Chapter 18
We’re really doing this.
I poured myself a glass of wine, grateful that Liam went outside to give me some space. His energy was so high that it made me feel like I was floating. My nerves were shot, and my mind raced a thousand miles per hour as I downed the first glass of wine. I immediately poured another. We were really about to do this.
To help myself relax I decided to play some music. “All I Do” by Stevie Wonder flowed through the speakers, filling the room as I considered Liam’s words. Was this a door I wanted to open? Absolutely.
Fear about the fallout was outweighed by my natural desire to want to experience all he had to offer. Liam’s confessions about his feelings for me seemed to hit different lately. I think taking the time to open my eyes and really see him changed the way I viewed him.
This man was in love with me. All the signs were there. The crazy thing was, I was pretty sure that I was in love with him too. I went into my bedroom and sat on my bed. I wondered if I should get naked while I waited on him. I didn’t want him to think I was backing out. I thought about getting up to go find him, but he seemed to need space just as much as I did. Picking my phone up, I sent him a text letting him know I was serious about us crossing the line.
Me:
Thought about getting naked while I waited.
Liam:
I want to undress you.
That was settled. I finished my wine, stretching out across the bed, closing my eyes as I listened to SiR’s “John Redcorn.” When I heard the door open, I didn’t open my eyes. Liam’s nervous energy cloaked me, settling my own nerves.
“Let me see your phone,” he requested.
I moved over and picked my phone up from the nightstand before unlocking it and passing it to him. I never let anyone mess with my phone, but it felt safe to give it to Liam. It was Liam. Everything felt safer with him.
Cleo Sol’s “When I’m in Your Arms” started to play, causing a soft smile to creep onto my face. I pushed up on my elbows, watching as Liam shucked his plain black T-shirt over his head. My pussy thumped as my eyes took in every inch of him. I knew he was sexy as hell in clothes, but seeing him naked was a whole other experience. Tattoos decorated the cuts and creases of his torso, highlighting the most beautiful parts of him. I squeezed my thighs together, hoping to create enough friction to keep me from going crazy as he stripped down to a pair of plain black briefs.
“Aht, aht. Spread ’em, pretty girl. That’s my job now,” he said, licking his lips as his knees met the bed.
He didn’t say another word as he kneeled at my feet and removed my socks and kissed my feet. His tongue swirled around each of my toes, taking each one into his mouth one at a time and almost setting me on fire. He hoisted one of my feet and placed kisses from my ankle to my inner thigh before stopping and inhaling.
“Mm mm mm.”
He shook his head as he bypassed my shorts and sprinkled kisses up my stomach. He pushed my oversized T-shirt up to expose more of my skin. My shirt was over my head then the straps of my bra were over my shoulders before he latched onto one of my nipples. I whimpered weakly, raking my fingers through the thick carpet of waves on his head as he made my pussy leak without even touching her.
He paid equal and careful attention to each of my breasts, alternating between licking and sucking them like he had been deprived of a good meal for quite some time. The walls of my pussy clenched, craving to be filled with him. I wrapped my legs around him, grinding against his torso, desperate to create some kind of friction because my girl was going in a frenzy.
“Liam, please,” I begged.
“Be good for me, pretty girl. Let me save the entrée for last.”
Thankfully, he took me out of my misery, sliding down and pushing my shorts and panties down over my hips as he lowered himself between my legs. The cool air teased the wetness that made a mess of me at this point. Using his hands, he spread my thighs, licking his lips as he looked at my pussy like it was fine art.
“So fucking pretty,” he mumbled.
Using the tip of his tongue to flick my clit before sucking it into his mouth gently, he was so careful, adding just the right amount of pressure. My back arched off the bed as he made slow circles on my clit with his tongue. Palming my ass with his hands, Liam pulled me further into his mouth, causing me to scream out in pleasure. A flood of moisture trickled down between my cheeks as my nerves frayed at the ends. Never had I ever cum from someone eating my pussy. It just didn’t happen. I almost blacked out when the feeling swept over me.
“Fuuuck, Liam,” I whimpered.
You think that was his cue to stop? I was helpless as he swept his tongue from my pulsing clit to my asshole in agonizingly slow passes. I moaned breathlessly and clawed at the sheets. I had to do something, anything to keep from losing my mind as he devoured me.
“You taste so fucking good, pretty girl. I can’t get enough,” he declared.
