Chapter 14
The feel of Devyn’s arms around his waist as he navigated the busy highway felt like heaven. Haze knew it was time for him to open up to her about his feelings. Based on how she had been acting, holding back tears and trying to appear strong, he knew this conversation was way past due for her too.
“You good?” he asked as soon as the traffic let up.
He could tell by the way she squeezed him that she was startled. He chuckled. He forgot to mention that they could talk through the helmets. He’d gotten her one when he bought her bike a few years back, and he brought it along today for their ride.
Their luggage was tucked securely in his sidecar and the back of his bike in a storage unit he’d installed.
They were set to have a great weekend, but before they got there, he wanted to clear the air between them.
The tension and awkwardness had to go. The past few weeks had been nothing but him working on letting go of the hurt and anger he felt toward Devyn.
Because underneath all that, he knew he still wanted to be with her just as badly as the first moment he’d laid eyes on her.
“H-hello?” she asked hesitantly.
Haze laughed again. “Yes, Thicka. You can talk to me through the helmet.”
“You couldn’t have mentioned that? I almost pissed myself.”
“My bad.” He grinned.
“I was kind of wondering how we were supposed to talk while on a motorcycle. This makes it convenient.”
“Yeah, me and the club members use the built-in system to communicate while we’re riding.”
“Oh.” Silence hung between them before he heard her small voice say, “Haze?”
His heart ached. She sounded so fragile.
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry.” She whispered the words so quietly he almost missed them as he swerved into another lane to go around a slow car.
“I know,” he muttered. “I ain’t gonna hold you.
I’m hurt by what you did, but I can’t really stay mad.
I mean, I got a beautiful daughter and a beautiful baby mama.
” They laughed. “I wish I had been there to see her birth. I wish I had been there for her first words and first steps. Hazel has changed me, ma. I wish that change could have come a few years back. I would have been a good father.”
“I know that now,” she whispered. He heard the emotion in her voice and knew she regretted what she did.
If she was any other woman, he would hold this over her head until the end of time.
But because she was her, he had no desire to do that.
He wanted to put this all behind him and go back to his original plan—see what was up with them.
“You know, Hazel isn’t the only one I wish I could have been there for,” he said.
She stayed silent for a beat before she asked, “What do you mean?”
“You know what I mean, ma. I been on you since the moment I laid eyes on you. This doesn’t change anything.”
He heard her audible intake of breath. “Really?”
He laughed. “Duh. You really thought this meant I ain’t want yo’ thick ass no more?”
“Honestly? Yeah, and it’s been torture because now that my ugly secret is out in the open, I’ve felt closer to you.
It’s like, the fact that you not only know about Hazel but take good care of her has made me want you more, but I didn’t think you wanted me anymore.
I know that sounds selfish, if it even makes sense, but it’s been really hard for me keeping all this bottled up inside. ”
“Why you holdin’ it in?” he asked. He figured she struggled with adjusting to him being around, but he had no idea she struggled on a deeper level. That made him feel like shit.
He felt her shrug behind him. “I guess you’re the only person I really wanted to talk to about it, but I felt selfish even thinking about making this about me, so I held it in. I showed up every day with a smile so you and Hazel could have your moments. You both deserved that.”
Damn.
Haze understood where she came from, but he didn’t want that for her at all. He didn’t want her to suffer in silence. It was a tricky situation, and he realized they both did the best they could, given the circumstances.
“Can we make a deal?” Haze asked.
“Sure.”
“No more holding shit in, okay? I ain’t really like too much that you been feelin’ like that and ain’t speak up.”
Another beat of silence passed between them before Devyn said, “Deal.”
Haze grinned. “I want you in my life as more than a baby mama. Now that we got over that shit and you see you and Hazel are safe wit’ me, are we on the same page? Can we see what’s up wit’ us?”
“I’d like that.”
He could hear the smile in her voice. He couldn’t stop the corners of his mouth from turning up as well. Though things started out rocky between them, Haze had a feeling it was only up from here and that they were in it for the long run.
“Bet. Now, tell me ’bout yourself. We got a long ride ahead of us. Might as well spend it gettin’ to know each other.”
Her giggle in his ear made his heart soar. His goal was to hear it at least fifty more times before they made it to their destination.
“How’s mommy’s baby?” Devyn cooed into the phone as she gazed at their daughter on the screen.
It was her bedtime, and Hazel looked sleepy but happy to hear from her parents.
“I good,” Hazel mumbled as she rubbed her eyes.
“You havin’ fun wit’ Grandma?” Haze asked as he stepped into the frame so Hazel could see him.
She lit up. “Grandma, yeah.”
They laughed.
“She’s doin’ just fine, y’all. Kyomi stayin’ the night with me to help me out ’cause this lil girl done wore her granny out. Ain’t that right, munchkin?”
“If it gets to be too much, you can call my parents,” Devyn reminded Charlene with a worried expression.
Haze’s mom waved her off. “It’s not too much. I’m just glad y’all made it safe. I’m going to get this one into bed and call it a night. I’ll touch base in the morning.”
Charlene angled the camera back down to Hazel, who sat in her lap, still rubbing her legs.
“Good night, baby.” Devyn gushed.
“Night night, Mama. Daddy,” Hazel mumbled.
“Night, baby girl,” Haze said.
“Bye, y’all.” Charlene disconnected the call.
