NINE
Aspen
I’m telling myself this is just sex.
A way to blow off steam after the worst night of my life.
All those emotions need to go somewhere, might as well be a string of orgasms on the face of a firefighter I’m trying to pretend I’m not falling in love with. And failing miserably at, I might add.
His tongue finally pulls away, allowing my eyes to make an attempt at opening but they’re ringing too loudly to see anything.
Or is that my ears? I don’t know where I am or what’s going on at this point.
I’m a little concerned my eyes won’t ever roll back to normal, just like Meredith’s parents always told us would happen. That’s not really a thing, is it?
When he stands, I can make out the bulge in his pants. When did he drop his firefighting overalls? Or am I seeing his hard-on through them? Either way, hello Thomas Redford. I’ve got the perfect place for you to put that.
My state of euphoria doesn’t allow me to successfully sit up, but my arms work enough to beckon him to me, clumsily undoing the belt on his sexy black pants. Thank god he’s helping or this could take all night.
Angels sing when I yank down his boxers, or maybe that’s just me. No wonder he became a firefighter, he’s got a built-in hose.
The sound he makes when my palm grips his shaft, pulling him closer, has my clit hammering again already. His moans only grow louder when I run my tongue along the underside of his cock, positioned directly above me as I lay on the bench, trying in vain to sit up.
Alternating between my tongue and my lips, pursed like I’m kissing his mouth, I go to town on every inch of his massive length, or at least every inch I can reach from here.
It’s half-assed at best, despite giving it all I’ve got at this current moment, but it has his knees trembling, spurring me on.
“I need to fuck you but I’m too spent. I need to feel you inside me. All of you. Please.”
I’m not sure if my begging does him in or if it’s when I take him in my mouth from my upside down position, but I think he’s seeing to it my wishes are fulfilled.
Picking me up like I weigh nothing at all, he props me against a row of lockers, burying his face in my neck from behind. His lips nip at my tender flesh, licking and kissing in between gentle nibbles and deep inhales like he’s breathing me in.
I’ve never been made love to like this before. It feels so much more than physical, so much more than a night of working off excess adrenaline. He’s sniffing my hair, bathing in my essence, stroking my body with his rough hands like he’s trying to commit every curve to memory for safe keeping.
Like he’s worshipping a mermaid.
Am I really worthy of the way he looks at me?
I’m just Aspen Simmons, a girl who wasn’t good enough for her parents to stop partying for.
Who wasn’t smart enough for a college degree.
Who wasn’t artistic enough to make it in her field.
Who wasn’t a good enough girlfriend to become a wife.
Who wasn’t independent enough to make it on her own.
I don’t want to let Redford down but I’m worried he sees someone else. Someone I’m really not.
Or maybe he does see me, the same way Meredith does, and everyone else was wrong.
One hand cups my tit, protecting it from the cold metal wire of the lockers, while his other arm reaches around my waist, fingering my entrance with care before plunging in completely.
This is how it should feel to be loved by a man.
Why has it never felt like this before?
I crane my neck enough to look at him, to see the love and wonder in his eyes, like he’s hoping as much as I am that this is the start of something so much more than it should be.
He looks like he could blow at any second when my hair falls over his shoulders, cascading down his back, still damp from going under water on the island, but not half as wet as I am beneath his magical fingers.
He pulls away from my neck long enough to catch me staring at him over my shoulder, the prolonged eye contact sending my heart rate into dangerous territory.
“I’m yours,” I whisper, face pressed against the lockers so hard I’ll have the markings for a week. I’m not sure what I mean or how he takes it but however he interprets my enigmatic words is fine with me.
I wiggle my hips, pushing my ass into him until the head of his cock parts my aroused lips from behind. The breath he sucks in damn near drains my lungs.
“I want all of you,” I moan, letting it turn into a high pitched whimper as he enters me, inch by inch, stretching me in every direction. “Oh fuck, Redford. Oh wow. Uh-huh, keep going.”
He pulls out slowly when he can’t burrow any deeper, then plunges in again, nearly lifting me off my feet. His hands never stop working my breast and my clit simultaneously while he spears me from behind, picking up the pace with every thrust.
If my fingers weren’t locked through the metal mesh I’d be helping him in both departments, maybe taking off my shirt completely or lifting my skirt higher, but if I let go, there is no way my knees alone will be strong enough to hold me up.
Not with the force of him slamming into me, dominating me in a way that has me losing all control and not caring if I ever get it back.
I feel like I’m floating, an out of body experience that’s somehow heightening every sensation. Are my feet still there? I can’t feel them.
Oh my god, I am floating, my feet aren’t even touching the ground. I’m squished between Redford’s body and the lockers, too weak to stand. He’s holding me, claiming me, making me his with a carnal passion that has my body clamoring for an eternity with this man.
All I can do is hold on for dear life, gripping the lockers so hard I might reshape the metal.
“Aspen, I can’t hold on much longer. You feel too fucking incredible. I can’t fight it.”
“You don’t have to,” I moan, holding eye contact with him over my shoulder. “I want to be your mermaid forever.”
“Oh fuck.” His throaty groan means I’ve pushed him over the edge, like I was hoping for. Like would happen to a man who’s falling for you as hard as you’ve fallen for him.
I yelp softly against the lockers as he releases his load, filling me with his warmth.
“Woo, way to go, Aspen!”
“Meredith! What are you doing?” My toes finally touch the floor again but barely, as I turn to face my best friend in the doorway, not even pretending not to be watching.
“I woke up in a strange place and heard you whimpering. I had to make sure you were okay.”
“I’m golden, Mer, but kinda naked here.”
“Oh please, I’ve seen you way more naked than that. Loverboy has no idea what he’s missing. Fine, I’ll turn around.”
“Maybe a little more privacy? And that doesn’t mean covering your eyes.
We’ll be right up. Sorry,” I whimper over my shoulder as Redford keeps his O face buried in my neck.
“We don’t do so good with boundaries. That was incredible.
But I don’t want you to think, because of what I said, the whole being your mermaid thing, that I’m trying to push something on you that you don’t want pushed. ”
“Sounds like something I’d love to have pushed on me. Aspen, in case you haven’t noticed, I’m more than a little into you.”
“I know, and little is not how I would classify it, I can still feel you throbbing away like you didn’t just- Oh you meant into me like metaphorically, never mind that last thing I said.
I’m more than a little into you too. The thing is, I don’t know what happens after tonight.
We lost almost everything, except the most important things, which we would have lost too if it wasn’t for you.
But I don’t know what tomorrow looks like. ”
“I do. It looks like you living out your redemption story, one that never should have required rewriting in the first place. You truly are one of a kind, Aspen. What happened tonight on that island, I know it feels like it changed everything, but it didn’t.
That was just another setback you shouldn’t have had to face, but I promise, you get to live out your dream. I’ll make sure of it.”
“Even if my dream involves settling down on the lake with a local firefighter, spending my days drawing and my nights falling in love?”
“That sounds like heaven to me, and I just so happen to know the perfect firefighter.”
“Really? I can’t wait to spend forever with him. As long as he doesn’t mind being with a mermaid.”