Forty-Seven
Nameless
It’s the breeze of a cave,
The crack of a whip,
The smallest silver lining
The downed horse’s nip
To tell me it’s alive
Able to carry on.
A fucking con.
The breeze comes from collapsing rock.
The crack not on air but your broken back.
The horse’s nip is toothed decay.
A rotting carcass well on its way.
No. The shimmer, the glimmer, the pleasure is here.
Somewhere.
Somewhere.
Somewhere?
It has to be. It can’t just be dark.
It can’t just be me in this misery.
The silver, the bronze, the rusted old metal
The lining…
The line…
Where is the fucking line?
Feeling the breeze, I run towards the exit
Only to find crumbling rock.
Feeling the crack, I sigh in relief
Only to raggedly scream.
Feeling the nip, I grin at my last friend
Only to see death’s marching end.
STOP!
It loves me.
It loves me.
Don’t tell me the lies.
The drink isn’t the solution.
I’m alive. I’m alive.
It’s my friend.
It’s my friend.
No.
It’s helping me.
Why can’t you see?
Why can’t you see, you fucking bitch?
It’s helping me!
You just want me to die.
You want me to suffer
A stick in your eye
A hole in your lover.
I love you.
I hate you.
You’re stronger than this.
Fuck you.
Just fuck you.
Just fucking fuck you!
Where is the bottle?
Where is my drink?
Where is the drowning
Of my misery?
Micha…
I don’t know anyone by that name.
Stop talking to me!
I hate you.
Just go away.
This has to end…
What did you say? You fucking bitch?
I don’t need you.
I don’t want you.
You’re not a friend.
I am.
Stop!
Just stop!
Where are you?
Why have you gone?
Why have you left me?
I’m here.
They always leave.
Everyone leaves.
I’m here.
Why have you left me?
Varius…
Rafiki…
Don’t listen to her.
Even me…
No. He’s coming for you.
Only the bottle is your friend.
Only the bottle never leaves.
Fight it, Micha.
Mi…
Mi…
Who is Mi?
You’re stronger than this.
Does it matter?
Just drink.
Please don’t.
Yes...
Drink
Drink to end the misery.
Why can’t you see
this is killing me?