22. Zander
22
ZANDER
“Zander,” he begged. “Please.”
“Please, what?”
“Fuck me.”
“I will,” I promised. “When I’m ready.”
He pulled at the sheets, his thighs quivering and his breathing harsh as he fought to stay still for me.
I loved being able to bring him to a place where he could get out of his head and just be in the moment with me. The only problem was that I was just as affected by this as him, and it was getting harder to pretend I wasn’t.
“What if I want you to watch me?” I rubbed my hand over my briefs and teased my already oversensitive dick.
He dropped his gaze to my crotch and licked his lips.
I gripped my cock over my briefs to emphasize how hard I was. “Do you want to watch me?”
He nodded and licked his lips again, almost like it was a compulsion and not a conscious thought.
“Good boy.”
His breathing calmed, and his features relaxed a bit.
“Do you want to touch me?”
“So much.”
“How would you touch me if you could do anything you wanted?”
“Anything I wanted?” His curious gaze met mine.
I nodded.
He licked his lips again. “I’d take you into my mouth. Make you feel so good.”
I rewarded him by tugging my briefs down and releasing my cock so it hung in the air between us. “What else?”
He groaned and let out a shuddering breath, his eyes on my dick. “I’d use my tongue on you.”
“Yeah?” I gave myself a long, slow stroke. “Where would you use your tongue?”
“Your cock. Your balls.” He lifted his gaze to mine. “Your hole.”
I froze as his words registered. “You want to rim me?”
He nodded eagerly.
“Do you want to fuck me?”
I’d never bottomed for anyone. I’d experimented with toys and my fingers in the past but hadn’t really enjoyed it. But I’d bottom for Luka if he wanted it.
I’d do pretty much anything for him.
He looked thoughtful for a second, then shook his head. “No. Just tease you.”
I stroked my dick again, my body so tight with desire it was a struggle to not give in and just climb on top of him and fuck him until we were both screaming our releases.
“Do you want to do that now?”
There was no way in hell I’d be able to hold off if he blew me, but now that he’d put the idea in my head, I wanted to share that first with him.
His eyes lit up like I’d just offered him a thousand dollars. “Really?”
“If you want to.”
“I want to.” He sat up straighter and let go of the sheets he was still clutching.
“How do you want me?” I shoved my briefs the rest of the way off and kicked them aside.
“On your stomach.” He shifted so he was on his knees and crawled to the side of the bed so I had room to lie down.
When I was settled, he knelt between my spread legs. “God, Zander.” He ran one hand down my back and over my ass cheek, his voice reverent. “You’re so hot like this. All spread out and waiting for me.” He pulled in a shaking breath. “I’m so close. I don’t know if I can hold off.”
I glanced over my shoulder at him. “You can. And you will if you want me to fuck you.”
He nodded, a determined look crossing his handsome features.
“You want to eat me out?” My voice cracked a bit on the last word, arousal tightening my throat.
He nodded. “So bad.”
“Then go ahead.”
Luka dropped his gaze to my ass, his big hands gripping my cheeks and splitting me open.
I resisted the urge to pull away. Not because I didn’t want it, but because I wasn’t used to being in this position.
“Fuck, Zander,” he muttered. “This is so hot.”
I rested my cheek against the bed. This was his show. I’d take over again when it was time.
Hot breath fanned over my ass, then something wet and warm pressed against my hole. That simple move sent a shockwave of pleasure through me, lighting me up from the inside.
“Fuck!” I jerked against his tongue as he did it again.
“Good?” he asked, his hot breath once again fanning over my hole and sending more of those delicious waves through me.
“Yeah,” I choked out and lifted my hips, shamelessly opening myself up more for him.
I’d known it would feel good after seeing how much he enjoyed it, but I hadn’t realized it was that good.
Chuckling softly, Luka lowered his mouth and attacked my ass, licking and lapping at my hole like he wanted nothing more than to pleasure me this way.
“Fuck, Luka,” I moaned, locking my thighs so I didn’t start humping the bed to get more friction on my cock.
He kneaded my ass cheeks in his powerful hands and gently pressed the tip of his tongue inside me.
