Chapter 29
"I'm really sorry Kayde, I really don't know what to say to explain myself I never meant to hurt you," she wept.
"Why Val, if you were so unhappy you could have said something. Was there anything you needed and I wouldn't have provided for you. Why that man? Do you realize I'm no longer going to be involved in the case from now on?"
The questions kept coming and I just couldn't stop. There were questions I didn't ask her out loud since I had the answers to those questions. I was wrong. Even as I stared across the office room Ivan let us use to talk I still felt uneasy.
"Let's go home," I said. Her eyes met mine and I knew she saw the restraint I had trying not to lose my cool with her.
I wanted to shout or scream at something but I didn't want to hurt her feelings.
I offered her my hand and led her out. Ivan stood with his right hand man in a deep conversation in the parking lot.
"Detective Williams I see you are leaving.
I thought you were excited to work for me today.
Just know I keep counting the days you are going to be absent and you'll have to repay them.
Your friend Detective Suarez is quite the charmer.
Even with him detesting me he has never missed a single day from his work with Ramon.
He is almost done but seems like you are just beginning .
How prudent of you," he said sarcastically.
Ignoring him I ushered Valentina into the car and drove away. If I said anything to him he would have angered me to the point I would have had to punch the man. I gripped the wheel tightly sweat beading on my forehead doing my best not to lose control in front of Valentina.
"Does he always make you angry," she meekly asked. My thoughts went to all the times I had interacted with Ivan and yes he did make me angry plus also other emotions I would rather not discuss.
"Yes he does and I hate the way he unravels me.
He is a criminal who no one has evidence on to keep behind bars.
He just walks around scot-free like some kind of celebrity.
One day I'm going to ensure he gets locked in for a very long time and when the time comes he won't have that stupid smirk on his face," I answered.
"This is the first time I've seen you really worked up about someone," she said quietly. I ignored those words and remained quiet for the rest of the drive home. I knew what she wanted I could hear her thoughts spiraling even without saying a word.
I also knew I wanted Ivan flashed out of my system. I kept looking for ways to get out of the engagement yet now that I got a valid one I couldn't bring myself to. Instead I chose to protect her dignity and would also make her my wife.
Ivan and I never really stood a shot. He was a criminal and I was a law enforcer, he was a proud smug mafia boss and I was an upright detective who valued getting justice for the innocent and also my father would never let me be with him.
He would disown me. Which left me with one safe option for my career.
Love my soon to be wife who was not a criminal just a woman who made a mistake since the man she loved refused to touch her. That was one thing the prime minister was right about.
I turned off the engine getting out of the car to open Valentina's door.
Her face was etched in surprise as I took her hand yet again while I walked her to the door.
I opened it with a click tension seeping into the air.
Was I really about to do this. It was the only way to let Valentina feel secure.
"Kayde can we please talk," she said. I turned to her, her eyes still glittering with unshed tears her words a plea. I wiped a stray tear which was slowly making its way down her milky skin. Her hair which looked neat before was now in a mess for the number of times she ran her hands in it.
"You don't have to say anything to me," I said. Even though I knew she owed me an explanation I think I was too proud to hear it.
"I'm sorry that I cheated on you with Rousell it meant nothing to me. I'm not in love with him it was just in the heat of the moment. I've known him from back in college at that time I didn't know he was the prime minister when he asked me to meet up with him.
I didn't know the news about the prime Minister's missing daughter was someone from my past who I knew. When we met it rekindled some sort of familiarity since he looked at me the way a man looks at a woman.
You just look at me like a roommate and nothing more. It felt good to be wanted yet I didn't expect it to go that far. It was wrong Kayde it won't happen again just please don't break the engagement," she cried.
It was soothing to touch her face wiping away her tears in some way. Was it guilt I felt every word she spoke was nothing but the truth. It was all my fault. I kept stalling and told her to wait until we are married even when I knew she wanted me.
"I'm sorry too Val this is all my fault and I am sorry you were dragged into this mess. As for the wedding don't worry about it now. Let's figure it out together," I consoled.
Her eyes found mine and I could see that longing even as they fell on my lips.
This was it. There was no turning back. My eyes closed voluntarily as I willed myself to kiss her.
Her lips were soft as always and they felt sweet on mine.
It wasn't like what it felt with Ivan that train wreck of emotions consuming us the moment our lips touched.
This was different. It was peaceful and safe. Safe was the better option always would be.
"You don't have to do this," she said.
"I haven't showered in days and I feel rather filthy let's go shower together Valentina," I whispered. I could see the fire ignite in her just like it always did when I saw Ivan even without him laying a hand on me.
I pulled her in the bedroom and into the bathroom her hands finding their way to my chest my body responding on its own accord. That was good enough for me to keep going.
Valentina lay in my arms deep in slumber her face buried in my chest. Her hair smelt divine but nothing like Ivan. I wondered how it would be to be asleep in his arms would he cuddle me. He didn't look like the cuddling type though.
I pushed away thoughts of him out of my head. What mattered was the woman in my arms and her lovely body wrapped around mine even as I closed my eyes to sleep.
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