Chapter 5 #2
“I’m sorry,” she added, slow and sincere. “I know I hurt you.”
I ain’t answer right away ‘cause I ain’t trust my mouth, and Toni knew me well enough to keep goin’ without pushin’.
Her hand slid up my back slow, rubbin’ circles between my shoulders like she was tryna soothe somethin’ deeper than just tension. Then her fingers went to the back of my neck, scratchin’ lightly, and that touch alone almost had me groanin’ ‘cause she knew exactly where to hit me.
“I been thinkin’ about you,” she said quietly. “About us. About how I made you feel.”
Her hand slipped under my shirt then, her skin warm against mine, her palm movin’ over my abs like she was remindin’ me she still knew every inch of me. I clenched my jaw and looked away for half a second ‘cause my body was already foldin’ on me, and I hated how easy she made the shit.
She pressed closer, her chest against me, and her breath warm on my neck. “You still my husband,” she murmured. “Ain’t nobody else ever gon’ be you.”
That did it.
I felt my resolve crack right there, and then felt my hands tighten on her hips without me even thinkin’ about it.
She stood on her tiptoes and kissed my jawline first, soft and lingerin’, then my chin, her lips movin’ slow like she was takin’ her time with me.
When she finally kissed my mouth, I held out for about two seconds before I gave in, my lips partin’ and my hands slidin’ up her body like muscle memory had took over.
The kiss got deeper and heavier, and before I realized what I was doin’, I had backed her up against the wall right by the front door, my body blockin’ her in and my presence fillin’ up the space like it always did.
I pressed my forehead to hers, my breath heavy and my heart beatin’ too fast for a nigga who swore he was tryna stay strong.
I ain’t say nothin’.
I just stood there with her pinned between me and the wall, my hands firm on her hips, my mouth hoverin’ over hers, ‘cause the want was loud and the love was still there and the hurt hadn’t gone nowhere either.
And that was exactly where I stopped, right on that edge, with my wife lookin’ at me like she needed me just as bad as I needed her, and both of us knowin’ that once I crossed that line, there wasn’t no turnin’ back.
A nigga was tryna be cool ‘cause I ain’t really know how far I wanted to take this shit. At the same time my dick was hard and not gettin’ soft no time soon.
While Toni rubbed my dick through my Amiri jeans, slow like she knew exactly what she was doin’, I stared down at her face and tried to read her eyes.
Starin’ at her had my pulse kickin’ up. Her fingers worked me like she missed me, and like she been thinkin’ about this just as much as I had, and that shit made my jaw tighten.
“I missed you,” she said soft and low.
I swallowed and stayed quiet, ‘cause if I opened my mouth, I already knew my control was gone. She slid down in front of me, gettin’ on her knees.
She unbuckled my belt slow, lookin’ up at me while she did it, and that alone had my stomach droppin’.
She pulled my jeans down just enough for my dick to spring free, and the second she wrapped her hand around the base, I felt my whole body lock.
The way she sucked my dick had my head leanin’ back against the wall before I even realized it.
“Toni…” I breathed, but she ain’t give a fuck about me tryna warn her about shit.
She leaned in and kissed the tip first, wet and soft, like she was tryna test how fast she could break me down. Then she licked up the shaft slow, her tongue draggin’ over every vein, and my knees damn near buckled.
I put one hand on the door behind me to keep myself up, but she grabbed my hips and pulled me toward her like she wanted every inch.
When she finally took me in her mouth…
Fuck.
Her lips wrapped around the head tight, and she sucked slow at first like she wanted to savor it. Then she went deeper, way deeper than I expected, and that wet sound she made when she slid down had my head knockin’ back against the door.
“Goddamn…” I whispered, feelin’ my breath leave my chest.
She kept suckin’ me slow and nasty, her tongue movin’ in circles around the tip while her hand stroked what her mouth couldn’t reach. She was makin’ these soft moans around my dick, that vibrated right up the shaft of my shit and hit me in my spine, and I swear my knees almost gave out.
Toni was goin’ crazy.
She was slurpin’ me loud, takin’ me deep, comin’ back up with strings of spit connectin’ her lips to my dick, then she licked that shit up without even breakin’ eye contact.
“Why you suckin’ me like this, bae?” I whispered, my voice rough ‘cause she was takin’ all the frustration, all the distance, all the shit we been goin’ through… and puttin’ it right into her mouth.
She didn’t answer. She just went deeper.
Her throat opened around me, and the sound of her gaggin’ mixed with her moans had me fightin’ for air. She grabbed my ass and pushed me forward, makin’ me fill her throat completely, and I felt her swallow around me while her nails dug into the back of my thighs.
