Devotion - Chapter 25
Tuesday
Mason and James' father had done what they promised.
They had gotten Melissa out of jail on bail.
But she wasn't allowed anywhere near the hospital.
I didn't ask Mason how much bail was, but I knew it had to be a lot.
She was still their prime suspect. At least she was out, though. Shaken up, but out.
Unfortunately, I wasn't allowed to be relieved. They couldn't find any evidence that Isabella was behind the shooting. And each day that passed, I had this eerie feeling that someone was watching me.
But the worst part was that nothing seemed to be able to wake James up. Nothing.
Rob couldn't bury the DNR. The hospital had gotten it this morning.
I had told James' doctor that I wanted her to disregard it.
She had explained to me that she always has to do what's in her patient's best interest. But I didn't understand.
How could it be in his best interest to leave this world?
When he was finally happy? When we were finally allowed to be happy?
And what the doctor didn't realize was that if James died, I'd die too.
It hurt so much, I couldn't even think straight. And the longer James lay there, the worse I felt. I couldn't eat. I couldn't keep going without him. I just couldn't.
I let the tears run down my cheeks.
I felt so ashamed. I should have been stronger for the baby. But I couldn't be. Not without James. He was the only reason I was still breathing. And when he stopped, I knew my heart would too. I was nothing without him. I was weak. Because there was no me without him. There couldn't be.