Chapter 19 #2
I shift closer to him as the spell of his touch takes over me and he hums. His hands trace up my sides until he frames my face, tilting it up until I’m staring into his heated eyes.
“I can fake a lot of things, sunshine, but this?” His fingers tighten in my hair and I let out a small moan. “This need to always be touching you, to mark you so the whole world knows that you’re mine, and the more than indecent things I imagine doing to you? I can’t fake any of that.”
I’m practically panting from his words alone and my hands scramble for purchase, gripping the lapels of his suit jacket.
“What if I don’t want you to fake it?” I ask breathlessly.
He dips his head, pressing our foreheads together. “Sydney.”
I suck in a shaky breath and curl my fingers tighter against his chest.
He’s right.
This pull between us can’t be faked.
Because everything he just said, is everything I haven’t stopped thinking about since our almost kiss last night.
I want him to mark me.
I want him to make me his. Even if it’s only for this moment.
I want him to do every single thing he’s thought of doing to me.
Because for me, there’s only ever been him.
And if this is the only real thing I can have of him from all of this, I can make it be enough.
For however long this arrangement goes, I’ll take whatever he’s willing to give me.
Happily.
And hopefully on my knees.
“The rules,” he groans, shaking his head.
“Fuck the rules,” I rush out. Pressing up on my toes, I lightly brush my lips over his. Pulling back, I lock my eyes with his. “You don’t have to fake it with me.”
I lick my lips and his eyes drop to my mouth. His hands pulse in my hair and his jaw ticks, a battle of wills taking over his features.
The air around us thickens to the point of suffocation, and just when I think I’ve pushed him too far, he says two little words that rock me to my core.
“Fuck it.”
His mouth slams onto mine and a mewling moan escapes my throat at the strength behind it. My arms wrap around his neck, fingers threading into his hair as his tongue dances with mine.
One of his hands slips from my hair, trailing down and an embarrassingly loud moan bursts out of me when it settles at the base of my throat. Lawson pauses, pulling back and I crack my eyes open to see him watching me with a flare of barely contained hunger.
“You can’t make noises like that when I can’t take my time to see how many more I can pull from you. Anyone could come out here and catch us.”
“Then take me somewhere.” I grip onto the sudden confidence with both hands, and pull his face back to mine.
His resolve breaks and he dives back in, fiercely claiming my mouth. He starts to move, walking me backwards and my back slams into a wall. The soft click of a door opening catches my attention and I pull away, looking down at his hand on a door handle.
“Are you sure?”
I turn, gazing up into his eyes swimming with nerves. Biting my lip, I lay my hand on top of his and push the door open wider. “I’ve always been sure about you, Lawson.”
“Thank fuck,” he breathes and I squeal when he picks me up with one arm and strides through the threshold, closing the door behind us.
My back meets the cool wood and I silently thank the designer who put a slit in this dress as I wrap my legs around his trim waist. He groans into my mouth as I roll my hips, grinding against his hard length.
Oh, fuck! He’s going to break me in more ways than one.
“Sydney,” he gasps, pushing his hips into mine.
“Lawson,” I moan, throwing my head back as sparks dance over my skin.
His hand slides up the slit of my dress, thumb brushing the edge of my soaked panties. I shift my hips, chasing his touch and he chuckles into our kiss.
“Needy are we?” I nip at his lips, eliciting a low moan from his throat. “God the things I want to do to you,” he growls.
“Do them.” I gasp when his thumb slips under my panties, teasing the edge of my clit.
“Not here. You deserve better than a broom closet.”
My heart swells at his words and I pull his face back to mine. His thumb tortures me with easy swipes and I whine into our kiss.
“Fuck, do something Lawson. Please!”
I feel him smirk and he chuckles darkly. “I quite like hearing you beg, sunshine.”
“I’ll do whatever you want, just touch me. Please.”
He swallows my scream of pleasure when he twists his hand and slips a finger inside me. Slowly, he pumps in and out while his thumb circles my clit.
“Fuck, you’re so tight, sweetheart.”
I tilt my hips for more as my hand drops between us to the front of his pants, tracing the hard outline of his cock. He groans into my mouth and slips a second finger into me.
I wince slightly at the stretch but quickly cover it up by biting his lip and chasing the sting away with my tongue. A feeling of pure ecstasy starts building in my core and I throw my head back, panting out a plea for him to keep going.
“I’m going to—”
“Be my good girl and come all over my fingers.”
His words are my undoing and I lean forward, sinking my teeth into his neck to muffle the sounds of my cries as my orgasm takes hold.
My body racks with shivers and my heartbeat rages in my ears. The small room echoes with our panting and Lawson slowly withdraws his hand from under my dress. I drop down to stand on my unsteady feet.
His arms stay locked around me and I blink up at him. Smiling softly, he leans down and presses a soft kiss to my lips and I lose myself in the feel of him all over again.
He shifts and my eyes drop to his still prominent outline. I reach out but he intercepts my hand and brings it to his lips. “Next time. This was for you, sunshine.”
“But—”
He cuts me off with another kiss and I melt into him.
“We have time,” he whispers against my lips.
I jump when there’s a sharp knock on the door behind me. Lawson clutches me to his chest as a throat clears on the other side of the door and the voice of the wedding planner calls out.
“It’s time for your speeches if you—just, whenever you’re ready.”
I bury my face in his chest and he chuckles as the sound of her heels fades down the hallway.
“Times up,” I whisper and look up into his softened features.
He leans down and speaks two more damning words against my lips. “For now.”