Chapter 26
I woke up feeling like a train had run me over.
Very sure I wasn't intoxicated in the afternoon when I stormed back to Ivan's club.
Shit, I was still at his club. The floodgate of embarrassing memories came flooding in and I felt like screaming.
I could smell his scent all over me and my heart began pacing.
Had we, no we couldn't have but I remembered straddling his lap asking him for it.
The idea terrified me yet thrilled me at the same time.
I listened to any signs from my body signaling if the deed was done.
I felt okay other than the groggy feeling in my head.
"Drink this," he said handing me over a mug with something steaming from it.
I looked at him surprised I wasn't aware he was in the room with me.
He sat at the edge of the bed holding the tea for me and I sat upright taking it from him gingerly.
The silence in the room was awkward at least on my side.
He looked calm, his hair messy and very attractive.
Has his hair always been that attractive.
He was in a black shirt rolled up exposing his tattoos which flexed under his strength every time his arm moved.
I had him sigh and watched him run a hand through his hair.
Everything else around me had faded and all I felt and saw was his overwhelming presence.
I felt my pants become tighter and I snapped out of whatever state I was in.
I felt like a teenager who had gotten his first boner.
I was grateful for the bedsheet which was hiding my erection which would have been obvious by now.
Even with the bedsheet his eyes met mine and I could tell he knew.
His grey eyes looked more warmer than usual or was it because of the proximity between us.
I never got close enough to see how dangerously beautiful he was.
"Kayde, if you keep staring I won't be able to hold back this time," he said.
I took a sip of the liquid which smelled so refreshing.
When it hit my tongue I couldn't help releasing a moan.
It felt like it was exactly what I needed.
"What is this?" I asked. "Melisa officinalis tea.
" The word sounded familiar but I couldn't place it where I heard it from.
"It's lemon balm tea, it will help clear your mind from the incense.
I'm sorry I had to use it on you," he said quietly.
He drugged me! I felt the anger rising and I was about to lash at him and my eyes met his again and it all melted away.
What had changed, why was I feeling safe around him.
A part of me was glad he did that I don't think I would have been happy if anything had happened between us. "Don't do that again."
"You are not angry?" he asked. I wish I was then maybe I could yell andblame him for Valentina's video.
I didn't trust my voice to answer and I just nodded.
My eyes found his and the tension in the room increased.
His lips looked delicious all of a sudden.
"Kayde," he breathed my name a prayer on his lips.
Something in me snapped and I pulled him for a kiss.
I knew I was playing on a minefield but this is what I wanted.
I don't know why I hated that he thought I only came to him when I was intoxicated.
That might have been the case but the alcohol made me brave.
How could I tell him that I was scared my father would come from nowhere and beat the hell out of him but this was Ivan and I was not sixteen anymore I reminded myself.
"Detective, let's talk,"he said pulling away.
His hand found its way on my face as he caressed my lip gently.
Although he said he wanted to talk the thoughts running in his mind were bare before me in his eyes.
He pulled me in for a slow savory kiss one that spoke of promises that one day would soon be fulfilled.
My body couldn't understand the message and I willed myself to stay in control.
He stood up pulling away as I went back to drinking my concoction.
"The video footage which was released has a suspect who might be the one who leaked it.
If you want I can drive you there to meet him.
My men already have him. He is one of the best hackers in the black market going by the name Blck Python.
He is around forty five years old and has been in the game since he was thirteen," he explained.
I know he was trying to be helpful because I could tell he already knew who was behind the hacker.
"Thank you for the offer but I'll find information on my own.
I want to get to the bottom of this. This isn't just about my fiancee's reputation it's also about this entire case's credibility.
You are still a suspect and I don't want you compromising the entire investigation.
I won't meet the hacker but I'll investigate him," I answered.
His shoulders became stiff for a moment then he dropped them.
I could tell he wanted to argue against my words but instead he chose silence.
Putting the mug on the bedside table I got out of bed.
I wrapped my arms around his waist while he was still turned watching the city outside.
The night was gorgeous in this part of the city.
His body was completely stiff under my touch.
I couldn't tell what was wrong with me because I just wanted my hands around him.
"Detective this is wrong, I can tell the attraction is palpable but I am not a rebound for you.
I like my partners straightforward and no games.
These games you play do not sit well with me.
How many times have you come to me in a reasonable state and acted like this.
Furthermore, you are an engaged man who is cheating on his fiancee.
I may be crooked in a lot of ways but loyalty is one of the things I cherish," he said.
"What can I do to prove to you that this isn't me leeching on you for emotional support?
" I whispered quietly planting a kiss on his neck.
For a moment I thought I had finally broken through his walls when he turned to face me.
His eyes hovered mine emotions running in them.
His words were the bullet that hit my heart, unforgiving.
"Just leave."