Chapter Nine – Haven
Chapter Nine
HAVEN
The feel of Nate’s hot breath against my lips caused my entire body to shiver in anticipation of what would happen next. His words swirled around in my head, and I felt dizzy with happiness. I reached for his arms to steady myself.
He pulled his head back slightly, met my gaze, and asked, “May I kiss you, Haven?”
My eyes closed as a rush of air left my lungs. When I opened them, Nate’s intense silver eyes pierced mine, and I said the only thing that I could get out. “Yes. Now. Please.”
He smiled, and it was nearly my undoing. The moment his soft lips touched mine, I melted into him. My arms wrapped around his neck, and when his tongue sought entrance into my mouth, I gladly opened to him, letting out a soft moan when our tongues intertwined. The kiss was intense yet gentle. The way Nate wrapped his arms around me, drawing my body up against his, nearly had me exploding with a fierce desire that almost left me breathless.
“Haven,” Nate whispered against my lips. “Please tell me if you want this.”
My eyes fluttered open, and it took me a hot second to get my wits about me. “I’ve wanted you, Nate, for as long as I can remember. You’re the one who has been pushing away.”
He grinned. “Leave it to you to remind me of that.”
I shrugged but my smile faded. “You aren’t bothered by my…past?”
With a shake of his head, he bent down and kissed me again. “I promise you, sweetheart, I want to help you forget that time of your life and do nothing for the rest of my life but make you happy.”
I couldn’t help the smile that spread over my face. When we both just stood there as if neither of us had any idea what to do, we laughed.
Nate laced his fingers in mine and squeezed lightly. “Haven, I know this is personal, but the last time we talked you were only sixteen and still a virgin.”
I felt my cheeks heat as I said, “I’ve never been with anyone. I mean, I’ve dated, but my experience with men is rather limited. I always found it hard to trust anyone and honestly, I always dreamed you would be my first.”
A pained expression moved over Nate’s face, and he cupped my face within his hands again. “I don’t deserve you, Haven.”
Chewing on my lower lip, I nodded. “I disagree with you.”
Nate placed his forehead to mine and I whispered his name. “Nate.”
Before I knew what was happening, I was in his arms, and he walked us to my bedroom. He stopped when he stepped into the room and then laughed.
“Holy shit, Haven. Do you have enough dog stuff in here?”
Looking around the room, I laughed. I had boxes from Amazon filled with dog treats. Dog toys were stacked in one corner, and a few dog beds were piled up in the other corner.
“I don’t have anywhere to keep this stuff. At least not until the dog park is done. I plan on having a storage building onsite as well.”
He slowly put me down and walked up to one of the boxes of treats and food. Looking at me, he asked, “What’s with all the dog food?”
I made my way over to him and stopped in front of the bags of food that were piled high. “I have a few clients who have run into tough times. They can’t pay for the doggy daycare bus anymore, and money is also tight with food. I collected donations from my other clients, and I was able to buy them this food. I just have to take it to them. I was going to just pile it all into my back seat and deliver it tomorrow.”
I could feel his gaze on me. “How did this all get up here?”
Turning to look at him, I said, “I carried them up.”
His mouth fell open. “Haven, there are ten forty-pound bags. You carried these up by yourself?”
“Well, yes. It took me forever, but I got them all up.”
Nate slowly shook his head as he looked back at the bags of food. Turning to face me, he took my hands and lifted one to his mouth, kissing the inside of my wrist tenderly. With the other hand, he kissed my palm.
“I’ve never met a woman like you before, Haven. Your heart is so pure.”
I let out a nervous laugh. “I don’t know about that. If you had any idea about what was going through my mind right now, you wouldn’t think I was so pure. Not one pure thought is racing through my veins at the moment.”
A bark of laughter escaped, and he pulled me to him. “Tell me what is going on in your pretty little head.”
I could feel my entire body heat. “I want you to do what you said earlier. Explore my body with your hands and…”
My voice trailed off.
“Mouth?”
I nodded.
Nate took my hand and walked us over to the bed. It was the only thing in the room with nothing sitting on it. My entire body shook when Nate put his hands on my shirt and lifted it over my head. When he knocked on my door earlier tonight, I had just changed into comfortable clothes. Letting off a low moan, he took in my naked upper half.
“You don’t have a bra on.”
“No,” I whispered as he reached up and cupped both breasts, his thumbs moving over the hardened nipples. A rush of raw desire raced through my body.
“You’re so fucking perfect, Haven.”
Dropping my head back, my fingers slipped into his soft hair, and I tugged when his mouth covered one of my nipples.
“Oh, God!” I cried out, the feeling of pain and ecstasy mixed when he pinched one nipple with his fingers while sucking on the other. “Nate.”
