Chapter 38
Colleen is outside with Bea in her arms when I pull into the driveway, just shortly after Teddy.
“Oh good, you’re home,” Colleen says to Teddy, hugging her when she climbs out of the minivan. “I was wondering if you’d let me pick up Penny and Dalton from school today and take them to get a treat.” The older woman gestures over to where I’m just climbing out of my truck and winks. “Let you two kids have a proper ‘welcome home’.”
“ Colleen! ” Teddy whisper-hisses and I grin widely as Teddy blushes furiously. Colleen winks and I huff out a low chuckle as I cross the yard to where both women are standing.
Bea waves her chubby arms at me and I let her grab hold of my index finger in hello. I beam down at the tiny thing that has me so thoroughly wrapped around her little finger. All of Teddy’s kids do, to be honest. I’m crazy about all of them.
“That’s very generous of you, Colleen,” I murmur, just a hint of teasing in my tone.
“I’m just glad my meddling worked,” the older woman says, and I smile at Teddy while the blush staining her cheeks spreads to her chest .
“You’re the worst,” Teddy whispers, hiding her face behind her hand and shaking her head. “This isn’t normal, Colleen.”
“Pfft.” Colleen waves one hand and laughs, then winks at me again. God, I adore this woman. So off the wall and not at all what I would expect. “Since when have I ever done anything to be normal ? Go on, I’m going to get little miss loaded up and then we’re going to head out. You two have fun. We’ll be back in a few hours.”
“Ohmygod,” Teddy moans, burying her face in both hands as her shoulders shake with laughter. Colleen heads back into the house with Bea, leaving us out in the yard. Dropping her hands, she huffs out an embarrassed little laugh as she looks up at me. “I’m so sorry.”
“Don’t apologize.” Ducking low, I set my lips against the shell of her ear and breathe huskily, “I’m going to use every second of those few hours to worship this body, Teddy.”
“Holy shit,” she whispers, swaying into me slightly.
I chuckle, planting my mouth against the underside of her jaw. “I need to shower.”
“Okay,” she breathes, her lids fluttering closed. I groan, settling my body against her side, pressing my hips into her. I’m already hard, erection straining behind the fly of my nomex pants.“Don’t take too long.”
I kiss her fiercely, just for a second, sending my tongue into her mouth. Fuck, I was only gone a few days and I’m fucking starving for her.
I release her and step away, chuckling darkly as she sways where she stands. “I’ll only be a few, Teddy.”
She nods, biting her lower lip, and I force myself to walk away. I strip as soon as I’m in the bathroom, then shower as quickly as I can while being as thorough as possible. I ignore my raging hard-on, more than happy to wait for this time with my girl. God bless Colleen.
I’m stepping out of the bathroom when I hear Colleen call to Teddy from the driveway that they’ll be back later, and then Teddy’s front door closes.
I barely take the time to pull a pair of basketball shorts and a t-shirt on before I’m padding over to Teddy’s house. She blushes that pretty pink I like so much as she sees me standing outside the back patio door, and then she’s pulling that door open to let me in. My hands are on her in an instant. She’s taken the pretty blue jacket off, but is still wearing the same pair of cock-teasing, wide legged pants and buttery soft black shirt as she was earlier. My fingers dive into her hair and I release the tresses from the clip at the back of her head, sending her hair in waves around her shoulders and over my hands. We kiss like teenagers, hungry and desperate.
“Bedroom,” I rasp raggedly, pulling my lips from hers. She pants against my mouth, but nods. “I want you naked, Teddy. Fuck, I’ve missed you.”
“I missed you,” she whispers earnestly, and I don’t doubt the words for a second. Turning her by the shoulders, I give her round, full ass a sharp slap through the material of her slacks. She gasps, then giggles as we make our way to the bedroom.