Haze stood behind the chair Devyn sat in and massaged her shoulders.
They were both a bit sore from the long ride up here, and Haze was ready to call it a night.
The hotel they stayed in was beautiful and luxury at its finest. Haze made sure they got the presidential suite, and they stayed at a different hotel than the other riders coming to town for this race.
Only Gideon and Glimmer stayed at this hotel, and Haze had already texted Gideon and let him know he would get up with them the following morning.
Tonight, he just wanted to be up under Devyn and soak her in. Their conversation on the ride to Ellwood had given him a lot of clarity. It wasn’t until today that he realized that Devyn even fucked with him on a romantic level. When she admitted that she wanted him, his heart felt complete.
“You cool wit’ stayin’ in tonight?” Haze asked as he massaged her shoulders.
She relaxed into him and nodded. “More than okay. I’m exhausted. It feels weird not to have Hazel to tend to. I want to take full advantage and sleep.”
She dragged out the last word, and Hazel laughed. He bent down and whispered, “Mind if I put you to sleep, ma?”
She shivered, and he smiled as he grabbed her hand and helped her out of her seat.
He led her to the massive bathroom and started the rainfall shower before he turned to her.
Slowly, he undressed her. His dick hardened.
For the past few weeks, he’d wanted to get between Devyn’s legs in the worst way.
He’d just needed time, but time was up. He missed this woman more than she would ever understand, and from this day forward, he wanted nothing more than to be up under her and have access to her whenever he wanted.
When they were both naked, they stepped into the shower. Devyn peered up at him with big brown eyes. She looked as though she could see the future in his eyes. He understood because he felt like he could see it in hers.
They washed each other up slowly. Haze took his time playing with her nipples and in between her legs.
She washed his chest and stroked his dick in her hands.
They were a mess of hot lust by the time they finished.
Haze picked her up and pinned her against the wall.
Her legs wrapped around his waist as he looked into her eyes.
“You belong to me. You understand?”
Devyn had tears in her eyes, but they were different from the ones he’d seen her fighting to hold back over the past few weeks. These tears were of blissful surrender.
“Yes,” she uttered.
Haze clenched his jaw as he slowly pushed into her. Devyn’s back arched against the wall.
“Fuck, Thicka. I missed the hell out of you. You gonna keep this good pussy from me again?”
“N-no.” She moaned as her eyes closed.
“You gonna be my woman? You more than just a baby mama. You my girl. You understand that?”
“Y-yes, daddy. I understand.”
Haze pounded into her, loving the feeling of her pussy wrapped around his dick and how she was able to take his dick like a good girl.
She was so pretty when he was inside of her.
He wished he could stay right here for the rest of his lifetime.
Now that he knew they were on the same page, he allowed that truly obsessive side to come up out of him.
He would never get enough of her. Ten lifetimes wouldn’t even be enough for him to get his fill of her.
She was his, and he was hers, and that was how it would stay for an eternity.
Devyn slipped on the wall a little, but Haze caught her. “Don’t worry, baby. I’m always gonna be here to catch you.”
As soon as the last word left his lips, he pulled out of her and put her down on her feet. He turned her around, and after some difficulty because of their height difference, he slid back into her.
“Fuck,” she cried out as he held her neck.
“Play wit’ that sweet ass pussy, baby. Cum wit’ me,” Haze demanded.
Devyn’s hand went straight to her clit. She massaged it, and he stroked her with long, rough strokes. He could feel his nut building, and the way her pussy clenched around him, he knew she was close too.
“Haze . . .”
“I know, baby. Go ’head and cum for daddy,” he murmured as he watched her ass clap on his dick. She shuddered, and Haze knew she had reached her peak.
The vision of her sent him over the edge, and he pulled out just in time to cum onto her back.
They breathed heavily for a moment before Devyn stood straight and turned around.
“Best dick ever.” She grinned up at him. The way she looked completely relaxed at this moment was how Haze wanted to keep her at all times from here on out.
“Glad you’re satisfied because it’s the only dick you’re getting for the rest of your life.”
Devyn cocked her head as she looked up at him. “You’re really serious about making me your wife, aren’t you?”
She asked it almost as if she was afraid.
His brows pulled in. “I mean everything I say to you.” He pulled her in by the back of her neck. “You might not see it yet, but you will be my wife one day. Soon, hopefully. I love you.”
His heart skipped a beat. He didn’t mean to say those last three words, but he knew he meant them. He’d never said them to a woman outside of his family, so he prayed she understood the gift he just gave her.
Her brows rose in surprise. “You do?”
“I been lovin’ yo’ ass since the moment I laid eyes on you,” he responded honestly.
She reached up and cupped his face. “I felt it too. That first time. I was just afraid of it, so I ran, but I’m not running anymore. I love you, too, Haze.”
Haze beamed as he picked her up and kissed her. They laughed like they were in high school as they kissed each other on the lips and all over their faces.
Finally, Haze put her down and said, “Let’s get washed up again. We have a long day tomorrow, so I want you to rest up.”
“Long as you promise me another round before I close my eyes for the night.”
His baby had a high sex drive. He loved that. He couldn’t wait to learn more about her and all the things that made her her.
“You ain’t even gotta ask,” he replied as he backed her up against the wall again.
She grinned up at him, and the light feeling he felt all over his body was one he never wanted to leave.