Elias
ELIAS
As promised, Cade dropped him off and got him settled in. His friend had been quiet the whole time, but wasn’t surprised. Cade had been through a lot in the past week, and not just because he’d told his mother off. The scene played through in ’ mind, elating him and breaking his heart. Cade had stood by against his mother, but knew it had taken a lot out of him.
Cade had hovered quietly for most of the day, but at one point, he’d gone for a walk. wasn’t surprised, though he’d got a little worried as an hour turned into two. As if on cue, Cade had texted him to tell him he was fine, and he’d be back later, and finally, that they would talk.
It didn't exactly ease ’ mind, but it was better than nothing. He wasn’t sure what Cade meant about them talking, but he wouldn’t press him. had already laid out how he felt, and he’d witnessed Cade’s explosion at his mother. All in all, he bet Cade had a lot to think about and probably even more to talk about.
Despite swearing up and down that he was fine, the chief point-blank refused to let him come back. had been threatened with suspension if he tried to go back to the station before he was allowed. So, instead, he’d watched more TV than he could stand and called his mother half a dozen times.
He was out of things to do.
A knock on his door brought his head up. He was sprawled across his couch, staring at the ceiling, paying no attention to the TV. It was already late in the evening, and he didn’t have a clue who the hell would be visiting so late. Grunting, he heaved himself off the couch, wincing at the twinge in his back from where the beam had landed on him. It was still bruised, but at least he’d been lucky not to hurt himself seriously.
opened the door and blinked. “Cade?”
“Uh, hi,” Cade said, staring at the door as if it were the first time he’d seen it.
“What are you doing here?”
“Uh, seeing you?”
“No, I mean, why are you knocking? You have a key.”
“Yeah, that occurred to me only after I knocked.”
shook his head, opening the door wider and stepping back. “Well, come on in.”
Cade shuffled into the entranceway and past . Closing the door, stopped when he realized Cade hadn’t gone further into the apartment. In fact, the other man was only a foot from him, staring at his feet.
“Uh, Cade?” asked slowly.
Cade continued to stare at his feet. “Sorry, it’s been so...weird. I meant to stop by and see you, but I’ve been...thinking.”
“Yeah, that’s what you said,” said, unsure what he was supposed to do.
Cade was just standing there. figured they’d have a lot to talk about when Cade finally showed up, but he never realized how hard it must have been for Cade to get to this point.
hoped to make it a little easier. “Look, I know what I said. And I meant it, I did. At the same time, that doesn’t mean you have to do anything about it. If you don’t want to, then that’s fine. We can stop being awkward about the whole thing and be friends again. I just...want you back in my life, Cade.”
Cade finally looked up, his hazel eyes wide. looked down at him, realizing how close they were, and wondered if he should give his friend some space. He froze when Cade reached up, laying a hand on ’ shoulder and pulling him close. Before could do much more than bend forward out of shock, Cade’s lips were on his.
sucked in a sharp breath, stiffening as Cade pushed their mouths firmly together. And there it was again, that same zinging jolt he’d felt the last two times they’d kissed. The only difference was that Cade was the one who started it, and they were stone-cold sober. couldn’t smell liquor on Cade’s breath, and hell, he knew what Cade looked and acted like when he was drinking. No, this was an undiluted decision, and ’ heart raced feverishly.
Cade pulled back, smiling weakly. “Sorry, I had to...had to know.”
blinked, a little surprised. In some way, despite everything he’d said in the hospital room, hadn’t been sure if the first time hadn’t been a fluke.
“Um, know what?” asked.
Cade snorted softly. “Whether or not what I felt that first time was real or...alcohol induced.”
hesitated. “And?”
Cade wrinkled his nose, reaching down to press on his pants. It took a moment to realize he could see the bulge of Cade’s cock. Apparently, the kiss had been more than just a fluke for both of them.
couldn’t help but laugh. “Jesus, Cade, you have such a way with words.”
Cade scowled. “It was less embarrassing to show you than to say it.”
“I mean, I guess?”
Cade reached out and poked ’ cock. “I’m not alone.”
sucked in a breath at the brief contact. Okay, fine. Yes, he’d begun to stiffen, but it was even worse after Cade decided to touch it.
shook his head. “So what, we’re...just going to deal with being into one another now?”
“I mean, it’s a little weird...okay, a lot weird. I just got hard from kissing you, and then I poked your hard dick, and I liked it. There’s a lot of liking things I never thought I’d like,” Cade admitted.
“So, where does that leave us?” asked cautiously.