As soon as the door closes, I reach for her again. Tugging the soft blouse out of the waistband of her slacks, I haul it over her head and toss it to the floor. Her upper body is covered in a black bodysuit that is also tucked into her pants. I reach for it, but she slaps my hands away.
“The pants have to come off first,” she says with another one of those embarrassed little giggles. “It’s a full body shaper.”
I glare down at the tight contraption, sliding my fingers beneath one of the straps that’s digging into her shoulder. “This looks painful, Teddy.”
She shrugs while my fingers go for the button and zipper of her slacks. I smooth my hands over her hips, inside the material of the pants and with a whisper of fabric, the pants fall to her ankles. She blushes, smoothing her hands over her body in the tight spandex, almost as if trying to cover herself from me. This woman, I swear. I’m going to show her how fucking beautiful she is to me.
Fingers once again digging beneath the straps at her shoulders, I waste no time dragging it down her arms. Her breasts are released first, falling free of the tight material and I groan because this goddess is braless beneath it. Ducking my head, I suck one nipple into my mouth, nipping lightly with my teeth. She gasps, her fingers sliding into my still wet hair. But I’m not done yet. I sink to my knees as I pull this damn contraption off my girl, her soft, glorious body being revealed inch by inch.
I lean away and growl up at her. Goddamn, the things I could do down here on my knees to this woman. She finally steps out of the tight black spanx and I hold it up in my fist, then toss it across the room.
“I will slice this damn thing to shreds if I see you wearing it again,” I warn before rising to stand.
She blushes again, her tongue darting out to wet her lips nervously as I reach behind me and pull my shirt off over my head, letting it drop to the floor, too. And then I’m shoving my shorts down my thighs until I’m as naked as she is. I can’t stop staring at her. She’s just so fucking pretty. Dragging my knuckles along the slope of one breast, I groan at the softness.
“Goddamn,” I rasp, my eyes eating up every glorious inch of her. The early afternoon sun is filtering through the windows, making her skin glow warmly, and turning her hair to gold.
“Please close the curtains,” she whimpers, her hands coming up to cover herself shyly. I growl at her, and she halts.
“No.”
“Please, Xander?—”
Grasping her wrists, I pull her hands away from the body that she’s trying desperately to hide from me, and I shake my head. “I want to see you, Teddy. Every fucking glorious inch of you. And I can’t do that if I shut out all the light. ”
“But—”
“No buts,” I murmur darkly, and then my eyes track over the curves displayed in the tall mirror across the room. Forcing her back several steps, so that we are directly in front of that mirror, I cup her jaw in both of my hands. “I’m going to sit in front of this mirror, and you’re going to turn around and face it, too. Then, you’re going to spread these legs and sit on my cock.”
Her lips part, and I rub my thumb across the full, kiss swollen bottom one. “I can’t do that.”
“Yes, you can, beautiful.”
Her throat works as she swallows, her eyes wide and wary. “But I’m all?—”
“Oh, sweetheart, I know. And it drives me fucking wild.”
My hands slide down her throat and over her shoulders, then down to settle on the plump curve of her waist, where her wide hips flare out. Her pale skin looks creamy and velvety in the mirror behind her, and I let my gaze drift from hers to marvel at the sight before me. Her ass is what dreams are made of, so I curve my hands over the delicious roundness, the difference of the rough darkness of my hands against her smooth, pale flesh a heady sight. I grab handfuls, squeezing and kneading, spreading her cheeks lightly.
Her hands grab hold of my waist, fingers flexing against my ribs as I continue to pet and stroke along every inch of her that I can reach. I’m powerless against her, this hold she has on me, on my heart. Pressing my hips into the softness of her belly, she gasps, and the sound does wonderful, awful things to my already rock-hard dick. It jumps between us.
The mid afternoon sunlight filtering in through the window across the room sends rays of light dancing across the bed, the floor, over Teddy’s skin. She’s fucking perfect. Goddamn ethereal in her beauty. I’m going to worship every single inch of her.