My cry was loud and unrestrained. I’d never felt anything like this before, and I could barely think as he stabbed his tongue inside me over and over, fucking me with it.
“Stop,” I gritted out. I was too close. Any more and the party would be over. As good as this felt, this wasn’t how I wanted to finish.
Luka pulled back immediately. I looked over my shoulder and found him sitting back on his heels, a big, happy grin on his face.
“Did you like that?” he asked, his smile faltering.
“So much,” I said honestly. “That was amazing.”
“But you stopped me.” He frowned.
“Because I was about to come.”
His smile slid back into place. “Yeah?”
“Yeah.” I rolled onto my back and sat up. “Get the lube and a condom.”
He went to his bedside table and yanked open the top drawer. He tossed a bottle of lube on the bed and closed the drawer.
“Baby?” I asked.
He bit his lip, a shy expression crossing his features. “I got tested a while ago.” He pointed to the bedside table. “I have my results if you want to see them. I just thought maybe…” He flushed bright red. “We could stop using condoms.”
“Are you sure that’s what you want?” I asked, searching his face. “This isn’t something you should be deciding in the moment.”
“I’m sure.” He shot me a small smile. “I’ve been trying to figure out how to bring this up for weeks. I know we’re not together , together, but I don’t want anyone else. I haven’t since the day we met.”
I swallowed the lump in my throat as a flood of emotions hit me. I’d gotten tested the week after we started this. I just hadn’t brought it up because I didn’t want to push him if he wasn’t ready for that step yet.
I crawled over to him and gently cupped his cheeks in my hands. “We’re together,” I said firmly. “You’re mine, Luka. You’ve been mine since that first night on the phone. There will never be anyone else, not as long as you want this.”
A brilliant smile replaced his look of fear, and I had to bite back the words that were right there, hovering under the surface and begging to be let out.
I was in love with him, but this wasn’t the time to tell him.
Instead of saying something I couldn’t take back, I pressed a soft kiss against his lips. “I got tested too. I want to go bare if you’re sure that’s what you want.”
“I’m sure.” His eyes fluttered closed. “Please fuck me. I’m so hard it hurts.”
“I’ve got you.” I pressed another kiss against his lips. “I’ll take care of you.”
“I know you will,” he said softly, a dreamy little smile tilting his lips.
“How about you lay down for me so I can prep you?”
He nodded, his eyes taking on a faraway look.
Perfect. He was slipping back into his happy place.
When he was lying on the bed, I grabbed the lube and settled between his spread thighs.
As much as I wanted to drag this out and tease him some more, we were both way too close. Honestly, I was impressed he’d held off this long.
Working quickly, I stretched him with one, then two fingers, keeping away from his prostate so I didn’t push him too close before I could get inside him.
“Now,” he begged just as I was about to work in a third finger. “I can’t hold off much longer.”
I pulled my fingers out of him and rubbed a good amount of lube on my cock. I wasn’t huge, so two fingers were enough to get him nice and ready for me.
He pulled his knees up and held them against his chest.
“I want you on top tonight,” I said. “Sitting on my lap.”
He dropped his legs and sat up. “I want that too.”
It took a bit of maneuvering, but we shifted around until I was sitting back against the headboard. Luka climbed over me and straddled my lap. When he was in place, he reached behind him and held my dick steady.
We were so close our chests brushed, our faces only inches apart. I held his hips, then held my breath when he notched my tip against his hole.
Needing more, I slotted our mouths together, kissing him with everything I had. Saying with my actions what I couldn’t say out loud yet.
He sank down on me, his tight body gripping my cock in the most incredible way. He whimpered against my mouth as he slowly took me inside him, and I swallowed his cry when he was fully seated on me.
“Fuck.” He tore his lips from mine and pressed our foreheads together, his arms around my shoulders and his hard dick trapped between us.
“Ride me, baby. Take what you need and make yourself feel good.”
“I’ll come,” he warned.
“Give it to me.” I couldn’t hold off any longer, and I refused to come before him. “Ride my dick until you come all over me.”
“Oh god.” He lifted his hips in a tentative thrust, shifted slightly, then did it again. “Oh god!” he cried out as my cockhead dragged over his prostate.
