Chapter 18 The Broken Promise
“Were all the things you said before lies?”
Sheng Yan asked.
I couldn’t answer.
My voice shattered in my throat.
After it ended, Sheng Yan held me.
He refused to let go.
It seemed that rainy night had left him with a deep shadow.
The moment he loosened his grip, I would disappear.
I said helplessly, “Sheng Yan, this is my home. I’m not going anywhere.”
“I don’t believe you.”
I said nothing.
“You said you would stay with me forever.”
“You also said you liked me very much.”
“Liar.”
I knew I was in the wrong and couldn’t argue.
So I raised my hand and touched his face.
A small scar had appeared on his brow bone.
I asked, “How did this happen?”
“Sheng Yichuan hit me.”
“You really fought?”
“He didn’t get off easy either. His scar is at the corner of his mouth.”
I said sincerely, “I’m sorry. It’s all my fault.”
“I don’t want your apology.”
“Then what do you want to hear?”
He paused for a moment, then said in a defeated voice, “I still want to hear you lie to me some more.”
I laughed.
“Sheng Yan, aren’t you angry with me?”
“I am. Furious.”
“Then why did you come find me?”
“Because I’m sick. I want to anger myself to death.”
His tone was a little fierce.
In the end he buried his face in my neck, breathing me in.
“Chen Songhe, I love you.
“I don’t know when it started. Maybe it accumulated bit by bit from our daily life… By the time I realized it, I was already obsessed with everything about you. Your body, your smile, your emotions.”
He paused, then said in despair,
“I know you’re a liar, a master at playing with hearts.
“But I can’t control it.”
Sheng Yan seemed about to choke up again.
“So can you keep lying to me a little longer?
“Don’t abandon me so soon.”