Chapter 25
Gadiel sat in his bedroom for hours, listening for any noise coming from Will’s room.
He wasn’t even sure whether he wanted Will to take him seriously or not. If Will took him seriously for once, that would mean he would leave. The mere idea made his heart pound so fast he felt nearly dizzy with panic every time he thought about it. But rationally, he knew it would be the likely outcome. The smartest outcome. The inevitable outcome. Will would leave, sooner or later. Putting it off just delayed the inevitable and made things harder, though it was difficult to imagine.
But if Will didn’t... Gadiel would have to follow through on his threat.
That thought made his heart pound too, though for a different reason.
Could he do it? Would he dare?
The wait was nerve-racking.
He heard Will go out onto the balcony and then return and pace his bedroom for a while, and then nothing.
When midnight rolled around, Gadiel didn’t move. He felt sick with nerves. Had Will left? It was possible he had missed it.
At long last, at half past midnight, Gadiel forced himself to leave his room and check.
There was light coming from the crack under the door.
Gadiel took a deep breath before pushing the door open.
Will was asleep.
He clearly hadn’t intended to fall asleep if the way he was half-dressed was any indication—his shirt was unbuttoned, revealing his muscular torso, and his belt was off, but other than that, he was still mostly dressed.He was stretched out on his back, his phone by his hand.
Slowly, Gadiel walked closer. With any other man, he would have ogled his half-naked physique, but it wasn’t any other man. He stared at Will’s face, unable to look away. It was such a striking face, the five o’clock shadow only accentuating the mouthwatering firmness of Will’s jaw and strong, bold features. Even in his sleep, Will gave off the air of a man you could rely on. Could depend on. Depend on too much. Grow to need too much.
Quietly, Gadiel got into the bed.
Lying down next to the other man, Gadiel turned onto his side and stared at him hungrily. This close, he could see every little imperfection on Will’s face, every little wrinkle and scar. He took them in greedily.He’d never felt so obsessed with anyone’s face before.He wanted to take it apart, examine every little detail, and tape them all back together in his own image before kissing it all over.He wanted to catch the air Will exhaled with his own mouth.
So he laid his head on Will’s pillow, so close that he could actually feel Will’s every breath on his skin. Putting his hand on Will’s chest, over his steady heartbeat,Gadiel pressed his nose against Will’s jaw and inhaled shakily, feeling like a junkie. God, he was so damn pathetic, and he didn’t even care.
“Why didn’t you leave, damn you?” he whispered. “At this rate, I’m never letting you go. You know that, right?”
He felt the heartbeat under his palm speed up. Will was coming awake, even though his eyes were still closed.
“You should have left,” Gadiel said, sucking a hickey beneath Will’s jaw. “You should have left weeks ago. I can’t be normal about you anymore.” He laughed a little. “You know, I never understood cannibalism—it always seemed so gross—but now I kinda do.” He nuzzled Will’s neck and bit it lightly, sucking the flesh into his mouth. “I actually feel like eating you, or maybe I want you to eat me. I sound crazy, don’t I? I feel crazy. Crazed.” Nibbling on Will’s neck, he slung his leg over Will’s body, grinding his erection against his hip. Will’s heart was beating even faster now, but he was still pretending to be asleep.
“Coward,” Gadiel said, leaning down and biting Will’s nipple. He sucked on it, laving it with his tongue until it was hard and wet, moaning around the small nub, before moving his face lower, over the warm, hard muscle of Will’s stomach. The muscles twitched and flexed as Gadiel covered them in kisses and sucks, his hand palming the thick, hard cock in Will’s pants. Will was hard for him. He might be pretending to be asleep, but he was hard as a rock already. Gadiel unzipped Will’s pants and shoved them down Will’s muscular, hairy thighs, along with his dark boxers. His erection bobbed free, nearly smacking Gadiel’s face, dark-red and mouthwatering.
Gadiel stared at it hungrily. More than anything, he wanted to choke on that cock, but.... But no.
“You don’t deserve me sucking your cock,” Gadiel said hoarsely, brushing his thumb against the drop of precome at the tip. He looked back at Will’s face. His eyes were still closed, but there was tension in his jaw that betrayed that he wasn’t actually asleep. “Dickheads who pretend to be asleep so they don’t have to make hard decisions don’t deserve my mouth.”
Gadiel pulled his shirt off and then shimmied out of his pants and underwear. Straddling Will’s thighs, he leaned down and whispered against Will’s ear, biting the earlobe gently, “You know what my first wet dream about you was about?” He stroked Will’s erection slowly. “I dreamed of forcing you to lick my hole, so that you knew who you belonged to.” The cock in his hand became even harder and Gadiel moaned against Will’s ear. “Shall I do that? I’m not sure you deserve it. But fuck, I want to. I wanna sit on your face—wanted it since I first saw you, even when you were an insufferable dick. Maybe because you were such an insufferable dick.”
He moved up Will’s chest until his bare thighs were cradling Will’s face. Oh god. Will’s stubble felt delicious against his inner thighs. The sight was even more arousing: seeing his erection so close to Will’s face was such a turn-on Gadiel had to grip the base of his cock in order not to come.
“Open your mouth for me,” Gadiel whispered, stroking Will’s firm, full lips with the thumb of his free hand.
Will’s lips moved. “Gadiel.”
His gaze snapped upwards.
Will’s eyes were finally open. For a moment, they seemed almost dark before Gadiel realized that they were all pupil as they roamed over Gadiel’s naked body over him. “This is a bad idea,” he said roughly, hands clutching the bedcovers.
