathed inside the omega’s orgasming body. His body moved on pure instinct as his hands tightened on Asher’s shoulders and he forced his hips forward, pushing his almost fully formed knot into Asher’s ass just as his orgasm hit him and the omega jerked and clawed at his back harder as Sebastian came inside him. Asher’s nails left long throbbing trails down his back, but he loved the evidence of his omega’s pleasure in his own skin, which had another jet of cum pouring into Asher’s willing body.
They throbbed and quivered together through a shared, powerful orgasm. Their bodies were both overheated, overwhelmed and covered in slick, but their state was not important as they clung to each other, shivering and scenting, kissing whenever their lips were close enough. They both purred gently, content in the aftermath of their powerful admissions and even more powerful pleasure. They didn’t speak for a long time, not feeling the need to fill the peace with chatter. There was nothing to say that they weren’t already saying with their bodies. Their wolves faded back into the background of their minds, until chocolate eyes met honey ones in the soft moonlight.
Sebastian gave his lips the lightest, most feather soft kiss and eased himself out of Asher’s body, making the omega whimper softly. Sebastian rolled to the side, collapsing onto the bed with a heavy breath, exhausted. Asher rolled into him, wiggling his way up under his arm, so he was pressed to his side and Sebastian wrapped his arm around him. The omega pillowed his head on his chest, quiet and still for a time, but he was the first one to break the silence.
"Alpha?”
“Hm?”
“I want a shower and I’m hungry…”
“My needy Baby.” Sebastian teased lightly.
“The neediest and greediest, but you already claimed me, so there’s no escape now.” Asher said, and Sebastian felt the sting of tears at the return of his playful tone. He’d missed his sassy little smartmouth.
“Whatever you want, Cherry.”
They showered together, spending more time kissing under the spray of warm water than actually washing. Feeling sensitive in the aftermath of their wolves taking over, it went without saying that they both needed the intimacy in that moment. Even after they got out and traversed back through the house to the kitchen to find food, Asher was held to the alpha’s side by a strong arm around his waist. All they found in the non-perishable items was pancake mix, so they made pancakes and fed each other, letting the domestic feel of the moment take over the previous emotional upheaval. Asher enjoyed Sebastian constantly pulling him closer and kissing him, nosing into any skin he could reach, whispering that soft word that made his belly swoop every time, ‘Mine’ .