Chapter 40 #2
Can I imagine a future with these men? I want to, but I shouldn’t.
“Hey.” Finn’s voice and his hand on my back make me realize I’m shaking in Wyatt’s arms.
I open my eyes to his green ones. He cups my cheek and his smile sends my heart into overdrive.
“We just want to make sure that everyone is taken care of in this situation. To make sure you are taken care of.” Finn brushes his thumb along my jawline. “Today has been exceptional, flower, but we need to plan for the next few weeks at least.”
“We need guidelines to help us respect your limits and ours.”
I turn to Drew, not releasing my hold on Wyatt. If I can hold on to him, maybe I can hold on to them all.
“We need to figure out how this goes forward.” Wyatt’s chest rumbles next to mine with every word. “And what to do when it ends.”
My heart plummets into my stomach. But I swallow down that feeling. This isn’t forever. I knew that going into it. We’re just having fun.
I release Wyatt, but he doesn’t immediately release me. He kisses my temple. His arms tighten before he finally lets me go.
I climb off his lap and back into Dante’s. His arms feel like safety, like home. I wish it were an illusion. Something I made up in my head, but it’s not. These guys have always been my safe place when the world was cruel.
Dante draws me down with him so we’re all closer.
Wyatt takes my hand. His is so much bigger than mine.
“We want everyone on the same page, Sara.” Wyatt’s dark eyes try to convince me, but I know in a way this is just another rejection.
“You mean you don’t want Tom to know about this.” The words fall off my tongue.
“Tom is complicated.” Wyatt runs his other hand through his hair. “He’d never accept this. Do you think your mom would accept this?”
I blow out a breath, feeling the twist in my stomach tighten. “Can we not talk about ending this? Can we just figure that out when we get there? I don’t want to be fucking you and thinking this is the last time. I want to enjoy our time together. However long it ends up being.”
“I think that’s fair.” Drew draws a stool up to sit in front of the four of us. “But we do need to talk logistics. After all, you’re living with the three of them and dating me.”
“Not every night can be an orgy, flower.” Finn winks at me, trying to lighten the somber mood. “Though I might be able to pencil in lunchtime orgies.”
His smirk draws a smile out of me.
“Is this going to be some sort of contract deal?” I look at each of them, looking over my shoulder at Dante.
“We could put it down in writing, so everyone feels safe.” Dante runs his hand over my hair. “I can put something together that will get us started. But each of us will have our own demands on you, pip.”
His hand runs down my arm, his fingertips graze my breast, sending a shiver through me.
“So each of you will have a contract for me and I’ll have a contract for all of you. That way we know what we want and expect.” When my gaze collides with Wyatt’s, I scoff. “I always figured sex contract negotiations would be a lot sexier.”
Drew chuckles. “You’re sitting in bathwater naked with your four lovers, princess. What’s sexier than that?”
“Okay, how about some basics to tide us over?” I lean back against Dante. “I’ll go first. No one fucks anyone outside of this group or they’re out.”
“That’s a soft pitch, princess. None of us plan on straying while we can be buried in you.” Drew winks. “I get at least one weekend night as date night to take you out, and I want Sunday brunch.”
Part of me melts, knowing that we’re supposed to be talking sex. I smile.
“Sara always sleeps at our apartment.” Wyatt’s words have a little bite to them.
“Then I’ll be staying some at your apartment too.” Drew gives me a cocky grin. “I’m not just fucking Sara. I want to spend nights with her.”
My cheeks flush with heat until I realize...
“Uh, that means I’ll be having sex in Tom’s bed?” Some part of me is seriously icked by the idea.
“Not his bed, pip.” Dante shifts me against him.
“What?” I turn my head.
“I had the mattress replaced before you moved in. His mattress is in storage.” Dante tucks my hair behind my ear. “I want you to be comfortable in our apartment.”
Fuck, these guys are going to dig into my heart if I’m not careful.
“What’s your one thing?” My eyes search Dante’s. “Blow job every morning?”
“Can I amend mine?” Drew smiles and I laugh.
“No. You should have thought of it yourself.” My cheeks hurt from my smile.
Dante tips my chin his way. “If this gets to be too much for you at any point, you tell us. Promise me.”
I cup his jaw, feeling the slight stubble beginning. “I promise, boss.”
“Well, fuck, if he’s not going to take it.” Finn smirks when my gaze snaps to him. He chuckles. “I don’t know about the others, but I’m used to getting some on a fairly regular basis. I’d prefer us not to schedule sex though.”
“So no sex schedule is your one thing?” I clarify.
“If I want to fuck you, and you’re amenable, we should just fuck, flower.” His green eyes glow with mischief and the now familiar craving rolls through me.
I do have a hard cock pressed against my ass. Fuck it.
“Okay, so no other sexual partners. Weekend date and brunch for Drew. Sleeping only at the apartment. Tell you if it gets too much. And no sex schedule. And we’ll put together our specific requests in writing.” I glance around until they all nod at me. “Are we done with the legal shit now?”
“Did you have something else in mind, pip?” Dante’s lips caress the back of my ear, sending sparks through me.
“I mean.” Tracing my hand up his thigh next to mine, I follow my progress with my gaze. “I know a lot about sex, but haven’t gotten to experience it until today.” I look over my shoulder to find Dante’s cool blue eyes. “There might be some positions I want to try.”
Dante’s smile heats my blood. “You get to lead today, pip. What do you want?”
I grin and let the heaviness fall off me. These guys are mine to do with what I please. I’m not giving the future another thought. “I’d like to play with the restraints more.”