Nila #2
Kes kissed my cheek, nuzzling his nose into my hair.
“You’re so beautiful, Nila. So goddamn beautiful.
” Dragging his fingers along my collar and down my spine, he whispered, “I’ve wanted you since the moment you arrived.
I’d never wished to be firstborn before.
I’m happy with my allotment within this family, but seeing you that night and knowing Jethro had full rights to you—well, it was the first time I was jealous of my brother. ”
I gasped as his touch landed on my arse again. Every muscle clenched. My eyes squeezed and I panted faster, terrified of him invading my body—especially in a place I’d never been touched before.
“Just because you have me now, doesn’t mean this is right.” I kept my eyes closed behind my blindfold—a double layer of blackness.
“I know.” His fingers suddenly latched around my jaw, angling my neck.
His lips landed on mine.
All sensation ceased to exist.
The switch inside me flipped. I shut down completely. I didn’t feel the heat of his lips or taste the flavour of his mouth.
Everything was chalk and beige and nothingness.
His lips coaxed mine, but I clamped them closed—remaining forbidding and not softening in any way.
Pulling back, he ran gentle fingertips over my chin. “I’m not going to make this worse for you by dragging it on.” Kes shifted his weight, rolling me closer. Gathering me against his naked form, I tried to ignore the heat of his erection against the crack of my arse.
“Kes, please...” I begged as his hand disappeared down my front and found my clit. His fingers didn’t venture lower—just stayed on the outside of my pussy. I flinched but had nowhere to run.
His hips rocked, pressing himself into me. “My father expects me to hurt you. That sex isn’t sex unless you’re screaming and bruised.” He imprisoned my face again, sealing his lips over mine.
I tried to angle away, but his mouth locked against me with swift finality.
He didn’t force me to kiss him back, just kept his mouth on mine and his fingers rubbing my clit. His hips rocked harder and a moan swelled despite my horror.
Tearing himself from my mouth, he nibbled on my earlobe. “I’m supposed to rape you, Nila. Take from you what you don’t want to give and break apart your mind piece by piece.”
My unwilling moan turned into a sob. “You don’t have to. You could just let me go.”
He chuckled. “No, I can’t. That’s the thing. No one can leave. Not you, Jet, myself. We’re all locked in this game until the very end.” He trailed kisses along my cheek. “There can be no victors if there are no players.”
Fury prickled my skin. I snarled, “If that’s the case, just do it then!
Destroy me—seeing as Daddy told you to.” My mind wouldn’t shut up; my lips wouldn’t censor.
“What is it with you and Jethro? You are men. You know right and wrong. You could end this by stopping him. Why don’t you grow some balls and do it! ”
Kes stiffened. His cock twitched against my lower back. Instead of anger, he laughed quietly. “So black and white to you.” Cupping my throat, he thrust once. “Nothing is ever black and white, Nila. You should know that by now. It’s all how you survive the grey.”
His fingers fluttered over my clit—reminding me he had me at my most vulnerable. His touch wasn’t cruel or hurtful—not the way Cut had commanded. My heart scampered in hope.
“What happens next has to be authentic. Do you understand?” His fingers moved faster, teasing my body, forcing nerve endings to respond despite my mind screaming with loathing.
His breathing turned harsh. “You need to relax and let me do what needs to be done.”
“What—” My mouth parted as he strummed my clit harder. “What do you mean?”
With a soft grunt, he buried his face in my hair. “I’m going to make you come—to ensure you play your part. But I won’t violate you, and I won’t take advantage of you any more than I am right now.” He angled my face and kissed me again. “You have my word.”
My eyes flew open behind my blindfold. I didn’t understand.
What does he mean?
He pressed his cock against my arse, rocking seductively. He whispered, “Pretend I’m hurting you. Cry out. Scream.”
What?
“Do it,” he hissed.
What the hell is going on? My body wound tight, growing wet against my wishes. My eyes were blinded, wrists tied, and my mind a mess with confusion.
“Cry, Nila. Otherwise, I’ll have to make you cry for real.” He pinched my clit, throbbing the bundle of nerves.
I jerked in his arms. More tears escaped. It wasn’t hard to cry. It was a relief to complain—to verbalize how much I wanted this to end.
“Stop!”
If he wanted me to beg like a rape victim, I would. He’d given me permission to fight back, even if it was only vocal.
I’ll make your eardrums bleed.
I thrashed, rubbing our bodies together and drawing a ragged groan from him. “Fuck you!”
He grunted as I tried to kick his kneecaps. “Get off me, you arsehole.”
“Not anger, goddammit. Pain!” He fisted my hair, yanking my head back. “Be in pain, begging. Forget about fighting.”
