Thirty-Eight
Branwen
Linc: Issue came up in Georgia that my brother needs backup on. Had to leave too early to tell Stevie goodbye. Let her know I am sorry and I’ll bring her back a surprise. This will take a few days. Locke will be at the house every day by ten to take you both wherever you want to go. He’ll stay with you for security purposes.
I read the text, then put my phone back down and stared at the ceiling. He was gone again. I should be happy about that, but I wasn’t. I’d held on to the hope he’d come back to my room last night. That was pathetic, and I knew it, but I couldn’t seem to control my head and heart. After living the days with him when he was withdrawn and aloof, I craved that connection with him. It was getting worse, and I didn’t know how to stop it.
Tossing back the covers, I stretched, then got up. Stevie and I had a way to get out and do something today. At least Linc had thought about it before running off and leaving. He’d listened to me. My head started going in the direction of maybe he was softening toward me and perhaps he felt something too. Or some emotion could be growing.
“You have got to snap out of it, Branwen. Jesus, you aren’t that little girl anymore. Grow up,” I muttered as I made my way to the bathroom to take a shower.
I needed to plan our day. Decide what we would do and where we would go. Stevie would probably be happy to stay here with her new playset and Maui, but there would be time for that later today.
Once I checked my bank account and knew what money I had left after bills were paid, I’d know just what we could afford to do. If I could find somewhere for her to play with other kids, that would be good. She needed that.
The Mississippi Children’s Museum in Jackson had been phenomenal. We’d stayed there for four hours, and Stevie still hadn’t gotten to see and do everything.
She asked if we could go feed the ducks on our drive back to Madison. Locke stopped at a grocery store for me, and I got a loaf of discounted bread for the ducks and a pint of strawberry oat milk ice cream and a small pack of plastic spoons.
While we sat down by the water and ate from the container, Stevie talked about the things we had done today, asked when her dad would be back, if she could play outside on her swing set when we got home, if Jayda would roll Maui his ball so he wouldn’t get lonely, and what my favorite color was. Her little brain never seemed to take a break.
When she jumped up with a slice of bread she had taken from the loaf, I glanced back at Locke. He stood maybe a yard away, leaning against a tree. I felt bad that he’d had to spend his day at the Children’s Museum, following us around while Stevie ran from one thing to the next.
“I’d offer you some, but since we ate out of the container, I doubt you want to share our germs. I should have asked if you wanted any. I’m sorry.”
“I’m good,” he said. “But thanks.”
I turned back to watch Stevie as she tore off pieces and giggled happily as the ducks hurried to eat it. Some of the fish would pop up and snatch a bite as well from time to time. After twenty or so minutes, she tired of it and decided it was time for her to go home.
She’d started calling Linc’s house “home” the past few days, and it had been odd for me at first. It definitely did not feel like home for me, but I guessed it would always be her other home, so it was good she felt that way. Even if a part of me was jealous of having to share her. Knowing there would be a home for her that I wasn’t at stung, even when I knew it shouldn’t. I had time to work on that. Myself. How sharing her would affect me.
Her eyes closed on the short drive back to Linc’s, and she slumped over on me as she slept. When we arrived, Locke offered to carry her, and I let him because it was a long walk from the front of the house to her bed. Once she was in bed, I thanked him, and he left.
We repeated basically the same routine the next day, except instead of the Children’s Museum, we went to the zoo.
Stevie spotted a stuffed monkey, whose hands Velcroed around your neck, hanging on several other kids and begged for one. I was having to budget these outings, so I bribed her with a picnic and more duck feeding if we didn’t get the monkey. I could tell she was disappointed, and I felt a twinge of guilt over it, but she couldn’t have everything she wanted. The thought that, one day, she might prefer living with Linc instead of me because he gave her elaborate gifts began to dig in and taunt me. I knew she loved me, and I didn’t have to buy that love, but when she was a teenager…no. Not going there. This was now. I’d cross that bridge when I came to it.
On our way out of the zoo, she needed to make a bathroom stop, and when we walked out, Locke was waiting on us with a damn stuffed monkey in his hands. She saw it immediately.
“You bought a monkey! I wanted one too.” Her voice didn’t even mask her envy.
He held it out to her. “Your dad said to tell you he misses you.”
She squealed and squeezed it to her chest. My throat clogged, my eyes stung, and all those fears came rushing to the forefront. I could not compete with Linc’s gifts.
The rest of the day was easier. While eating, we discussed facts about monkeys that she’d learned at the zoo. I offered to let Locke sit beside us, and this time, I remembered to feed him too. I offered him a sunflower butter and jelly sandwich, and he took it.
On day three, I felt bad for Locke. He had to be tired of this. I almost texted Linc several times to ask if he could give Locke a break and send someone else, but then worried it would sound as if I were unhappy with Locke. There was also the fact that other than that one text, he’d not contacted me again. Not even to ask about Stevie, but I figured he was asking Locke and Jayda instead. Luther hadn’t been around, and either he’d gone with Linc or we had just not crossed paths in the house, which was possible.
The Museum of Natural Science ended up being my favorite out of the three. Stevie loved the preschool discovery room and watching the scuba divers feed the fish in the large aquarium. It was another long four-hour visit, and my funds were getting low. Thinking ahead, I’d asked Jayda if I could pack us lunch in a cooler to take to the park with us instead of me going to get groceries. She had done it for me before I got down to the kitchen today. She’d also mentioned that the pond we had gone to had a playground on the other side.
