38. Chapter 38
Chapter 38
Jamison
L illy pulled me into a tight embrace. “Thank you for everything, Jamison.”
I leaned away and lost myself in her eyes. Those big brown orbs that always pulled me in and held me tight. “I only supported you in your decision. I didn’t do anything exciting.”
She shook her head. “I don’t mean just helping me with school. I mean everything .” Her eyes filled with tears, and they slid down her cheeks. She wiped them away. “I’m sorry,” she said in a sob.
I pulled her to me and held her as she cried on my shoulder. I rubbed her back until her sobs subsided a bit. “You have nothing to be sorry for. But talk to me. What’s wrong?” I leaned back, and her gaze met mine.
She slid her hand across my cheek and caressed my face. “Nothing’s wrong. I’m just an emotional nightmare.” She pulled in a shaky breath, wiped away her tears, and grabbed my hands. “If this is where we were meant to be, why did it take us so long?”
“I’ve wondered the same thing,” I said. “And thought long and hard about it. All I can come up with was that we weren’t meant to be together before. We both had to grow and bring amazing little people into the world. We came back together when we were both hurting and both empty. I’m the aspirin you need to relieve your pain, and you’re the Band-Aid to heal my heart.”
Lilly nodded. “I agree with you, partially.”
Her voice was so sure. So final. It frightened me. “What do you mean?”
She brushed her fingers over my lips to quiet them. “We came back together now to give each other a second chance, to heal our hearts and find love again.”
My eyes popped, and I held my breath.
“I wasn’t sure what I wanted," she continued. "I was scared we were rushing into a relationship. But my heart never had to force itself to have feelings for you. You always had a part of it, and until recently, it was never filled. But you fill my heart to the brim.”
She paused, and her eyes glistened. “And I love you, Jamison McKendry.”
A smile erupted across my face, and a lightness filled my chest. I blew out the breath I had been holding. “You do?”
She nodded. “I always have.”
She placed her lips on mine, and this time the kiss was deep and hot. Our tongues met and tangled. My insides went numb.
She pulled away. “I want you, Jamison.” Her gaze was filled with desire. “I want to be with you.” She rubbed her hands up my chest and laced her fingers behind my neck. She licked her lips, and her breath was heavy. “Can we?”
Lilly’s lips were glistening and rosy. Her eyes glittered with desire. I wasn’t sure how we got back here, but I did know she made me feel things I haven’t felt in years. “You don’t ever need to ask. If you want to, I am one hundred percent on board.”
The corners of her lips matched her eyes, which glittered with mischief. That was the look that had thrown me over the ledge many times during our summer together, and desire erupted throughout my body.
“Follow me,” she said.
That wasn't hard to do. She pulled me through the living room and down the hall to her bedroom. Her ass swayed and her hips looked absolutely delicious. As soon as we were in her room, she pushed me against the door and shucked my shirt above my head like I was an ear of corn.
Mmm. She moaned as her hands roamed up my chest and caressed my nipples. I sucked in a breath between my teeth and reached out to her.
She shook her head and stepped seductively away.
“Woman, don’t tease me.”
“I’m not teasing you.” Her voice was sultry. “It’s called seducing.” Her eyes traveled slowly up my body and stopped on my lips.
I licked them slowly and got the response I wanted.
Hers devoured mine, and a deep moan escaped my throat. I tried to wrap my arms around her to pull her to me, but she pulled my arms from around her waist and cut off our connection.
Fuck. Air deflated from my lungs. I needed her. She was driving me crazy. My head fell back against the door with a thump. “Lilly, what are you doing to me?”
Her hand pushed against my chest. “It’s been so long since I’ve wanted a man like I want you.”
She kissed my chest and licked my hard nipple.
“Fuck,” I said in a breath.
“It’s been so long since my body has throbbed with desire like it is now.” She pulled her top off and stood in front of me in a lacy black bra.
Blood rushed through my body. I wanted her so badly it hurt—literally.
I reached out, desperate to touch her, but she brushed away my hand and cupped my hardness through my pants.
I moaned, and my eyes closed. It sounded like I was in pain, and I was. My cock was throbbing, and my heart was pounding.
She started rubbing up and down, and I thought I might come undone right then.
“You want me, don’t you?” she asked in a seductive whisper, her eyes on mine.
“What the hell do you think?” I took in a deep breath and found courage I didn’t know I still possessed, and my eyes held hers. “You know, I should walk away. What if I don’t want to be taken advantage of?” I tried to joke.