“Fuck… Toni… slow down,” I said, but she was not listenin’.
She moved faster, sloppier, her head bobbin’, and her mouth makin’ the wettest, nastiest sounds right at the front door like she ain’t care about shit else but finishin’ what she started.
Spit was drippin’ down her chin.
My dick was glistenin’ from the mix of her spit and my pre-cum.
Her eyes was glossy and locked on me like she was darein’ me to look away.
She pulled off with a loud pop, stroked me twice, then went right back in, lickin’ the underside slow before suckin’ the tip again, her tongue flickin’ so fast I had to put my hand on her head to ground myself.
“Toni… baby… fuck…” I said through my teeth, breathin’ hard, my chest tight ‘cause she had me feelin’ this shit everywhere.
She moaned around me like she loved how I sounded, and the vibration of it made my whole body jerk. She hollowed her cheeks and sucked the head like she was tryna drain me dry right here on the spot.
Her other hand came up and cupped my balls, massagin’ them soft while she kept suckin’, and that combination had me pressin’ my head back into the wall, my eyes closed, tryin’ not to nut right in her mouth.
“Toni… do you know what you doin’ to me?” I choked out, feelin’ sweat bead at my hairline.
She looked up while she had my dick deep in her mouth, her eyes dark and glossy, and that look alone had my stomach twistin’.
Then she pulled back again, spit drippin’ from her lips, and whispered against the head of my dick, “I said I missed you.”
And then she swallowed me again, all the way down to the base.
My hand hit the wall behind me. My breath scattered, and my whole damn body tightened like she reached inside me and grabbed somethin’ I wasn’t ready to give.
She wasn’t just suckin’ my dick.
She was makin’ a point.
And she knew exactly what she was doin’.
I closed my eyes for a second, lettin’ myself feel it, and lettin’ myself believe for just a moment that we was back where we used to be.
I scooped her up not long after, movin’ off instinct more than thought, my hands slid under her thighs as I lifted her like she weighed nothin’.
She wrapped her arms around my neck, holdin’ on tight, her breath hittin’ my skin while I carried her to the room.
Every step we took toward the bedroom felt like my body remembered somethin’ my heart was still tryna figure out.
The second we hit the room, she undressed me and pushed me back on the bed, climbin’ on top of me with a confidence that had my stomach tightenin’ up fast. She straddled me slow, her wet pussy slidin’ against the length of my dick before she even put it in, like she wanted me to feel every bit of how ready she was.
My hands grabbed her hips without me thinkin’ about it, my breath already gettin’ heavier ‘cause the way she moved felt intentional, like she was makin’ up for every argument, and every mile of distance between us.
When she sank down on me, I let out a low groan that I couldn’t hold back.
“Fuck… Toni…”
Her pussy hugged me tight, warm and wet as hell, and she gripped my shoulders like she needed leverage while she started ridin’ my dick slow, like she wanted to feel every inch grind up into her.
She rolled her hips in circles, her stomach flexin’, her titties bouncin’ right in my face and her nails diggin’ into my skin like she been holdin’ this in for too long.
And it hit different ‘cause it felt like she wasn’t just fuckin’ me.
She was tryna drown out whatever pain been sittin’ between us.
“Damn, mama…” I muttered, my hands slidin’ up to her waist, guidin’ her, pullin’ her down harder. “You feel so fuckin’ good.”
She rode me deeper and faster, her moans spillin’ out every time my dick hit that spot inside her that made her whole body jerk. She leaned forward, her forehead touchin’ mine, her breath mixin’ with mine, her hips movin’ like she was tryna claim somethin’ she thought she was losin’.
Her pussy kept squeezin’ around me, tight as hell, and I felt that heat buildin’ in my stomach, crawlin’ down my spine. She was takin’ me so deep that my hands had to grip her thighs just to stay grounded.
“Baby… I’m gettin’ close…” I breathed, my voice low and rough ‘cause she had me right at the edge without even tryin’.
But she ain’t slow down. She ain’t back up. She just kept ridin’ my dick like she wanted the soul out my chest.
“Toni… baby… I’m about to—”
Before I could finish, she lifted herself off me fast… Too damn fast.
The sudden emptiness damn near made my whole body jerk. I grabbed my dick, my chest heavin’, tryna catch myself ‘cause I was right there, right at the fuckin’ edge, and she pulled away like the shit burned.
I stared at her for a second, really lookin’ at her now, tryna make sense of this dumb ass shit, and all I could think about was how this was the second time she stopped me right when it mattered most.