20. Margo
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Margo
The ship glides into the Santorini caldera, and it’s as if the last weeks fold in on themselves and drop me right back where I started.
I didn’t know this was where we were going.
The captain mentioned a port, supplies, a chance to stretch our legs on solid ground.
She didn’t mention it would be this port, the one with the white cliffs and the blue domes, the one where I boarded a tender with my daughter and left my marriage behind.
“Mommy, look!” Sandy presses her face to the window. “The frosting houses!”
“I remember, baby.”
“We came here before! On the big boat!”
“We did.”
Sebastian appears beside me, and I feel him register the view, the caldera, the cliffs, the exact location where his wife walked away from him.
“We can anchor somewhere else,” he says quietly. “The captain can find another port.”
“No.” I take a breath. “No, I think I need to be here.”
“Why?”
“Because last time I ran.” I turn to face him. “Last time, I was so desperate to escape that I didn’t even look back. I want to go ashore this time. I want to choose to be here instead of fleeing.”
He studies my face, looking for doubt.
“Are you sure?”
“I’m sure.” I take his hand. “Besides, Sandy wants to see the donkeys again.”
“DONKEYS!” Sandy has been listening, apparently. “CAN WE RIDE THEM THIS TIME?”
Sebastian laughs, and the tension breaks.
“We can definitely ride the donkeys this time.”
We anchor in the caldera and take a tender to shore.
The port is exactly as I remember it, crowded with tourists, lined with restaurants, the cliff path winding up toward the villages above. The donkeys wait in their usual spot, decked out in colorful blankets, their handlers calling out prices to anyone who passes.
Sandy is in heaven.
She names the donkey she rides Sparkle and provides a running commentary on everything she sees, from the shape of the clouds to the color of the bougainvillea to the exact number of steps in the cliff staircase (she loses count around forty-seven and starts over twice).
Sebastian walks beside them, one hand on Sparkle’s bridle, the other reaching up occasionally to steady Sandy when she leans too far to pet a passing cat.
He looks happy.
Actually happy, in a way I haven’t seen in years.
I find myself hanging back, watching them climb ahead of me. Father and daughter, silhouetted against the white buildings and the impossible blue sky. A picture I didn’t know I needed until I had it.
“Mommy, hurry up!” Sandy waves from above. “You’re missing the view!”
“I’m coming, baby.”
I climb faster, and when I reach them, Sebastian takes my hand without asking.
We walk through the village like that, connected, together, a family in a way we haven’t been in longer than I can remember.
The restaurant is Sebastian’s idea.
A place on the harbor, he says. Somewhere with good food and a view of the sunset. He’s been here before, years ago, on some business trip I was never invited to.
I don’t question it.
I’m learning to trust again, one small moment at a time.
The restaurant is beautiful, white tablecloths, candles in hurricane glasses, a terrace that overlooks the entire caldera. The host recognizes Sebastian immediately, of course, and seats us at the best table with the kind of fawning deference I’ve grown to despise.
“Mr. Austen, such an honor. We weren’t expecting… will it be just the three of you this evening?”
“Just us.” Sebastian’s voice is firm. “No interruptions, please.”
“Of course, of course.”
We settle in, Sandy immediately demanding bread and proceeding to arrange the rolls in order of size, and for a moment everything feels perfect.
Then the whispers start.
I hear them before I see their source, that particular rustling quality that means people are talking about you while pretending they’re not. I look up and find a table across the terrace occupied by faces I vaguely recognize.
Board members.
Investors.
People from Sebastian’s world who witnessed my marriage fall apart in real time.
One of them catches my eye and looks away quickly, but not before I see the smirk.
“Margo?” Sebastian has noticed me stiffening. “What is it?”
“Your colleagues. Across the terrace.”
He turns, sees them, and his expression hardens.
“I didn’t know they’d be here.”
“Of course they’re here. This is the kind of place they’d be.” I force myself to look down at my menu. “It’s fine. We can ignore them.”
“I don’t want to ignore them.”
“Sebastian…”
“They spent months feeding on our scandal. They watched my wife walk away and they treated it like entertainment.” His jaw tightens. “I’m not going to pretend they don’t exist.”
“What are you going to do? Make a scene?”
“Maybe.”
“Sebastian…”
But he’s already standing up.
“Stay here,” he says. “I’ll be right back.”
I watch him cross the terrace with a sense of impending doom.
This is going to be a disaster. He’s going to confront them, there will be a scene, the tabloids will get more fodder, and everything we’ve been building will crumble.