“Got damn, Liam!” I shouted, unable to contain myself anymore. Sitting up, I wrapped my entire body around his head, pulling his face further into my leaking center.
“Baby, this feels so good. I can’t take it, but please don’t stop.”
He didn’t speak or change his steady pace as he slurped and ate me for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. My body quaked as I rolled my hips, feeding him every drop of my pussy.
“I love you, Liam,” I cried.
That stopped him.
Still, he didn’t say anything as he crawled between my legs, pushing his briefs down. His dick sprang to life with a bounce. I couldn’t take my eyes off it as he moved into position. It was so big, so beautiful, so…Liam. I was apprehensive as he pulled me down to meet him. He hovered over me, dropping a kiss on my lips. Tasting myself on his lips made me deepen our kiss. I stiffened as the head of his dick pressed against my entrance. He was big. I knew that, but feeling it was a whole different thing. His hand found the side of my face.
“You want me to stop?”
“No,” I said a little too quick.
“I need you to tell me if at any time you want to stop, Cookie. I know this is a lot for you. I didn’t come to work today planning to fuck you. I don’t have any problem with stopping.”
“Please, I want to do it, Liam,” I reiterated.
“Well, I’ma need you to open up and let me in. If it gets to be too much say your name.”
“My name?” I asked with a frown.
“That might be the only thing that can reel me back in if I get carried away.”
“What if I like it?” I smirked.
“Then say my name.” He winked, dipping his head to drop a kiss on the corner of my mouth.
“OK.”
“You ready now?” he asked, running his fingers through the slickness between my thighs.
“Yes,” I whispered.
“I need you to be sure, D. I want this, but I’m only crossing the line for you.”
“I want it,” I confessed.
“I don’t know if I can go back to how we were, Divine. I’m just telling you this now. I’ve been fighting this shit tooth and nail, but now that the door is open, I don’t think I’ll be strong enough to go back to the other side.”
“Meaning?”
“Meaning, I’m not going to be able to pretend that I’m not in love with you anymore.”
“Damn.”
“I’m not sure if I’ve been doing a good job at it in the first place. I think everybody in the world knows it but you.”
“Maybe I was just afraid to see what was right in front of me,” I said, cupping his face.
“Well, I’m right here. No more hiding.” His eyes darkened, causing my spine to stiffen. “What’s up, D? Don’t get scared now. I’m the one risking my life for this pussy.”
“Really, Liam?” I burst out laughing. “Are you afraid?”
“Not at all. I’m just saying I know the risk. I also know that you’re more than worth it.”
“So you’ve decided?” I asked.
“Decided what?”
“At one point, you said it didn’t matter if you wanted me or not. You had to decide if I was worth the risk.”
“I came to that conclusion a long time ago.”
“Oh, wow.”
“It’s crazy how you always play so clueless. There’s no way you don’t see what’s going on.”
“And what is that?” I asked, narrowing my eyes as I waited for his response.
I yelped as he pushed his massive head against my entrance. “Relax. Open up, and let me in, baby.”
“OK,” I panted.
My body was on fire as he breached my tunnel. After pulling back to let the moisture coat his head, he pushed forward and slowly sank deeper. We groaned in unison as he pulled back and thrusted even deeper.
“Shit!” I cursed, snapping my eyes closed.
“Let me see those pretty eyes, Divine. I need to be able to read you. Look at me, OK?” he urged.
“OK.”
“Breathe. Just breathe and take it,” he instructed.
“OK, Lee,” I said.
With an agonizing tenderness, Liam unraveled me with one calculated deep stroke after another. I couldn’t control the moans and whimpers casually escaping my lips every time the tip of his dick touched my cervix. My eyes burned with unshed tears as I sang his praises to the top of my lungs. I couldn’t believe this shit felt so good…so right. Being with Liam felt perfect.
“Give it to me, my baby,” he demanded.
His eyes were glued to mine as he hovered over me with his face inches away from mine. He swirled his hips, delivering shallow strokes and scratching an itch I never even knew I had. Liam’s mouth hung open, and he grunted under his breath as he slow stroked me into a frenzy.
“Oh my God, Liam!” I yelled as a surge of heat spread from my core and gradually seared through my veins out to my toes. My body tensed as an orgasm ripped through me like a wildfire.
“Breathe, breathe, breathe, my baby. I got you. Stop fighting it, Cookie. Just let it happen, baby.”