I sink to my knees again, dragging my hands along the exaggerated hourglass of her ribs, waist, and hips, at the same time pressing my mouth to the cushion of her stomach. There’s no part of her that is toned; she’s all curvy, grabbable softness and I can’t fucking get enough of her. This body drives me crazy.
Her hands sink into my hair, grabbing handholds, and I grin against the softness of her belly, pressing my open mouth to the cushiness of it, letting my tongue flick out and trace several faint stretch marks. One of her hands slides down and tries to cover where my mouth is, but I grunt at her and then my palm is cracking across one plump ass cheek in warning. She gasps again, and the sound makes me damn near feral.
I sit back so that I’m sitting on my heels, my thighs spread just slightly. I stare up her body, and I realize that I never want to be anywhere else. I want to spend the rest of my days worshiping this goddess in front of me, and I’ll make her see it, too.
Grabbing the slopes of her hips, I turn her to face the mirror. She turns her eyes away from her reflection, but that’s okay for now. By the time we’re done, she’s going to know just how fucking beautiful she is.
I glide my hand from her right hip, down over her ass cheek, and press it between her thick thighs. She shifts, allowing her thighs to part enough for me to get my hand where I want it most, and I groan against the softness of her backside when I feel just how wet she already is.
“Oh fuck,” I groan again, taking a love bite out of her left ass cheek. “You’re so wet for me.”
From my seated position on my knees, I grab hold of her hips again and draw her to the floor as well. When her knees hit the floor in front of me, I grin at her in the mirror and let my eyes track over the globes of her breasts, the dark nipples already peaked and begging for attention.
“Spread your legs for me, beautiful,” I breathe against the soft skin behind her ear. She hesitates just a moment before shifting, spreading her knees. I’m so hard it’s fucking painful. “Now, straddle my legs and sit on my cock until you take every inch, Teddy.”
Her eyes are trained on mine as she does as I say, shifting backward until her thighs have straddled mine. Her knees are on the floor on either side of mine, and she’s spread wide as she moves into position. It’s filthy and erotic and it takes every considerable ounce of my self-control not to come already. Reaching between us, I position myself at her entrance, dragging the tip over that pretty pink pussy that is on full display for me in the mirror.
“Sit.”
She heeds the command, doing as I say. The curves of her ass are against my abs, her shoulders level with my mouth, and I lean in and press hot, open-mouthed kisses along the ridge of her shoulder as she settles on me, drawing me into her with aching slowness. I watch over her shoulder in the mirror as her body takes all of me. I’ve never seen anything as sexy as watching her take my cock inside her. Banding my arm around her middle, I hold her back flush against my chest and my mouth drops open at the sheer euphoria of being so deep. Fuck she’s tight. So fucking tight. Her head tips back as she settles on me fully, and I can feel those inner muscles twitching around my cock. I see stars.
“Fucking Christ, Teddy,” I whisper out a groan against her neck. “Do you see that? Do you see how fucking beautiful that is?”
She drops her chin, her eyes meeting mine in the mirror. I cup her pussy in my other hand, spreading her wider so we can both see the way she takes me, all the way to the hilt.
“Oh my god,” she moans, and my cock twitches inside, making me grunt in agreement.
“Fuck, this is beautiful,” I groan, spreading her with my fingers. The sight of my cock disappearing into her is heady and thrilling and so fucking erotic, and whether she knows it yet or not, she’s all fucking mine. I stroke the pad of my thumb across the tight bundle of nerves at the apex of her thighs and she gasps, grinding down onto me. “Mmhmm. Just like that, pretty girl.”
“Xander.”
Her eyes are on mine in the mirror, her lids heavy, lips parted. One of her hands is clutching my forearm that I have banded across her middle, holding her to me. The other hand is covering the back of mine where it’s buried between her legs.
