Chapter 34 #2
I peel back, finding his lust-hazed stare. “Show me.”
Jayden swallows. His flushed face deepening a few shades.
I love every version of him, but this bashful one wrecks me.
For once, it feels like we’re on an even keel. Or maybe, I finally have control over him.
The thought is electrifying. The sensation emboldens me as I pull back and sit on my heels between his legs.
Peeling his underwear down from the top of his thighs to his knees, I tell him, “Show me how you fuck yourself, JJ.”
With a deep inhale, Jayden opens the nightstand drawer and takes out the black leather pouch I recall from the hotel.
I’m certain I’ve seen it before, when we’ve been on the road.
The realization makes me wonder if he fucked himself then to thoughts of me.
All those times we hung out together in my suite, in his suite…
I hope he did.
I want that.
I need it.
Jayden drags a throw pillow under his ass. Tilting his hips up so that when he shucks off his underwear and spreads his legs, he’s totally exposed to me.
“Is it always me?” I ask, shuffling backwards off the bed.
My voice is low and graveled. I barely recognize it over the relentless hammering of my pulse. Jayden’s just situating himself, and I’m already unraveling at the sight of him.
Naked.
Yards upon yards of lustrous, velvety skin, all laid out for me. Lean muscles, pushing and pulling beneath the surface.
Perfect.
So fucking perfect, my cock aches at the sight of him as his long cock slaps to his stomach.
“Has it always been me you think about when you fuck yourself?”
His eyes go wide, and something hot and dark twists in me.
Taking the bottle of lube that rolled away from him, I lean close. The pads of my fingers burn with the slight friction of the light smattering of hair peppering his skin when my fingertips graze from his ankle to his knee.
“Say ‘yes,’ Jayden,” I bite out, snapping the cap open and squeezing a long string of lube over his cock. Jayden hisses, and I circle my wrist so that the liquid drizzles over his balls to the seam of his ass. “Say it. Say it’s me. Always me.”
He nods, holding my stare with a hard, audible swallow.
“Say it,” I demand, squirting more lube from the tip of his erection down the crease of his ass.
“It’s you, Eli,” he groans through his teeth. “Always. Always is. Always has been. Always will be.”
“Too fucking right, Baby.” The words grind out of my mouth. No thought. Only feeling.
Completely unbridled. Because fuck me, I’m so hard right now, there’s no blood left upstairs to correlate anything.
One of his hands claws at the back of his thigh, parting his cheeks, and he moans while I douse him in more lube. His other hand fists the toy he took out of the pouch tight at his groin, and before I pull back, I make sure it’s as slick as his dick.
“Good,” I say, standing at the foot of the bed, every muscle strung tight. “Now fuck yourself for me.”
Jayden’s gaze stays locked to mine, and I burn.
So fucking good, it’s enough to unravel my control.
Then, he drags the tip of the toy along the underside of his shaft, and a low, pulsing buzz fills the breathy silence.
His eyes roll to the back of his head as he collapses into the mound of pillows behind him with a groan. My hand clenches around the lube bottle I’m still holding while the other palms my throbbing bulge over my underwear.
I’m mesmerized by the vision of him—my perfect fucking sunshine—while he bucks into his fist, toy pressed to his length, other hand rolling his balls to the deepening pulse of the vibrations.
I’ve never seen anything like it.
I’m so turned on that my cock is leaking through my briefs. Need crackles over my skin.
It’s maddening. It’s suffocating. It’s consuming.
And I want more. I need more.
“Look at me, Jayden,” I order, stepping to the frame. “I want you to look at me while you fuck your fist for me.”
I choke on my breath when he twists his hand around his length. Eyes on me as his other hand palms his balls, his fingers trailing down to his crease.
“Fuck, Eli,” Jayden moans when the tip of his middle finger circles his asshole.
Dropping the lube, I grip the bedpost to steady myself. My entire body hums with anticipation as I watch Jayden pleasure himself.
His moans growing deeper and raspier with every rub of his finger over his hole. So damn tight that I don’t know how I’m ever gonna fit. Still, my cock is in unbearable agony at the thought of sinking inside him. Of being the one making him whimper and hiss as it stretches open.
Fuck.
A feverish sheen coats my skin while I fist my dick. Gripping it so tight, I groan, watching Jayden breach the tight pucker of his hole. His finger pulses deeper with hiss upon hiss.
In, out. In, out.
Past the first knuckle.
In, out. In, out.
“Eli,” Jayden chokes out my name, sinking all the way to the last knuckle.
