Chapter 48
Forty-Eight
DECLAN
It's day two of Blue living with us, and I'm starting to feel a little off. She's gotten so close to Jared, and while I'm so happy for them, there's some disappointment for myself too.
Felix inserts himself into everything she does. Just last night, when Blue wanted to take a bubble bath, he expressed a ton of concern over her healing fingernails. It was sweet, and I could tell Blue loved the attention to detail regarding her health.
She even agreed to leave the bathwater in there so Felix could drain the tub and she wouldn’t have to aggravate her wounds.
Roman is always feeding her, and she seems to gravitate toward Jared. Everyone has a role they're playing, and today I became chauffeur.
Since the guys and I are all back to work now, much to our dismay, Blue rode with me to the café. She and Violet are going to watch some movies while Blue swaps outfits around to bring back with us today.
The drive was too short for everything I wanted to say to her. When the time came, I choked and didn't say shit. It was awkward. The small smiles she gave me were nice, and I returned them, but no words would come out.
She asked if I was excited to get back to work. I said sure. Then she got a little grumpy about how Kevin isn't allowing her back in the office for a bit.
I made a few jokes about sneaking her in there to get her laptop so she could do a few things before her paid leave was over.
She laughed a few times as I rambled silly ideas. I panicked. It felt like the first time we were alone together, and I'm still beating myself up over my failed attempt at connecting with her hours later.
I'm frustrated. Why do I resort to making jokes when I'm unsure?
"You alright, man?" my manager asks, setting a water in front of me.
"What?" I blink and register what he said. "Yeah. I'm heading out, though. Thank you."
Gathering my things after saying our goodbyes, I see Blue walking toward me. "Hi," she greets, looking sleepy.
The bag on her back looks heavy, so I remove it from her shoulder and add it to mine in my hand. She blushes, which is nice, but I'm feeling strangely distant.
The ups and downs are incredibly difficult to manage.
"Ready?" I ask, voice thick.
Blue watches me, looking unsure. "Sure."
I'm messing everything up.
"Care to explain why you're hiding?"
Grumbling under my breath, I flop back on the bed and look at Felix with my head hanging over the edge. "Not really."
He rolls his eyes, which looks funny upside down. "Too bad. What's going on, Dec?" he asks as he crouches in front of me.
"First, can I have a Spider-Man kiss?"
He smiles, making my stomach swoop with excitement. Doing as I asked, Felix presses his mouth against mine. It feels a bit odd upside down, but when he swipes his tongue against my lips, I open like I normally do.
It's over before I want it to be, but it's probably for the best because all the blood in my head is giving me a headache. I sit up with the help of my boyfriend who stays kneeling between my legs.
My cock jerks, happy to see its partner. Ignoring my boner, I answer his question, explaining that I just don't feel like I've gotten any closer to Blue. I tell him how worried I am about connecting with her if all I can do is make jokes and get tongue-tied around her.
He smiles, shocking me. "Then it's a good thing she's sleeping with us tonight."
"You asked her?"
Shaking his head, Felix rubs his hands up my thighs. "No, she asked after dinner when you disappeared."
"Oh," I nod and take a deep breath. "That's good. It's good."
"Trust me?" Felix asks.
That's easy. "I trust you."
I'm startled awake by a choked scream that stops right as it starts. Heart pounding, I look around just as Felix flips the lamp on near his side of the bed.
Blue's sitting up, hands over her face as she shakes her head from side to side. Her shoulders are curled inward, making my throat tighten with sadness.
"Blue, baby," I whisper, trying not to scare her.
"I'm so sorry," Blue whimpers.
I don't like how she's hiding her face, but I understand she just needs a moment to collect herself. It's clear she's had a nightmare. Her first one since moving in with us.
She didn't have any when all of us were sleeping in the same room as her, so I'm wondering if I should text Jared and Roman to come to our room. We slept on Jared's floor the other two nights.
Felix pulls her hair away from her sweaty neck and blows cool air on her. A weight lifts off my chest as she sighs, relaxing into the feel of one of her men cooling her down.
"I'm sorry," Blue repeats, glancing at me.
My refusal of her apology is automatic. "No need to apologize. Want to talk about the nightmare?"
"No, I mean..." She wipes a tear from her cheek. I almost laugh when she angrily dries it on the blanket and grumbles about being sick of crying, but I hold it in because she's struggling. "I mean, I'm sorry for disrupting your life. You've pulled away and I..."
"Whoa, alright," Felix stops her, sitting up now and glaring at both of us. He looks at me as if to say here's your opening.
Sweating, I rub my hands on the sheets before grabbing her chin to make her look at me. "I'm sorry. I was so stuck in my head about being what you need me to be that I've completely forgotten how to act around you. My tongue has been tied all day."
She frowns, reaches for my wrist, and just holds it where it is. "That's stupid."
I laugh and tuck her hair behind her ear with my other hand.
"No, I'm serious," she says. "I don't need you to be anything but yourself, Declan. I just need you. Nothing fancy. Sexual innuendos are great, and so is your kind heart. You're perfect for me."
"High praise," I murmur, inching closer to her as if she's the center of my universe. "One that I will work hard to live up to."
I capture her lips with mine before she can say anything else. We don't need any more words. Receiving permission to just be myself is everything I didn't realize I needed.
Blue moans, and to my utter shock and pleasure, she takes control and straddles my lap. I'm shoved back into the pillows, and by the time I pry my mouth from hers, I have a raging boner that she's grinding on.
"Blue, is this too fast?" I groan, hating the words that are coming out of my mouth. "You just—mmmm—had a nightmare."
Holy fuck. She whimpers and sits up straight. Head flung back, she uses my hard on to bring herself pleasure.
"Blue," Felix snaps, grabbing the hair at the back of her head. "Declan asked you a question."
If anything, his dominance makes her press her hot pussy into me harder. Her eyes are pools of pleasure when she looks at me again, and the tiny glimpse of my wild woman peeks through.
"I want you," she breathes, hips swiveling. "Please let me. Help me feel something good."
Well, son of a bitch. Who the hell says no to that?
Felix whispers something in Blue's ear as I grab her hips to help. My balls are a heavy pressure between my legs, and my dick is pissed about the two layers of fabric between us. At least she's only wearing panties.
She rocks and grinds with her poor fingers digging into my bare chest. With Felix nipping at her jaw and holding her up, I realize this is the hottest experience of my fucking life.
Blue's moans change from short rapid pants into one long raspy moan that sends me right over the edge. Motherfucker, I really thought I could keep this all about her, but she's too sexy.
Mouth popping open, Blue breathes heavily as she comes down from her high. She continues to swivel her hips and says, "I can feel you pulsing. Did you come for me?"
Fuck. She's going to be the death of me.