That was asking the impossible. I could hate and curse and scream. But plead? It was blasphemy.
“If you want to get through tonight without being fucked in every hole you own, then do it!”
Images of Cut pounding into me, of Daniel strangling me, and the horrific violation of being a Hawk plaything gave me enough obedience to give up my courage and beseech. “Please! No, you’re hurting me!”
“Good.” He bit my ear, pinning me harder against him. “Again, louder this time.”
“Noooo!” I gave into the sobs waiting just beneath my ribcage. “Don’t. I’ll do whatever you want. Just, don’t—no!”
He groaned, rocking harder against me. “Shit, that’s too good. Now I’m hard as fuck.”
He rolled his hips, rubbing his erection, making the bed rock.
“Again.” He thrust, groaning theatrically. “More. Pretend I’ve entered you and it hurts.”
I couldn’t speak through my tears.
His fingers stroked me faster, making my body twitch and tense. His hips worked harder, bruising my back. His voice licked my ear. “I’m not going to fuck you, Nila. But it needs to look like I am.”
Suddenly—it all made sense.
That’s why he put the cover over us. That’s why he wanted me to move and squirm and scream, so our movements would look like he fucked me.
Oh, my God.
The sheer relief made me cry harder. And with relief came the performance of a lifetime.
My fingers stretched behind me, rubbing his chiselled belly in acknowledgement.
The trust that’d tried to grow in the past sprouted into a beautiful flower.
I gave myself over to this second-born Hawk, who was a true ally and friend.
“No!” I bellowed. “God, no!”
I arched my back, deliberately pressing into his cock.
He growled, his hands latching around my hips, half to hold me in place and half to drag me back to meet him thrust for thrust.
We lost ourselves as we became what others would see.
“Fuck, you feel good, little bitch!” he yelled, his volume way louder than required.
Cameras. Microphones. Recording devices that would capture this degrading act. It was all for the people watching.
My heart burned. Is Jethro watching?
The anger I felt toward him only spurred me on.
Kes wrapped his hand around my nape, holding me away from him while his other hand found my clit again. “Fuck, yes. Take it. Fuck, you’re tight.”
He paused, waiting like any good actor for his fellow screen star to read her script.
“Ahh! No more. Please, no more!”
“You’ll take it until I say fucking otherwise, bitch.”
We both groaned as he thrust so hard the boundary between faking and reality became blurred.
My legs scissored as he rolled me from my side to halfway on my belly. His next thrust slipped, sliding between my legs and pressing against my clit.
We both jolted.
“Fuck me,” he hissed. His muscles trembled.
I froze.
We were so close to breaking every rule between loyalty and decency.
He bit my ear. “Don’t stop. Pretend, I’m ripping you in two. Scream harder. Just—don’t stop making them believe.”
My body hummed, growing wetter and heavier. I didn’t know if it was the pantomime or relief, but my nipples tingled and sensation came back with full force. “Stop! No. It’s too much. Nooooo!”
He pressed his forehead against my skull. “You’re driving me insane, Nila.” Louder, he growled, “Little bitch. I’ll teach you a lesson about your place. I’ll show you what tonight is all about.”
I let go of dignity and bawled. My cheeks rivered with tears; the blindfold was drenched. I stopped trying to talk in sentences and settled for monosyllables instead. “No!”
Thrust.
“Stop.”
Rock.
“I’m begging—”
He groaned, bending my body until I slotted perfectly in his strong embrace.
I couldn’t ignore his hardness or the way his muscles vibrated with need. In that moment, he was a saint. A man with a tied-up woman rubbing against his body and not using her. My trust layered with respect. He was good. He was kind. He was true.
We both panted as we turned frantic. There was no rhythm anymore—only debasing fake-fucking, rustling sheets, and creaking springs. As much as I despised what tonight represented, I couldn’t help the tiny flutter of desire unfurling thanks to his never-ending coaxing fingers.
Unfounded hurt crept over me.
Jethro hadn’t tried to stop this. He’d run.
But Kestrel had stepped up to protect me. He put his own life on the line.
That’s more than Jethro’s ever done.
My heart twisted in a resentful agonising braid. I didn’t want to sleep with Kes. But in a way...I was almost offended that he had the self-restraint to keep me safe even from him.
I was baffled.
I was endlessly grateful.
He was turned on. He’d admitted he’d wanted me since setting eyes on me...yet he made no move to dip his fingers inside me or try to work his cock anywhere but between my thighs.
The bed rocked with every thrust. My back arched as his fingers turned harder and demanding. For non-sex, it gave the ultimate impression of being ridden and used.