Burying his face in my neck, he moaned raucously as he continued to dig into me. Why did that shit drive me even crazier?
“Liam!” I screamed.
“Cum for me, my baby. I got you. Let it go.”
Those words seemed to open the flood gates in more ways than one. Once the dam was open, there was no turning back. I snapped my eyes closed just in time to catch the tears threatening to fall. Liam kissed the moisture away from the corner of my eyes. Up until that very moment, I didn’t realize just how much I needed that, just how much I needed Liam. He was everything I needed and more than I ever could have asked for.
“Thank you, Liam. I needed you so bad,” I confessed as a second wave crashed into me suspending me in the air. “Liam, Liam, Liam.” I whispered his name repeatedly, unsure of what else to say. I felt like I was on a rollercoaster climbing higher and higher. Pulling me closer, he wrapped his arms around my back. He buried his face in my neck and continued to deliver death strokes.
“I’m right here, love. I got you forever.”
“Liam…Liam…baby,” I chanted as I dissipated into a barrage of big fat tears.
I had no idea why I was crying, but I couldn’t stop if I wanted to. Without another word, he held onto me and rocked me as I sobbed uncontrollably.
“I got you. Just tell me what you need.”
“Don’t let go,” I pled.
“Never, mama. Not fucking ever.”
Just like he promised, Liam never stopped pounding my pussy. My nerves split on ends as he talked me through yet another mind shattering orgasm. Liam snatched out of me as the dam literally broke this time. My hands shot up to cover my face as a spray of moisture misted between us soaking Liam’s abdomen and seeping down onto the bed.
“Gah damn, Divine,” Liam grunted as he snatched out of me.
His eyes were dark as they bore into mine. He pressed the back of my thighs into my stomach as he lowered himself until his tongue was slithering though my slit, causing my nerves to finish fraying. I was officially losing my mind. Before I knew it, he was driving into me again. This time, he didn’t hold back. He held onto my hips as he stroked in and out of me effortlessly. My entire body quaked, but he never relented.
“Fuck, Liam!”
“Stop all that fucking screaming, and take this dick like it was made for you. You know this your shit, right?” When I didn’t respond, he asked again. “You know this your dick, right? Take this shit, my baby. You hear me?”
“Yes,” I cried.
Grabbing my chin, he turned my face to his.
“Yes, sir,” he corrected.
“Yes, sir,” I whimpered. At this point, I would say whatever he wanted me to say.
“I can’t go back to the way we were.”
“You’re just saying that because we’re fucking, Liam.”
“I’m saying that because I’m in love with you. You know that, don’t you? I can’t go back, D.”
“Liam.” I sighed, unsure of how to respond.
“Just think about it. I’ll talk to your brothers.”
“I don’t want them messing this up. Please, let’s just leave it between us for now,” I pled.
“Whatever you want, baby.”
“Thank you.”
“I don’t think I can hold it much longer. You good, love?”
“More than good.”
“Can I nut in this pussy? It’s mine anyway.”
“Yes,” I hissed.
As if I flipped a switch, he buried his face into my chest as he growled out his own orgasm. My body never stopped trembling as his breathing steadied. I was almost certain that I couldn’t move. Instead of trying, I closed my eyes and relished the high of multiple orgasms. I couldn’t believe this feeling was real. Up until now, I thought it was an urban myth, but after cumming four times in one session, I was a firm believer.
“Don’t move. I’m coming back to get you,” Liam said as he pushed up on his elbows and got out of the bed.
He didn’t have to tell me twice because I was spent. I couldn’t move if I wanted to. Minutes later, I felt Liam’s hands on me. He pulled me closer, and I rested my head on his chest. He picked me up, and I didn’t even worry or wonder about where we were going. I knew I was safe with Liam. I sighed audibly as warmth cloaked my body. I opened my eyes and smiled at Liam as he placed me in the tub. There were pink rose petals floating on top of the water along with some other herbs I didn’t recognize.
“What’s this?”
“You never took a bath?” he asked, lifting a brow.
“I’ve never had anyone put me in one like I was an ingredient in a flower soup.”
“Well, I added some Epsom salt for your muscles and lavender and roses to help you relax.”
I narrowed my eyes but didn’t drop my smile. “Thank you. I needed this.”
“I know, Cookie. Just relax for a while. Don’t get out. I’ll be back.”