Cade turned his eyes to him, and blinked, caught off guard by their intensity. He’d caught a glimpse of it when he’d kissed Cade the night of the party and after he’d danced with him. had never appreciated how bright Cade’s eyes were, which was even more apparent now there was fire burning behind them.
“Did you mean everything you said?” Cade asked.
“I told you I did. That hasn’t changed,” said with a frown.
“You want to see if there’s more?”
“I...think it’s worth it if you want.”
“And what if we like it?”
“What if we do?”
“Do we start dating?”
cocked his head. “I...hell, Cade, why not?”
Cade leaned back. “Seriously?”
“If we end up liking all this stuff for real, the kissing, the touching, the...whatever else.”
“Butt stuff?” Cade asked with a grin.
“As tactful as ever,” said with a smirk.
“I’ve done butt stuff.”
“Cade?”
“No, I mean, like, on the receiving end.”
That gave pause. “What?”
Cade shrugged. “Some girls are into doing stuff like that. It’s not gay or anything. But I’ve used toys and stuff. Feels good.”
wasn’t sure what he was supposed to say to that. Now he suddenly had the idea of putting something else entirely into Cade’s ass. That should have been a weird thought, not an arousing one. And yet there he was, getting hard all over again. A distant part of him also wondered if Cade was telling him for a reason.
lay a hand on the side of Cade’s neck, holding him gently. “If we did do more stuff. If we liked the sexual stuff, why not? We’re already compatible, and to be blunt, I have a love for you already. Why would I turn away the chance to find out if that love can grow into something else and have someone to spend my life with who I know is my best friend?”
Cade stared up at him, wide-eyed. “Jesus, .”
“What, what’d I say?”
Cade cleared his throat. “Just, Jesus. That’s really fucking sweet.”
“It’s the truth,” said, bewildered.
Cade smiled at him. “I know. You don’t lie unless you’re doing it for my benefit, apparently.”
smiled back, glad to see the warmth on Cade’s face. “So, I hate to put it on you, but I’m following your lead. You know where I stand.”
Cade took a deep breath, reaching out to lay a hand on ’ chest. There was a momentary flash of strangeness to have so strong a hand against him, touching him so intimately. But he didn’t care, Cade’s warmth radiated through ’ shirt, and the weirdness washed away.
It was Cade.
“We have time,” Cade began. “Tonight. We can...figure things out.”
“Figure them out?” asked.
Cade stepped closer, a little hesitantly. “You, me. Sex.”
’ chest tightened. “You want to sleep with me?”
“I want to see what we like and what we don’t. I want to find out if it’s all or nothing. And right now, I’m not seeing any limits.”
’ eyes widened. “You...you what?”
“Let’s just say I’ve had a few eye-openers over the past few days. And maybe I’m being an idiot for holding back just because it seems weird at first. Kissing you is weird, but it’s only weird because it isn’t weird, you know?”
“I’m familiar with the feeling.”
“But kissing you feels great, amazing. And when we...fooled around, I liked that too. Your hands on me, hearing you?—”
And he was hard all over again.
Cade stared at him, laying his other hand on ’ chest. “We go with it tonight. We see where it goes. If either of us has to tap out because it’s just plain weird instead of weird because it’s okay, then we say so and stop. Deal?”
’ heart thundered in his chest. “Okay. But now it’s my turn.”
“Your turn?”
gently grasped the back of Cade’s head, pulling him forward. Once again, that electric pleasure shot through him, curling in his gut and becoming fire. He sucked in a breath as they carefully parted their lips. For a moment, their mouths fumbled as they tried to figure out how their tongues should work. Cade gave a soft laugh, and took the opportunity to take over. He almost expected Cade to protest, but instead, he heard a soft sound from the other man and felt him press closer.
“Bossy,” Cade murmured.
chuckled. “I get the feeling you like it.”
“I’m not afraid to let someone take over if they want to,” Cade muttered.
glanced over his shoulder. “I think...we would do better on a bed for this.”
“And just what kind of boy do you think I am?” Cade asked.
“The kind who’s interested in his first gay experience with his best friend who’s also having his first gay experience.”
“That’s fair.”
Cade’s tone was light, but could still sense the wariness in him as they walked toward the bedroom. Despite swearing up and down, he was ready for more, even he felt a fluttering in his gut. The kiss had gone a long way toward making him feel better about everything, and very interested in seeing what else felt good between them. Yet his mind kept pacing over Cade’s stubble against his cheek, the feel of muscle on Cade’s chest. It was all so different, and yet, he was still hard.
Nervous or not, that was good enough for him.