But Sebastian doesn’t confront them.
Instead, he shakes hands. Makes introductions. Engages in what appears to be pleasant small talk, though I can see the tension in his shoulders from here.
Then one of them, a silver-haired man I recognize from the flagship christening, makes a remark, and Sebastian’s expression changes.
He goes very still.
Then he turns and walks back to our table.
“What happened?” I ask. “What did they say?”
“Nothing worth repeating.” He sits down, but he’s distracted now, his jaw working. “Just… the usual.”
“Sebastian. Tell me.”
He’s quiet for a long moment.
“They asked if I’d ‘finally come to my senses.’ If being here meant I was ‘done with the experiment.’”
The words hit me cold.
The experiment.
They’re still using Dorothy’s language. Still treating me like a phase he needed to outgrow.
“I see.”
“Margo…”
“It’s fine.” I pick up my menu again, though the words are blurring. “It doesn’t matter what they think.”
“It matters to me.”
“Why? They’re just…”
“They’re people I work with. People who have watched me fail my wife and thought it was amusing. People who have spent years looking at you like you don’t belong, and I let them.” He pushes back from the table. “Stay here.”
“Sebastian, what are you…”
But he’s already walking back across the terrace.
This time, he doesn’t stop at their table.
This time, he stops in the middle of the restaurant, turns to face the room, and raises his voice.
“Excuse me. I’d like everyone’s attention for a moment.”
Oh God.
Oh God, he’s actually making a scene.
The restaurant goes quiet. Every face turns toward Sebastian, diners, staff, the board members at their table, everyone.
“My name is Sebastian Austen. Some of you may recognize me from various business contexts, or from the tabloids that have been covering my personal life with such dedication lately.” His voice is steady, commanding.
“I’m here tonight with my wife and daughter, and I’d like to say publicly what I should have said a long time ago. ”
I can feel my face burning.
Every eye in the room is moving between Sebastian and me, trying to figure out what’s happening.
“Six weeks ago, my wife left our marriage. She walked off the ship I’d built, took our daughter, and flew home to her family. The tabloids called it an abandonment. They speculated about affairs and breakdowns and all manner of dramatic explanations.”
He pauses.
“The truth is much simpler, and much more damning. My wife left because I failed her.”
The silence in the restaurant is absolute.
“For five years, I put my company before my family. I let my mother treat my wife like an outsider. I missed birthdays and anniversaries and a thousand small moments that I can never get back. I was so focused on building an empire that I forgot to notice the woman standing beside me, holding everything together while I took her for granted.”
My eyes are filling with tears.
I can see the board members shifting uncomfortably at their table, their smirks long since vanished.
“The woman I married is the best decision I ever made.” Sebastian’s voice cracks slightly.
“She is the bravest, most resilient, most extraordinary person I have ever known. She gave up everything to follow me into a world that never welcomed her, and she kept trying, kept loving, kept showing up, long after I stopped deserving it.”
He turns to look directly at me.
“Margo Delancy-Austen is not my experiment. She is not my phase. She is not a mistake I needed to outgrow.” His voice carries across the terrace. “She is my wife. And the only mistake I’ve ever made is taking her for granted.”
I can’t breathe.
I can’t move.
I can only sit there, tears streaming down my face, while my husband tells a restaurant full of strangers and enemies and everyone in between exactly how much he loves me.
“The empire I built nearly cost me the only thing that matters,” Sebastian continues. “I am grateful, more grateful than I can express, that my wife gave me another chance to be worthy of her. And I will spend the rest of my life trying to deserve the forgiveness she’s shown me.”
He crosses the terrace back to our table.
He sits down.
He takes my hand.
“I’m sorry,” he says quietly. “I should have said that years ago. I should have said it every day.”
“Sebastian…”
“I love you. And I don’t care who knows it.”
The rest of dinner is a blur.
People approach our table, not the board members, who have the good sense to leave without making eye contact, but other diners. Women who squeeze my hand and tell me I’m lucky. Men who shake Sebastian’s hand and say things like “well done” and “about time.”
Sandy is confused by all the attention but handles it with her usual aplomb.
“Why does everyone keep hugging Mommy?”
“Because Daddy said a nice thing about her.”
“You say nice things about Mommy all the time.”
“Not nice enough. Not loudly enough.”
“Oh.” She considers this. “Maybe you should practice.”
“Maybe I should.”
By the time dessert arrives, the restaurant has mostly returned to normal, though I catch people looking at us with expressions that range from curious to approving.
It should feel invasive.
