#5
Storm,
I hate that you can make me feel 101 different emotions in the span of a few minutes, even from hundreds of miles away.
I want to start this out by saying that if I didn’t want you to reach out to me, I would have had someone tell you, because I know what the thought of an unanswered letter would do to me in this state of mind.
Funny you mention your Dr. AJ saying the things he did, because my Dr. Kim said something very similar.
She has said so much and also nothing at all some days, but one thing has stuck out and I feel like I need to tell you so you know you are not alone.
It is said that two broken pieces of a puzzle cannot come together adequately unless they do the work to fix the broken elements. We may be broken right now, but by getting help, we are slowly reshaping ourselves to fit together again in whatever capacity we choose.
That woman may be a pain in my ass some days, but she has helped me grow far beyond what I could ever have imagined. And I’m very excited to see how much farther I can go.
Every single day, I wake up and decide if I am going to let myself drown or swim. Some days I sink far beneath the surface and some I swim miles away from shore.
One thing is always constant no matter the day, and it’s that I miss you. Every single day, I miss my best friend and hope that he is working on healing himself.
You say it to me all the time and I’m going to say it to you. You are stronger than you think and no matter the hardship, I know you will make it to the other side.
If you were here next to me, I would hold out my pinky and promise to try my hardest, but just know that as I am making this promise, I want you to do the same for yourself, because standing at the end of that tunnel will be lonely without you. So hold out your pinky and make the same promise you asked of me and one more.
Promise me that no matter the day, no matter the distance, no matter the hour, never forget that even if I am not near, I am cheering you on from the sideline.
I do have one favor before I go. If we are going to turn this into pen pals, can you please try to leave robot Landon off paper? You know how I feel about him.
Keep pulling on that string because the light is growing bright. I can feel it.
Bluebird
PS. I got a tattoo inspired by a promise someone once asked me to make.
Tilgi.