Chapter Sixteen #3
Jasper scowled. “What subject?” he said. “Tell me what you wanted to speak of now.”
He wasn’t going to make this easy. Gates didn’t want to anger the man before the conversation even started but already it was heading in that direction.
Jasper had been irked from the beginning and now it was growing worse with Gates’ attempts to turn this into a calm and civil conversation.
Already, Gates was feeling apprehensive and as he quickly determined the best way to broach the subject, Alexander spoke.
“My lord, I will tell you,” he said. He could see how difficult Jasper was going to make this for Gates and he hastened to intervene.
“This has to do with my betrothal to your daughter. Although I am deeply honored that you would consider me as a husband for Lady Kathalin, the truth is that I have no interest in a wife. My parents were hasty in accepting the betrothal for it is something that, after careful consideration, I must decline. I cannot, in good conscience, marry Lady Kathalin because she is in love with someone else. It would not be fair to me and it certainly would not be fair to her. My lord, if you wish for your daughter to be happy in the least, then you cannot marry her to a man she does not love. I will, therefore, not marry her.”
Jasper’s exasperation turned to surprise, suspicion, and back to surprise again. He faced Alexander with an expression of great confusion.
“What’s this you say?” he said. “She is in love? Damnation, who could she possibly be in love with?”
“Me,” Gates said softly, watching Jasper turn to him with wide eyes.
“Your daughter and I are in love, my lord. Before you betrothed her to Alexander, I was summoning the courage to offer for her hand. My lord, I know that I do not have the most sterling reputation when it comes to women. I know that I have been reckless in the past, and even distasteful at times, and it was never in my mind or heart to marry any woman, ever. But your daughter has changed that for me. She is a kind, brave, and loyal woman and I would consider it the greatest honor in the world to be her husband. I swear to you that my wild ways would be ended. I would love her, and only her, until my death. I therefore beseech you to allow me to marry your daughter, as Alexander has relinquished his claim.”
By the time he was finished, Jasper was staring at him in utter shock. Gates stared back, his heart pounding in his ears, more anxious at this particular moment than he had ever been in his life. Before Jasper could reply, however, Alexander spoke again.
“I cannot stand in the way of their love, my lord,” he said, a hint of pleading in his tone.
“Gates is a dear and close friend. I could not marry your daughter knowing that he loves her. Gates is a man of his word and if he says that he will be true to her until his death, then I believe him. He has never lied to me before. Men can change, my lord. I believe love can change Gates, if it has not already.”
Jasper was truly stunned. He was still looking at Gates even as Alexander spoke on Gates’ behalf, both men beseeching Jasper to consider Gates’ offer.
Oddly enough, considering his impatient stance since entering the chamber, Jasper seemed to cool dramatically.
He finally averted his gaze and sighed heavily, planting himself in the chair that Gates had previously offered him.
He leaned against the back of the chair, hand to his forehead in both a contemplative and overwhelmed gesture.
“You love her?” he finally repeated, looking to Gates. “Is this really true, lad?”
Gates nodded. “I do,” he said. “And she loves me. We wish to be married.”
Jasper was staring at him again as if hardly believing what he was hearing.
“God’s Blood,” he finally hissed. “This is a surprise. I would have never expected to hear this, not from you. Gates, I trusted you with escorting my daughter from St. Milburga’s and now that I hear you have feelings for her, I am extraordinarily concerned to know that you did not act on any feelings while you were in a position of power guarding my daughter.
You may as well be honest with me now because, sooner or later, the truth will be known and if I do not hear it from your lips first, you will not like my reaction. ”
Even as he spoke, Gates was shaking his head.
“Never,” he said firmly. “Never at any time did I touch your daughter in the manner you are suggesting. My attentions towards her on the ride from St. Milburga’s to Hyssington were strictly professional.
I would never violate your trust in such a way, my lord. ”
“Swear this to me.”
“On my oath as a knight, I swear it.”
Being that Gates was an honorable knight, at least on the battlefield, Jasper believed him but he was still wildly off-balance with the entire situation.
“It is well known that you are not one to pass over a lady you find attractive,” he said.
