Chapter 35
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
FERN
T his is a lot better than what I planned on doing today.
I kneel between Elliot’s legs. My hand wraps around the base of his length, my tongue swirling the head of his cock. He moans as I repeat the motion before sucking him into my mouth. It’s hard to fit his thickness but I adjust my jaw and swallow.
He places his hands on the back of my head. He’s so thick that it’s almost impossible to swallow him down my throat, so I try one more time. I tug on his balls gently. I want him to come in my mouth, make him tremble the way he does when his tongue plays with my pussy and his fingers fuck me hard.
I know he’s close. Elliot cradles my head gently, even when his breathing is shallow and he’s about to lose control. “Fern, I want to fuck you, baby, not your mouth.”
I release him and grin. “And why must I listen when you never do? You never stop when I tell you to.”
“Multiple orgasms, babe. You can have them. I can’t. I like to be inside you when I come.”
“One of these days, I won’t listen,” I say as he holds onto my waist and lifts me. He presses me against the wall and thrusts himself inside me.
I wrap my legs around him, and my hands are entwined behind his neck.
After my discussion with Mom, I planned to talk to him about our relationship.
We have to stop this roommates-parents-to-be-with-benefits thing.
It’s not healthy. Yet, I’m at the brink of the abyss, asking for more and wanting more.
“We shouldn’t be doing this,” I mumble.
“You want me to stop?”
“Don’t you dare,” I snap before he takes my mouth and begins to move inside me.
He continues moving his hips, his cock going in and out while he brushes my clit with his thumb.
The pressure builds inside me. Over and over, he pushes himself until we both begin to tremble.
I whimper as I cling to him. His lips against mine, his mouth absorbing my moans, feeding me his incoherent babbling.
We fall onto the carpet. My legs are still around his waist, and his softening cock remains inside me.
“Hi,” he says once my shallow breathing is back to normal.
“That was…”
“Better than the last time,” he finishes. “We should move to this house.”
It wouldn’t bother me to live in Santa Cruz. The view from the master suite is to die for and I adore the house. Sometimes, I feel as if he built it for me and waited until he found me to move in here.
Of course, that’s just the dreamer in me.
“I have work to do in San Francisco, and so do you, McPhee.”
“We do,” he agrees. “But here, you are less tense and more?—”
“Willing to break the few rules we’re supposed to follow.”
He caresses my face. “I love when you smile, do you know that?”
“Don’t do this, Elliot.”
“What am I doing?”’
“You’re so nice, and you have this way of making me feel…” I sigh. “Did I tell you about my first time?”
“Not sure if this is the best time to discuss it, but I’m open to listening to it.”
“I had this big crush on a senior. He was popular. Just like many, he was nice to me because of my brothers. I didn’t know that back then, though. I thought I was in love with him. When Dad died, I was numb. I wanted to feel something, so we started making out, and when I asked him to stop?—”
I can’t continue the story, not with him when I’m literally naked, vulnerable, and in need of someone to love me.
“Baby.”
“I felt so stupid, and of course, he never talked to me again. Except, he told everyone that he took my virginity. The virginity of the innocent Spearman.”
He’s holding me tight. “What he did is wrong, and I’m sorry.”
“I’m still inexperienced, and I’m not talking about sex but love. I don’t want us to confuse things. What happens if I fall in love with you?”
More than I already have?
“Well, then we’ll be two people madly in love, and I’d be fucking thankful because maybe you caught up with me.”
“Wait, what?”
He gives me a timid smile, so unlike Elliot. It’s adorable. “Do you think I fire people and build an entire neighborhood in months just for anyone? The moment I saw you at that coffee shop, I couldn’t stop thinking of you.”
“So it was a pickup line?”
“Probably. I just knew you were distraught, and you needed someone to help you. I wanted to be him. The guy who got to erase the frown and take the weight you carry on your shoulders. As I got to know you, I fell in love with you, and here we are, expecting two babies and trying to make you fall in love with me.”
“But you said?—”
“Very stupid things,” he interrupts me. “Mostly because I’ve been punishing myself for years. First, about what I thought I did to my ex-wife and then the accident that killed part of my family. It wasn’t until you came along that I decided it’s time to forgive myself.”
He helps us get up and walks to the nightstand drawer. Pulling out a box, he drops to one knee.
My heart beats fast. What… “Don’t do this.”
“Why?”
“We’re just…” I don’t know how to finish the sentence.
“Wasting time.” He opens the box, and there’s a beautiful ring set and a chain. “I don’t want to live without you. This isn’t about the babies but you. I want to spend the rest of my life loving you. Having and raising a family is a nice bonus.”
“But you like to travel.”
“Yes, but I did it to avoid life. I don’t want to do it anymore. I only want you and our family.”
I’m sobbing, and I cry harder when he says, “So, I was going to wait and of course I have a speech.”
“And it’s going to be perfect and make me fall in love, and then what am I supposed to do? I don’t know what I’ll do if?—”
“You can’t think about what might happen or you’ll live a miserable life. Let’s take it day by day, knowing that our love will last an eternity.”
I nod.
“Fern, would you do me the honor of being my wife, the mother of my children, and my eternal companion?”
“Yes!”
I kiss him hard with every cell of my body. I can’t believe this man loves me and that I can love him this fearlessly.
But he’s mine, and I’m his.