CHAPTER 32
MATTY
I couldn’t feel a thing.
It felt like my entire body had been doused with freezing ice.
I felt numb.
More than that, I felt broken.
I thought I had figured out my life. I thought I had everything in order. I thought I had rules that I lived by.
But she broke every single one of them.
And now she has broken me.
All I wanted to do was go back there and drag her back home to me, but she didn’t want me for me.
And the caveman in me wanted to say he didn’t care, but the man who loved her a little too much would give her anything she wanted, and she didn’t want me.
I thought music was what kept me alive.
But no, it wasn’t, and I didn’t think it ever did.
Music never made me feel the way she did.
Sierra was the sole song that sang in my heart.
And she was the beat that thrummed it alive.
But now my heart was no longer alive, it was just a dead beating organ living inside a locked cage, and only she held the keys to that.
But she was gone.
Gone forever, and now I was a dead man living.