“You are an opportunist, Gates. I have known this for many years. God’s Blood, Helene of Linley is a perfect example of that.
Did you not tell me that you found her starving in the streets so you fed her?
And to show her appreciation, she succumbed to her lustful desires? ”
Gates cleared his throat softly. “It wasn’t exactly like that,” he said quietly. “What happened… it simply happened. I have no other explanation for it.”
Jasper eyed him critically. “What of the sister of that knight from Halford?” he asked. “Did she simply happen, too? You were forced to kill that knight when he ambushed you, which brought an entire Welsh garrison down upon us for a week.”
By this time, Gate was struggling not to become defensive. “I know, my lord.”
Jasper waited for more of an explanation or apology to come forth but Gates gave no hint of either. In fact, Gates was rather stone-faced, which raised Jasper’s ire.
“Have you nothing more to say to that?” he demanded.
Gates remained cool. “What would you have me say, my lord?”
Jasper was starting to become frustrated again. “Tell me something, de Wolfe,” he said. It was rare when he addressed Gates by his surname, an indication of his annoyance. “If you had a daughter and a knight of your reputation asked for her hand in marriage, what would you say?”
Gates was struggling to keep his emotions at bay because he knew that if he didn’t, this could very easily turn into a shouting match. He swallowed hard.
“I would not insult him by doubting his oath when he told me he would be true to her until his death,” he said pointedly. “If it was a man I had known as long as you have known me, I would trust him.”
Jasper snorted. “Trust him,” he muttered, shaking his head. “My daughter’s happiness is at stake and you ask me to trust you.”
Alexander, who had been watching the exchange, wasn’t happy about the way Jasper was ridiculing Gates’ oath of honor.
It was inexcusable as far as he was concerned.
Gates had little honor where women were concerned, that was true, but as a knight of duty, he was flawless in character.
It was a genuine paradox in one man, but such was the complexity of Gates de Wolfe.
“I am not entirely sure you are concerned with your daughter’s happiness if you are willing to see her parted from the man she loves,” Alexander said, watching the outrage on Jasper’s face.
“Is that not what you are attempting to do, now that you know she and Gates love one another? How happy do you think she will be if you force her to marry me?”
Jasper scowled at Alexander. “It is her future I must think of,” he said hotly. “I must ensure she is married to a man who will not embarrass her, although I must say, Alex, that you have had a woman or two in your time. Still, you are marginally better than de Wolfe.”
Gates sighed heavily, with great displeasure. He was genuinely trying to keep his mouth shut, to not say what was on his mind, but he couldn’t quite manage it. His emotions were beginning to surface.
“You do not care for her happiness at all,” he said.
“If you did, you would have at least had contact with her while she was at St. Milburga’s.
You do not care for her at all so for you to say that you are concerned with her happiness is a lie and we all know it.
You are more concerned in how your decision will bring shame upon the de Lara name. ”
Jasper cooled dramatically, holding up a warning finger in Gates’ direction. “Careful, knight,” he growled. “You border on slander. Insulting me is not the way to get what you want.”
Gates took a deep breath and turned away, raking his fingers through his dark hair as he composed himself. “I apologize,” he said. “I… I am quite emotional when it comes to Kathalin. Forgive me, my lord. I did not mean it.”
It was enough to soothe Jasper, who was just as torn as Gates was. At least marginally he was soothed, but his guts were wrought with turmoil. He stood up from the chair, grunting, and obviously unhappy.
“Mayhap there is some truth in what you say,” he admitted after a moment.
“But whether or not there is, Kathalin is my daughter and I must do what is best for her. Gates, if I let you marry her, she will be a laughing stock. You know this. Everyone who knows of your reputation will think I have gone mad and pity her because she married a knight who has warmed women’s beds from Dover to Carlisle.
She will look like a fool and so will I.
Do I trust your word when you say you will be true to her?
It is a fact that I do. You are not a liar.
You are a great knight, a powerful and cunning knight, one who has helped see my troops to victory on many occasions.
I cannot get on without you. But allowing you to marry my daughter…
I cannot say that I will agree to that. In good conscience, I cannot. ”