Cade stood at the edge of the bed, staring at it as entered the room. Knowing it was better to keep their momentum going before either had second thoughts, pressed against him from behind. Cade’s back was hard with muscle, but only noticed briefly. Instead, he focused on the soft breath Cade released when pressed his lips to the man’s neck, sucking gently.
Cade wriggled slightly. “I can...feel your dick.”
“Well, it is hard,” mumbled against his neck.
“I know, it’s?—”
“Weird?”
Cade snorted, twisting his arm to reach behind him and grip the bulge at the front of ’ pants. ’ breath hissed against Cade’s neck, pleasure rippling through him as Cade’s fingers explored. To his credit, Cade didn’t pull away but turned around to face and kiss him again. pressed into the kiss, holding Cade close.
“Not too weird,” Cade admitted to him.
“Let’s get these clothes off,” suggested.
“Rip the bandage off?” Cade asked.
“Something like that.”
had undressed in front of Cade more times than he could count. None of those times had been as nerve-wracking and yet erotic as this. peeled his shirt off, watching as Cade did the same and bent to pull his pants off. The muscles of Cade’s back shifted beneath his pale skin, and couldn’t help but run a hand over Cade’s flat stomach when he stood up. The faint hairs brushed against ’ palm, and his stomach muscles twitched.
“Ticklish?” asked softly.
“Not really, just…” Cade trailed off.
Remembering their promise, held back from asking if Cade was okay. He trusted the man to tell him the truth. Instead, he kept his hand moving, slipping it past the band of Cade’s underwear. Cade’s cock was rock hard and pulsed against ’ fingers as they wrapped around it.
“That feeling I remember,” Cade breathed, leaning closer to .
“So do I,” said, running a finger gently over the leaking head.
“Shit,” Cade moaned.
finished taking his clothes off, reluctantly pulling his hand away from Cade while he did so. He found that so long as he could hear Cade, knowing the man was enjoying himself, the weirdness of the situation melted away quickly.
He also knew what he wanted to try next.
“Sit down,” said.
Cade did so, staring up at him. His eyes widened when knelt before him, scooting closer so he was between Cade’s legs. Having never given a blowjob before, wasn’t entirely sure what he was doing. He’d had enough of them to take a good guess, though.
Gripping the base of Cade’s cock, leaned forward. The tip was still leaking, a sure sign they were doing something right. Knowing he had to get it over with to find out, ran his tongue over the leaking head, tasting him. He paused, cocking his head.
“What?” Cade asked.
looked up, shrugging. “Not bad.”
Cade looked down at his dick and laughed. “I hadn’t even thought about that.”
raised a brow. “You felt the need to specify that you’ve had something up your ass before but didn’t consider what cum tasted like?”
Cade’s eyes darted between his cock and ’ face. “I’m a little focused on the fact that I really like where you’re headed with this. We can talk about butt stuff later.”
snorted, but he wasn’t going to pass up continuing, not when it seemed like Cade was loosening up. Leaning forward, he wrapped his lips around the head of Cade’s cock, tasting him again. The low moan Cade gave was further encouragement to experiment with swirling his tongue around, and he wasn’t surprised when Cade’s noise deepened.
Apparently, witnessing and being on the receiving end of a blowjob was good enough to get started.
Emboldened, leaned in, feeling Cade’s cock slide along his tongue and into his throat. After a few inches, he felt his throat tense, already prepared to spasm at the intrusion. That was fine. had seen that happen when he’d been on the receiving end. Rather than push it, he backed away to suck on the head. Meanwhile, he used his hands in rhythm with his mouth, jerking Cade as he sucked and licked.
Once he built a good rhythm, he found the pattern that worked best. Cade hunched over him, hands gripping ’ back and moaning fiercely. His cock throbbed against ’ tongue. While the dick sucking wasn’t all that thrilling to , his cock jerked against his thigh every time Cade let out a deep moan.
“Okay, you win,” Cade gasped, pushing at ’ shoulders.
pulled off quickly. “What? What’d I do?”
Cade eyed him. “You sure you’ve never done that before?”
“Uh, no. I can promise you that.”
“Fast fucking learner, then.”
chuckled, pushing up to kiss Cade. “Well, bravo for me then. And for you.”
“Apparently,” Cade murmured against his mouth.
“And what was that about me winning?”
Cade looked at ’ crotch and then up at his face. “Uh, you got lube?”
stared and blinked when he realized what Cade was asking. “Oh. Yeah, and condoms.”
Cade hesitated, and quickly added, “Don’t push it, Cade. I’m okay like this.”