Using the arm around her waist to lift her, she accommodates, her thighs shifting slightly, and then I slam my hips upward as I haul her back down to my thighs. Her fingers scrabble against my skin, her mouth dropping open on a silent cry. Fuck, this is everything. She is everything.
She does it on her own this time, rising up until my tip is all that’s left, and then she’s dropping down, sinking me back inside to the hilt. I grab a handful of the flesh at her middle, dropping my mouth to the curve of her neck, where I let my teeth sink in for a bite before soothing the hurt with my tongue.
Her inner muscles clench around me and I grin against her neck. “Oh, you naughty thing. You like the pain?”
She nods, the movement stilted and jerky, while she continues to ride my cock. Her thick, creamy thighs are spread wide over mine and I release my hold around her torso and her pussy to grab soft handfuls of her thick hips. I guide her, using the downward motion of her body to thrust up hard. Her hands land on the planes of her thighs, using them for leverage. I slam upward again, letting my fingers bite into the cushiness of her hips. Taking another love bite out of her shoulder, she moans and drops her chin forward.
“So fucking pretty,” I groan from behind her, never faltering in the hard, deep thrusts upward. “Such a pretty girl, spreading wide for me. You take me so well, beautiful.”
Her eyes find mine in the mirror again. I drag my hands over her hips, up the wide slope of them, to the narrow softness of her waist. Cupping her breasts in my hands, I squeeze them, kneading them, and then I roll each nipple between my fingers and her body bows against me, her pussy tightening around my dick.
“Oh fuck, Teddy,” I rasp, pressing my mouth to her shoulder again. I roll her nipples again and she bites her lip, mewling lightly.
“Oh god, Xander, that’s going to make my?—”
I feel it then, the warm wetness that dribbles between my fingers and I watch our reflections, enraptured, as rivulets of white trickle out of the nipples I have pinched between them. I can’t help it, I pound upward into her fiercely, the sight of her leaking between my fingers making me damn near feral. Her hands cover mine and I see the heavy stain of a blush that covers her chest and cheeks.
“Lower your hands,” I command darkly. She stares at me, her lips parted, her breaths sawing in and out of them. “ Teddy . Drop your hands so I can see.” She does as she’s told and I grin darkly at her. “Good girl. You will not cover one inch of your body from me, do you understand?” She hesitates and I thrust up again, earning another cock twitching gasp from her. “You are the most exquisite woman I’ve ever seen, sweetheart. Every part of you. Even the parts you don’t think are beautiful.”
I let my palms cup her tits again, pushing them together. “These tits? Fucking gorgeous. See how well they fit in my hands? Like you were made for me.”
I slide my palms down, until I can grab hold of her waist, my fingers digging into the softness of her stomach. “Do you know how many times I’ve jerked off to the memory of you pregnant? This body rounded and full… fuck I felt like an asshole, like a fucking pervert. But goddamn, you pregnant is one of the prettiest things I’ve ever seen, Teddy. I’ve never wanted kids, but fuck me if I haven’t thought about what it might be like to watch you grow with my baby inside you. ”
Her mouth drops open again, shock entering her features. “Xander…”
Fuck it, I’m all in, anyway. About time she realizes it, too.
I grab handholds on her heavy, wide hips, pushing up inside her, my cock pulsing with the need to come. “These hips; I’ve thought of nothing else but holding onto these while I fuck you from behind. Christ, the thought of watching my cock pound into you, your ass in the air and head buried in the sheets…” I curve my hands around the fullness of her ass, where it jiggles with every hard thrust, every move she makes as she rides me. I give her ass cheek a hard slap and she mewls again as her pussy pulses around me. I groan, gritting my teeth, running my palms from her hips to her tits and back, reveling in the way her softness gives way to my fingers. “If all of this isn’t bouncing and jiggling around, I’m not fucking you hard enough.”
“Oh god,” she cries, and I know she’s seconds away from coming. I drop my hands to her thighs, curving them around the heavy, soft insides, spreading her wider over me. I let my fingers circle her clit, and she sobs as she undulates her hips against me. “Xander, please!”
