Chapter Twelve #2
I am trying to catch my breath but between his hand on my throat, his dick moving in and out of me, and his words in my ear, I can’t seem to catch my breath. “ Yes ,” I moan, feeling him continue to pick up his pace. He is tearing me up from the inside out in the best fucking possible way.
He has made me feel things I never thought I deserved to feel. Marrying him is all I want. I want this every day for the rest of my life. He can have all my shattered pieces. I don’t care what he does with them as long as I belong to him.
“Let me love you,” he whispers in a pained and begging voice that makes me whimper. I feel the tears building in my eyes.
“Yes,” I state in a shaky voice partly from his words and partly because of what he is doing to my body, to my heart, to my soul. He tightens his grip on my hand as he continues to claim me.
He takes a deep shaky breath. “Let me replace every bad memory you have,” he says with so much confidence I feel my entire body melt against him, his naked body against mine, pinning me, taking me, controlling me.
“Ethan,” I moan his name, not able to say anything else.
He tightens his grip on my throat. as he starts to slow down his motion, making my entire body start to shake even more, needing him, craving him. I can feel his dick moving in and out of me hitting every nerve inside me.
“You are my everything, sweetheart. Now and forever, it is only you, it will only be you. Give yourself to me,” he whispers into my ear. I can hear and feel the need, longing, and desire for me. Fuck me, man.
Between his slow motion and his grip on my throat, his whispers in my ear saying all the right things, my eyes roll back into the back of my head again.
I feel my stomach filling with butterflies and tightening at the same time telling me that I am so close to release my thoughts are becoming fuzzy.
“I am yours,” I scream and moan at the same time as I feel myself hit my peak. I feel like I am fucking floating. His hands are the only thing reminding me that I am on the ground.
He continues to push into me. I feel his release fill me, both giving each other everything we can in this moment. Sex is not always the answer, I know that and so does he, but I can’t stop, and he can’t either.
I feel him slow his motion until he is completely still inside me. He releases his grip on my throat and lowers his hand placing it on top of mine. His body and mine both covered in sweat and still I feel the need to have him again.
He slowly lifts his hands and stands up and takes a small step back.
Making me feel cold and empty. I release my death grip on the railing and slowly turn around.
I watch him pull up his sweatpants. He leans down and grabs the sheet, then he walks into me allowing me to feel his body heat.
Making the cold and empty feeling melt away. Making it nothing but a memory.
He wraps the sheet around me and pulls me into him.
I wrap my arms around his waist. I shove my face into his strong sweating chest. I take a deep breath, once again becoming consumed by his scent.
His love. His warmth. He wraps his arms around me, pulling me firmly against him.
I can feel his racing heart against my chest. He leans down and places his lips once again against my ear, a gesture I will seriously never get sick of.
It has become our thing, just like taking a deep breath. Just something we do together, something that keeps us sane and in the moment.
“Did you really say yes?” Ethan asks in a hopeful voice. He needs validation just as much as I do. We are one and the same, he and I.
“I did,” I whisper softly. He tightens his arms around me even more. I can feel both of our hearts racing, partly because we just had sex and partly because I just agreed to marry him.
I must be fucking out of my mind to say yes. But how can I not? He came into my life and has changed everything. I never want to go back to the way it was before, and he has made sure that my father will never touch me again.
He made sure that I was safe from my father’s touch. How can I say no to a man that is willing to do anything to save me? And he already has. He has saved me every day since the moment I laid eyes on him.
I can feel he knows that. And I can also feel that he feels the same way about me. Both of us are not good with words, but our bodies give it away. Our hearts give it away.
“I love you,” Ethan says, tightening his grip on me even more, both of us holding onto each other. Both of us are acting as if the other will disappear. But in this life, you never know what tomorrow will bring.
My father taught me that. You never know what will be taken from you, so you must be grateful for it right now in this moment because you might not have it tomorrow.
“I love you, too, babe” I reply, allowing a smile to form on my lips. When I escaped, I didn’t know what would happen. I didn’t think I would get that far and now tonight I am not just Ethan’s lover I am his fiancé.
It is crazy how much things have changed and how much things will continue to change tomorrow.
“Promise me—” He stops for a moment, making my heart race for a whole new reason.
I feel his breath on my ear. “Promise me you will always be here.”
“I promise.” I tell him. I don’t need to think about my response. I am not going anywhere. I wanted to leave. I wanted to get away from him and this place because I wanted to protect him, all of them, but now after this, after Ethan ... I can’t just leave. I don’t think I would survive it.
“I can’t lose you, sweetheart,” he states in a pained voice letting me see how worried he really is about everything. He doesn’t have to say much to give away how he is feeling. The worry and concern are radiating off him in waves.
“You never will. I am right here, Ethan.” I’m trying to reassure us both because he and I can’t make any promises right now. Not until Tristan is dealt with. Until then anything and everything can happen. But I will try and keep my promise. I would never willingly just leave him.
He leans down a little more, shoving his face into the side of my neck.
We both have fears of losing each other. We are both damaged and shattered. But together we are beautifully damaged and shattered.