Chapter 3 #2
“She’s okay, Cash. She’s strong,” I murmured, though I wasn’t one hundred percent sure about my own words.
Daisy had always been a powerhouse when it came to her work.
Even when the pressure was completely on her to give us that one piece of information we needed to save a life, she was a machine.
But all the times I’d flirted with her, she’d seemed both intrigued and reluctant.
She’d call me on my bullshit, but every once in a while when I said something that hit close to home for her, she went all quiet for a moment before she jokingly told me I was a hopeless flirt and to go bother someone else.
“I’m supposed to be stronger,” he said softly. “I’m supposed to know how far to push.”
“I saw her, Cash. She wanted what happened.” I forced him to lift his head by giving him a gentle tug on his hair. Once he was looking at me I said, “You’re good, babe, but not even you could have made her do what she did if she hadn’t wanted it.”
He smiled slightly, then drew me forward and wrapped his arms around me. I felt his head rest on the top of mine. “I’m sorry, Sage. I didn’t mean to ruin things for you with her.”
“Cash, I—”
“I know what we have is enough for you, baby,” he interjected. “But she’s important to you, even if it’s just a friends thing.”
I closed my eyes because I could tell from the tone of his voice that he knew my feelings for Daisy ran deeper than friendship. Pain exploded in my belly and I felt tears stinging the backs of my eyes.
I didn’t deserve this man.
“Cash,” I whispered as I tightened my hold on him.
“Tell me what you need, Sage.”
I felt a tear slip unbidden down my face as our roles went back to the way that I needed them to be. I was such a selfish son of a bitch.
“Need to please you,” I said brokenly.
“You please me just by breathing, baby,” Cash murmured right before his lips ghosted over my temple. Before I could say anything, he moved his mouth to my ear and said, “Get in the shower. Face the wall and put your hands behind your back.”
Relief washed over me in a tidal wave of sensation. It was like its very own orgasm. I hated it, but I loved it too.
So I didn’t hesitate to do what Cash said.
The water was warm on my body, even as the tile was cold against my chest. I didn’t dare look over my shoulder at Cash to see what he was doing, since he hadn’t given me permission to do so.
The anticipation had my nerves kicking up, and when I felt Cash step in the shower behind me and press his lubed dick against my ass, I knew what I was in for.
And I was so very ready.
“What’s the rule?” Cash asked as his dick bumped up against my hole.
“No coming,” I answered.
Cash’s teeth scraped over my shoulder as he whispered, “Are you going to be a good boy for me, Sage?”
“Yes, Sir.”
My dick jumped against my abdomen in anticipation of what was to come, but it was my mind that was seeking relief more than anything else.
Cash’s cock shoved into me hard. I stifled a moan as the pain and burn mixed together.
One more violent thrust and Cash was buried balls deep inside of me.
He used his body to pin me to the wall, trapping my hands where they were clasped at my lower back.
His hands came up to rest against the wall next to my head.
“Whose ass is this?” he growled as he began pummeling me with brutal thrusts.
“Yours,” I instantly responded.
Cash’s fingers gripped my hair hard and he yanked my head back as he continued to pound into me. His other hand closed around my throat. He held me like that as he fucked me. I was completely at his mercy. If I’d wanted to escape him, I couldn’t have – he was too strong.
He knew it.
I knew it.
And it was what set me free.
Because despite having no control, I knew in reality I had all the power, since I could end it all with one simple word.
It was a word that had meant nothing when I’d been a kid. No matter how many times I’d screamed it at the top of my lungs, it’d been ignored.
But Cash had given that word and everything that went with it back to me.
There won’t be any safewords between us, Sage. Ever. Because I will always hear you when you say stop. It will protect you from everything and everyone, even me. Use it when you’re afraid of me, but swear to me that you’ll never use it to hide from me… from us.
It was one of the easiest promises I’d ever made anyone.
And I’d never had to use the word. I’d never even been tempted.
I grunted as Cash continued to surge into me. My body ached, both from the unnatural position Cash was holding me in and from the need to come.
I could feel Cash’s hot breath in my ear and I knew he was close. His grip on my throat tightened, but not enough to cut off my air.
“Such a good boy, Sage. You’re such a good boy for me,” he ground out against my ear right before he let go completely.
He shouted as he jammed his dick up into me so hard that he pushed me onto my tiptoes.
My cock was trapped between my body and the wall, but I didn’t dare hump the tile to try and find any kind of relief.
I felt Cash’s hot cum filling me as he jerked into me over and over again.
I loved listening to Cash as he got off because it was one of the few times that he seemed to lose all control.
And I loved that I’d done that to him. It made it easier to accept how one-sided our relationship sometimes seemed.
Since I always took more than I gave.
I wanted there to be a day where I could change that, but I wasn’t sure it would ever happen. Tonight had just been further proof of that. I was good at giving Cash my body in any way he wanted it, but letting him have all the other parts of me was another story altogether.
My only consolation was that it wouldn’t have been any different with Daisy.
I’d keep myself apart from her too.
Because there was just no way I wanted either of them to know how deep the ugliness inside of me really ran. If they did, I’d lose them both for sure.
I wanted to laugh at that. I couldn’t lose them both because I didn’t have them both. I barely had Cash.
“Open your eyes, baby,” I heard Cash say. “I want to see where you’re at.”
I did as he said, not even realizing I’d closed them. I didn’t say anything as he studied me, but I knew what he’d see. His brow tightened just a little, then he was gently pulling free of my body. He kissed my cheek and whispered, “I’ll take care of you, Sage. Always.”
I felt a tear trickle down my cheek.
They were the words I needed to hear, but on their own they weren’t enough, and that was what had the shame burning deep inside of me. Followed by relief when Cash said, “Turn around and get on your knees.”
I let out a choked sob and dropped to my knees. I could feel Cash’s cum dripping from my ass and it made my belly hurt.
Empty.
I was too empty.
Cash tipped my head back, then leaned down and kissed me gently on the mouth.
“Get me hard again. I’m going to be spending the foreseeable future buried deep inside either this gorgeous mouth or your tight ass” – he gripped my chin as he spoke – “but if you don’t get me off before the water turns cold, you won’t be getting off at all. Do you understand me?”
The water was already turning lukewarm so I eagerly nodded. The command was heaven and hell.
And it was exactly what I needed.