~Chapter 42~
Ash comes over to me and makes me get up and get on him and I do it, who am I not to?
Niko climbs onto the bed in between us. He looks at me, and probably at Ash, who even though I can't see him I can feel him grinning like a wolf.
Weird, right?
Nikolai takes off his white shirt and my eyes go to his nipples.
My face falls.
"Is there something different here?
" I say even though my jaw is a mile away if he could "you stole my idea, I was still thinking"
Niko starts laughing sensually.
Maybe it's weird, and it really is. I think the alcohol has messed with my brain.
"Do you like it? Ash liked it and I really enjoyed it" he says softly as he takes off his pants and underwear, leaving me naked.
He bends down and takes me off Ash, and after Ash undresses too, but after that I stay the same.
I think my nose is bleeding.
Too much for me, my aura is now in the negative.
Niko comes closer to me and kisses me. Long, consistent, dominant and with lust.
He takes my tongue and plays with it, sucks it everywhere reaching places undiscovered by others and then bites my lower lip, while it bleeds.
I wipe myself on my lip, without adding anything, I don't know what.
"Did the cat eat your tongue?" Ash says and sucks on my neck and bites me
"Literally and figuratively" I say quietly, not thinking that neither of them hears
"How about we take these off, baby" Niko says and takes off my blouse or so-called shirt, he unzips the zipper of my pants with his mouth and I think I'm so hard now that I'm a rock, and boxers.
He let my long, hard member come out of its shell and now he's taking off my sneakers.
"Christian Louboutin? Let's fill you in on this brand, honey," Niko says harshly and then makes me sit back.
He comes between my legs, grabs my thigh and I moan. He moves closer, leans into my ear and whispers
"Are we allowed?" He says to Ash too.
I look into his eyes and see pure desire, then turn to Ash to see that he is already hypnotized by my neck.
"Sure" I whisper looking into his eyes
After receiving my agreement and consent, he lifts me up a little and enters me with his big member, I tense up because I wasn't ready.
.
He comes in harder and makes me scream, a tear runs down my cheek without me knowing but Ash wipes it away and turns my head to the side and kisses me.
While Ash was kissing me, Niko was entering and entering me, I could feel every bit of his dick because he chose that condoms are not for him, or there are no condoms of size 30 or even bigger.
Ash was kissing me, hard, wet but at the same time long.
When I thought we had calmed down a bit I felt another attempt at entry.
"Wait. Wait" I say quickly and I hold on to Niko, he looks at me and leans over, kisses my chin down my neck and up to my ear, bites my lobe and then goes down to suck and bite my neck
" Done?
" He says softly and I just nod, after the pain comes again but with pleasure at the same time.
"Considering it's the 3rd time in this position, it doesn't accept both of them very well inside you, honey" Ash says softly when they paused again "you're so tight but at the same time wide, angel" he says and stops at my ear while kissing my head.
Niko comes down to kiss me on the lips and the pace increases and I moan loudly.
Niko can barely suck my tongue because all I do is moan.
"Nikolai" I say when I let go of his mouth.
"Yes baby" he says and kisses my forehead
"Harder.
Much harder" I say as sweat runs down my neck
"Are you sure?
" Ash asks
"COME ON, YOU FOOLS" I say loudly when he asks for my approval again.
The pace picks up again and I hold on to the bed sheet as he pushes and pushes into me.
"Oh my god" I say between the moans he lets out.
I'm almost to the end and all I can hear is Niko getting horny to death and Ash moaning softly without you even realizing it.
This makes me come hard and everywhere and the next second Ash turns my head and kisses my neck and lower, while Niko kisses my nipples and sucks on them, pulling, like a child demanding attention.
My ass tightens and Niko moans loudly, and the next second he's holding onto my shoulder and kissing Ash as he cums inside me.
He pulls his cock out of me as I scream a little after I feel cold but then I'm laid on my back with Ash in front of me
"Nice" he says and starts thrusting hard.
"Jesus Chris..." before I can say it Ash cums inside me and I moan loudly closing my eyes, after causing a bomb in my stomach.
I open my eyes and look at them both. The world is dancing around us, the music is pulsing, but in this small space of ours, there is only this intimate, playful, dominant tension. A moment that promises more… but which, for now, remains only ours.
Ash places me in the middle while they stand on either side of me.
I rub my temple and lie back, trying to catch my breath.
"God… my head… too much excitement and too much alcohol eliminated through…
everything that happened," I murmur to myself, trying to smile through the memories of the light moans of fatigue and pleasure.
Niko laughs softly and I look at him.
"My head really hurts" I repeat myself again in case he didn't understand
"Oh, my poor kitty" Niko says and comes closer, takes me in his arms and kisses my head
"What's hurting you?
