Chapter 30 Sud
Chapter Thirty: Sud
Ididn’t want to leave Noi in Hua Hin, but Pah insisted. He was the one who called Khun Intapong, who evidently can’t say no to my father. She told him it would be fine, that we would film around Noi’s scenes and do the rest tomorrow.
On the drive to Bangkok, I keep thinking about how broken Noi looked when he remembered the day in the forest. He thought I left him. Abandoned him like his parents did.
“He’ll heal now,” Pah says quietly, sensing that I’m thinking of Noi. Maybe he’s been thinking of him during this quiet ride, too. “It’s all come out, like a poison. Now, he can heal.”
“I hope so,” I say.
When we get to the studio, Pah drops me off and says he’s going to call Mae.
“Maybe she and Ten can drive Noi here in the morning, and we can take Ten somewhere fun while we’re here. I’m going to be leaving again next week to start filming on a new project.”
I hug Pah goodbye and enter the building.
P’Sign greets me with a smile when I enter his open office door.
“Nong, good to see you. I hear Mee Noi’s down with a migraine.”
I nod. “He should be back tomorrow.”
“Well, P’Tee is with the crew, setting up for a scene. Khun Intapong says it’s going to be a push, but they should get the majority of the series filmed before the school year starts back up. Then it will just a lot of touch-up stuff.”
The rest of the afternoon is busy, and I’m glad because it takes my mind off how much I miss Noi and how worried I am about him.
During breaks from filming, Cora chats with me, and I make an effort to listen and engage, remembering how I brushed her off in Kaeng Krachan. When she tries to get me to go somewhere with her to eat after we wrap up for the day, I beg off, though, and head back to my apartment.
Pah texted me earlier that Mae told him Noi was feeling better and she and Ten were driving him to Bangkok tonight. Still, I don’t expect him to be waiting for me at my apartment. When I walk in, he’s sitting on the couch with Ford, watching a horror movie.
“Sud!” Noi jumps up and runs to me, flinging himself into my arms. It’s so unexpected, it takes me a moment to recover and hug him back.
“I’m going to head to bed,” Ford says, already halfway to his room. His door clicks shut, and I look down at Noi.
“You seem to be feeling a lot better than the last time I saw you,” I say.
“You mean when I was crying and puking?” Noi asks, wrinkling his nose. “Yeah. I feel a lot better.”
We both laugh.
“Where are Mae and Ten?” I ask, looking around.
“Pah got a hotel room. They went out to eat earlier, but I didn’t want to go. I wanted to be here in case you came home earlier.”
“So, you haven’t eaten?” I ask him, frowning. It’s after ten.
“Ford made some noodles. We saved you some. Or have you eaten?”
“No, I haven’t.”
While Noi warms up my food, I sit at the bar watching him.
He’s wearing a pair of shorts and a black T-shirt, and he has on a pair of slippers he keeps over here.
He looks cute, as always, but he also looks sexy, a word I haven’t applied to him until recently.
Right now, all I want to do is lay him out on my bed and do things to him.
“What are you looking at me like that for?” Noi asks, setting the bowl of noodles in front of me.
My eyes rove down his body and back up again, and, when my gaze reaches his face, it’s gone from its normal pale color to pink.
“Sud,” he says a little shakily. “Aren’t you hungry?”
“Starved,” I say, not surprised that the words come out in something like a growl. I’m suddenly rock-hard.
“So…d-don’t you want to eat?” Noi asks, as na?ve as always.
“Yeah.” I pull him between my legs and kiss him hard, skipping any preliminaries and going in with my tongue. After the initial shock, Noi gives as good as he gets, fingers threading into my hair and tugging in a way that makes me even harder.
Hooking my arms under his ass, I stand up.
Noi immediately wraps his legs around me, and I like the feeling so much it’s all I can do not to press him against the wall and hump into him.
Noi rubs his tongue against mine as I blindly stagger across the living room and through my bedroom door.
Depositing him on the bed, I shut the door and lock it before reaching behind my head and yanking my T-shirt over it.
Eyes pinned on Noi lying on my bed, breathing hard and watching me, I unzip my jeans and push them down before stepping out of them and kicking them away.
“Sud,” Noi says with so much need I’m in no doubt that he wants this as much as I do.
“Take off your clothes,” I tell him.
With shaking hands, he shoves his shorts and underwear down and off, then strips himself of his shirt. I’m on him in seconds, covering his body with my own, one hand sliding down his ribcage as my mouth seeks the closest dark nipple.
