Chapter 17 #2
“Before we do this. I think I need to be honest.” If he tells me right now he doesn’t want to have sex with me, or that this was all a lie, I think I might die.
“Okay.” I blink, trying not to let my mind run wild.
“I’ve never had sex before.”
Well. That was not at all what I thought he was going to say.
“Like never, never?” I ask in disbelief.
“No.” He rubs the back of his neck, his cheeks going an adorable pink. “It’s partly why I haven’t pushed for sex with this whole friends with benefits thing. I didn’t want to be bad at it, and you change your mind about wanting to mess around with me.”
I can’t help but smile. “Trust me, Austin, that wouldn’t have been enough to scare me away.
” I laugh softly. There's this sense of joy and excitement at the fact that he’s never been like this with another person.
I know he’s mentioned being with people before, and that man sure knows how to use his hands and mouth, but I guess it stopped before it went too far.
And then it hits me. I get to be the one to take Austin’s virginity. I get to be this unbelievably sexy, sweet, kind man’s first.
A wave of arousal makes me shiver, my cock jumping with excitement.
“Okay, good. Because I really like what we have going on and I don’t want to be the reason we stop doing what we’re doing.” he blows out a breath, rubbing his thighs nervously.
“How about this?” I say, stepping between his legs. I run my fingers through his messy black hair, dragging my nails along his scalp. His eyes flutter closed with a small groan. “I’ll take the lead. But if there’s any time you want to take over, go for it. Do what feels right.”
“Really?” his eyes flutter open.
I nod, leaning down to kiss him softly. “You’re safe with me, Austin. To be yourself, to fumble, to learn. I won’t point it out, I won’t make fun. It doesn’t matter if you are this sex god, all that matters is we’re doing this together.”
“Fuck. Levi.” His eyes brim with something that has me wanting to spill my deepest, darkest feelings.
But now is not the time. I won’t fuck this all up. Not before this man has even been inside me.
My ass clenches at the thought, want filling every part of my being. I need this man inside me, to fill me up, to stretch me open.
“Oh, and Austin?” I grin wickedly, tugging his head back so I can bite and suck at his neck.
“Mhm?” he hums, sounding lust drunk.
“Just so you know. You don’t have to take it easy on me.” I whisper, gliding my lips along his jaw until they’re a breath away from his lips. “I love it rough."
The groan that leaves Austin is primal and brutal. “You’re fucking mean.” Austin scowls at me, but his eyes are filled with heat.
“Where’s your condoms and lube?” I ask him.
“Ahh...” he blinks. “Lube is in the drawer. But I don’t have condoms.” He clears his throat. “Never needed them.”
My brows jump. “Even when we decided to make things physical?”
He bites his lips and god it’s sexy. “Was it too presumptuous of me to hope, knowing you haven’t been with anyone in years, and I haven’t been with anyone well, at all, that we could skip the condoms?”
I want to tell him how irresponsible that is. That being prepared is always best.
But as he looks at me with eyes that scream he wants to devour me, knowing this man wanted to be inside me bare, where he could feel everything has a spark of pleasure go down my spine and right to my balls.
“Yes.” I shake my head, grabbing the hem of my shirt and pulling it up over my head. “But I’ll forgive you.”
“Thank fuck.” He blows out a breath, pupils dilating as he drinks me in.
My body heats under his stare, feeling sexy for once. The way he looks at me makes me feel wanted. No, needed.
Stepping back between his legs, his hands run up my abs, making me shiver. “You're so fucking sexy.” He groans, leaning in to suck on my nipple. I suck in a gasp when he bites down.
Grabbing the hem of his shirt, I pull his shirt off and toss it to the ground before pushing him onto his back.
He goes with a grunt, but leans up on his elbows to watch me as I make work of his jeans and pull them off him.
I take his boxers off with his jeans, and his cock springs free, slapping his stomach and lying there thick and heavy.
I bite my lip, and my mouth waters with the need to suck him into my mouth. But I’d much rather have him somewhere else right now.
“Keep looking at me like that, and I'll lose it,” Austin smirks.
“Sorry.” I chuckle, making work of my own pants.
Austin’s eyes darken, a low rumbling sound of approval leaving his chest as he takes in my fully naked form.
“Fucking hell, Levi,” he breaths. “How the fuck did I get so lucky?”
My heart races as emotions flood me. We’ve seen each other naked, had one another's cocks down our throats, tasted each other's cum.
But I’ve never felt so open and vulnerable as I do right now.
Those moments are hot and heavy. Right now, it feels like we’re bearing our souls to one another. Nothing is rushed, like we want to take our time.
With my ex, I felt used, that I wasn't appreciated for my body, but rather for how he could use it.
Austin looks at me like I’m something precious. He makes me feel seen, wanted, needed. I feel sexy.
I bite my lip, wrapping my hand around my cock. He groans as I slowly stroke myself. “So, that lube?” my voice cracks.
Austin’s eyes snap up from where they are staring at my cock. “Bedside table.” He licks his lips.
He watches me as I retrieve the lube. “Up on the bed,” I tell him. He eagerly listens, moving up so that he’s lying on the pillows.
Crawling onto the bed, I move until I’m straddling his hips.
“Fuck.” he breaths, chest starting to rise and fall as his eyes take me all in. Excitement and lust shine bright in his gaze. “I’ve been wanting to do this for so long.”
“Me too.” I smile.
Opening the lube, I put some on my hand and coat his cock. Austin bucks his hips. He looks so sexy as he bites his lip. “Levi,” he moans. “I want to be inside you.”
“You will be,” I murmur, leaning forward to press a soft kiss to his lips.
