Chapter 20
20
W hen I raised my head, Leo was staring at me, all huge green eyes and soft, parted lips. He looked more kissable than anyone I’d seen, ever. I didn’t know what that said about me except that I was way out of my depth, and literally the only thing my brain and dick could agree on was that letting him touch me was a very, very good idea.
I kissed him again, because I could, and it was clear that he wanted me to. It was such an addictive feeling, getting lost in his mouth, his body against mine. So familiar by now but still so new because we’d both reached the point where we were turned on by what we were doing and wanted to take things further.
When we broke apart, I trailed kisses across his jaw and up to his ear.
“Remember, if you want to stop, just say the word, and we can stop, no questions asked.”
He ran his hand down my back. “That goes for you, too.”
“Yeah.” I kissed him again, right below his earlobe, making him shiver. His hard cock was digging into my thigh, and fuck me, it was making my own cock even harder.
“Can we?—”
My head rose, finding him biting down on his lip, his lashes downcast.
“Hey. Tell me.” I brought my hand up to his face, gently tugging his lip out from between his teeth. “You know you can tell me anything.”
He swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing, and I ducked down to kiss it.
“Can we maybe…get naked?”
Fuuuuck. I hadn’t expected him to go there, not yet, but now the question was out there, whispered against me like a secret, and honestly, I was as nervous as he was. This was taking our friendship to a whole new level.
“Uh. Shit. Sorry. Never mind. Can we pretend I didn’t say anything?”
It took me a second to realise that Leo had stiffened beneath me, his words coming out in a panicked rush. Oh, fuck. I’d been so lost in my head that I hadn’t even responded to his question.
“Yes. No. I mean, fuck. Sorry.” Pressing my face into the pillow next to him, I groaned. Okay, try again, Finn . Lifting my head, I stroked my fingers through his hair, brushing it away from his eyes as I met his gaze. “Leo. Sorry. I was thinking…complete honesty here, I’m nervous.”
“You are?”
“Yeah.”
His brows pulled together. “Why?”
“Uh…because I don’t really know what I’m doing here…what we’re doing here. I’ve also never been naked with another man before, not counting communal changing rooms. I don’t want to do anything wrong.”
His lips curved into an O, and his eyes widened, dark pupils eclipsing the green. He looked so fucking gorgeous, all turned on and wanting me. I couldn’t even believe this was happening.
He blinked and shook his head, dislodging my hand that was resting in his hair. “I didn’t even think about that. I thought you knew what you were doing.”
“I really, really don’t.”
“Oh. Okay. Maybe…maybe we can work it out together?”
“Yeah?” My lips curved upwards.
“Yeah.”
Where to start? Kissing. Kissing was good and safe, and we knew what we were doing there. We were pretty much experts by this point. Just as I lowered my head, Leo’s hand slid down my back to the hem of my T-shirt, and he slipped his fingers beneath, onto the bare skin of my back. I could feel them tremble against me, but he stroked upwards. How could one simple touch feel so good?
“Off,” he murmured, and if that was what he wanted, that was what I was going to give him. I lifted myself upright, moving to straddle his thighs, and then I tugged my T-shirt off. His gaze darkened as he dragged it down my body, stopping when it reached the obvious tent in my shorts. Then he licked his lips, and that was fucking it .
“Off, now,” I said hoarsely, pushing his T-shirt up. I needed to feel his skin against mine right now. My little lion arched upwards, the graceful movement of his body a complete contrast to the way he yanked his T-shirt off impatiently, throwing it somewhere on the floor. The next thing I knew, I was lying on top of him, all that warm, bare skin beneath me, and he was grasping at my shoulders, pulling me closer. As if we could even get any closer. Our kisses became deeper as we rolled around on the bed, hands touching every inch of bare skin. My dick was harder than it had ever been, and I was almost certain that Leo was in the same predicament as I was.