Instead, it feels like victory.
“Dance with me,” Sebastian says, as the musicians in the corner start playing a slow tune.
“What? No. I don’t… we can’t…”
“We can.” He stands and extends his hand. “We’re on vacation. We just had a very public reconciliation. Dancing is practically required.”
“Sebastian…”
“Please.” His voice softens. “I want to dance with my wife.”
I look at Sandy, who is happily demolishing her gelato.
“Go, Mommy.” She waves a sticky hand. “I’m busy.”
I take Sebastian’s hand.
He leads me to the small area near the musicians where a few other couples are already swaying. His arm goes around my waist, and my hand finds his shoulder, and we start to move.
“You didn’t have to do that,” I murmur against his chest.
“Yes, I did.”
“The whole restaurant…”
“…needed to hear it. I’ve spent years letting people think less of you because I was too cowardly to correct them. Tonight I stopped being a coward.”
“You called yourself out in front of everyone.”
“I told the truth.” He pulls back just enough to look at me. “The truth is that I was a terrible husband. The truth is that I put everything ahead of you. The truth is that you had every right to leave, and I’m the luckiest man alive that you came back.”
“Sebastian…”
“I’m not finished.” He spins me gently, then pulls me close again. “The truth is also that I love you. That I’ve always loved you. That I will spend the rest of my life making sure you never doubt it again.”
“Even if it means embarrassing yourself in public?”
“Especially then.” He grins. “I have a lot of embarrassment to make up for. Consider this a down payment.”
I laugh, really laugh, and it feels like release.
“You’re ridiculous.”
“I know.”
“The board members looked like they wanted to die.”
“Good. They’ve been making my wife feel small for years. It’s about time someone made them uncomfortable.”
We dance for another song, then another. The musicians play a melody I recognize, one from our wedding, and Sebastian’s arm tightens around me.
“Do you remember this song?”
“Our first dance.”
“You were so nervous you stepped on my feet three times.”
“You were so nervous you forgot the words when we were supposed to say our vows.”
“Touché.” He kisses my forehead. “We were a disaster.”
“We were perfect.”
“We were both.”
The song ends, and we make our way back to the table, where Sandy has finished her gelato and is now arranging the crumbs into an elaborate pattern.
“Did you have fun dancing?”
“Yes, baby.”
“Good. Can we get more ice cream?”
“I think one helping is probably enough.”
“But Daddy said this was a special night.”
I look at Sebastian, who shrugs helplessly.
“I may have promised her ice cream if she let us have a grown-up moment.”
“You bribed our daughter.”
“I facilitated a mutually beneficial arrangement.”
I shake my head, but I’m smiling.
This is who we are now. This is who we’re becoming.
A family.
An imperfect, messy, negotiating-with-four-year-olds-over-ice-cream family.
It’s everything I ever wanted.
Back at the table, with Sandy negotiating her additional ice cream and the last of the sunset painting the caldera gold, I do the thing I’ve wanted to do all night.
I lean across the table and kiss my husband.
Not a quick peck. Not a casual brush of lips.
A real kiss. Deep and slow and completely inappropriate for a public restaurant.
When I pull back, Sebastian looks dazed.
“What was that for?”
“For finally saying it where they could hear.”
“The speech?”
“All of it.” I take his hand, running my thumb across his knuckles. “For five years, I felt like you were ashamed of me. Like you needed to hide where I came from and make excuses for who I was. Tonight you stood up in front of everyone who ever made me feel small and told them they were wrong.”
“They were wrong.”
“I know that now.” I smile at him. “Because you said it where they could hear.”
Sebastian brings my hand to his lips and kisses my knuckles.
“I love you, Margo Delancy-Austen.”
“I love you too.”
Sandy looks up from her ice cream negotiations with the waiter.
“Is Daddy staying with us now?”
Sebastian and I exchange a look.
“I’m staying, princess,” he says. “For as long as your mommy will have me.”
“Yehey, Daddy stays!” She returns to her ice cream, satisfied. “Sandy wants this forever… I like it here! Donkeys are very friendly.”
I laugh.
“We can stay as long as you want, baby.”
But even as I say it, I know we can’t stay forever. The real world is waiting, the board meeting, Dorothy’s schemes, all the complications we’ve been avoiding on this ship with no name.
Tomorrow, we’ll have to face it.
Tonight, though, we have this: a terrace overlooking the caldera, a daughter sticky with gelato, and a husband who finally learned to say the right words loud enough for everyone to hear.
It’s more than enough.