Cade shook his head. “No, no. I mean, that felt good as fuck. And I want to return the favor, but I kinda...well, if that felt good when you did it, and butt stuff with other people felt good, then I’m thinking it would with you. And I’d really like to try while I’ve got the courage.”
“Can we just call it anal or fucking? Butt stuff is weird.”
Cade snorted. “Anal then.”
kissed Cade once more. “And I think that courage is called horniness.”
“Whatever it is, it’s got me ballsy enough to try. And I hesitated because...bare?”
raised a brow. “No condom?”
“I’m clean,” Cade told him softly.
smiled, brushing Cade’s face gently. “If you say you are, then you are. I trust you a hundred percent.”
“Okay.”
nodded, not entirely sure if escalating was a good idea. As he retrieved the bottle of lube from the nearby drawer, he couldn’t deny a thrill of excitement. Cade in his mouth had been okay, but the sounds Cade had made were even better. And using the same logic that Cade had used, fucking someone felt good. So he could have the pleasure of fucking and the added, increasingly addictive sound of Cade’s enjoyment.
“Probably should, uh, prep first,” Cade said when sat on the bed beside him.
“Okay, lay back.”
Cade raised a brow. “Yeah?”
“I’ve done anal before, Cade,” told him.
Cade’s eyes widened. “What? But I?—”
snorted. “I’ve given it. Nothing’s been up my ass. But if you want to try it with?—”
Cade shook his head. “Nope, I volunteered. I’ve got the experience...and the big mouth.”
“Just remember our deal,” told him as he opened the bottle.
“Just...do it.”
“You sure know how to seduce a guy.”
Cade scowled at him. “Don’t fuck with me.”
pressed a lubed finger against Cade’s hole. “Just fuck you?”
Before Cade could answer, gently pressed a finger inside, and Cade sucked in a sharp breath. froze.
“Cold,” Cade told him with a stuttered laugh.
nodded, pressing his finger in more. He wasn’t surprised that Cade didn’t react much. One finger wasn’t terrible, especially if Cade had the experience to know what to expect. still took his time, easing the single digit in and out, gently opening him. When it came time for the second finger, Cade let out a soft noise. didn’t stop that time, drawing another low sound from Cade as the second finger slid in completely. patiently waited, stuck between wanting to make it easy on Cade and getting caught up in the heat of Cade’s body. He moved his fingers, spreading them apart and sucking in a breath at the grip around him.
When his fingers brushed against something inside Cade, the man gave a slight jerk and a real moan. knew enough to know what he’d hit and to make sure, he brushed the same spot again. Cade’s cock jumped, and fluid leaked from the tip as the man held tight to the mattress. He was able to distract Cade enough with that to add a third finger.
“And that’s why I was okay with...anal play,” Cade said with a shaky laugh.
“I’ve been missing out,” said.
“You got big fingers.”
“Sorry.”
Cade shook his head. “Don’t get me wrong, I’m still working through that it’s you. But you know, I’m okay with that.”
“You sure?”
“I’m really digging the face you make when you’re enjoying yourself and focused.”
looked at Cade’s red face and smiled. “And you’ve kept me rock hard because of your noises. Weird?”
“Yeah, but we’re not stopping.”
“That means?—”
“Yeah, but, uh?—”
gently pulled his fingers free, chuckling. “Me on my back?”
Cade nodded, and did as he was told. Lying on his back, cock sticking straight up, he watched his friend. Cade took the bottle of lube and squirted some into his hand. His fingers shook, but his grip was firm as he wrapped it around ’ cock. sucked in a breath, unable to help the low moan as Cade’s fingers glided over the length of his cock. Damn, he didn’t care if this was outside their norm, could get used to it.
Apparently satisfied with his work, Cade got up, straddling ’ hips. Reaching below him, he took hold of ’ cock and held it steady. reached out, holding onto Cade’s thighs, and watched him. Sweat shone on Cade’s forehead and chest, but the man’s face was furrowed with a look of determination. He eased back, pressing ’ cock against him. For a moment, there was nothing, and then gave a soft gasp as the grip of Cade’s ass wrapped around him.
“Oh shit,” groaned as another inch slid into Cade.
Cade let out a puff of air. “Woah, okay, that’s, uh, definitely bigger than the toys.”
wanted to tell him to stop if that was the case, but Cade leaned back again, slipping more of inside him. Cade stopped and took another few breaths before continuing. ’ fingers dug into Cade’s thighs as the grip continued slowly working its way down his shaft, engulfing him. All could do was hold tight and wait until he felt Cade settle into his lap, having taken him completely.