Pulling out, he releases his swollen cock, seating the vibrating toy at the base above his balls, before he throws his arm over his face. His mouth latches onto his bicep as he adds another finger.
“That’s it, Baby, fuck that tight hole for me,” I rasp, squeezing my cock and stroking slow to match his scissoring fingers.
My God.
My legs tremble. Heart hammering like never before.
I brace a knee on the mattress, needing to be closer to him. Every pore on my skin fizzes when his stare comes back to me.
He’s fucking his ass. I’m fucking my fist. Hard and fast, and it’s not enough.
“Fuck, I need you,” he beckons, the torment in his voice yanking at my insides. “I need you so fucking bad.”
“I know, JJ… I know…” Because I need him, too.
I’m crawling between his legs, my cock so heavy it hurts to move. Finding the lube again, I take the massager vibrating on his balls and coat it fully.
Then, I guide his fingers out of his ass and set the toy in his hand. “Stretch your hole for me, Baby. Show me how you want me to fuck you.”
Lowering onto my heels, my other hand smears all the excess lube into the corded lines of his thighs. The other stays wrapped around his hand while he guides the tip of the massager down his taint. His legs spread wider as my hand traces the back of his thigh to his asscheek.
“Eli,” Jayden whines, rubbing the tip of the toy up and down his crease, teasing his hole.
Adding more and more pressure with the rhythmic vibration picking up as he presses inside.
Fuck.
The sight of him stretching around the slick black silicone shaft is hot as hell. His guttural sounds making me clench all over.
I’m losing my fucking mind. The will to hold back as Jayden takes every inch, and his cock shoots up harder with a spurt of precum that makes my mouth water to taste him.
I want to know what his pleasure tastes like so badly, I’m choking on my spit while his other hand fists his erection.
With the toy seated all the way, he’s a desperate, writhing mess I can’t stop myself from exploring. When he moves his hand away from the base of the massager, I run my fingertips along the dark silicone, allowing the vibrations to travel up my arm, coiling my muscles tighter as he grasps my wrist.
I swear, I feel his grip everywhere. Around my cock. Under my skin.
“Fuck, Eli… fuck…” Jayden pants as I thumb his taint and rock the toy, easing it out to the first groove before pushing it inside again. “So good. So good…”
The tremors of his pleasure roll deeper every time I stroke the toy in and out.
Jayden’s heels dig into the mattress, and his hands grapple at his thighs while he bucks up into the air, body bowing with his loud grunts when I press the massager all the way in and hold the pressure to the rhythm of the vibrations.
His dick pulses, the tip growing thicker, more flushed with every squirt of arousal that rolls down his shaft.
Seeing Jayden this needy, vulnerable, and wild… Fuck, I can’t hold back anymore as I lower over him. My mouth trails up the inside of his thigh, peppering kisses across his slick skin. The brine of his sweat is mixed in with the lube as I lick and suck at his hot flesh.
“Eli, I—” A gasp cuts off his words when I blow a hot breath along his shaft the way he instructed Finley to before.
His large hand molds to my skull, fingers twisting in my hair when I flick my tongue across the head of his cock. The taste of his arousal sends a shiver through me. Coupled with his urgent tug of my hair, and I’m gone.
One taste, and I can’t get enough.
The same way one look from him changed my whole fucking world the day I met him.
Fierce hazel eyes brimming with joy. Big brave heart, wide open. A smile that made it impossible to resist his persistent charms.
“Oh, shit,” Jayden chokes out when I suck him deeper into my mouth, swirling my tongue around his girth.
A light vibration courses through him from the massager, and when I edge it out and ease it back in again, his cock throbs in my mouth, coating my taste buds with another spurt of his pleasure. Hot, tangy, addictive.
I glance up his body to find him watching me. He’s part blissed out and part tormented by the drag of my teeth up his erection.
“Babe,” Jayden groans, fingers knotting tighter in my hair while he pulls my head back. “Please, I need you inside me… Please… Babe…”
Fuck, those pleading eyes and sulky lips are my undoing.
Releasing his cock with a hard, teasing pop, I crawl up his body. Trailing open-mouthed, wet kisses up his chest. His legs hook over my hips when my groin slots with his.
The vibration from the toy rolls through us both. I can’t stop myself from rutting into him at the sensation. When his hands grip my ass, I grind deeper. Loving the feel of the slick friction of his dick stroking mine.
“JJ,” I growl at his throat, biting lightly as he bucks into me. I brace over him and take his mouth again, our desperate tongues matching rhythm. Too good. Too perfect.
I pull back with a nip to his nose, and open my eyes to his. “You’re sure you—”
“Yes,” he says before I finish. “You?”