20. Chapter 19
Chapter 19
Doug
K issing Beth was everything I thought it’d be, and more. She was hesitant at first, which made me nervous I’d crossed the line, but then she relaxed and matched my passion.
Selfishly, I was disappointed when she said we had to stop, even though I understood. It’d be weird if Chase caught us kissing.
I half expected her to say no when I invited her to spend the night at my place. To my shock, and immense pleasure, she agreed. Pending her babysitter being available for the night.
Please God, let her be available.
I wanted to wake up next to her, and maybe get in a little morning sex before making her breakfast.
Where the hell did that come from ?
I hadn’t woken up next to a woman since I moved out of the house I’d shared with my ex-wife. Hell, I hadn’t even considered bringing someone back to my place, let alone asking them to spend the night.
Damn, Beth had gotten under my skin. Every minute I spent with her left me wanting more.
I need to tell her I can’t have kids . It might not be as big a deal as I’d originally thought, given her age. But that didn’t mean she wouldn’t think I was less of a man for shooting blanks.
My ex had, and she hadn’t hesitated to tell me how much of a failure I was. I could still hear her cruel words, cutting me down and destroying my self-esteem.
Being sterile didn’t mean I didn’t want kids. I did. I always had.
I could be a good dad to Chase . And a good husband to Beth .
Whoa. Slow down. It was way too soon to be thinking like that, even if it was true.
First, I had to reveal my secret and hope she wouldn’t walk away from me.
I poured myself a glass of whiskey, inhaling the smoky peaty scent as I brought the glass to my lips. The warm amber liquid burned as it coated my tongue and throat, bringing me back to the present.
I sat on the couch and turned on my gaming console—shooting a few bad guys would help derail the negative train of thought my mind had boarded.
And maybe help keep my mind from visualizing what it’d be like to kiss Beth senseless and hear her breathlessly beg for more as I worshiped her body.