Chapter 19 #4
I could do this shit. Pretend like I wasn’t fucking the love of my life, and my feelings weren’t involved. I felt her hand caressing my thigh, and she looked back at me. Lust was in her eyes.
She was leaking.
My dick was soaked from her wanting me inside of her. I kissed the back of her neck and slowly slid back inside of her. Squeezing her pussy muscles together had me about to nut before I could do something.
After all that wine, she was horny and wanted to be fucked. She didn’t want Gerald, she wanted Goon.
Holding her shoulder, I fucked her hard while she screamed out in pleasure. I pulled out, shoving her against the counter harder, shoving all this dick inside of her while she panted.
“This what you fucking wanted, Zoya?”
“Uh, hmm, yes… harder, baby,” she demanded, and I slapped her ass harder. Her thighs and ass shook before I took hold of her hips and slammed her back on my dick.
Spinning her ass around, I picked her up and put her on the counter, shoving this dick inside of her as she held me around the neck, throwing that pussy on me. Her sexy ass had her eyes half closed, as she held onto my shoulder and I continued to push deeper into her.
She stared into my eyes, and though she would never admit the shit, her ass felt the way I did. She was determined to be stubborn, determined to have it her way. The way we both held eye contact while I fucked her, and she held onto me like she would melt if she let me go.
“You so fucking hardheaded,” I grunted.
“Fuck…. Shut up…. You love it.” She countered, in between moans, as I held her waist and slammed her down on me.
I stepped out my sneakers, and pants, and picked her up, carrying her to the bedroom. I sat, laying on my back and putting the ball in her court.
“Fuck me, Zoya… I ain’t got time to play with you.”
Anger flashed in her eyes. I could tell she didn’t like my attitude, but she asked for the shit. She wanted me to be every person but the man I wanted to be for her. Every time I was Goo, she pulled back from me.
“You fucking heard me… fuck this dick.” I grabbed hold of my dick, as she straddled me, and shoved this shit inside of her.
Holding onto my chest, she moved slowly, as she stared down into my eyes. “Stop cursing at me.”
“I’m not here to make love, Zoya… fuck this dick or I’m gonna dip,” I grunted, gripping all her ass, while she increased her speed.
I flipped her onto the bed, and leaned over her, kicking her legs open with my knee. Her legs opened wider, and I sank my dick deep inside of her. Her hands found their way to my face, as I avoided looking at her.
How the fuck was I fucking bitches before her? How did I allow myself to dissociate and get my nut off without feelings? Fucking someone you wanted to love was like trying to double dutch with two left feet.
Shit was impossible.
Hard.
And I knew it would cause more damage than we had already caused.
Her arms were locked around my neck as I slowly stroked her, wanting to suck on her lips. Tell her how much I loved her, and how her pussy was only reserved for me. I’d kill another nigga if he ever spoke about my pussy.
Each moan was like music to my ears.
When I felt her legs wrap around me, I went deeper and rested my lips on her shoulder. “Fuck me, Goo… I want to feel you… please, baby,” she pleaded, knowing my head wasn’t in it.
I pushed a future with her out of my head. A wedding, children, and a nice ass brownstone in Brooklyn. All of that I had to push out my head because it was fucking with me tonight.
Turning her onto her stomach, I slid into her from the back and slapped her ass. “Arch that back, Zoya… come the fuck on,” I demanded, sending another slap on her backside.
She tooted her ass up, and I held onto her and slammed her into me while she screamed. She held onto the headboard as she threw her ass back. “Hmm, like this? Goo, like this?” she pleaded for me to give her approval.
“Throw that ass back, Z.” I growled, feeling my balls slap against her, and feeling that nut building.
It was easier not to look into her eyes, because the minute I did, I was gone. That wasn’t what she asked for, she wanted dick without complications, not love making. She didn’t want me to tell her how much she meant to me; she wanted the rough version of me.
The version I worked hard on locking away because of her.
“Fuck…. This… dick. You want dick without complications, show me, Z.” She bit down into the pillow, as I pulled out and saw my dick glistening with her juices.
I teased her opening before I pushed back inside of her, my fingers played with her pussy in the front, and she screamed, pulling on her nipples.
“Tell me, Z.”
“Stop…. Stop….calling me, Z… I’m Boobie… righhh, righh.” Her words were caught in her throat with the way I was rubbing her pussy while tearing it up at the same time.
“I’m gonna cum… baby, I’m gonna cum,” she told me, screaming out while I put my fingers in her mouth.
“You taste you… taste good, eh?”
“Uh huh… so good, Goo.”
“Goon!” I sternly replied, slapping her ass.
I pulled out, flipping her over and sliding back into her.
Holding onto the headboard, I slammed into her, then pulled out, staring down before I slammed into her once more and released myself inside of her. My body jerked, and felt weak, as I emptied everything, I had inside of her.
Flipping onto the side of her, I closed my eyes while catching my breath. I couldn’t allow myself to lay there until the morning. She wanted this, so I had to give her what she was asking for.
“Where you going?” She yawned, as she pulled the covers over her naked body.
I desperately wanted to climb back into bed and have her toss that thigh over me. Sleeping with my nose nestled in her hair as she clung onto me.
I wanted that.
“Home.”
“You can stay the night.”
I paused, staring back at her. “Not what you asked for, Zoya.”
She leaned up. “You’re seriously going to leave?”
I nodded. “Yeah.”
Opening the bedroom door, I headed down the hallway and found my pants and sneakers. I could hear her door opening further, and her feet hitting the wooden floors.
She was wrapped in her blanket.
“This is how things are going to be?”
I picked my sneakers up and looked at her.
“You asked for this arrangement. This is what you fucking wanted, Zoya. Stop acting all confused when someone gives you what you want. I told you that I’m not doing the games, so if you want dick, I’m gonna give that to you.
When I stop, just know that means that I’m making love to someone who wanted it. Good night.”
I left out the door, not turning to look into her eyes. If I stopped to look at her, I knew this shit would have been called off and I was getting back into that bed with her.
“Goo.” She opened her front door, and I nearly lost my shit.
Not because anyone was out here, but because I knew she was naked under that blanket. If someone saw just a piece of what she allowed me to witness, I would lose my mind.
“Go back inside, Zoya.”
“Stop calling me that.”
I leaned on my door and put my head back. “Take yo ass back inside now… I’m not fucking asking.”
“Demands are usually held for relationships.”
“Zoya, take yo confused ass back in the house… I’m tired and not doing this shit with you.”
She stared at me, then turned and slammed the door. I stayed leaned on my door for a minute, before I let myself into my spot and went to shower and sleep before my alarm woke me up at the ass crack of dawn.
I had stopped smoking a few months ago, and she had me ready to roll up because she had my fucking emotions all over the damn place.