Was it even possible that I was beginning to feel my orgasm already start to grow? Just when I couldn’t take much more, Nate was gone and the buildup vanished, making me groan in frustration.
With a dazed feeling, I dropped my head to look at Nate as he slid the soft cotton pants I was wearing slowly off of me. He held my hand as I stepped out of them.
He sat back on his heels and stared at me. I had to fight the urge to cover my body under his intense gaze. Instead, I moved uneasily back and forth on my feet.
Nate looked up and said, “Why are you nervous about me looking at your body?”
An anxiety-ridden bubble of laughter slipped through. “I’m not…well, I don’t think I’m like the other women you’ve been with. I’ve got about ten extra pounds I’m carrying as well as…”
My voice faded away when he pressed his mouth against my lower stomach. He hooked his fingers in my panties and slowly pushed them down.
“Don’t say another word if you’ll say bad things like that. I can’t remember any other woman before you, Haven.”
Nate’s sweet words caused tears to prick at the back of my eyes.
He gripped my ass while running his tongue around my belly button. “Fucking hell. I’ve never wanted anyone like I want you. I can smell your desire for me, Haven. I want to taste it.”
I swallowed the lump in my throat as I stepped back, butterflies in my stomach making me feel a bit queasy. Nate was still holding onto me.
“I’ve never, um…my sexual experiences haven’t exactly been…um…I don’t even know the word. No one has ever done that to me before.”
When he looked up at me, I swore his eyes were black. “Good. I’ll be the first and your last.”
His statement caused me to sway slightly. I reached up and pinched my arm. Nope, I wasn’t dreaming. This was really happening.
“Haven, did you just pinch yourself?”
Feeling embarrassed that Nate had seen that, I covered my face in my hands and groaned. When I dropped my hands to my sides, I met his gaze. “You don’t know how many times I dreamed of this moment. It doesn’t feel real.”
Nate stood, cupped my face, and kissed me as he walked me back until I hit the bed. I dropped down to sit, and he never once broke our kiss. When he pulled back from my mouth ever so slightly, he smiled.
“Crawl back onto the bed, sweetheart. When I finish with you, you’ll know this isn’t a dream.”
I hurried back, my chest heaving.
Nate slowly pulled and unbuttoned his shirt and took it off, dropping it to the floor. My mouth instantly watered at the sight of his chiseled chest. His eyes zeroed in on my mouth when I licked my suddenly dry lips.
My gaze fell to his hands, undoing his jeans. Nate kicked off one boot, then the other. With a wicked smile, he pushed his pants and boxers down and I sucked in a breath. He was pure perfection. His thick, long length pulsed against his lower stomach, and I had to squeeze my legs shut to ease the pulsing.
“Need some relief, sweetheart?” Nate purred as I crawled onto the bed like he was on the hunt for something.
The only thing I could do was nod and whisper, “Yes, please.”
With a wicked smile, he ran his hands up my thighs, causing my body to shiver. He spread my legs open and stared for what felt like forever.
“What’s wrong?” I quietly asked.
He slowly shook his head. “Nothing at all. I’m just taking you in.”
I squirmed and Nate put his hands on my hips as he softly kissed the inside of my thigh. Then he was where I needed him. I gasped and grabbed onto the quilt that was on my bed. The way he touched me with his mouth and hands nearly had me exploding with an orgasm. But then he would move, and the delicious build-up would start again. He sucked and licked my core until I was writhing under him.
“Nate. Oh, God, I’m going to come.”
He slipped his fingers inside of me and the dam burst. My entire body went tense as ripples of pleasure raced across my body over and over until I could barely take it anymore.
“Nate, I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.”
He moved his mouth, and my body trembled as I opened my eyes and tried to focus. The room felt like it was spinning, and I was floating above the bed watching the most erotic moment of my life.
“Oh my God. I think I died and went to heaven. But now it’s your turn.”
A soft chuckle came from Nate as he placed kisses up my body. “I wasn’t planning on this, babe, and unfortunately, I don’t have a condom.”
I chewed on my lower lip. “Have you ever had sex without one before?”
He shook his head.
“Have you been tested? I mean, for anything…”
My voice trailed off as Nate kissed my cheek.
“I’m clean, Haven, but we can do other things until next time.”
“No,” I quickly said. “I don’t want to wait. I want you. All of you.”
He looked unsure, and I was positive he was about to say we should wait.
“I’m on birth control.”
“That’s not a hundred percent.”
Smiling, I ran my finger along the stubble that was starting to grow on his face. “Neither is a condom.”
Nate laughed. “Touché.”
“I need you, Nate.”
He closed his eyes for a moment, then pierced me with an intense look. “Are you sure?”