" Ash jokingly asks while holding my other hand.
"What's hurting me?" I repeat the question again but changed to a joke and answer more damn "my big, bulging ass, let's not forget it" I answer, laughing, and I see them both burst into infectious laughter.
"Then we should give you a massage.
Ass up and face down, prince" Niko says and I give him a big, shameless slap
"Do this to Ash, not me" I say and get out of bed.
I go into a bathroom, use the toilet and wash my hands.
I look at myself and see that I am a complete mess, kissed from the neck to the thighs, and even on the ass which I have no idea how.
I look at myself one more time and then I spray myself on my face.
"My ass hurts" I mumble to myself softly
"I told you to get ready, I said you didn't listen"
"How do I know it's true, Brex!
" I say to myself
"I just said it"
"See!
You just said it! How do I know it's true" I say again and often, I get out of the bathroom and don't go in the sea if Brex says anything else
I sit on the chair in the corner of the room facing the bathroom, trying to take a deep breath.
I watch Ash and Nikolai stand close to each other, kissing passionately, and I feel a strange wave in my stomach.
Jealous, but I don't want to admit anything. Not even to them.
"Brex…," I murmur softly in my mind, trying to control my voice, "why… do they seem to have such an easy time being so… close?"
Brex makes a short, neutral sound. "Hmm. There's no need to compare, Cass. Their affection doesn't diminish anything about who you are. It's not a competition."
“Pff… seriously, Brex,” I say, with a slightly wry smile, “you’re not convincing me. I can see how natural their connection is and… me?” I wrap my arms around my body, feeling like it’s hard to accept the idea.
“Cass… it really doesn’t have to be hard,” he says, calmly, almost bored, “their affection isn’t a threat to you. You have your own value. You don’t lose them, you don’t gain them… it’s just… they are.”
“It’s not about value, Brex,” I reply, almost murmuring. “It’s about how they show themselves to each other. How they don’t have a hard time being close and honest. It would be hard for me. And I can’t help but feel…
”
I feel Brex getting closer and a magic passes through my heart, and that makes me a little calmer.
“And just because you feel, doesn’t mean you’re any less than them.
You have the right to feel and not accept.
You can be jealous. But don’t let it define you.
There’s no need to accept it quickly, Cass.
You’re already here. You’ve been a part of this evening as much as they are, you’ve been with them more than once, even twice.
“Hmph…,” I sighed as I tried to smile.
“Look, Brex… you’re not convincing me. Even if you say so, it’s still not…
right. Seeing them like this… so free and me feeling like a…
spectator, I’m screwed in the head”
“Then be the stylish spectator,” Brex laughs softly, “and let them be close. Observe, don’t compare.
And… relax. All you have to do is be you. ”
I run my hand through my hair, still a little irritated and jealous, but I get up and go to my clothes.
I look for my clothes, find them and start changing as if nothing serious happened.
"Where are you going, Cass?" Niko asks and I turn to them with a masked smile
"Home.
What time is it?" I ask while putting on my blouse.
"It's 3 am, but it's not important. You're not going anywhere" Ash says and gets up to come towards me but I'm already tying my shoelaces
I start to leave the room and leave but I'm taken by the hand by Niko who now had a robe on
"Hey.
Hey. What happened?" He says as he takes me in front of him with both hands.
I try to get his hands off and I succeed.
"Nothing" I say taking another step back
"Why are you distant?
" Niko asks and comes another step forward
"Just..
.let's talk tomorrow" I say and quickly leave.
I'm leaving that hall, like I'm in the club where there are still as many people even though it's 3 but I don't care about them.
I just hope Theo and Emy got there okay, that Sergio is 100% with Colby somewhere around here doing who knows what move in addition to 69.
When I'm finally outside, I let the spring wind embrace me.
"Just a little longer," I mutter to myself.
I can't wait for summer to come and spend those 3 months of summer just on vacation and not seeing anyone, of course.
Like I've been for the rest of my life.
I light a cigarette, and the last one, on my way to a charging station to get more for tomorrow.
I light it.
I take a drag
I exhale.
And so on a few more times.
Until my phone rings, which I miraculously pick up.
I look to see that it's Theo and answer.
"Yeah, bro," I say, a little happy that it didn't end up in the dumpster or with some rich guy with money who's sending it to England.
"What are you doing? Where are you? Did I wake you up?
"
"I'm not awake anymore, I'm fine, I'm smoking and I'm near a gas station.
I left the club now. Why? Where are you?
" I ask, taking a drag on my cigarette.
"I'm home.
I stayed for about 2 hours after I lost you, but also after Emy left with a girl and told me to leave too so we wouldn't be late.