“You’re right there, pretty girl,” I breathe into her neck. “Ride my cock, come all over it. God I want to feel you?—”
She sobs as her body bows in on itself and I feel it as she comes hard. She squeezes her eyes closed and tilts her face away, but I’m not about to let her miss this.
“Eyes on the mirror, Teddy. Watch how beautiful you are when you come for me,” I grit out, and she opens those gray eyes, finding mine in the mirror. Fuck, she’s stunning as she shakes and trembles against me, around me, and I wrap both of my arms around her torso as she rides out that high. Her inner muscles are squeezing the life out of me, but I hold back, because this is about her. Her eyes never leave mine.
When she slumps back against my chest, her breaths heaving in and out of her, I nuzzle her neck with my nose, my lips .
“So. Fucking. Beautiful.” I punctuate every word with a hot, open-mouthed kiss to her skin, working my way up the side of her neck, to her jaw.
She twists her head toward me, staring wide eyed, still panting those uneven breaths. And then I crush my mouth to hers, kissing her deeply, fiercely.
Our lips and teeth and tongues tangle, we kiss until we’re both breathless, and I feel the last of her climax ripple away, until the shaking turns into a new kind of trembling.
Releasing the hold I have around her middle, I nip at her full, kiss swollen lower lip, then soothe it away with my tongue. “On your hands and knees.”
She moans lightly as she rises off of me, her limbs shaking as she settles on her hands, her round ass splayed for me like my own personal feast. I can’t help myself; I lean forward and sink my teeth into one supple cheek before rising onto my knees behind her. Her eyes are on me in the mirror as I position myself at her entrance again, pushing the broad head of my cock into her wet and glistening folds, just an inch. I settle my palms over the heavy curves before me, over her back, the soft roundness of her hips and ass, letting my fingers trail lightly over the sensitive flesh at the back of her thighs. She trembles beneath my touch, goosebumps flashing across her skin.
“Do you understand yet how unbelievably stunning you are?” I ask her reflection. She bites down on her lower lip, uncertainty flashing in her eyes. “Do you understand how impossible it was for me to stay away from you? You own me , Teddy. My body.” Curving my hands around the meaty part of her hips, I haul her back toward my waiting cock, burying myself as deep as I can go in one long, hard thrust. I’m so hard it hurts. I know I won’t last much longer; the tightness, the sensation of her gripping me is hurtling me toward my own orgasm. “My heart.” I pound into her, hard enough to make her tits sway with the thrust and she mewls, the sound ricocheting through me like a wrecking ball. I’m fucking done for. She’s everything. My everything . “My fucking soul, Teddy.”
Her mouth drops open, her eyes wide on mine in the mirror.
“Do you feel how badly I want you, Teddy?” I glide my hands over her possessively. I’m fucking feral for her at this point. “You do this to me. Drive me fucking crazy.”
She nods, her eyes luminous as she watches me. I let my own gaze drop to where we’re connected, her ass resting against my thighs, my abs, and I smooth my hands over her gently, lovingly. Pulling back, I groan through tightly clenched teeth at the sight of her body swallowing me whole as I push back in. Her back arches, granting me better access, and I slide deeper. She sinks down onto her forearms, her forehead thumping into the carpeted floor, and her hands spread wide on the floor above her head.
I slap her ass, earning another clench around my dick and a breathy gasp from her lips. “ Eyes , Teddy. I need those eyes, beautiful.
She raises her head, shifting back up onto her palms, pushing back against me. But her eyes find mine, as always, and I let loose. Gripping these soft, grabbable hips in a tight hold, I slam into her, over and over again. Her mouth opens on a silent cry, her brows pulled tightly together. Her tits sway with every hard thrust, and I’m torn between watching her beautiful face and watching this glorious body taking everything I’m giving to her. Her inner walls pulse around me, and I know she’s close. I recognize the fluttering. She’s going to come again.