Lacing my fingers with his, I smiled. “I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life.”
Nate leaned down and captured my mouth with his. The kiss was searing, as if he was trying to pour everything into it. When he slowly drew back, he searched my face. “I’m not going to last long inside you without a condom.”
“That’s okay,” I said, opening my legs as he settled his body over mine. “We’ve got all night.”
Nate chuckled, then grew serious when he pressed against my entrance. He reached down between our bodies and moaned when he slipped a finger inside of me.
“You’re so wet.”
All I could do was nod.
“I’m going to take it slow since this is your first time.”
When he started to rub my clit, I moaned.
“I need you to come again, baby,” he whispered as he positioned himself against me. “Does that feel good?”
I nodded. “I need more of you. Nate, please.”
“I’ve got you, Haven.”
He pushed in more and I gasped from the pressure of him slowly entering me.
“Tell me if I’m hurting you.”
I dug my nails into his back. “Don’t stop. Please don’t stop.”
Rubbing my clit, he pushed in more and I felt the familiar build-up once again. He rocked slightly in and out while playing with my sensitive bud.
“Nate, I’m going to…oh my…Nate!”
My orgasm exploded as Nate pushed all the way in. I gasped at the sharp pain, but it was quickly replaced with pure pleasure.
“Are you okay?”
I practically purred. “You feel so good, please don’t stop, Nate.”
He leaned down and kissed me with a kiss so searing it nearly left me dizzy. We soon got into a rhythm and moved together as if we were one. Nate never took his eyes off of me as he made love to me. It was unlike anything I ever dreamed it would be…and the best part of all, it…it was Nate.
“It feels so fucking good, Haven. I’m not going to last much longer.”
“Don’t hold back.”
Nate moved faster, and his moves began to be a bit more frantic. He reached under my ass and lifted me, and something changed and another orgasm raced through my body. Nate let out a groan and buried his face into my neck as he repeated my name as if it was a prayer.
When he finally came to a stop, he rested above me with his weight on his elbows. We both were breathing heavy, and when his gaze met mine, we both smiled.
“That was…amazing,” I said between breaths.
“More than amazing. It was fucking beautiful.”
I ran my finger along his stubbled jaw. “Thank you.”
He let out a strangled laugh. “I promise, next time I’ll last longer.”
With a slow shake of my head, I said, “It was perfect. You were perfect. Everything was perfect.”
Nate kissed the tip of my nose. “That’s because it was with you.”
My heart felt as if it was too big for my chest. I wanted desperately to utter those three words, but wasn’t sure. I didn’t have to think about it for very long though.
“Haven, I love you.”
Tears built in my eyes and I tried to speak but nothing came out. I closed my eyes, drew in a deep breath, and then looked at the love of my life. “I love you more.”
He smiled and everything in my chaotic world seemed to simply click into place.
My eyes fluttered open, and it took me a moment to realize where and who I was with. Nate was sleeping on his back, his arm over his eyes. I had been snuggled up next to him with my head on his chest. When I lifted my head, I internally sighed with relief that I hadn’t been drooling on him.
“Thank you,” I whispered as I looked heavenward.
Carefully moving away from Nate, I managed to slip out of bed without waking him. I looked down at the man who slept peacefully and smiled. The memory of him being inside of me would forever be etched into my brain. He had been so gentle and loving, and a part of me wanted to crawl back into the bed and wake him up for round two.
Instead, I reached for his shirt and slipped it over my head. Nate’s woodsy smell instantly wrapped around my body, and I took a deep breath.
With one last look over my shoulder, I went to the kitchen to make breakfast. I had plenty of time before picking up this morning’s group of dogs. I pulled out the bacon and got it going first before starting the eggs.
As I moved around, I could feel the slight pain between my legs, but it wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle. A warm bath would fix it, I was sure.
My entire body trembled as warm arms engulfed my body, and Nate kissed me on my neck.
“You snuck away.”
Tilting my neck more so he had better access, I smiled. “I wanted to make you breakfast and let you rest.”
The feel of his mouth on my skin was making me feel dizzy. I leaned against him and sighed when his hands cupped my breasts and squeezed lightly.
“You wearing my shirt is driving me crazy, Haven.”
“It is?” I asked, my knees feeling weak all over again.
When his hands moved under my shirt, I sucked in a breath. He moved lower, and when his hand reached between my legs, they nearly buckled. His other arm wrapped around my body, keeping me against him.
“Breakfast?” I managed to get out before he slipped his fingers inside of me, and my head dropped back against his shoulder. The man was doing wonderful things with those fingers, and I felt myself melting into him.