“That’s it,” I encouraged, gripping his hips to help give him some extra leverage as he moved. “You look so hot right now. Like you were made for me.”
He cried out and ground down on my dick.
“You’re doing so good.” I lowered my voice, fighting the pleasure moving through me and keeping my focus on Luka. “You’re amazing, Luka. So fucking amazing.”
“Zander,” he cried out. “I need…”
He was riding me so hard the sound of our skin slapping together echoed in the room. He was close, but he couldn’t quite get there.
Planting my feet on the bed, I thrust up into him, fucking him as hard as I could in this position.
“ Yesyesyesyesyesyesyes ,” he repeated like a chant, practically vibrating from how close he was.
Shoving my hand between our bodies, I stroked him exactly the way I knew he needed. “Come, Luka. Come for me.”
He lunged forward, pressing his face against my neck as he came with a strangled scream, clinging to me as he was rocked with shudders. His release shot over my hand, splashing against our stomachs and chests. His ass clenched and squeezed my cock, and I was done .
I came hard, emptying my load, and what felt like my very soul, inside him. The pleasure was so strong the world blinked in and out a few times.
“I love you,” Luka mumbled against my neck. “I love you so much.”
My heart skipped a beat, and my entire being zeroed in on his words, but thankfully I had enough wits about me that my logical side kicked in.
Nothing he said could be taken as fact right now. He was not only loopy from his orgasm, but he was deep in subspace. He had no idea what he was saying, even if I wished it were true.
Careful not to react to his words, I stroked his back and held him against me, giving him a chance to enjoy the afterglow and myself time to get my head in order.
After a few minutes of cuddling like this, his skin went cold, and he shivered.
“Come on,” I whispered. “Let’s get you nice and comfortable.”
“’Kay,” he mumbled, pressing messy kisses against my neck.
He couldn’t do much to help, but he allowed me to move us so we were laying on the bed with him curled up to my side and his head on my chest, right over my heart.
I kicked the blanket up over us to help warm him and gently ran my fingers through his hair as I talked to him, telling him how good he was and how hot he’d made me.
Slowly, he became more alert, his body regulating as he shook off the last of the subspace.
“How do you feel?” I asked when it seemed like he’d broken free from the worst of it.
He nuzzled his cheek against my chest. “Really good.”
“Good.” I kissed his hair and hugged him tighter.
“That was amazing,” he said, his voice still a bit dreamy.
“It was.”
“I liked that. You making me watch you and not letting me touch myself. I didn’t realize that was something I was into, but I really liked it.”
I chuckled. “I did too.”
“Did you like when I…”
“I loved it.” I shifted a bit so I could hold him better. “No one’s ever done that for me.”
“Really?” he lifted his head, a smile curving his lips.
“Really.” I pressed a kiss against his smile. “Will you be okay if I go get something to clean up with?”
He nodded.
We untangled ourselves, and I went into the bathroom to wash my hands and do a quick wipe down before wetting some washcloths with warm water.
Luka was curled up in bed waiting for me, his smile so big and bright I couldn’t help grinning back as I sat on the bed next to him and cleaned him up.
When I was done, I tossed the cloths in his hamper and climbed back into bed for some more cuddles.
He immediately rolled into me and snuggled up to my side.
“I’m exhausted,” he said, his voice heavy with sleep. “It’s early, but I’m fading.”
“Yeah, I am too.” I smiled as he threaded one of his legs through mine and pressed even closer to me. “It was a long week, and a really long day.”
“You can say that again.” He rubbed his cheek against my chest. “Do you want to stay tonight?”
In all the time we’d been seeing each other, we’d never spent the night together. I wanted to invite him to stay over so many times but didn’t want to push him if he wasn’t there yet.
“Yeah.” My answer came out husky. “I’d like that. Do you want me to get the light?”
“Yeah.” He lifted himself up so I could reach behind me and snap it off.
When I was lying down again, he let out a happy sigh and leaned more heavily against me.
“Goodnight, Luka.”
“Night, Zander.”
I felt his body go lax, and his breathing evened out as he fell asleep only seconds later.
Closing my eyes, I held him close and ran my fingers through his soft hair as my tired mind spun with the memories of him saying he loved me.