Chapter 17
IMiss You
Trevor
I just lost it.I never wanted to become that person, but Donna pushed me over. I lost my temper and my mind.
A man can take but so much. Our divorce is for the best. Donna brings out the worse in me.
Without another thought, I take Cakes’ hand and lace my fingers with hers. I close my eyes as everything in me begins to settles. I walk out of the house with her still in my hold.
We’re going to straighten this out. I’m not letting her go ever again. When we step out of the house, there’s a black SUV parked out front. Lynn looks up at me as I walk her around to the driver’s side and stop.
“Keys,” I drawl.
She hands me the key fob. I unlock the door and open it for her to get in. She hesitates for a moment, then climbs in behind the wheel. I close the door, keeping the key with me.
Once in the passenger seat, I buckle up and drop the key in the cup holder. Then I place my head back against the headrest. Lynn scoffs.
“Drive, I need away from here,” I say.
“Where am I going?”
I punch in the address and nod. I’m relieved when she pulls off without a fuss. As her sweet scent fills my lungs, my mind starts to reel.
“Trev—”
“Not yet, darlin’,” I say.
I still need time to process and calm down. Her presence is going a long way to help with that, but I’m a bit angry with her for believing I could ever write or say those words to her.
The vehicle falls silent. As I think of the place, I’ve programmed into the GPS, a smile comes to my lips. This isn’t how I wanted her to see it for the first time, but I can’t wait to get there.
“The ranch? Why are we here?”
“Just follow the GPS. You’ll see.”
She sighs but keeps driving. I pull my phone to use the app to turn on the lights. The driveway is the first thing to light up. I turn to watch the side of her face.
She slows and leans forward to look out of the windshield. I grin, reaching to brush her hair out of her face. She glances at me quickly.
“Go on and pull into the garage. We can go in through the side door,” I say.
Using the app, I open the garage door for her to pull in. We both climb out of the SUV and round the front to head for the entrance to the house.
I open the door with the key and let her in. She looks up at me, then steps inside. Placing my hand on the small of her back, I follow her in.
I can’t help running my gaze over her. The dress she has on is sexy. The back is cut low, revealing her smooth dark skin. The denim jacket does little to cover the flesh I want to put my mouth all over.
Her ass looks great as it jiggles beneath the soft-looking fabric of the dress. Lynn has come into her grown-woman weight nicely. She’s still not that tall, but her body packs a punch.
I bite my lip and shake my head. She looks back over her shoulder and lifts a brow. I’m tempted to lean in and kiss her full lips.
However, I want her to experience this. I want to experience it with her. I stop us in the living room and allow her to look around the dimly lit space. The house is fully furnished.
I still come in twice a month to clean and let in some air. When I can’t, Darla does it for me. Moses was happy to see me build this place on the land he promised her.
She spins around in a circle as tears begin to well in her eyes. Once again, I use the app to turn on the sound system. I know just the song to tell her how I feel.
Teddy Pendergrass begins to croon as I place the song on repeat, needing her to hear how much I’ve missed her. I place the phone back into my pocket.
“I Miss You” spills through the speakers that run through the house. Not able to keep my hands off her, I place them on her hips and tug her into me. She looks up into my eyes, searching.
“You built my dream home? By my lake,” she chokes out.
“I did.”
I reach to brush my fingertips along her hairline. I can’t believe she’s here. She’s as beautiful as ever.
“Trev—”
I shake my head. There’s so much I want to say, so much that needs to be said, but this isn’t the moment for any of it. I just want to breathe her in, so that’s what I do.
I look into her eyes and lean in until we’re a breath apart. Her lips are so close, but I don’t make the connection. Instead, I run my nose against the bridge of hers. She wraps her arms around me and holds me tightly.
We sway to the music and get lost in each other. This is what I wanted to do twelve years ago. Back then, I wanted to bring her home.
I had planned for this to be ours. I had hoped she would accept me and Jess. Now, having her in the home I built for her feels so right.
She releases me to run her fingers up into the top of my hair, causing me to close my eyes and groan. I glide my hands up her bare back, beneath the jacket and squeeze just to make sure she’s here.
Still staring into her eyes as I breathe her in, I reach to push the jacket from her shoulders and toss it onto the couch. Lynn presses her fingertips against my face as if trying to ensure I’m real.
I take her hand and kiss her small fingers, moving my lips to her wrist. Electricity zings through me from the simple gesture. I nearly drop to my knees.