“I don’t mind if I do,” Nate replied. Pulling his fingers out, he turned me so I faced him. He put his fingers inside his mouth and sucked on them. My eyes went wide, and I could feel a rush of wetness at my core.
Nate lifted me and set me on the counter, and the cold countertop against my bare skin caused me to let out a slight squeal.
His hands went to my knees, and he slowly pushed them apart. Drawing me closer to the edge of the counter, Nate lowered himself.
“Nate? On the kitchen counter…oh my goodness!” I cried out when his mouth covered my clit. The man could do things with his tongue and fingers that should be illegal.
One hand gripped the counter as my other went to his head. My entire body shook as I closed my eyes and shamelessly rubbed against his mouth, needing more of him.
“Oh, God,” I panted as my orgasm built. “I’m so close. Nate, please don’t stop what you’re doing!”
He growled as he continued to suck and lick. My entire body tingled as the build-up slowly started to take over my body. Then it hit and my goodness, it was one of the strongest orgasms I had ever experienced. I cried out Nate’s name over and over as I fell into a sweet euphoria. As I slowly returned to myself, I felt Nate’s mouth cover mine. The taste of myself on his tongue shocked me, but the feel of him right at my entrance pushed the shock away and turned it into desire.
“I can’t go slow, Haven. I need to fuck you. Are you sore?”
With a shake of my head, I wrapped my legs around him. He pushed inside me, causing me to cry out and him to freeze.
“Shit, are you okay?”
My hands clawed at his shoulders and back. “It burned for just a second. I’m fine! I’m okay!”
This was completely different than last night. Where Nate was slow, gentle, and in complete control, now he was fast, hard, and utterly lost in the moment. I loved it. I wanted more. Needed more. This was indeed fucking, and it was raw and intense.
“Fuck, Haven. I can’t get enough of you. I want to be deeper inside you,” he said as he paused long enough to put my nipple into his mouth. My fingers sliced through his hair, and I held him there momentarily, feeling the tingle begin again. Lord, I was still sensitive from the last orgasm.
He jerked his head back, picked me up, and set me on the floor.
“Turn around and hold onto the counter.”
My chest rose and fell in quick bursts of breath. Doing as he said, I looked over my shoulder to see him take his impressive length into his hands and guide it back into me. He pushed in, and we both moaned in pleasure.
“Do you like this?” he asked, kissing my back. I still had his shirt on, but he had pushed it up so that I was completely at his mercy.
All I could do was nod as I pushed back against him. I needed him to move. The feel of him filling me was amazing, but the need for more of him was intense. Would it always be this way?
With another push, I said, “Nate. Please.”
His hand caressed my ass as he slowly withdrew, then slammed back inside of me. “Do you like that?”
“Yes!”
“More?”
“Yes. Harder, please.”
His fingers dug into my hips as he held me and gave me exactly what I asked for. Each time he pushed in, I felt him go deeper. I was going to come again, and I wasn’t sure if I had the strength to keep my legs from giving out with another mind-blowing orgasm.
“Fucking hell, Haven. I need you to come. I can’t…wait…much…fuck.”
I was so close to coming, but something kept it from happening. When I felt Nate’s hands slip down in front of me and play with my clit, I found my release and fell, right along with Nate. It took me a few moments to realize he was kissing my back as he gently laid his body over mine. He was breathing heavily, and every ounce of my being wanted to keep him inside of me. The fullness was simply delicious.
He gently pulled out, grabbed a paper towel, and wet it. “I’m sorry I lost control like that.” He gently ran it between my legs before he cleaned himself off.
Turning, I leaned against the counter and tried to get my breathing back under control. “I think I like it when you lose control.”
Nate laughed as he shook his head. “You’re going to kill me, Haven. Do you know that? I told myself I was going to leave you alone today since you have to be sore, but seeing you in my shirt. I lost all self-control.”
Smiling, I replied, “Not if you kill me first. I’ve never had such intense orgasms like that. Well, at least not from a man.”
His brows raised, his interest piqued. “Do you have toys you use on yourself, Haven?”
I could feel my cheeks turn hot. “Sometimes.”
Groaning, he closed his eyes.
“Do you want scrambled eggs?” I asked out of the blue.
When Nate peeked one eye open at me, I laughed.
Smiling, he pulled me to him and kissed me like he was afraid I would disappear before his eyes. Once he had thoroughly kissed me, he stepped back. “Go take a hot bath and I’ll make us breakfast.”
“Are you sure?”
“I’m sure. I’ve got to make a few phone calls, so I’ll make some more bacon and put the eggs on in a bit.”
Reaching up, I kissed him on the lips. “I’ll be quick!”
I practically skipped back into my bathroom, wearing Nathan’s shirt and a smile so wide nothing could wipe it from my face.