“Go ahead,” she whispered as she jerked my pants down and got on her knees. “Leave if you want.” She pushed my pants down my legs, caressing my skin as she went. I slowly stepped out of them.
She stroked her hand up and down my erection. “But I don’t think you want to.”
Her tongue touched the head, and she licked all the way down and back up.
“Dammit.” The feeling was amazing. “I’m not going anywhere,” I whispered—I think—I’m not sure if my voice actually worked, because just as I said the words, she wrapped her mouth around me and sucked.
Holy hell.
It was too much, and it felt so good; I knew I was going to explode soon, and though I didn’t want to, I needed her to stop. “Lilly.” I pulled her to her feet and tried to catch my breath. Her lips were wet and swollen, and when she licked them, I was done, as if I wasn’t already.
Two could play this game. I pushed her back and onto her bed and pulled her pants off. I about came immediately when I saw the matching black lace panties she had on.
She lay there like a goddess with her arm over her head and “come fuck me” eyes.
I dragged my hand softly over her breasts, and a shiver shook her body slightly. I continued my hands down her body, and pulled her panties off.
I wanted her as much as she wanted me. Shit, I doubt it. I’m sure I wanted her more. I kissed her stomach and traveled down and licked the sensitive area between her legs.
She moaned and thrust her hips upward, but I held her still.
“Jamison.”
The high-pitched whisper of her voice about drove me over the edge again, but I kept up what I was doing until she let out a high-pitched groan and yelled my name. I knew she had reached her peak. I was hard, and she was wet.
I kissed my way up her body, and my mouth found her nipples and sucked them, then finally met her mouth.
Our kiss was deep, and we both moaned when I pushed my hardness inside her. Her hands immediately left my neck and cupped my ass. She pulled me deeper into her, and I was more than willing to oblige. Our lips met again, and I leaned on my elbows while I thrust slow yet hard. I brushed her hair from her face. I wanted to see her expression when she came.
Her eyes closed tight, and she wrapped her legs around my waist. “Jamison, yes.”
“Lilly.” I thrust one more time and exploded in her as her warmth wrapped around me and she let out a moan of ecstasy.
She lay on my chest when we finished, and I held her close. My heart thumped hard. I’d just made love with Lilly. It wasn’t just sex this time, and it would never be again. I had no doubt our time together was now. I kissed her head tenderly. The smile she gave me when she tipped her head up made me feel complete.
“I love you,” I whispered as I kissed her lips.
“I love you,” she said as she cuddled tightly into my side.
A very insistent buzzing sound woke us from a nap. “I don’t think they, whoever they are, are going to go away,” I said lazily as I got out of bed and fumbled through my jeans pocket for my phone. “It’s not mine.”
“Shoot,” Lilly said as she got out of bed and found her phone in the pocket of her pants. I enjoyed watching her naked in front of me. “You're beautiful.”
“Jamison . . .” She grabbed for her T-shirt, but I jumped up and pinned her arms.
I shook my head. “Don’t cover yourself. You are absolutely perfect. Everything about you.” I kissed her tenderly and felt myself grow hard.
She giggled. “Thank you, but that was my mom. They want us to meet them for lunch. In like thirty minutes. We don’t have time for anything else.”
I shrugged. “So, we’re a little late.” I grabbed her and threw her on her bed, and we went for round two.
We walked into Jerry’s Pub hand in hand. Our mother’s faces were ecstatic. My mother squealed loud enough for people in the next county to hear. “Holy hell, what do we have here?” She squeezed me so tight, I thought my ribs were going to explode.
“Mom . . .”
She thumped me a bit hard on the back and turned to Lilly. “Well, someone has an after-sex glow about her.” She held Lilly at arm’s length.
“Oh, my God,” Lilly said as she turned as red as her tank top.
“Mom, really?” I saved Lilly from any more embarrassment, pulling her to the other side of the table so she could sit by Rose.
“So, I’m guessing all went well with the colleges?” Kaye asked.
I looked blankly at Kaye for a second before it hit me what she meant. I’d totally forgotten Lilly and I had been looking at schools for her to attend.
“It did,” Lilly said, and she filled them in on what we’d found out. “So, I hope to be starting in a few weeks.
I placed my arm around her shoulders. “See. It looks like everything worked out and everyone has your back, just like I told you.”
“Yep. You were totally right.” Her smile lit up her face, and she turned to everyone. “Thank you for supporting me and welcoming me home. This past month and a half has been the best time I’ve had in . . . well, let’s just say a long time.” She turned to me. “And now it’s gotten even better.”