I tongue the nub, Noi’s groans and whimpers driving me on until I sink my teeth into it—not too hard, but just enough that he lets out a surprised yelp.
Before I go any further, I grab supplies from the drawer of my nightstand.
Lubing up my hand, I wrap it around his hard cock, giving the silky skin a few barely-there strokes until Noi begins squirming beneath me, urging me into a firmer grip.
His cock is long and slim, and I become mesmerized watching the pink head appear and disappear in my fist.
“Sud, please…” Noi begs.
Eager to taste his skin, I dive for his neck, nipping and licking the pale column, marking it up. We’re going to be in trouble with the makeup department, but I can’t think about that now.
Noi tastes good. Familiar and dear, and so different from the girls I’ve been with—so much better.
As my grip on his cock roughens, Noi widens his legs and thrusts upward into my hand.
Lifting my head, I watch his face. His eyes are closed and his mouth open, lips glistening from our kisses.
Leaning down, I lick at them, and he meets me with his tongue but becomes distracted as I continue to stroke him toward his release.
Knowing that I’m his first, that no one else has ever touched him like this, is an amazing aphrodisiac. I want all of him: every sigh, every moan, every quiver of his body. And then I want to sink into his tightness and take him even higher.
“Come on, Noi. Let me see you let go,” I growl, giving a twist of my hand on the next upstroke. A shudder runs through him, and he cries out, shooting onto his abdomen and my hands. I almost come myself, watching him as he pants, his fingers digging into my shoulders, as his orgasm goes on and on.
“Oh! Oh, fuck, Sud. Fu-u-ck!”
His legs lose their grip around my hips and fall open on the bed, and I want to see them shake after fucking him hard and fast.
Squeezing my eyes shut, I moan. “Noi, I can’t…I can’t…”
I have to be gentle with him. It’s his first time. It’s going to hurt. I can’t just slam into him like I want to.
When I open my eyes again, Noi is coating his fingers with lube. With great determination, he reaches between us and rubs it over his hole. The little hitch in his breath when he does fuels my desire, and I attack his neck with kisses, drunk on his groans of pleasure as they increase in volume.
“I want you to fuck me. Fuck me, Sud. Please…fuck me. Fuck me, fuck me…” he chants.
“I want to, Noi,” I murmur brokenly into his ear before pushing myself up to look into his eyes. “I don’t want to hurt you.”
“I don’t care if it hurts,” Noi says earnestly. “I want to feel you. Please, Sud. I can’t wait any longer.”
I’ve never seen him so undone, and my resolve melts.
Sliding my hand down his body, I replace his finger, which is knuckle-deep inside him, with my own, sliding it through the slick lube before gently pushing it inside him.
Noi arches his back and cries out, and my dick gives a little jolt.
Withdrawing my finger, I push my underwear off, letting them fall to the floor, then get to my knees on the bed.
Taking Noi by the thighs, I pull him toward me so his legs rest on mine.
Inserting my finger again, I watch him as I move it around, attempting to stretch him.
As he stares at me with half-closed eyes, they glaze over and he begins to pant.
He looks wanton, feral. His cock is fully hard again and leaking.
My nuts are going to explode just from the sight.
“Do it, Sud. I want you to. Do it. Please.”
With more restraint than I would have thought I had, I withdraw my finger again, pour more lube on them, and push two digits inside him.
Noi bites his lip and moans while I open him up as well as I can in my lust-induced state.
Fuck it, I can’t wait any longer.
Grabbing a condom, I sheath up and gently push the head of my cock until it pops inside him. I raise my gaze to Noi’s face and pause when I see the small grimace.
“Are you okay?”
Sweat gathers on his forehead, and he presses his lips together, but he nods.
“I can stay like this a minute and let you get used to it,” I say, even though I’m dying to move. “O-or I can pull out.”
“No!” Noi grabs my ass as though to keep me in. “Keep going.”
Reluctant, but also dying to continue, I push in another inch.
The tightness and the heat feel amazing.
I’ve never felt anything like it. Hooking my arms under Noi’s legs, I angle him upward and move forward just a little more, and a little more than that, watching his face to see how he handles it.
Finally, with only an inch or two to go, I sink to the hilt.
Noi cries out, and not in a good way. My gaze shoots to his face.
“Want me to stop?”
He shakes his head, breathing in and out of his nose for a minute, then settles. “Are you okay? You look like it hurts,” he asks.
I let out a breathless chuckle. “Believe me, it’s not pain I’m feeling.”
“Good?” he asks.
I meet his gaze. “So good, Noi. You feel unbelievable.”