“Baby,” I panted, rubbing my fingers over the waistband of his shorts. “Wanna take these off?”
“Mmm. Please.” He was so fucking hot, writhing beneath me, and I couldn’t get enough. He ducked his head. “Same time?”
I melted for him.
“Anything you want. Anything.” I rolled off him, my hand going to my shorts. “Now?”
His response was a jerky nod, and in the space of fifteen seconds, we were both fully naked in front of each other for the first time. Leo curled over, and doing my best to ignore my own nerves, because I was naked in front of him for the first time, I reached out, stroking down his arm.
“Let me see you, baby. Please.”
He flushed, his eyes squeezing shut, but he slowly uncurled his body, baring himself to my gaze. He was so fucking brave, and he was giving me his trust, and it was a fucking gift.
I was saying the words before I could think them through, not even caring how inappropriate they probably were for me to say to a friend. He needed to know.
“You’re so fucking beautiful, Leo.”
His eyes flew open. “Really?”
The sheer disbelief in his voice had my throat threatening to close up. How did he not know how gorgeous he was?
“Really, Leo. I’d never lie to you.” Shifting closer, I placed my finger on his forehead. I’d already said the words, so I might as well commit. He needed to know I was telling the truth. “You’re beautiful from your head.” I trailed my finger downwards, over his nose, onto his lips, where I pressed down lightly. His mouth curved upwards. Shifting farther down the bed, I kept going, over his throat, and onto his torso, all the way to his belly button. I paused, glancing back up at him. He was watching my finger, fascinated, and I smiled. Bypassing his erect cock for now, I continued down his thigh, then onto his leg, finally finishing at his feet. I tapped his big toe.
“To your toes,” I said.
“Finn.” His smile was so wide.
“It’s true. Do you believe me now?”
“No, but I’m working on it.”
“Good. Keep working on it.” Crawling back up the bed, I kissed his smiling mouth. “Ready for more?” My heart was pounding, but I refused to let my nerves overtake me.
In reply, he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me on top of him again, and oh. Topless Leo had been a turn-on, but a completely naked Leo, hard and willing, with the wet tip of his cock rubbing against my skin, was another level.
“Finn.” The way he breathed my name was so fucking addictive. “What do we do now?”
I wanted his hands on me. Badly.
“You said you wanted to touch me earlier. Do you still?—”
“Yes. That. Please.”
“Okay.” I pressed a kiss to his lips, which turned into his tongue sliding against mine, both of us so hard and gasping for breath when we separated. With an effort, I rolled onto my side, gripping his hand and ignoring the shake in both of our fingers as I threaded mine between his.
“I—” he began before cutting himself off, swallowing hard. A determined expression overtook his face. “No. I want this. Just…tell me if I’m doing it wrong.” With those words, he tugged his hand out of mine and placed his palm flat on my chest, carefully sliding it down my torso. When he reached my lower stomach, he glanced back up at me, and then he lifted his hand, carefully wrapping his fingers around the base of my cock. He let out a small gasp that made me smile and turned me on all at the same time—how the fuck did he always manage to do that to me?—then experimentally stroked his hand upwards.
“So good. A bit tighter. Yeah, that’s it.” I continued to encourage him while trying not to lose my mind over the way he was making me feel. His movements grew more confident, more forceful, just the way I liked it. I groaned, thrusting into his grip, and reached out, getting my hand around his dick. It was easier this time because there were no clothes in the way, and I could properly appreciate the sight of him, naked and flushed and panting, with my hand fisting his cock.
It was like a chain reaction, giving and receiving, and Leo came just seconds before me, my hand covering his when his grip on me loosened. Struggling to regain my breath, I flopped onto my back, glancing down at the mess covering me. Ah, well. Totally worth it.
I twisted my head to press a kiss to Leo’s cheek. “That was so good.”
His lips curved upwards. “I’m glad I got to do that with you.”
I returned his smile. “Me too.”