This time, we had a picnic table to eat on, and it was much easier to set out the food. Jayda had added several things and sent enough for Locke too. My sandwiches paled in comparison to our spread today. Stevie ate her strawberries while talking about the fish in the aquarium.
I had already decided to tell Locke he had the day off tomorrow. I didn’t want to deplete my bank account, and three days in a row of fun things to do was enough for the week. The pool and playground at Linc’s would be just fine for a couple of days.
As I picked up my turkey club roll, out of the corner of my eye, I saw Locke move and glanced over at him to see he was focused on something behind me. Confused, I turned around and then froze. The sandwich I was holding slipped from my hands to the grass at my feet.
Hudson stalked toward me; his face was red, and a furious scowl was on contorting it. It was a look I’d never seen him make before.
What was he doing here?
“IS HE WHY?!” he shouted.
Oh my God. I glanced around, and there weren’t any other families close by to hear him.
“YOU’RE FUCKING SOME GODDAMN TWENTY-YEAR- OLD!”
What? My eyes swung back to him. What was he talking about?
“Hudson,” I said, standing up, “what—what is wrong with you? What are you talking about?”
Locke moved to stand in front of me. Blocking my view of Hudson.
“Oh, is that it? You’re gonna be tough?” Hudson let out a demented-sounding laugh. “You think I’m scared of some Gen Z. Jesus.” His tone sounded disgusted. “I can’t believe this is why you broke things off with me, Branwen. Telling me that her father wanted to spend time with her. Wanted to get to know her. But you’re out every day with this guy. Where is the so-called father? I thought you were staying locked up on that property with him, but now, you’re out with this one? Can’t make up your mind?”
“Stop this,” I told him sternly, stepping over to see him around Locke. “This isn’t your business, and what are you, stalking me?”
He pointed a finger at me. “Don’t turn this around on me. I was worried about you. Then, I see you out with him. You used me. You took my money. You’re a gold-digging WHORE!” He shouted the last word as his face morphed into a crazed look that made me take a step back.
Stevie let out a sob. “Don’t yell at my mommy,” she wailed, then ran around the table to cling to my legs. Her little body trembled as she pressed against me.
“It’s okay,” I told her, bending down to cup her face and wipe away the wetness from her cheeks.
She sobbed again. “But he is scweamin’ at you,” she said, her face crumpling. “It scaywas me.”
“Yeah, go ahead and make me the bad guy. That’s just great. I loved you. I love you now! But you tossed that away for this—this?! Does he have Daddy’s money? Is that it? I didn’t have enough money for you? What happened to Stevie getting to know her dad? Huh? Did you lie about that? You’re cheap white trash, just like my mother warned me, but I let your face and body blind me!”
Stevie sobbed and buried her face in my chest as I winced at his words, closing my eyes, as if I could make him go away. I covered Stevie’s ears with my hands, waiting for more awful words to be hurled at me.
But there was only silence.
“Take her to the car.” Locke’s tone had me snapping my eyes back open and looking at him.
He’d moved over to stand in front of Hudson. I heard Hudson’s heavy breathing. He wasn’t moving away from Locke or shouting at him. What had changed?
Then, I saw it. The reason why Hudson had stopped talking. Locke had a gun shoved inside his mouth.
Oh dear God. I sucked in a breath and kept Stevie’s face buried in my chest.
“Locke,” I said very slowly so as not to startle him, “don’t do it.”
I didn’t want Stevie to hear what he was doing. She was too young for this.
“I won’t. Linc will want to handle him. Now, you two go to the car. I’ll be there in a moment.” The twinge of satisfaction in his voice was almost evil.
I shivered. It sounded nothing like the polite guy who had followed us around the past three days.
Standing while keeping Stevie’s face against me so she couldn’t see anything, I picked her up, holding the back of her head so she didn’t lift it, and hurried to the car. She was shaking in my arms, and her hands held fistfuls of my top.
“I’m scaywud, Mommy,” her muffled voice said.
“It’s okay. We are almost to the car, and Locke is making sure that Hudson goes away and leaves us alone.”
“I want my dad,” she said on another sob.
I’d like to blame him for this, but the behavior that Hudson had just displayed wasn’t sane. The realization that I’d almost moved my baby into a house with a man who could turn into that sent a wave of horror through me. Oh God, what if I hadn’t come here? What if Linc hadn’t seen her? I felt sick.
I heard the doors click and knew Locke must be close behind. Jerking the back door open, I put her inside her car seat, then hurried around to the other side. There was no view of Hudson. Just Locke as he headed our way, carrying the cooler we’d brought our lunch in. When I had Stevie buckled, I held her small hand in mine, and she squeezed me before peeking out at Locke, afraid of what she might see.
Locke opened the driver’s door and climbed inside. He looked up at the rearview mirror at me. “Are y’all okay?” he asked with a concerned expression.
I nodded.
“Will you tell my dad that I want him to come home?” Stevie asked as her voice wobbled.
There was a pause, then, “Yeah, I will.”
She sniffled, then looked up at me. “I want my dad.”
I sighed and ran a hand over her hair. She trusted him to protect her already. How easy it had been for him to walk into her life and become so important.
“I know, but he has work, and I’m here,” I replied, pressing a kiss to her head.
“But he will keep us safe,” she said with a hiccup.
He had kept us safe today. She just didn’t realize it. I’d thought that the security was silly. That he was going overboard. How wrong I had been.