Cade leaned forward, pressing his hands against ’ chest with a sigh. “Phew, that was...an experience.”
looked up at him. “Are you okay?”
“Believe it or not, yeah. Bigger than the toys, but that’s...not a bad thing.”
grinned. “I’m a little impressed.”
“Be impressed if I get through this.”
With that, Cade inched his hips up before letting himself fall slowly. It was enough to shut up, and his grip on Cade’s thighs tightened. Cade continued, the tense look on his face melting as he repeated the action. His arms began to shake, and his breath came out in short bursts as he raised himself higher and let himself fall. On the last, Cade rose until was nearly out of him completely before letting himself fall.
“Oh fuck,” Cade gasped.
“Cade?” asked, trying to stay still.
Cade shook his head. “We gotta roll. I can’t do this. You gotta do it.”
“Okay, let me pull out, and we can try me.”
Cade grunted. “No, I mean, you do the fucking. This...you...just, you do it.”
raised a brow, but he wasn’t going to argue. As unsure as he’d been about blowing Cade, he was confident about being able to fuck him. He took hold of Cade’s hips and rolled them, pressing Cade against the bed. The movement shifted his cock inside Cade, drawing a moan even more enticing than the last.
“Holy shit,” muttered.
“Go,” Cade said, winding his legs around ' hips.
did as he was told, pulling his cock out and then gently pushing back in. Cade’s ass didn’t grip him as fiercely as when Cade had first started, but it still held onto tight. The heat and tightness had ’ body demanding he move and do something . Slowly but surely, he began to work up a pace.
Below him, Cade’s head pushed back against the bed, his hands tight around ’ arms. Cade moaned, clenching his eyes shut as buried himself again. Given confidence, began to thrust in earnest, pulling back halfway and driving forward. The more he gave Cade, the louder Cade became.
had never seen Cade in a moment of pleasure. He had never seen the man’s forehead beaded with stress, deep moans falling from his lips as he panted and encouraged as best he could. Cade’s legs pulled hard against his waist as though trying to yank in as he fucked him. buried himself, building strength and confidence as Cade bucked and thrust.
Cade’s eyes snapped open, and without warning, he yanked down. His back twinged from the sudden movement but was lost as Cade’s mouth pressed hungrily against his. Cade’s body went taut around him, bearing down fiercely and pulling a desperate moan from him. Below him, Cade’s cock jerked, and the man cried out, cum spurting between them as Cade rocketed into an orgasm.
“Cade,” warned through gritted teeth.
“Do it,” Cade moaned, still gripping tight.
A few more thrusts drew whimpers from Cade, and bowed over him with a cry. His body went wire-tight as he came deep inside. called out Cade’s name as his orgasm washed through him, wiping away all thoughts save the whisper of his name from Cade’s lips.
When it was done, sagged, carefully removing himself from Cade. Using his flagging strength, he grabbed a towel from his shower earlier and gently wiped Cade and himself. Tossing it aside, he knelt on the bed, still trying to catch his breath. Below him, Cade lay on his back, eyes clenched shut, his chest heaving.
reached out tentatively, laying a hand on Cade’s waist. “Cade?”
Cade’s eyes opened, searching until they found ’ face. “Hey.”
“You okay?” asked softly.
Cade grinned. “I’m not completely sure what I am right now. I’m going to go out on a limb and say I’m great.”
“Really?” asked, nervousness bleeding away.
Cade chuckled. “I can’t move my legs, and it feels like someone blew my brains out. Or fucked them out. That was...shit, that was not nearly as weird as I thought it would be.”
eased himself down onto the bed, lying beside Cade. “Agreed. I forgot about the weirdness after a little bit.”
Cade looked at him, face shining and hair soaked with sweat. “So, you’re good?”
leaned over, drawing Cade to him and kissing him. A smile twitched at the corner of his mouth as he felt Cade melt against him, easily giving in to the kiss. pulled Cade closer so he could wrap his arms around him and hold the man tight. Cade wasn’t much smaller than him, but he fit so well against ’ body.
Cade let out a soft noise. “Of course, you’re a cuddler.”
reveled in the sudden contentment washing through him. God, they could do this.
“Damn right I am,” said, closing his eyes.
“Good,” Cade said simply.
held him close, not letting him go even as his exhaustion started to take over. He knew they still needed to talk and figure a few things out, but that could wait. For the moment, he was happy to hold Cade close, feel his breathing deepen, and know he was with someone who loved him.