He grumbles when I move my hand from his dick to between my legs, but I shut him up with my tongue. I slide two fingers into my hole, moaning as I prep myself for his cock.
“What are you doing?” Austin asks against my lips.
“Getting myself ready.” I pant, eyes closed, as the sensation of being filled already feels so good. It’s been far too long since I’ve had sex, and toys just aren't going to cut it anymore. I want Austin’s cock so fucking bad.
“I wanna see.”
Feeling a little shy, I lean back and let him watch as I move my fingers inside me.
“Fuck that’s so hot.” he licks his lips. “You getting yourself ready for me, baby?”
“Yes.” I breathe, pleasure slowly building through me.
“Get that tight little hole ready for my cock, Levi. I’m gonna stretch you so fucking good, baby. Gonna fill you up. You’d like that, wouldn’t you?”
His words make me shiver, need coursing through me. I bite my lip and nod. “Yes.”
“Look at what you do to me,” he growls, gripping his cock. Pre-cum drips from the tip. “I’m so fucking gone for you right now, Levi. Need to be inside you.”
When I feel like I’m good, he angles his cock up and I shift forward. “Ready?” I ask him.
“So fucking ready.”
Leaning forward, I brace myself on Austin’s shoulders and slowly lower myself until I feel the tip of his cock press against my hole. My cock is painfully hard, pre-cum dripping down my shaft. My eyes drop to Austin’s face, but his eyes are locked on where the head of his cock sinks into my ass.
“Holy fuck.” he grinds out as I take him inch by inch.
I hang my head, moaning at the feeling of his cock stretching me open; it feels fucking amazing.
This is what I needed. He feels so good, and he’s not even all the way in.
“So good. So fucking good. God, your ass is so tight, baby.
Like fucking heaven. You're doing so good. You should see us right now, Levi, the way my cock disappears into your ass, we fit perfectly together.” His words are strained with every inch I take.
When he’s finally fully in me, I take a moment to adjust.
“How are you doing?” I ask him, wanting to check in.
“I’m good. So fucking good.” He runs his hands up and down my thighs. “How about you?”
“Perfect.” I roll my hips and we both cry out.
“Yes!” Austin practically sobs. “More. Please. More.”
I do it again, loving how I’m the one who’s making this man putty for me.
He grips my hips, moving me back and forth on his cock. I smile; this man was worried he wouldn’t know what to do. He’s already letting his body take over.
My nails dig into his chest as I move faster and faster. My head spins, my cock throbs, my body is tingling heavily with want.
When Austin looks up at me again, his pupils blown wide, it takes my breath away.
His lips part, heavy breaths passing them as I work him over. I see the moment things change for him. He gets this feral look in his eyes, and in the next moment, I’m on my back. He pins me to the mattress, his lips crashing down on mine.
Austin kisses me like a starved man, tongues tangling together as he pumps long, slow, deep thrusts into my ass.
He hits my prostate and I sob against his lips.
“You like that, baby?” he growls, rolling his hips again and again.
“Yes. Just like that, Austin. Oh god.” My eyes roll back, hands shooting out to wrap around his neck, his back, anywhere I can touch. My nails claw at his back as this man makes love to me.
Because that's what it feels like. It’s nothing like I’ve ever had before. It’s raw, emotional, powerful.
The back of my eyes sting as I feel like I’m losing my mind. My brain is fuzzy, my body is on fire in the best way.
“Look at me, baby.” Austin’s voice is soft now. My eyes flutter open, and he fucking smiles at me. “There’s my boy.”
Tears fall free, and he leans forward to kiss them away. “Shhh. I got you, baby.”
We kiss again, our lips move together slowly, savouring every lick and suck.
More tears fall because this is everything to me. I love this man so much, more than I’ve ever loved anyone before. The way he treats me, I’d like to think he feels the same way about me, too.
“I’m close.” Austin pants against my lips. “Cum with me, Levi.”
He reaches between us, wrapping his hand around my cock. I whimper, body shuddering as he starts to jerk me off with each thrust of his hips.
His cock continues to brush against my sweet spot, over and over again. With that and the way he’s working my cock, I can’t hold back.
My orgasm builds fast, my balls tingle, and I fucking explode. “Austin.” I gasp, eyes widening as my nails dig into his shoulder.
Ropes of cum shoot out, coating his hand and my chest. “Fuck,” he grunts. “Fuck Levi, fuck!” One last hard thrust, he buries himself to the hilt, and his whole body tenses. He shudders, letting out this sexy moan as his cock fills me with his release.
I can feel him pulsing inside me, warm jets of cum coating my walls.
He fills me with this warm feeling, making me smile like an idiot.
“Holy fuck.” He slumps, catching himself before he falls on top of me. “That was... Fuck that was everything.”
“Yeah?” I look up at him with vulnerability.
“It was perfect, Levi,” he smiles, kissing me softly. “Thank you for being my first.”
I wanted to be his first. And his only.
“You're welcome. Thank you for trusting me.”
“Mhhm,” he hums, wrapping his arms around me. He rolls us so that I’m on top, his cock still inside me. “I trust you with my life.” My heart skips a beat.
“Me too,” I whisper back.
Can he trust me with his heart?
“We should probably go get washed up.” I chuckle as he holds me tightly.
“No,” he murmurs sleepily. “I just want to hold you.”
I don’t fight him, even if there's a mess of cum between us, and I can feel him leaking out of my ass.
I don’t want to move, I want to stay like this, in this moment forever. Just him and me. Just how I wish it could be for the rest of our lives.
“Okay,” I murmur, closing my eyes and letting my body sink into his warmth. “Just for a little bit.”
“No,” he murmurs. “Forever.”