Needing to anchor myself, I wrap my arms around her and hold on tight. Swaying to the music is all I can do to keep from falling at her feet and sobbing.
I bury my face in her neck and inhale deeply. We were never meant to be apart. This woman is my forever.
I glide my hands down her soft skin until I reach the tie at her lower back. Pulling back, I silently look down into her eyes. She bites her lip with a look of uncertainty in her gaze, but she gives a slight nod. I loosen the knot and pull the fabric apart.
As I find the zipper keeping the dress up over her lush ass, she moves her shaky hands to the hem of my T-shirt and tugs it from my pants. I release the zipper on her dress. Then I reach for the tiny sleeves, pushing them from her shoulders. The black fabric falls to the floor.
Her breasts come into view, taunting me. She’s braless and the little lacy panties are sexy as hell as she stands before me in red heels that are just as sexy. I help to tug my shirt over my head and toss it.
Then I take a moment to take her in. The wild curly hair, her full perky breasts with their brown tips, the flare of her hips—she’s all woman now. So much has changed, yet this is right where we belong—together.
Not able to wait any longer, I grasp the sides of her face and take her lips. I kiss her passionately. She whimpers into my mouth as she locks her fingers into my hair.
“I have always loved you,” I whisper into her ear.
Then I pepper her face with kisses. My heart swells when I feel her begin to relax. We’re like two pieces of a magnet meant to fit together. My lips need to be pressed against some part of her.
“I heard. I know,” she moans as I latch my lips onto her neck.
I palm her breasts as I brush my thumbs back and forth over her nipples. It’s been so long since I’ve had sex, but I want to savor this. I’ve craved her for too long to rush.
Wrapping an arm around her waist, I lift her onto mine. She wraps her legs around me as I move back to devouring her mouth. She cups the sides of my face and breaks the seal of our lips to look down into my eyes.
“I want to trust you. I need you to make me feel safe again,” she says.
For a moment it feels like she means more than our breakup. I search her eyes, but she looks away. Reaching for her chin, I make her look at me.
Kissing her forehead, I nod and make my way to the master bedroom. As we go, I cradle her head against my neck. I will do everything in my power to restore her trust in me.
She sighs into my embrace, giving me the feeling we’re already getting to that place. I place her on the king-sized bed and pull her heels from her feet reluctantly.
Next time, I think to myself as I drop them to the floor. I step back to remove my belt and kick off my boots. Then I get my pants off.
She lies there looking shy and apprehensive. Naked, I move in to take her lips again. I tug her closer and begin to kiss my way down her neck.
When I get to her breasts, I pull one ripe peak into my mouth as I pluck the other with my fingers. She cries out and bucks off the bed. Releasing her nipple from my mouth, I begin a trail of open-mouthed kisses down her stomach to the apex of her thighs.
“Trevor,” she gasps as I hold her legs open and take my first taste in too many years for me to think about.
I groan and dive in deeper. She tastes so fucking good. I palm her waist and pin her to the bed as I feast on her. She’s already so wet.
Moving my thumb to her clit, I rub it and look up her body to find her eyes on me. I groan and knit my brows. How could she ever doubt how I feel about her?
That tether in my soul is still there. It’s tugging at me right in this very moment. So much so, I lift to take her lips again.
I love her small hands on me. She runs them down my abs, gliding her palms around to my ass. Lifting her, I move her back on the bed and climb on with her.
Deepening the kiss, my thoughts go to being inside her again. That’s when I realize I don’t have any condoms, but this is my woman. There should never be anything between us.
I’m hers.
Breaking the kiss, I look down into her eyes. She looks back at me with a pleading look in her eyes. I grab my shaft and run the tip through her folds as if to ask permission to sink.
She nods, pulling me to her by my ass. I take her mouth again and begin to slide in. A hiss leaves my lips as I sink in. My eyes roll back. She’s so tight.
I drop my head to her shoulder and still as I fully seat myself. She begins to sob beneath me. I lift my head quickly. She reaches for my face and pulls me to her lips.
“Are you okay?” I breathe into her mouth breaking the silence between us.
“Yes, I am now. Make love to me, Trev. I’ve missed you too.”
She doesn’t have to tell me twice. I reach for her hands and lace our fingers together. The connection between us seems to heighten.
I rock into her slow and steady. Her pussy gushes against me and she begins to convulse already. I latch my lips onto her neck and suck as I plow into her.
“Trev, oh God. Please don’t stop.”