I picked up my body wash and washed and rinsed myself a few times before settling in to relax. I didn’t realize I had dozed off until I heard Liam laughing.
“What’s so funny?” I asked never opening my eyes.
“You ready to get out?”
“Yeah I guess so.” I took a deep breath before opening my eyes to look at him. He had a huge towel extended and waiting for me.
“Come on,” he said, motioning with his head.
“Let me see if I can stand up.”
He draped the towel over his shoulder and stooped to extend his hands to help me step out.
“You feel better?” he asked as he wrapped the towel around my body.
“Much.”
“Well, come on and let me rub you down.”
“Rub me down?”
“Mm hm,” he muttered, taking the towel and drying me off.
He didn’t say anything else before escorting me to my bed and helping me lay down. That was when I realized that he had changed clothes. He smelled different too.
“You changed?”
“I didn’t want to put the same clothes on after I took a shower.”
“Damn, how long was I asleep?”
“Long enough for me to shower, change, and roll this. At least ten minutes,” he said as he helped me into bed.
I lay on my stomach and Liam sat on the side of the bed and lit the blunt that was on my nightstand and passed it to me. Eager to finish unwinding, I inhaled the smoke and closed my eyes as Liam’s hands swept up my back. I shuddered as cool drops of oil trickled onto my back.
“I’ll warm it up next time,” Liam said as he continued to work his magic fingers.
The promise of there being a next time made my heart soar.
“That feels so good,” I moaned.
“Don’t get me started back up with all that moaning, Cookie.”
“Sorry,” I giggled.
“I’m just messing with you.” He chuckled. “How are you feeling?”
“Right now? Relaxed. I could probably sleep for the rest of the night.”
“Mentally?”
“I don’t know yet.”
“Don’t think too much. Just stay in the moment,” he advised.
“I’ll try. I’m just kind of in my head.”
“You know I don’t like that. Get out of there and come out here. You know you can talk to me.”
“I’m just worried I guess.”
“About?”
“Things changing,” I confessed.
“With us? Why would they?” he quizzed.
“I love what we have. I don’t want things to change between us, Lee Lee. Sex complicates things. I’m already feeling the shift.”
“You having regrets?” he asked, moving to climb into bed beside me.
I rolled over and couldn’t help but smile when I saw the plate of apples, pretzels, and almond butter in his lap. It was one of my favorite quick snacks.
“Liam.” I sighed and grabbed an apple. “I don’t want you to change the way you see me. To the boys, I’m this weak little girl who needs a bodyguard and someone overseeing my decisions and paying my bills. To my girls and everyone I do business with, I’m this bossed up chick that has it all. During the day, I’m this strong-willed bad bitch, but at night, I just want someone I can be myself with. I want someone that I can have an inside joke with who finds me interesting not just beautiful. I want someone who wants to listen to what I have to say. I want someone who I can be vulnerable with that doesn’t think I’m weak. You give me all of that. I don’t want that to change.”
“I get that. I don’t plan on changing.”
“During the day, I am that strong bad bitch they think I am, but at night, I just want someone to hold me and tell me that I don’t have to have it all together all the time. I need someone to know that without thinking they need to control my life.”
“You don’t, Cookie.”
“You know that, Liam. I know you get it, but you’re not a regular guy.”
He chuckled as he pulled me closer until my head was resting in his lap.
“What am I?” he asked once I got settled.
Narrowing my eyes, I thought about it for a second before answering.
“I don’t know. Look how we had sex then you ran me a bath, rolled a blunt, and gave me a freaking massage. I’m not even going to get into how you came with my favorite snack.”
“So, you never heard of after care?” he asked.
“Yeah. I’ve heard of it, but I’ve never had it.”
“Well, it’s my favorite part, pretty girl. I know this can be a lot sometimes,” he said, smirking at he looked down at his dick.
“Wow. Really?” I giggled.
“Seriously, though, I’m not gon’ just fuck you into a coma without reminding you that you’re special to me. I want to bring us both back to reality and let you know that you’re more than a nut to me, Divine. You get that, don’t you?”
“I do.” I nodded.
“Good. Finish your snack while I find us a movie.”
“I was actually thinking about cooking. What do you have a taste for?” I asked.
After that performance, I was ready to cook Liam’s ass a five-course meal. He deserved it. I was pissed that I had deprived myself of him for so long. My mind was absolutely blown.
“It doesn’t matter. You know anything you make is good with me.”