“I don’t care” Gadiel said, nudging his cock against Will’s mouth. “Wanted you between my legs for ages. Suck me.”
Will just looked at him for a moment, his gaze intense and heavy, like a physical touch. Then he opened his mouth andlicked the head of Gadiel’s cock.Gadiel moaned, going cross-eyed with pleasure. “Ah—oh god. Will.” WillWillWill . Grabbing Will’s hair, he ground into his mouth, keening as Will sucked on the head of his cock. It felt so good, but somehow it wasn’t enough. He wanted him closer. He needed him closer, deeper. He wanted him inside him. “I want...” Gadiel pulled his cock out of Will’s mouth and shifted higher, kneeling above Will’s mouth and looking down at him uncertainly. Meeting Will’s eyes, he whispered, “Want you back in me.”
His gaze darkening, Will grabbed his hips and yanked him down onto his mouth. Gadiel keened, grabbing the headboard as thetongue started licking his hole aggressively. Oh!
His hole still felt sensitive after their rough fuck hours ago, but Will’s soft, wet tongue felt amazing.
He’d never been eaten out like this. Will fucked into him relentlessly, pushing his tongue deeper and deeper, as if he wanted to get inside him as badly as Gadiel wanted him inside, strong fingers holding his cheeks open.It felt so, so good, his world narrowing down to the pleasure Will’s slick, talented tongue was giving him. It consumed his sanity, rendering him a whimpering, writhing mess, barely capable of speech.
Before long, Gadiel was riding Will’s face like a slut, broken moans leaving his lips on every thrust of Will’s tongue. He needed it, he needed more of it, he’d die if Will stopped—
He whined in protest when Will suddenly did stop. “What?” he slurred out, confused and frustrated and so damn empty. His hole was twitching and tingling, overstimulated but needing more.
Will flipped them around, and Gadiel found himself on his back, blinking up at him.
Will’s eyes held none of his usual calm, something animal and base lurking in their steely depths as he looked at Gadiel under him. “I need to fuck you,” he said, voice so low it sounded like a growl. “I need to see you when I come in you.”
Gadiel shivered, his cock drooling precome against his stomach and his empty hole squeezing around nothing. God, he wanted to be filled up. He’d had Will inside him just once and he already wanted him again. He wanted to be always filled up by this man, have him fill his hollow places.
He looked into Will’s eyes and pulled him down on top of him. “Kiss me first,” he said, painfully aware of how needy he sounded but unable to do anything about it. He felt terribly needy. “Kiss me,” he begged, looping his arms around Will’s neck and reaching for him with parted lips. Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me.
Will’s eyes softened, the base hunger in him shifting into something possessive and enamored. His hand cradled Gadiel’s face, stroking his flushed cheeks, his cheekbones, his mouth. “Baby,” he murmured before leaning down and kissing him.
The whimper Gadiel let out would have been embarrassing in any other circumstances. Will was kissing him. Will. His Will. The kiss stole his breath, made his heart soar, and his cock throb. Moaning,Gadiel kissed back, feeling vicious, perverse pleasure from tasting his own precome and skin on Will’s lips. Hishishishewashis, he’d never let him go.
Time ceased to have meaning. Everything became a blur of hungry, desperate kisses and wandering hands. Gadiel barely registered divesting Will of the rest of his clothes. He nearly cried when Will got off him to get lube, but then he was back on top of him, where he belonged, heavy, naked, so right, and Gadiel was wrapping his legs around him, writhing, begging, Get in me, get in me, get in me . There was a Will-shaped hole inside him that needed to be filled.
Will tried to shush him, to slow it down, to prep him with his fingers, but he was shaking with impatience too, and finally—finally—Will filled him in one rough stroke, his cock heavy, hard, and so damn perfect. Gadiel panted, feeling so damn full.
Will barely gave him time to adjust. Groaning, he pulled out and slammed back inside him, and then again, and harder.
Gadiel sobbed, running his hands over Will’s muscular back.All the skin contact, the delicious weight on top of him, the heat of Will’s mouth, the girth of his cock pistoning into him—it was glorious, it was too much, he never wanted it to end, Will Will Will .
It was as if time meshed together into one indiscernible thing, so Gadiel couldn’t say how long it took for him to come, only that it felt too soon, the tightly wound pressure in his core suddenly releasing all at once, andhis orgasm crashing into him like a tidal wave. He cried out, his fingers digging into Will’s muscular shoulders, legs wrapping around Will’s hips tightly, locking him in as he rode his high. So damn good.
Will’s thrusts slowed down as Gadiel writhed through his orgasm, his brows drawn together and his eyes pleasure-drunk as they stared at him.Gadiel could feel the way Will’s cock throbbed inside him through the haze of oversensitivity, poised on the edge.
“Keep going,” Gadiel said breathlessly, running his hands down Will’s smooth, tense back. “Want to be good for you, want you to come in me, come in my hole.”
Will’s eyes darkened, becoming glazed and lost, and his hips snapped forward, again and again, losing all semblance of rhythm as he used him like a rag-doll, like a wet hole for his cock, his ravenous gaze fixed on Gadiel’s face. He slammed hard into him and shuddered, coming with a quiet groan that he muffled against Gadiel’s neck. Gadiel hugged him close, satisfied to his bones. This was how it should be.
Adore you , he thought, kissing Will’s sweaty shoulder. Love you, love you, love you.
He knew he’d get his heart broken.
But right now, Gadiel didn’t care.
He was happy.