“How can I? I love you so much. Your mine, Lynn. I’m never losing you again, baby. You feel amazing. Come on me. I need to feel you,” I breathe against her ear.
She locks her legs around my waist. I grasp her ass as I pound into her. Lifting, I look down to watch her fall apart. This feels like a dream.
“Baby, look at me,” I whisper.
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Lynn
I shiverfrom the sound of his deep voice. It washes over me like the safety blanket I need. I look into his eyes and it’s like he reaches into me and takes my heart from my body. I can see his love and passion in his face.
“I love you,” he says.
I know he does. That’s the only reason I’m able to do this with him. The moment I ran into that house and heard his angry words, I knew this was all a mistake. I was wrong.
“I love you too,” I whimper.
He kisses me hard and passionately as he continues to roll his hips into me. Trevor is the only man I’ve ever known, but I don’t think any other could make me feel the way he does.
I cling to his shoulders and begin to rock my hips with his. His eyes roll back, then he throws his head back. I love the look of ecstasy that takes over his face.
He groans and lowers his face to capture my lips again. The music is still playing as a background track to our love making. I gasp when Trevor moves his lips to my ear and begins to repeat the words.
“I missed you. I love you. I only want you,” he says repeatedly as he makes love to me.
He laces our fingers together again and slides our connected hands above my head. I’ve never felt more connected to him. I’m so full, but that doesn’t matter.
I don’t ever want this to stop. My pussy is so wet, I can hear it over our panting, his murmured words, and the sound of the music. He begins to thrust harder and deeper.
I feel him swelling inside me. I tighten my hands against his as my body coils and my tummy drops. My chest is pounding, but I take him and hand myself over.
“Lynn,” he roars as he spills into me.
The way he roars my name has so much promise and meaning. It’s like he just gave a part of himself to me. Something he’s wanted me to have for so long. I expect him to fall over and pull me into him to cuddle, but he doesn’t soften at all.
Instead, he rolls onto his back and grabs my hips. I look down at his body and I’m in complete awe. Trevor is forty now, but his body looks fan-freaking-tastic. Like, where’s the body fat?
He grins at me and lifts until we’re face-to-face. I cup his face and kiss him as he guides me up and down on his length. I love his haircut and trimmed mustache and beard. It’s so sharp and attractive on him.
I brush my thumbs over his mustache, savoring the feel against my fingers. His eyes light up and he nips my thumb, pulling it into his mouth. Without warning, he begins to thrust up into me and pulls me down at the same time.
I throw my head back and start to scream in pleasure. He grunts and groans as my juices coat his shaft. Pulling my thumb free, I return my gaze to his.
He reaches for my hand and pulls my other fingers into his mouth. My thighs begin to shake and burn. I’m using muscles I haven’t used in years.
Suddenly, a loud slapping sound fills the air. I look at Trevor confused for a moment before the stinging of my ass registers. He looks at me, grinning around my fingers still in his mouth.
He slaps my ass again, hard. My pussy clenches around him as I moan in surprise. Damn, has he always been this sexy when slapping my ass?
“That’s for ever thinking those could be my words to you,” he says as I pull my hand from his mouth.
He slaps my ass twice more alternating cheeks. I look at him like he’s crazy. “That’s for not coming to me, and for blocking me.”
He grabs the back of my neck and pulls me to him to kiss me deeply. If I said I wasn’t turned on, I’d be lying. He palms one of my breasts and rolls my nipple between his fingers, slapping my ass again with his other hand. I cry out as I begin to come all over him.
“Fuck,” I cry as I shake and convulse in his lap.
“That’s for taking so long to come home.” He places his hand over my heart. “You knew in here that I love you. I’d never do anything to hurt you.”
“You married someone else,” I murmur.
He gives me a stern look. “We’ll talk about that. I’m sorry about all of that, and I plan to make it all up to you for the rest of my life. I never meant for any of that to happen.”
I cover his lips with my finger and look him in the eyes. He slides his hands to my back and roams them all over my skin. His strong arms feel amazing wrapped around me.
I feel safer than I have in years. I know we have a lot to talk about and things to work through, but this feels right. I feel whole again.
As he lifts me and places me on my side, then enters me from behind, I know this is where I belong. He cups my throat and tilts my head back to take my lips.
His kiss has something desperate about it. His hips slap into my ass as I begin to feel him swell inside me again. He bites my lower lip and tugs as he groans.
“I love you,” we pant at the same time as his seed fills me once again.
He places his forehead to mine and smiles. “Welcome home, darlin’,” he croons.