He smiles. “Go on, then. Fuck me, Sud.”
Losing my cool entirely, I begin to pump into him. He encourages me as my fingers dig into his thighs. I should probably add more lube, but I can’t stop now.
“I’m…Noi…” I’m not going to last. No way can I hold this hurricane back.
“Come, Sud, go ahead. I want you to!” Noi encourages, and then it’s happening—stars, fireworks, explosions—the whole deal, making me light-headed, draining my energy until I collapse on top of him.
Noi’s legs shake against my sides, the muscles protesting the position they were locked in, and I make the supreme effort of easing off and out of him, quickly taking care of the condom and tossing it into the trashcan beside my bed.
Everything is—bliss. That’s all I can think as I flop down on my back. It takes a few minutes for me to drift back to earth. When I look at Noi, his eyes are closed and there’s a slight furrow between his brows.
“You okay?” I ask.
He nods, mouth turning up slightly at the corners. “Yeah, I’m good.”
Rolling onto my side, I place my hand on his chest. His heart isn’t beating half as hard as mine still is.
“I hurt you,” I say, devastation pouring over me.
“No…just stung a little.”
I sigh. “Look at me, Noi.”
He opens his eyes.
As soon as I see the discomfort there, I sit up and push his knee to the side.
“Sud!” Noi objects, but I won’t allow him to wriggle out of my grip until I check him out.
No blood, but he looks raw.
“Shit, Noi, I’m so sorry!”
“It’s okay,” Noi says.
“No, it isn’t. I should have added more lube. How sore are you?”
“Just a little. It’s okay. I asked you to keep going.”
I feel terrible. I got so lost in my own pleasure that I didn’t do enough for Noi. “You couldn’t have enjoyed that at all. Why didn’t you tell me to stop?”
“Because you were enjoying it so much! I wanted you to like it,” Noi says.
Groaning, I fall back onto the pillow, rubbing my hands over my face. I don’t have a lot of experience, but I’ve had sex with a couple of girls. I never hurt them like this.
“Sud, it’s okay.” Noi says, pulling at my arms to uncover my face.
“No, it isn’t. You’re so important to me, and I didn’t treat you right.”
“Yes, you did. You tried to prepare me, and I begged you to hurry and get inside me. I was as turned on as you were.”
“Until I hurt you,” I say miserably.
“It’s probably going to take some time for me to get used to it,” Noi says. “This isn’t the same as sex between a guy and a girl.”
I frown. “Have you done that?”
Noi’s cheeks get pink. “No, but I’m not so na?ve that I don’t know that butt sex is different. Are you laughing at me?”
“I’ve just never heard you say butt sex before,“ I snicker, but a moment later, I’m apologizing again.
Grabbing one of the pillows on the bed, Noi smacks me with it. “Just stop.”
I roll off the bed. “I’ll be right back. Don’t move.”
Slipping into my underwear, I leave the room and head for the bathroom, which is fortunately empty. Ford and Tao’s doors are closed.
Under the sink, I find what I’m looking for and head back into my bedroom with it.
“What’s that?” Noi eyes the objects in my hand suspiciously.
“First aid,” I say, sitting cross-legged on the bed. “Lie down so I can put some of this on you.”
Noi swipes the ointment out of my hands. “I can do it myself!”
“Fine. Put some on.”
“Don’t watch me!” Noi’s face is so red, it’s comical.
“Noi, I just had my dick up your ass. You’re really embarrassed?”
“Shut up and turn around.”
With a sigh, I turn the other way until Noi tells me he’s finished, then I hand him a wet wipe from the pack to wipe his hands with.
When we’re under covers with the light off, Noi snuggles up in my arms. It feels so right. I’ve never been a cuddler with dates, but with Noi, it’s different.
Thinking about what we just did, I let out a small sigh.
“What?” Noi asks in the darkness.
“I wish you had enjoyed that as much as I did. I promise next time will be better.”
“I enjoyed being with you like that. Other than the discomfort, I really liked having you inside me.” It sounds like Noi’s struggling to put it into words. “I liked…feeling you move. I liked being stretched open like that. But you’re big—“
I groan. “You’re getting me hard again.”
Noi giggles and pats my chest. “What did it feel like to you?”
“Like the tightest, hottest pressure.” Pulling him to me, I kiss his head. “I swear, Noi, next time it will be all about you. I’ll make you scream.”
Pushing at my chest, Noi scoffs, and I know his face is red again although I can’t see him in the darkness. “Just shut up and let me sleep,” he grumbles.
My smile is so big, it hurts.