That was an hour ago," he says quickly and I think I understand everything, because he's drunk and when he's drunk he speaks quickly and incorrectly.
"Why did you call me?" I ask again, when I enter the store "a long kent please, card" I tell the cashier there and pay.
I take my cigarettes and leave the store
"Are you smoking again?
You know what Sergio said..."
"Leave me alone Theo!
WHY THE HELL DID YOU CALL ME?" I yell at him when it's already getting annoying.
Even though he has nothing to do with what happened.
"I wanted to see if you were okay, and Sergio said to do this.
..sorry dude" he says
Beep
Beep
Beep
And hangs up.
"Damn it," I muttered.
Now I have to get my friend back tomorrow. I'm a broken mouth.
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Beep
Beep
Beep
I don't know who it is, but I hung up.
I get out of bed with difficulty, it's 3:00 PM in the morning, it seems I slept a little.
I think I got home around 4 after being called about 5 times by Ash and Niko.
I just want a break.
Am I asking for too much?
I go to the bathroom to wash myself smelling like a skunk that was in the great battle a thousand years ago.
I stand in the shower, cold water running down my back and face, trying to figure out what the hell happened to me last night.
My mind is still reeling from the moans and kisses and sensations…
and I realize I’ve been a little overzealous with jealousy.
“Damn, Cass… what a panic you had last night?” I mutter to myself, letting the water wash the last traces of sweat and alcohol from my skin.
“I didn’t even see them for what they were like, I just assumed and inflamed myself.
Look how stupid that was.”
I try to smile, a small, wry smile.
I really did run away like an idiot, only because my mind was making up meaningless scenarios.
But now, under this cold water, everything seems…
okay. It’s just a club, an intense moment, and I…
I’m safe, alone with my thoughts.
“And it was a good thing I left,” I say quietly, more to myself, “better that way than staying there and making a fool of myself or getting lost in… everything that was there.”
I take a deep breath, exhale, and feel the tension in my shoulders begin to melt away.
I was jealous, I was panicked, but there was nothing real to be afraid of.
I just… survived the night, and that’s all that matters now.
I realize that it’s actually funny how much I’ve been stressed out over nothing.
I lift my head slightly, let the water fall on my feet, and smile for the first time in hours.
“Okay, Cassian,” I say to myself, “next time, less scripting, more… calm.”
I leave the bathroom with a towel around my waist and go to throw away the clothes I had on last night because I smell strongly of alcohol, and of the club, that specific smell.
I dress in something casual.
Gray pants with a tank top of the kind with thicker straps because those are much cooler than the others.
I take off my watch, and put on my simpler Apple watch and keep the necklaces around my neck, because they don't bother me.
I leave the dressing room, and go to my desk where I slam it to see if I have anything to do for this week, but I don't have anything. So I get up and go to my phone.
It seems I only have 10 calls from Ash and only 8 from Niko, and it seems I also have 2 from Emy and Sergio.
But what I'm most interested in right now is Theo.
I screwed up last night and I need to fix what I did.
I sit on the edge of my desk and look at the phone.
I call Theo… just to hear his voice and know that everything is okay between us after all the craziness last night.
It rings. It rings. It rings.
"Hello?
"
"Hey, dude… are you awake?" I ask, trying to sound as calm as possible.
"Uh… more or less," he answers in that still-sleepy, slightly whispered voice.
"You… are you okay?"
I lie back in my chair, prop my feet up on the desk a little, and smile to myself.
"Yeah, I'm… alive, despite last night's disaster."
"Haha, okay at least," Theo laughs. "I thought you were gone for good, I thought I'd lose you at the club."
I roll my eyes, but smile. “No, bro. I just ran for a little… air, not because I was completely panicking.”
“Yeah… good thing you did,” he says in a calmer tone. “Seriously, Cass, you don’t have to stress yourself out so much. I know it’s been… a lot.”
“I know,” I reply, “but I have to admit I’m glad to hear that from you. Even though I didn’t do anything serious, I feel better just talking to you.”
“Okay… that’s what friendship is, right?” Theo says. “No judgment, no unnecessary drama. We’re just… here for each other.”
I smile wider, almost feeling the tension in me melt away. “Yeah, dude. And thanks. Seriously. For… everything.”
“Anytime, Cass. Really anytime,” he says, chuckling softly. “Now, relax and get ready for today. And yeah, maybe leave the scenarios in your head for later.”
“Haha, promise,” I say, genuinely smiling for the first time in these crazy hours.
I put the phone away, take a deep breath, and feel like, for the first time since last night, I can breathe. It’s only morning…
or rather, almost noon, but this friendship…
Theo… is real, and that matters more than any chaotic scenario my mind creates.