“ Xander ,” she mewls, a soft, keening sound. So desperate. So needy. So fucking mine .
Fuck, my name on her lips; a prayer, a plea. My goddamn ruin. I’m undone.
“ That’s my beautiful girl ,” I rasp, hips snapping into hers again and again. My balls are drawing tight, my release converging at my spine. “Come for me, pretty girl.”
And she does. Her back bows, her thighs quake, her pussy clenches around me and my vision goes hazy as my own climax roars through me, scorching me from the inside out. My hips snap into hers once, twice more, all finesse fleeing as I spill inside her with hot, long spurts, my cock pulsing as she draws every drop from me. The groan that tears out of my throat is almost a roar.
I’m panting raggedly, my heart a hammering cadence in my chest. God above, I haven’t come that hard… ever.
Her head drops forward between her bridged arms, shaking as she holds herself off the floor. I trail my fingers from her bottom up her back, then back down the indent of her spine. She shivers, letting out a breathy moan.
“My beautiful fucking girl.”
“I didn’t believe you,” she whispers, her head still bowed toward the floor. Then she raises her head, meeting my gaze in the mirror again. Her eyes glisten with tears, but a soft, radiant smile pulls at her lips, and it sends fissures through my chest. “But I do now. You make me feel beautiful, and sexy, and desirable.”
“You are all of those things,” I whisper in return, unable to keep the shakiness from my voice. “All of it, and so much more, sweetheart.”
I pull out of her, groaning as I push to my feet. My legs shake—fuck she made me come so hard I saw stars—and offer my hand to her to help her stand. She wobbles too, and I can’t resist the urge to wrap her in my arms and hold her against my chest, tucking her head beneath my chin. Her arms slide around my waist, her fingers trailing along my spine as we stand that way for a long moment, enjoying the peace only lovers feel.
And then she squirms against me and looks up, her nose wrinkling adorably. I peck a kiss to her lips, a soft, chaste kiss, and ask, “What is it?”
“You certainly like to make a mess of me…” She blushes pr ettily, and I grin, that age old, primal urge to beat my chest with my fists rising in me. Mine .
“I wasn’t lying when I said I do very much like the sight of my cum dripping out of you,” I rasp against her mouth. She bites her lip and that blush deepens. “It’s a reminder of where I’ve been, what you do to me, and what I do to you. I like marking you as mine, Teddy.”
A soft inhale of breath. Her eyes raise to mine. “Is that what I am? Yours?”
Grabbing handfuls of her backside in my palms, I nuzzle her neck before kissing my way back up to her mouth. “If you’ll have me, yes.”
“Are you sure?” she asks against my mouth. “I come with a lot of baggage, Xander, and I can’t do casual. I have kids?—”
“You’re a package deal, and one I understood before this ever started, Teddy,” I whisper gently, stroking her hair away from her face before cupping her jaw in my palms. I let my thumbs rub along her cheekbones, staring down into those beautiful eyes. “There’s no amount of ‘baggage’ that could make me not want this. But I don’t want you saying yes to something you’re not sure about. My job… I know the risks. And that’s why I fought against this so fucking hard.”
“Because of Logan,” she whispers, and I nod solemnly.
“Because the thought of causing you or these kids any pain is abhorrent to me.” Taking her hand in mine, I drag it to my mouth and press a kiss to the center of her palm. “I love you, Teddy. I think I have for a while, sweetheart.”
“Xander…” she breathes reverently, her eyes shimmering as she stares up at me. I know she’s not ready to say it back, and that’s okay. As long as she doesn’t push me away.
I kiss her palm again, then whisper against her skin, “It’s okay. I just need you to know. I told you I was done fighting this, and I meant it. You and these kids mean the world to me. I don’t want just casual with you. I want everything, beautiful.”